Non ho mai avuto una ragazza e non ho mai baciato una ragazza, non perché sono brutto, ma perché per anni ho pensato erroneamente che se doveva venire, sarebbe venuto da sola. Poi ho capito che se vuoi una compagna devi cercarla. Ma onestamente mi sento bene anche senza, ho imparato a controllare i miei impulsi riproduttivi animaleschi. Ho iniziato a masturbarmi a 13 anni, quando a scuola promuovevano la masturbazione. Ho smesso qualche mese fa perché è uno spreco di sperma, quando mi masturbavo mi sentivo debole per qualche giorno, è uno spreco di vitalità, quindi ora pratico la ritenzione dello sperma come fanno i buddisti, e da quando ho smesso mi sento meglio, non so perché qui ci sia qualcuno che promuove lo spreco di sperma...
thank you for your patience
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First of all, masturbating it's not wrong. Sexual energy, as Anemos stated, is very important and it's a very powerful manifestation tool. Check your birtchart as you might have placements that enhance this such strong 8th house one.
I don't know who told you that it's a waste of sperm or a waste of vitality. You keep producing it as long as you're young and healthy, it's not something you will run out of on a random Thursday because you masturbated...
Something similar should be the same for women but it's truly not...
What's true is that you don't have to feel forced in engaging in this activity or feel forced in finding a partner but do mind that it's something that could enhance your life. The Gods want us to go out there and connect with people, have friends and a partner too.
Sexual needs are natural and not something we should be ashamed of.
Don't talk about yourself as "someone who needs to control their instincts"... You're human. You're ok for having sexual desires and needs.
You don't have to find a lifelong partner if you don't want it... Manifest/find a girl who's up for casual encounters and who's compatible with you.
Obviously, I'm giving for granted that you respect other people, girls and boys.
If you felt weak after it, you were probably doing it too much, forcing it or just not a very good or healthy way.
You could also have a weak Mars or Sun that should be strengthen for your overall health too.
Buddhism is crap... Please, don't follow those programs as they are a revised version of enemy programs for the East.
Zevism offers you the healthiest and truest option.