I destroyed everything I built over the year.

[Sacred Zucchini]

Hello everyone! I'm not sure I've chosen the right forum topic to post this, but still... I meditated every day after the initiation ritual according to Cobra's programs and continued meditating afterwards. My life has improved tenfold. I became less anxious, felt more in touch with the Gods, paid off all my debts, felt better overall, overcame my addictions, got my teeth fixed, and so on (in terms of the material world). About two months ago, I stopped. My life began to fall apart and return to its previous terrible state when I had suicidal thoughts, debts, and addictions. My anxiety and addictions have returned. I lost the money I saved for about two years, and now I have nothing but debt. I have to borrow again. I suffer from a gambling addiction, and it has ruined my life now.
So my questions are:
1. Can I return to the state when everything was fine?
2. If I meditate and stop, my progress and my life rolls back? Is this considered normal?
3. Why do I feel like there's no turning back?
Thank you

 

[WrathOfKouros]

You have to keep riding the horse, to sustain your progress you have to keep meditating. You saw how much progress you made before, now you can do it again and go even further because you know now not to resort back to your old bad habits. It is not too late, but you have to start meditating again and get your act together and this time keep on going.

 

[Acolyte Of Pan 666]

1) Yes
2) Not necessarily but not meditating means a lot of negative energy built back up which didn't help, what else were you doing/not doing after you stopped meditating?
3) Enemy attacks/negative energy from charts/low self-esteem, likely a mix of all 3, you can definetly turn back, don't dwell on that energy and try to erase it. Cleaning aura and chakras, AOP, you can do an obliterating Saturn working as the moon is still waning. Try to do a FRTR and see if you feel more positve after. If you do that's a sign it's an enemy attack.

 

[Tethys333]

Hello brother, I am sorry for what happened to you. Of course, you can put an end to all this.
First of all, it goes without saying that spiritual progress is something that requires a lot of patience and perseverance. Some tasks require 40 days, others 50, others 100, and so on.
I suppose that in recent months you have underestimated and not practiced meditation for the purification of the aura and have not worked on your chakras at all. The programs you have done previously have helped you to awaken what you were unaware of and made you aware of who you really are. But now it is up to you to strengthen your aura, your soul, and your chakras. By strengthening yourself, you will also be able to put an end to your suffering and NEVER FORGET THE GODS.

1. Can I return to the state when everything was fine?

of course, meditating.

2. If I meditate and stop, my progress and my life rolls back? Is this considered normal?

You must never stop, that's the point. Progress, as I said before, requires patience and perseverance; it's HARD WORK. You can't expect to evolve if you meditate one day and then don't for two months.

3. Why do I feel like there's no turning back?

It is a thought from an impure mind. When you drive away these negative energies, you will see that everything will pass.

I leave you with some meditations for a new beginning. If you have any doubts, ask.

How to Clean Your Aura

Aura Of Protection

Void Meditation

You must never stop the first three.

https://templeofzeus.org/OpeningChakras.php (Even the chakras need purification. I recommend x7 SURYA for each chakra.)

Returning Curses Part 1

Returning Curses Part 2

good luck, HAIL ZEUS!

 

[Sacred Zucchini]

Спасибо за ваши ответы и поддержку, братья!

 

[Sacred Zucchini]

Thanks for your answers and support, brothers!*

 

[Sacred Zucchini]

Hello brother, I am sorry for what happened to you. Of course, you can put an end to all this.
First of all, it goes without saying that spiritual progress is something that requires a lot of patience and perseverance. Some tasks require 40 days, others 50, others 100, and so on.
I suppose that in recent months you have underestimated and not practiced meditation for the purification of the aura and have not worked on your chakras at all. The programs you have done previously have helped you to awaken what you were unaware of and made you aware of who you really are. But now it is up to you to strengthen your aura, your soul, and your chakras. By strengthening yourself, you will also be able to put an end to your suffering and NEVER FORGET THE GODS.

of course, meditating.

You must never stop, that's the point. Progress, as I said before, requires patience and perseverance; it's HARD WORK. You can't expect to evolve if you meditate one day and then don't for two months.

It is a thought from an impure mind. When you drive away these negative energies, you will see that everything will pass.

I leave you with some meditations for a new beginning. If you have any doubts, ask.

How to Clean Your Aura

Aura Of Protection

Void Meditation

You must never stop the first three.

https://templeofzeus.org/OpeningChakras.php (Even the chakras need purification. I recommend x7 SURYA for each chakra.)

Returning Curses Part 1

Returning Curses Part 2

good luck, HAIL ZEUS!

My mistake was that I stopped doing them, even though Cobra warned me in his program that it was very dangerous to stop! What a fool I was.

 

[Tethys333]

My mistake was that I stopped doing them, even though Cobra warned me in his program that it was very dangerous to stop! What a fool I was.

Remember, it is never too late to take back what is yours. Always believe and have the strength to continue and never emit. Learn from your mistakes

 

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This will help you.

 

[Sacred Zucchini]

I heard a long time ago that gaming addiction is the deadliest of all drugs. I feel so fucking awful, oh my god.

 

[Valeska]

My only advice is reach out for help here and try to start doing what you were doing (maybe with adjustments as necessary). I feel your pain as I have some pretty bad mood swings at times and it's really crushing to feel like you're at square one again. I hope you are successful and find happiness and meaning again.

 

[Tethys333]

I heard a long time ago that gaming addiction is the deadliest of all drugs. I feel so fucking awful, oh my god.

You can always change this

 

[Planewalker]

Hello everyone! I'm not sure I've chosen the right forum topic to post this, but still... I meditated every day after the initiation ritual according to Cobra's programs and continued meditating afterwards. My life has improved tenfold. I became less anxious, felt more in touch with the Gods, paid off all my debts, felt better overall, overcame my addictions, got my teeth fixed, and so on (in terms of the material world). About two months ago, I stopped. My life began to fall apart and return to its previous terrible state when I had suicidal thoughts, debts, and addictions. My anxiety and addictions have returned. I lost the money I saved for about two years, and now I have nothing but debt. I have to borrow again. I suffer from a gambling addiction, and it has ruined my life now.
So my questions are:
1. Can I return to the state when everything was fine?
2. If I meditate and stop, my progress and my life rolls back? Is this considered normal?
3. Why do I feel like there's no turning back?
Thank you

I see plenty of people already commented on this.

Just do what worked for you last time? It worked until you quit, so just go back to that? What's stopping you from doing it again?

I know there's psychological reasons why you might not, "why do this if the results aren't permanent?". It helps by understanding nothing in this life is permanent--- if you stop dieting and eat like a pig, you're going to put weight on (eventually); if you don't work out and sit around all day, you're going to lose muscle; if you don't use your brain, it's not going to work optimally. That's just how it is.

To your questions specifically:

1. Ya, you can even do better than before if you push yourself.

2. Eventually, probably. It takes a lot of effort to change anything semi permanently, spiritually or otherwise.

3. Turning back to what? Just do what you did last time to get better. You already did it, so you know you can. Yes, I think it's that simple.

 

[Sacred Zucchini]

I see plenty of people already commented on this.

Just do what worked for you last time? It worked until you quit, so just go back to that? What's stopping you from doing it again?

I know there's psychological reasons why you might not, "why do this if the results aren't permanent?". It helps by understanding nothing in this life is permanent--- if you stop dieting and eat like a pig, you're going to put weight on (eventually); if you don't work out and sit around all day, you're going to lose muscle; if you don't use your brain, it's not going to work optimally. That's just how it is.

To your questions specifically:

1. Ya, you can even do better than before if you push yourself.

2. Eventually, probably. It takes a lot of effort to change anything semi permanently, spiritually or otherwise.

3. Turning back to what? Just do what you did last time to get better. You already did it, so you know you can. Yes, I think it's that simple.

Thank you for your reply. You see, when I first started here, I was literally wasting my time. I was in a terrible hole, people around me seemed evil, and I couldn't even communicate with others without anxiety. I cleansed curses daily, meditated, did yoga. Eventually, I reached an "acceptable" level. I have a car, a job, college. I no longer have that "live or die" motivation. Literally, in six months, I made the progress I could only dream of. And then, as soon as I relaxed for a few months, I ruined everything. Yes, I still have a car, college, and a job, but my addiction is destroying me, ruining my life. You may not know, but gambling addiction is also associated with masochism, and I'm also a masochist. I don't know, I understand that I can grow up again, but it's as if I don't want to. On the other hand, my consciousness resists the thought of self-destruction, even if it's slow. There's also no Earth element in my natal chart, which is why I seem to always be dreaming and it's hard for me to ground myself. Overall, my situation is very complicated; I don't even know what I want. Sometimes I think it's literally easier for me to kill myself before I hit rock bottom because my addiction is terrible crap; I've been suffering for as long as I can remember. Are there any experts here who can tell me exactly what to do? How can I regain my motivation? I literally don't want anything; this never happened even when I was just trying to get by. I thought I just couldn't do it, but I always wanted more, more money, a better job. Now I just have no motivation to do anything; I'd say that spark has disappeared somewhere. I can't find myself again. Just when I was at my worst, I found this site completely by accident in a list of the 10 scariest sites on the clearnet (LOL). It was my salvation; I got excited about everything here. Now I can't find that spark; I don't even give a shit, but I'm just confused. I used to be afraid of, you know, prison and all that other crap, but now it seems normal to me and a very real prospect. I'm afraid of becoming a fucking bum, but at the same time, that's exactly where everything is heading. My addiction is my curse. Any advice is welcome.

 

[Sacred Zucchini]

So, some miracle led me to this site when I was at my worst, a hundred times worse than I am now. I was on the verge of suicide. This site saved me—meditations, yoga instructions. But why now do I feel nothing, no longer any desire to grow? How is this even possible? I've invested so much time and effort into my progress. What should I do? How can I feel that spark again? Is my only option really to sink to that same bottom when I felt the need to survive or die? Will I choose to survive again or just kill myself this time? Who knows? Sorry for the long post. Thanks to those who read it.

 

[Sacred Zucchini]

I understand that some people might interpret my post as "he's just whining" or "your problems are bullshit," and that's okay because we're all different and have different problems. It might be hard for some to understand me and why I'm whining all over the forum. I'm just genuinely confused about what's going on with me.

 

[High Priest Hooded Cobra 666]

Because you have underwent shock after the losses. Relax, empires have went down and people rebuilt. Give yourself sometime with development and you will want to be fine again. Certain traumatic things can create this response, not wanting to do anything etc. It will pass.

 

[High Priestess Lydia]

Literally, in six months, I made the progress I could only dream of. And then, as soon as I relaxed for a few months, I ruined everything.

Start back with meditating, do freeing the soul to remove the gambling addiction. Strengthen your chakras and aura so you don't fall into that trap again. Keep going, and you will find success again