Herainette
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Im just gonna start the story when i tried to kms. It's worse if you hear the before. So all of this happend this year btw, April 16 2024 night i tried to kms with 15+ random pills. While i was waiting to die(actually i was going to jump after it but i was so scared) i fall asleep. And when i woke up u run to toilet and vomit blood. İt's turn out that i had stomach bleed. One of my aunties realized i had take pills so i had to tell them i did it(they aren't a big role in this nvm). So anyways 4 days later to be exact, i met this boy online, lets call him orange moon. He is a witch and spirituel satanist. I asked him to do a spell for me to like yk to get my life back on track and a specific thing but thats way embarassing. He said that he will do it but for that specific thing he said; if he do that i will die on that path. So basicly i said ok but i wanna be a traditional witch can we be friends ? He said yes and i met this girl lets call her M so M and i talk i talked about my life and my story basicly and i really thought she was caring about it. Ok from now on i will summarize after i talk about this major event. I met with orange moon at April 20 and like 10 days later at 3 May this happend. I was talking with him in my room about spells and stuff and playing a game. My dad came in and suddenly asked for my phone to check(lil info about him: he is a disgusting muslim and basicly hates me) and in my phone there is this man i did sexting with(...) so i can't give my phone. i slightly pulled my phone back and the sec i did this he started screaming and sayin; you follow gay ppl on social media are you gay ?! (im transfem actually) And started spiting on my face and slaping me i was in shock so i just stood there. And he tooked my phone and go saying ''i will open this shit'' and then things started to kick in me. I started like panicing screaming crying and i just went outside, crying with my muslim cousing (thats all i have) i didn't know what to do and i was about to do a mistake... I called everyone i can like my aunties and ect. and i called my uncle who is very muslim and a piece of shit. I did that thinking he will tought that i have some private messages withs some girls(ew) and will help me. But it didnt go like that he comed to our house after like 5 mins and you know what first thing he said ? He told me to cut my nails... So i had to and did it. When i come he said you are cutting your hair this monday(in this fcking family you can't say no). So i said ''you'll take my phone right ?'' He said ''yes but it will stay with me for a long time'' i was realized what i did with calling him and just stood there(thats all i can do). So he did take my phone and like 5 days later my father wants me outside and like my cousin says like ''he will give your phone'' and i really did thought he will or we'll just have a chat, instead of that he forced me to come with him to see a cow that we will sacrifice for this fucking islamic thing. Also he says he will do that for me, bc of this allah will help me and just make me straight. After this shit we sit at a cafe and at that time he started basicly everything. He said that (basicly) ''you will be my slave and when someone asks you will say i would eat my fathers poop'' and ''i didn't open your phone but i will not give it back and also you can't use internet and you will only study math till you understand'' i was crying inside. Anyways he tooked me home and shit started happening there. My twin brother said come to my room and when i go he said ''actually he opened your phone and see a man you talk with but you did sexting with him?'' i was shocked and didn't know what should i do. But my brother also said ''he said that he will kill you with our uncle they will either kill you on a mountain with a gun or will pour vitroil to your face'' after i heard those things i started panicing and i was scared so much thinking too many scenario like i said to myself ''you just went with him he could kill you''. Basicly even this day its just that. They want to kill me and its been 4 months since i don't have my phone and they know everything about me. Lets get back to our two persons. She is a bad and miserable person who hates me and only want orange moon for herself. And they talk behind my back it turns out he hates me too bc they see me as stupid miserable ugly person. But eventually she backstabs him and its only me and him now. We talk everynight but he is fooling me. I really believed that he loved me as a friend, as a lover(yea i thought he liked me). The best thing he done to me is he opened my eyes to spirituel satanizm and im initate since Fourth of July... I didn't know about this holiday until that day. I want to do like meditations but i can't read or learn bc i don't have a phone and i can't use computer freely (im writing on a computer rn). And im feeling very bad about it... It's like killing me beacuse i don't know what to do/i can't do anything. Anyways lets get back to orange moon. So he is sick of me cause there is this boy that i have crush on since months and he is homophobic and basicly a ''boy''. I just wanna be loved my a masculen man i think thats why i love him. So i finally after months asked if he can do a spell so we can be together. He said yes but he was not wanting it idk why. After he said yes he started saying this; I will not do it bc this is what will happen: he will think you cheated so he will kill you or you will have to marry him and live the islamic hell on this world. He was lying and he suddenly blocked me.(btw these things are fresh and recent things) Few days passed i writed him again and asked to fix my dad with spell you know why? bc he will take this computer a week later and he is forcing me to cut my hair again... For past 4-3 years i always cut my hair by being forced. Anyways he didn't do a spell or anything and at this sec i don't know what to do... Everything aside im just feeling like drowning bc i can't improve myself can't make happy my god and other gods. Im at a dead end and just sitting there. I just wanna live just wanna be me just wanna be a person worthy for Father Satan. (more info about me: i go to a disgusting islamic school and i don't have contact with my mom they break up years ago she is just worse as he is im 15 and as i said im trangender, i got way more stories worse than this situation/just like this. My whole life went like this. Orange moon is disgusting shit but also best thing happend to me bc he oppend my eyes. Eventhough i did find my path i can't walk on it... I will try my best but i just don't know... i really need help im just so miserable and alone) TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF thank you so much for reading it i hope i really hope you will never struggle with anything and just can be yourself.