To deal with any related jewish curses (RTRs aren’t necessary anymore the hebrew alphabet is dead):
Returning curses part 1 and 2 on the TOZ website.
You may have a lot of negative energy from past lives, so the returning curses will be needed to be done for several days.
To become stronger:
Work on a material skill you can monetize. Work on your chakras. Work on your self-esteem most importantly, you may find this useful, the Gods are very important for this. Knowing your chart is paramount:
A lot of people strongly underestimate how powerful of an influence parents have on your self-esteem, even after you've long cut contact with them or at least aren't living with them. It can stay with you for life, positive or negative. Depending on your chart, your father or your mother may...
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What’s important is you empower your inner sense of self which then will give you the motivational fuel to gain real material and spiritual power.