Lost in life

[MercuryWisdom]

I’ve been introduced to JoS when I was very young, since then and before I felt like I was a very special person and had great potential. I do. But right now at this point in my life I’m no where near special, I’m actually doing worse in life than most of my peers or normal people.

I’m not blessed with heritage, I don’t have a powerful rich family, connections, I don’t have great looks at the moment (I’m aging terribly despite being very young), I’m not very smart (academically I mean) and I’m not very skilled at an art form, I’m not spiritually powerful. At least not to the required degree.

Despite this I’m cursed with extremely large dreams and potential that I’m nowhere near.

I can’t accept even being a millionaire (I’m dead broke actually) I want and I feel destined to be a billionaire, I want to be beautiful, artistically gifted and talented, have extreme spiritual power, and build an actual empire and just have so much power, influence, and I want it to be extreme.

Recently, I’m starting to realize more and more what it takes to be extraordinary.

And I really don’t know if I have what it takes, actually it seems I don’t.

It all ties to discipline, hard work, consistency, patience, but to an extreme level tied to the level you want to succeed but 10x.

And I feel this is so suffocating to me. I have been struggling with consistency and progress since forever.

Hps Maxine was once homeless, suicidal, and depressed and she mastered and transformed all this till she became a Hero and Goddess.

I’m dealing with similar things that make me hopeless and powerless but I just don’t have it in me to turn it all around.

I keep trying and trying but trying’s not enough.

I feel and I know that I’m very unremarkable in the grand scheme of things I feel like an insect that’s going nowhere and keep getting crushed and I just don’t have it in me to turn it all around. I keep trying and I haven’t lost hope. But I have no results or anything material.

I wish I was supported, everyone tells you no one’s coming to save you but I really do need someone, I just feel like I can’t do it alone. I wish the Gods would help me a bit and help me in a material real way. I have no support from my family and I’m all alone and I don’t think I can make it alone.

I just wish I can be blessed and not have to work extremely hard for something and be patient for extremely long amount of times to get something. I’m not very good at patience and it really hurts.

At least if I have to work hard I need to at least work hard in something that makes sense to me. I need a north star. But right now I’m just very lost.

 

[Disciple of the Serpent]

I’ve been introduced to JoS when I was very young, since then and before I felt like I was a very special person and had great potential. I do. But right now at this point in my life I’m no where near special, I’m actually doing worse in life than most of my peers or normal people.

I’m not blessed with heritage, I don’t have a powerful rich family, connections, I don’t have great looks at the moment (I’m aging terribly despite being very young), I’m not very smart (academically I mean) and I’m not very skilled at an art form, I’m not spiritually powerful. At least not to the required degree.

Despite this I’m cursed with extremely large dreams and potential that I’m nowhere near.

I can’t accept even being a millionaire (I’m dead broke actually) I want and I feel destined to be a billionaire, I want to be beautiful, artistically gifted and talented, have extreme spiritual power, and build an actual empire and just have so much power, influence, and I want it to be extreme.

Recently, I’m starting to realize more and more what it takes to be extraordinary.

And I really don’t know if I have what it takes, actually it seems I don’t.

It all ties to discipline, hard work, consistency, patience, but to an extreme level tied to the level you want to succeed but 10x.

And I feel this is so suffocating to me. I have been struggling with consistency and progress since forever.

Hps Maxine was once homeless, suicidal, and depressed and she mastered and transformed all this till she became a Hero and Goddess.

I’m dealing with similar things that make me hopeless and powerless but I just don’t have it in me to turn it all around.

I keep trying and trying but trying’s not enough.

I feel and I know that I’m very unremarkable in the grand scheme of things I feel like an insect that’s going nowhere and keep getting crushed and I just don’t have it in me to turn it all around. I keep trying and I haven’t lost hope. But I have no results or anything material.

I wish I was supported, everyone tells you no one’s coming to save you but I really do need someone, I just feel like I can’t do it alone. I wish the Gods would help me a bit and help me in a material real way. I have no support from my family and I’m all alone and I don’t think I can make it alone.

I just wish I can be blessed and not have to work extremely hard for something and be patient for extremely long amount of times to get something. I’m not very good at patience and it really hurts.

At least if I have to work hard I need to at least work hard in something that makes sense to me. I need a north star. But right now I’m just very lost.

One can reach the Leggendary Rank by working for ToZ, the opportunities are already here for this, and these are open to all.

 

[nema]

It sounds like you have to deprogram yourself from society's bull***t my friend. You could use the rune Ansuz. It's good that you want nice things for you but It sounds like you're really underestimating the fact that you are with the Gods.Do YOU really think being successful in society (wich Is an Orwellian nightmare) it's worth more than that? Or the medias told you so?
Try to vibrate Ansuz x7 in each chakra and say: "The Energy of the rune Ansuz frees my * chakra from every external influence".
Maybe you're stuck in Life but if you're here you're obviously not some random fool. You just have to see that.

 

[OrionKrieger]

Well, this is actually pretty normal. You feel this way because you have allot of dreams that are grandiose, but to achieve them takes time, ALLOT of time. I like how you were 100% honest, because allot of people lie to themselves every day, saying things like “ i will do it tomorrow” or “my day will come”.

But the reality here is that you can’t get anything without putting the work in yourself. I struggle with this too and many others, but its all part of a greater process.

You have a huge problem of doubting yourself, which is something you should absolutely not do. Every beginning is hard, every first step is hard, but the more you push forward the easier it gets and it becomes routine.

You can always practice to be “smarter” or to learn a certain skill, nobody’s capabilities are limited and when you realize that there’s really nothing stopping you.

Everything is a struggle if you want it to be, but there is beauty in that struggle. Struggling means you’re fighting, and when it comes to achieving your dreams the only way you lose the fight is if you quit yourself.

Please don’t restrict yourself and degrade yourself for no reason, there’s endless possibilities out there, and yes it may be a handful at first, but as time goes on everything will fall into place.

 

[MercuryWisdom]

Do YOU really think being successful in society (wich Is an Orwellian nightmare) it's worth more than that? Or the medias told you so?

This mindset is the xian/communist shit pushed for people, then wow how did you get the jews at the top I wonder?

Yes you should and you actually must strive as a strong SS to be successful in this society. Having our people successful in business, politics, academics, media, acting, the arts, the sciences is how we get back father Satan’s empire. This has also been emphasized by our High Priestess Maxine and HP HC.

Not by shunning and “deprogramming” external influences and living as a weird monk.

 

[MercuryWisdom]

Well, this is actually pretty normal. You feel this way because you have allot of dreams that are grandiose, but to achieve them takes time, ALLOT of time. I like how you were 100% honest, because allot of people lie to themselves every day, saying things like “ i will do it tomorrow” or “my day will come”.

But the reality here is that you can’t get anything without putting the work in yourself. I struggle with this too and many others, but its all part of a greater process.

You have a huge problem of doubting yourself, which is something you should absolutely not do. Every beginning is hard, every first step is hard, but the more you push forward the easier it gets and it becomes routine.

You can always practice to be “smarter” or to learn a certain skill, nobody’s capabilities are limited and when you realize that there’s really nothing stopping you.

Everything is a struggle if you want it to be, but there is beauty in that struggle. Struggling means you’re fighting, and when it comes to achieving your dreams the only way you lose the fight is if you quit yourself.

Please don’t restrict yourself and degrade yourself for no reason, there’s endless possibilities out there, and yes it may be a handful at first, but as time goes on everything will fall into place.

I just feel that I’m not enough or that what I’m doing is not enough and it kills me. Despite this I don’t think I can do more at the moment, at least do more and be consistent with it.

 

[Disciple of the Serpent]

I’ve been introduced to JoS when I was very young, since then and before I felt like I was a very special person and had great potential. I do. But right now at this point in my life I’m no where near special, I’m actually doing worse in life than most of my peers or normal people.

I’m not blessed with heritage, I don’t have a powerful rich family, connections, I don’t have great looks at the moment (I’m aging terribly despite being very young), I’m not very smart (academically I mean) and I’m not very skilled at an art form, I’m not spiritually powerful. At least not to the required degree.

Despite this I’m cursed with extremely large dreams and potential that I’m nowhere near.

I can’t accept even being a millionaire (I’m dead broke actually) I want and I feel destined to be a billionaire, I want to be beautiful, artistically gifted and talented, have extreme spiritual power, and build an actual empire and just have so much power, influence, and I want it to be extreme.

Recently, I’m starting to realize more and more what it takes to be extraordinary.

And I really don’t know if I have what it takes, actually it seems I don’t.

It all ties to discipline, hard work, consistency, patience, but to an extreme level tied to the level you want to succeed but 10x.

And I feel this is so suffocating to me. I have been struggling with consistency and progress since forever.

Hps Maxine was once homeless, suicidal, and depressed and she mastered and transformed all this till she became a Hero and Goddess.

I’m dealing with similar things that make me hopeless and powerless but I just don’t have it in me to turn it all around.

I keep trying and trying but trying’s not enough.

I feel and I know that I’m very unremarkable in the grand scheme of things I feel like an insect that’s going nowhere and keep getting crushed and I just don’t have it in me to turn it all around. I keep trying and I haven’t lost hope. But I have no results or anything material.

I wish I was supported, everyone tells you no one’s coming to save you but I really do need someone, I just feel like I can’t do it alone. I wish the Gods would help me a bit and help me in a material real way. I have no support from my family and I’m all alone and I don’t think I can make it alone.

I just wish I can be blessed and not have to work extremely hard for something and be patient for extremely long amount of times to get something. I’m not very good at patience and it really hurts.

At least if I have to work hard I need to at least work hard in something that makes sense to me. I need a north star. But right now I’m just very lost.

Also, you need to see things in the proper way.

As you are a Zevist, and also a Translator, you are above all the rest of non-Zevists, or above any arrogant claim of superiority based on accademics.

There are many achievements that aren't considered here. For example, completing a God Ritual is an achievement to be proud of, being a Dedicated Zevist is another, having a Badge and being Active is another major one.

The rest are just problems that need to be solved, there is not really a problem out of your reach, this as been said Marcus Aurelius. You just need to understand things for what they really are, and act.

I hope to see you also in other projects of ToZ, like the Outreach Wing or related.

 

[OrionKrieger]

I just feel that I’m not enough or that what I’m doing is not enough and it kills me. Despite this I don’t think I can do more at the moment, at least do more and be consistent with it.

That “im not enough” is really irrational because nobody’s worthless unless you’re a complete and total andrapoda, which you are not.

You may be going through a rough time right now which makes you feel this way and its understandable, but you should never let your “feelings” take control over you. Letting “feelings” get the better of you never turns out well because you aren’t thinking straight and it leads you to believe the dumbest things ever.

There’s always something you can do, there’s always something MORE to do, but you shouldn’t burn yourself out because of it. Slow is steady, but whenever you feel like you CAN improve on something, you should do it 100%.

Truth is you’ll never feel at peace with things being “enough” because there will always be something driving you forward even if you have achieved everything you wanted. This just means that there are endless possibilities to what you can achieve and there’s nobody stopping you but yourself

 

[Henu the Great]

A rolling stone gathers no moss. In other words, it is important to keep the momentum going, even if by small actions. For example, do calisthenics every day, even for a moment.

 

[nema]

This mindset is the xian/communist shit pushed for people, then wow how did you get the jews at the top I wonder?

Yes you should and you actually must strive as a strong SS to be successful in this society. Having our people successful in business, politics, academics, media, acting, the arts, the sciences is how we get back father Satan’s empire. This has also been emphasized by our High Priestess Maxine and HP HC.

Not by shunning and “deprogramming” external influences and living as a weird monk.

I'm not saying you shouldn't be successful..i didn't express myself well, probably. I never do. By the way you are thinking, It sounds to me that you're at least a bit disconnected from the Divine in you and overly concerned with the materialistic side of Life. It could be related to a weak crown chakra (that's usually what creates the feeling of nothing making sense). The real empire is inside of us and in the luck we had, that's how i see it. The external world unfolds more like a consequence of this realization.
Indeed jews are OBSESSED with wealth but they're miserable because they can't appreciate anything and they live to feel important and impress others. That can happen to all of us...

 

[dorime]

A lot of what you talked about is something I've been through in my life. Ever since I was a kid, I've had big dreams. Some I gave up on, but some I still want to achieve to this day.

For most things we want, all we really need to do is start. For example, I've always loved art. I love to draw, and I love to consume art it's like a hyperfocus for me. Other than Discord, I pretty much only use social media to look at art. I'm not even close to having a "gift" for it, but whenever I can, I practice. The results might be horrible, but when I stop and look at my progress, I can see that I'm slowly getting better.

"Gift" or "talent" is just an excuse for people not to start. Leonardo da Vinci spent a lifetime to get to the level he did; everything is hard work. I'd recommend you pick a dream and just start, even if it's just a little bit. For example, if you want to improve your academic skills, start by looking up videos on math, history, or stuff like that. Over time, you'll learn. Everyone learns in their own way, and when you figure out how you learn, everything gets easier. I'm someone who takes a long time to learn, but once I do, I can teach anyone, because the way I learn requires every single detail for you it can be different.

As for looks, I can't say I won the genetic lottery, but I've learned to accept myself. Unfortunately, there are some things we can't change, but that doesn't mean you can't improve. When I was a kid, I was fat, but I started dieting and working out. Now, I'm in a place where I can look in the mirror and I don't feel the same urge to kill myself as I used to. You can improve almost anything about your body in some way. And beauty definitely opens doors nobody can deny that, but to keep them open, you also need other things.

When I was going through the worst depression of my life, I didn't know the gods. I latched onto the Christian God, but he never showed up for me. On top of that, I never opened up to anyone. I'm a really shy and quiet person and I almost never show how I really feel. Because of that, I held on to faith, and when I realized the Christian God wasn't appearing for me, I latched onto philosophy. That's where absurdism and stoicism helped me a lot. The philosophy of absurdism says that life makes no sense at all; nothing makes sense. Accepting that helped me get through a lot of bad times.

Today, I still hold on to that same philosophy for some things, which helps lighten the weight of life on my shoulders, but this time, at least I know I have real gods who are looking after me, so I don't worry as much.

Well, I hope this little bit about my life and experience helps you out a bit right now. You're not alone; you have the gods with you, and that's worth so much more than what society has to say about you.

 

[MercuryWisdom]

A lot of what you talked about is something I've been through in my life. Ever since I was a kid, I've had big dreams. Some I gave up on, but some I still want to achieve to this day.

For most things we want, all we really need to do is start. For example, I've always loved art. I love to draw, and I love to consume art it's like a hyperfocus for me. Other than Discord, I pretty much only use social media to look at art. I'm not even close to having a "gift" for it, but whenever I can, I practice. The results might be horrible, but when I stop and look at my progress, I can see that I'm slowly getting better.

"Gift" or "talent" is just an excuse for people not to start. Leonardo da Vinci spent a lifetime to get to the level he did; everything is hard work. I'd recommend you pick a dream and just start, even if it's just a little bit. For example, if you want to improve your academic skills, start by looking up videos on math, history, or stuff like that. Over time, you'll learn. Everyone learns in their own way, and when you figure out how you learn, everything gets easier. I'm someone who takes a long time to learn, but once I do, I can teach anyone, because the way I learn requires every single detail for you it can be different.

As for looks, I can't say I won the genetic lottery, but I've learned to accept myself. Unfortunately, there are some things we can't change, but that doesn't mean you can't improve. When I was a kid, I was fat, but I started dieting and working out. Now, I'm in a place where I can look in the mirror and I don't feel the same urge to kill myself as I used to. You can improve almost anything about your body in some way. And beauty definitely opens doors nobody can deny that, but to keep them open, you also need other things.

When I was going through the worst depression of my life, I didn't know the gods. I latched onto the Christian God, but he never showed up for me. On top of that, I never opened up to anyone. I'm a really shy and quiet person and I almost never show how I really feel. Because of that, I held on to faith, and when I realized the Christian God wasn't appearing for me, I latched onto philosophy. That's where absurdism and stoicism helped me a lot. The philosophy of absurdism says that life makes no sense at all; nothing makes sense. Accepting that helped me get through a lot of bad times.

Today, I still hold on to that same philosophy for some things, which helps lighten the weight of life on my shoulders, but this time, at least I know I have real gods who are looking after me, so I don't worry as much.

Well, I hope this little bit about my life and experience helps you out a bit right now. You're not alone; you have the gods with you, and that's worth so much more than what society has to say about you.

Thank you, and glad to hear what I wrote is relatable.

 

[Epiphany]

You've vented alot about your existential crisis over time. That's fine and all, but what steps have you taken to improve?

 

[serpentwalker666]

As long as you keep moving things will sooner or later improve. It is ultimately going to be okay, even if it doesn't feel that way.
Every step we take forward is one in the correct direction, and our Guardian Daemons will help and guide us through turbulent times.
You will have low and high points in the journey to conquer your own mountain, this is to be basically expected.

Turn to Zeus-Satya and your Guardian Daemon and see what you can do to also address and improve your life one step at a time, as this is a lifelong and eternal process.
Taking inventory of everything and seeing where we can change and grow periodically will help and give some direction.

Just work on yourself and you'll get to where you need to be as a being in fulfilling your destiny.

 

[Hs666]

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Personal crises are very common among human beings, and this in many cases can indicate the arrival of a new phase of life and personal growth. Meditation itself can lead to these moments, because the soul needs to resolve its internal problems in order to move forward. This is also inherent in the function of the universe itself.

Power and success will come only for people who have overcome these moments, such as crises, failures, cheating, severe difficulties and more.

In the 12 Labors of Hercules, Eurystheus, the king who “commands” him, creates quite a few problems and crises for the son of Zeus. He also sought advice from the oracle of Delphi who told him that he should pursue this path so that his glory could be realized. This is also related to Saturn, where Eurystheus actually represents precisely Karma(the difficulties), Hercules: the initiate who begins his path, and the journey and trials: the means to reach/connect to the Gods, to one's higher self, and to one's own path that each person must accomplish(life task).

Without this process nothing can be achieved or attained. without this process there will be no advancement, but entropy and degeneration.