I'm lost, honestly.

[gsrevial]

So, my life's gone to garbage, not to say that it was ever great to begin with.

I was raised with loose Christian teachings, went to church when I was little,
tried my absolute hardest to believe that 'those' methods of worship were worth
anything, but they aren't. I've found the same hollow garbage and one-liner
after another.

My life is literally going nowhere. I have no friends. I live at home (21 years
old) with my mom and step-dad, unemployed. I don't ever recall being in love. I
can't find motivation in life any more.

I stumbled across the joyofsatan website a while ago and the more I came the
more sense it made. I don't know why, it just did. But now comes the dilemma I
have. I...don't know where to go. I'm scared to do the ritual because the loose
teachings of 'that' faith have basically scared the crap outta me. I'm scared of
drawing blood. I can't perform a ritual as often as I should. I'm just flat out
scared.

Can anyone enlighten me on what changes should occur? Or any of the other
problems I've named?

I also...feel greedy about why I'd join. I feel like I don't really deserve the
changes or anything else in life, for that matter.

Thank you for reading.

 

[Chase Kinkade]

Sounds like people around you have influenced you in a negative way. You may have bought into their opinions of you thereby giving them power over you. Seek the true nature of yourself. Who are you? Not who others say you are. Meditation is excellent for this. Take a step toward Father Satan, and he takes two steps toward you, do not fear,fear will keep you in ignorance.

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "gsrevial" <gsrevial@... wrote:

So, my life's gone to garbage, not to say that it was ever great to begin with.

I was raised with loose Christian teachings, went to church when I was little,
tried my absolute hardest to believe that 'those' methods of worship were worth
anything, but they aren't. I've found the same hollow garbage and one-liner
after another.

My life is literally going nowhere. I have no friends. I live at home (21 years
old) with my mom and step-dad, unemployed. I don't ever recall being in love. I
can't find motivation in life any more.

I stumbled across the joyofsatan website a while ago and the more I came the
more sense it made. I don't know why, it just did. But now comes the dilemma I
have. I...don't know where to go. I'm scared to do the ritual because the loose
teachings of 'that' faith have basically scared the crap outta me. I'm scared of
drawing blood. I can't perform a ritual as often as I should. I'm just flat out
scared.

Can anyone enlighten me on what changes should occur? Or any of the other
problems I've named?

I also...feel greedy about why I'd join. I feel like I don't really deserve the
changes or anything else in life, for that matter.

Thank you for reading.

 

[blackkat_411]

Hail Satan! "chase" is correct--do NOT give others influence over you. you are an idividual and the truth is calling out to you. Never doubt that you can accomplish whatever you put your mind to. --- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "Chase Kinkade" <chasekinkade@... wrote:



Sounds like people around you have influenced you in a negative way. You may have bought into their opinions of you thereby giving them power over you. Seek the true nature of yourself. Who are you? Not who others say you are. Meditation is excellent for this. Take a step toward Father Satan, and he takes two steps toward you, do not fear,fear will keep you in ignorance.

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "gsrevial" <gsrevial@ wrote:

So, my life's gone to garbage, not to say that it was ever great to begin with.

I was raised with loose Christian teachings, went to church when I was little,
tried my absolute hardest to believe that 'those' methods of worship were worth
anything, but they aren't. I've found the same hollow garbage and one-liner
after another.

My life is literally going nowhere. I have no friends. I live at home (21 years
old) with my mom and step-dad, unemployed. I don't ever recall being in love. I
can't find motivation in life any more.

I stumbled across the joyofsatan website a while ago and the more I came the
more sense it made. I don't know why, it just did. But now comes the dilemma I
have. I...don't know where to go. I'm scared to do the ritual because the loose
teachings of 'that' faith have basically scared the crap outta me. I'm scared of
drawing blood. I can't perform a ritual as often as I should. I'm just flat out
scared.

Can anyone enlighten me on what changes should occur? Or any of the other
problems I've named?

I also...feel greedy about why I'd join. I feel like I don't really deserve the
changes or anything else in life, for that matter.

Thank you for reading.

 

[Siatris]

This sermon should help you out

http://www.666blacksun.com/Magick_and_Self-esteem.htm

There is no reason to be scared of anything. Fear is a tool of the enemy. When you think about it, what's the worst anyone is going to do to you, kill you? Oh, well, you'll end up on the astral and be sent beck.

Reading http://exposingchristianity.com/ will help to destroy any remnants of the judeo-xian brain-lock.

Drawing blood seems scary before you do it, but it only hurts for a second.

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "gsrevial" <gsrevial@... wrote:

So, my life's gone to garbage, not to say that it was ever great to begin with.

I was raised with loose Christian teachings, went to church when I was little,
tried my absolute hardest to believe that 'those' methods of worship were worth
anything, but they aren't. I've found the same hollow garbage and one-liner
after another.

My life is literally going nowhere. I have no friends. I live at home (21 years
old) with my mom and step-dad, unemployed. I don't ever recall being in love. I
can't find motivation in life any more.

I stumbled across the joyofsatan website a while ago and the more I came the
more sense it made. I don't know why, it just did. But now comes the dilemma I
have. I...don't know where to go. I'm scared to do the ritual because the loose
teachings of 'that' faith have basically scared the crap outta me. I'm scared of
drawing blood. I can't perform a ritual as often as I should. I'm just flat out
scared.

Can anyone enlighten me on what changes should occur? Or any of the other
problems I've named?

I also...feel greedy about why I'd join. I feel like I don't really deserve the
changes or anything else in life, for that matter.

Thank you for reading.

 

[Brent Emmons]

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I wouldn't worry too much at your age.  You're still young - only 21, and love isn't all it's cracked up to be.  Here's an idea:  enlist into the military as an Air Traffic Controller.  It's a cushy job; you can see the world, work in an air conditioned environment, and are away from danger in regards to combat.  You get good benefits, make alot of friends, give you a positive attitude change, as well as being helped turning your life around e.g. get your life out of its current slump.  Then, in a few years, you can work for the FAA making some great bucks - fantastic bucks if you go for the overtime, and all this in your 20's.  It's an idea.  I'm not saying you have to do this particular job, just sharing one of many ideas. Upside:  Military: Travel, security and recession proof, respect, benefits, girls, etc. F.A.A.: Travel, good money, security and recession proof, not limited to one location, etc.  Downside: None. Thoth    
--- In [[email protected]][email protected][/email], "gsrevial" <gsrevial@... wrote:

So, my life's gone to garbage, not to say that it was ever great to begin with.

I was raised with loose Christian teachings, went to church when I was little,
tried my absolute hardest to believe that 'those' methods of worship were worth
anything, but they aren't. I've found the same hollow garbage and one-liner
after another.

My life is literally going nowhere. I have no friends. I live at home (21 years
old) with my mom and step-dad, unemployed. I don't ever recall being in love. I
can't find motivation in life any more.

I stumbled across the joyofsatan website a while ago and the more I came the
more sense it made. I don't know why, it just did. But now comes the dilemma I
have. I...don't know where to go. I'm scared to do the ritual because the loose
teachings of 'that' faith have basically scared the crap outta me. I'm scared of
drawing blood. I can't perform a ritual as often as I should. I'm just flat out
scared.

Can anyone enlighten me on what changes should occur? Or any of the other
problems I've named?

I also...feel greedy about why I'd join. I feel like I don't really deserve the
changes or anything else in life, for that matter.

Thank you for reading.

[/TD]

 

[Alley Cat]

Read www.exposingchristianity.com
If you haven't already, please consider starting the meditations (found on the JoS site), you will feel the difference in yourself, your mind, body, spirit.With knowledge and consistent meditating, all the dross and negativity will come out, bit by bit. 
HAIL SATAN.
From: Chase Kinkade <chasekinkade@...
To: [email protected]
Sent: Mon, January 24, 2011 8:12:50 AM
Subject: [JoS4adults] Re: I'm lost, honestly.

 

Sounds like people around you have influenced you in a negative way. You may have bought into their opinions of you thereby giving them power over you. Seek the true nature of yourself. Who are you? Not who others say you are. Meditation is excellent for this. Take a step toward Father Satan, and he takes two steps toward you, do not fear,fear will keep you in ignorance.

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "gsrevial" <gsrevial@... wrote:

So, my life's gone to garbage, not to say that it was ever great to begin with.

I was raised with loose Christian teachings, went to church when I was little,
tried my absolute hardest to believe that 'those' methods of worship were worth
anything, but they aren't. I've found the same hollow garbage and one-liner
after another.

My life is literally going nowhere. I have no friends. I live at home (21 years
old) with my mom and step-dad, unemployed. I don't ever recall being in love. I
can't find motivation in life any more.

I stumbled across the joyofsatan website a while ago and the more I came the
more sense it made. I don't know why, it just did. But now comes the dilemma I
have. I...don't know where to go. I'm scared to do the ritual because the loose
teachings of 'that' faith have basically scared the crap outta me. I'm scared of
drawing blood. I can't perform a ritual as often as I should. I'm just flat out
scared.

Can anyone enlighten me on what changes should occur? Or any of the other
problems I've named?

I also...feel greedy about why I'd join. I feel like I don't really deserve the
changes or anything else in life, for that matter.

Thank you for reading.

 

[aeinar72]

You are going through a transitory period. You just realized that your base is weak and you should naturally not be comfortable with it. Use this discomfort as drive to change. One of the things that brought me to satanism is the focus on self improvement and seeking the truth. What could be a better base and frame for life then the truth. Then on that base you construct your perfect self. The JOS website is one of the best collection of spiritual information i've come across. Follow the websites opening the soul section to get you started. Then follow your intuition to find out the rest.

This isn't a spiritual video, but i believe this could help demonstrate that following others life example, while natural, in this world could be your downfall.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JXDxMM62FjY
part one

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5lehYY82gJE
part two

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=l7sYHG0pRpk
part three

I hope this helps.

Hail Satan!

 

[gsrevial]

Thank you all for the replies. I'm going to perform the ceremony, soon, I hope.

With Fathers help I'll hopefully be driven toward my goal.

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "gsrevial" <gsrevial@... wrote:

So, my life's gone to garbage, not to say that it was ever great to begin with.

I was raised with loose Christian teachings, went to church when I was little,
tried my absolute hardest to believe that 'those' methods of worship were worth
anything, but they aren't. I've found the same hollow garbage and one-liner
after another.

My life is literally going nowhere. I have no friends. I live at home (21 years
old) with my mom and step-dad, unemployed. I don't ever recall being in love. I
can't find motivation in life any more.

I stumbled across the joyofsatan website a while ago and the more I came the
more sense it made. I don't know why, it just did. But now comes the dilemma I
have. I...don't know where to go. I'm scared to do the ritual because the loose
teachings of 'that' faith have basically scared the crap outta me. I'm scared of
drawing blood. I can't perform a ritual as often as I should. I'm just flat out
scared.

Can anyone enlighten me on what changes should occur? Or any of the other
problems I've named?

I also...feel greedy about why I'd join. I feel like I don't really deserve the
changes or anything else in life, for that matter.

Thank you for reading.

 

[Arturo Bing]

Your scared because that is how that faith controls you. Through fear. When you dedicate expect not having that fear. Hence the expression a Christian disease

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "gsrevial" <gsrevial@... wrote:

So, my life's gone to garbage, not to say that it was ever great to begin with.

I was raised with loose Christian teachings, went to church when I was little,
tried my absolute hardest to believe that 'those' methods of worship were worth
anything, but they aren't. I've found the same hollow garbage and one-liner
after another.

My life is literally going nowhere. I have no friends. I live at home (21 years
old) with my mom and step-dad, unemployed. I don't ever recall being in love. I
can't find motivation in life any more.

I stumbled across the joyofsatan website a while ago and the more I came the
more sense it made. I don't know why, it just did. But now comes the dilemma I
have. I...don't know where to go. I'm scared to do the ritual because the loose
teachings of 'that' faith have basically scared the crap outta me. I'm scared of
drawing blood. I can't perform a ritual as often as I should. I'm just flat out
scared.

Can anyone enlighten me on what changes should occur? Or any of the other
problems I've named?

I also...feel greedy about why I'd join. I feel like I don't really deserve the
changes or anything else in life, for that matter.

Thank you for reading.

 

[lxxcxcxxl]

Satan is in no means harmful. He protects his own. My sugestion to you would be to study. Study the JOS website, talk to other Santanist, gather as much information as you can on what your doing. Satan saved my life, I'm not the first to say this I'm sure. All of your questions have been answered on the site. You do not need to use blood for the ritual. A peice of hair, something like that would work just fine. Remember, 1. There is no blood/living sacrifice in Satanism. We all have our own relationship with Father. 2. Unlike other faiths, this is real. It's not like we're doing all this to an empty wall. Satan understands us. He knows us. You need not fear at all. He is VERY patient to those who give him their all. You <ican</i perform a ritual as often as you should. Constuct an astral temple. Depending on your state of mind, somethings may be difficult for you. Example, I couldn't get into a trance for my first month. Like anything else, practice makes perfect. Try devoting an hour a night for this. When your self esteem is low, it's easy to make yourself believe that you don't deserve a damn thing. I don't believe the wish to advance/love yourself and love your creator is greedy. Love is all we need <3.

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "Arturo Bing" <arturobing@... wrote:

Your scared because that is how that faith controls you. Through fear. When you dedicate expect not having that fear. Hence the expression a Christian disease

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "gsrevial" <gsrevial@ wrote:

So, my life's gone to garbage, not to say that it was ever great to begin with.

I was raised with loose Christian teachings, went to church when I was little,
tried my absolute hardest to believe that 'those' methods of worship were worth
anything, but they aren't. I've found the same hollow garbage and one-liner
after another.

My life is literally going nowhere. I have no friends. I live at home (21 years
old) with my mom and step-dad, unemployed. I don't ever recall being in love. I
can't find motivation in life any more.

I stumbled across the joyofsatan website a while ago and the more I came the
more sense it made. I don't know why, it just did. But now comes the dilemma I
have. I...don't know where to go. I'm scared to do the ritual because the loose
teachings of 'that' faith have basically scared the crap outta me. I'm scared of
drawing blood. I can't perform a ritual as often as I should. I'm just flat out
scared.

Can anyone enlighten me on what changes should occur? Or any of the other
problems I've named?

I also...feel greedy about why I'd join. I feel like I don't really deserve the
changes or anything else in life, for that matter.

Thank you for reading.