Kristjan Ojamets
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Hello there!
I don't know where to start from ... but i suppose here i go.
I have always been a man who belives in the supernatural , the soul , the mind , Angels , demons etc. I have been searching for awnsers for years and i have had from luck to none. I might even know the awnsers , but i'm just not sure about them.
I'm always looking for the awnser about why us humans are on earth , why don't we have any official info about the existence of Satan / god / Demons / Angels etc. I want to find out my reason to live in this world , it has been very uneasy for my mind and i have seen increased agression which i try to avoid and calm down from more than ever.
Thanks to J.O.S website , i managed to find some very nice info , but i am STILL unsure.
I checked about meditation which got me to finding out where the base Chakra is located , which got me the reason to all my problems right now.
Insecurity , agressive attitude, Fear about things i shouldn't and self pitty ( Constantly bashing how life is shit and how my life is shit ).
My mind is just messed up , i looked up on christianty , its not for me. Too many things you can't do just because they say it. Why do the things excist if we are permitted to do them?
Anyway , reading more about J.O.S made me want to think of joining the Satanism crew in general , but i need more confirm of info about what i read to do it. But i do want to contact a Demon in the end to awnser this question : "What is my purpouse in life? I feel like i'm somehow special but i'm not sure about it. What is the purpouse of humanity? Is it to gain knowledge or something else?"
The Gain knowledge was the main reason i got interested in Satanism.
So here are my questions to the experienced people :
1. Since i started meditation now and i know it can take months to achieve anything , but how can i notice i am making progress? How should i position myself? Should i have anything special nearby that could help increase the progress of it?
2. If i ever get as far as progress and i actually see things with my mind and spirit being more open , is it worth contacting a demon that early or should i wait more?
3. The first day i read up about J.O.S and alot about it , when i went to sleep , i dreamed about a female demon. I was helping someone else with making a contact , but helping her , we got blocked by some guys ( Like a 4 man gang ) and i decided to help. Things turned to the worse and they beat me up and hit me with a knife a few times.
I was expecting the Demon to help me for what i read up , but she didn't , is this a sign or was it my subconcious telling me to stick to my own business?
Thanks for all the upcoming help and info i weill recieve!
I don't know where to start from ... but i suppose here i go.
I have always been a man who belives in the supernatural , the soul , the mind , Angels , demons etc. I have been searching for awnsers for years and i have had from luck to none. I might even know the awnsers , but i'm just not sure about them.
I'm always looking for the awnser about why us humans are on earth , why don't we have any official info about the existence of Satan / god / Demons / Angels etc. I want to find out my reason to live in this world , it has been very uneasy for my mind and i have seen increased agression which i try to avoid and calm down from more than ever.
Thanks to J.O.S website , i managed to find some very nice info , but i am STILL unsure.
I checked about meditation which got me to finding out where the base Chakra is located , which got me the reason to all my problems right now.
Insecurity , agressive attitude, Fear about things i shouldn't and self pitty ( Constantly bashing how life is shit and how my life is shit ).
My mind is just messed up , i looked up on christianty , its not for me. Too many things you can't do just because they say it. Why do the things excist if we are permitted to do them?
Anyway , reading more about J.O.S made me want to think of joining the Satanism crew in general , but i need more confirm of info about what i read to do it. But i do want to contact a Demon in the end to awnser this question : "What is my purpouse in life? I feel like i'm somehow special but i'm not sure about it. What is the purpouse of humanity? Is it to gain knowledge or something else?"
The Gain knowledge was the main reason i got interested in Satanism.
So here are my questions to the experienced people :
1. Since i started meditation now and i know it can take months to achieve anything , but how can i notice i am making progress? How should i position myself? Should i have anything special nearby that could help increase the progress of it?
2. If i ever get as far as progress and i actually see things with my mind and spirit being more open , is it worth contacting a demon that early or should i wait more?
3. The first day i read up about J.O.S and alot about it , when i went to sleep , i dreamed about a female demon. I was helping someone else with making a contact , but helping her , we got blocked by some guys ( Like a 4 man gang ) and i decided to help. Things turned to the worse and they beat me up and hit me with a knife a few times.
I was expecting the Demon to help me for what i read up , but she didn't , is this a sign or was it my subconcious telling me to stick to my own business?
Thanks for all the upcoming help and info i weill recieve!