how I found JOS

[zolaluckystar1]

So happy to find this group and wanting to share a little about me – nothing personal that I can be identified by – and how I was lead here to JOS by Satan, hope that's OK?:
Spent most of my life wondering how and why this earth system is so fucked up and wondering what I can do about it. I spent decades seething with rage and feeling intense hate for the faceless authors of this miserable slave system. I was always the outsider, black sheep, the odd one out of the 'normal' group who had to go my own way because I never fit in nor did I want to, the rebel always questioning why. I make a horrible slave. As soon as I feel coerced I rebel. I have this obsession for truth. No matter how ugly, I want it. I have received constant guidance during my life, protection, comfort, advice, concrete solutions and even a shoulder to cry on from a heard, felt/touched by and sometimes a fully materialized Being (mostly one male Being but sometimes telepathic advice from another, also a male). I became aware early in life that this unseen guardian punishes those who hurt or try to hurt me very severely, yet is supportive and caring towards me. I often wondered why me? Who is he? Where did he come from? Not that I was complaining, I wasn't! If not for him I would be long dead; he has stepped in so many times when I was madly reckless in my younger days. At least 12 times I should have died before I reached thirty but he always stepped in. Most dramatically once when I was literally about to be murdered. I know this sounds ridiculous but I wasn't afraid, I closed my eyes and asked Father God to send me aid, opened them and my Guardian had appeared in response, immediately, out of nowhere. After he saved me he told me off for putting myself into the situation – not in a cruel way but he was VERY stern. He knew everything, stuff a human couldn't have known. I have always been a sensitive and drawn to spiritual practices, explored all avenues I could, Santeria, Wicca, New Age, etc, none of it rang true (I have a truth sense) to me and I would soon drift away to continue seeking. I practiced dream yoga for over a decade till during an out of body I was attacked by reptilians. Before this I hadn't known they existed. More education. I tried to turn the ability off after that but found I couldn't. There is no going backwards.
The Xians entered my life (long story) and tried hard for two years to get me to declare for their program. Hearing J's name always before made me feel sick…yet now I was wondering: How could I feel so strongly for my Father God – HE is a real Being whom I trust implicitly - and feel nothing for the other (son) if they are one and the same, as these people are telling me? All my life I have said Jesus is bullshit and Xians are fools but they were making me begin to doubt, was I wrong?
Suffered from awful, horrific nightmares during this two year period of doubt – terrible insomnia where I could go days without sleeping and when I finally slept I was always attacked – then began to be attacked while in the waking world as well while they worked to ‘save’ me. I understand now it was the problem reaction solution gambit. Their last big effort – group laying hands on, you know how it goes - pastor hanging onto my hand and some of the congregation gathered all about me, hands laid on, all willing me to submit: Will you declare J is your...ahhgh, I don't even want to say it! My response to being coerced: AHHH…...NO. They pressed me: Why not? I am not convinced J is real. What more do you need? Direct Communication. They thought this was arrogant and demanding: blessed are they who have not seen and yet believed one commented… J loves you, why isn’t that enough? Exclaimed another. He is going to have to tell me that himself, I said and I got the hell out of there. They have since backed totally off. I thought: Surely, I am going to Hell. The prospect didn't bother me much though. I felt given the choice Hell seemed the best alternative.
Working currently on a book telling a story about fictional characters based on truth meant to expose the fucks ruining this planet for the rest of us not to mention enslave us all irrevocably (they won't succeed) and to promote the Father God who opposes this insanity. The idea was to give the sleeper sheep truth in the form of an entertaining fictional story they might actually take the time to read that might prompt some of them to wake up. Sitting one night before the computer five weeks into writing suddenly worrying: Was I overstepping? Was I 100% accurate? If not I am misrepresenting……Lucifer entered the picture and I felt: I don’t have all my facts straight…I hit a wall. I couldn’t write anymore.
I sat late one night thinking what should I do? Something is off I feel it but I don’t know which part. I don’t wish to offend Satan, or any other God for that matter, should I just abandon this book idea? A telepathic voice answered: If you wish to write the truth then you must look at what all sides have to say and you have not done so. Do so now, if you would be fair and open minded; look this up and read everything therein. The voice wasn’t angry, it was calm and reasonable. Googled what I was given to search right then and there. It took me straight to HP Maxine Dietrich’s Sermons, in particular, topics regarding exposing Xianity. I have spent the last three weeks reading the JOS site and in the Satanic library – still more to read – covered the section containing Satanic meditation beginner, intermediate and advanced - astonished at how much from all categories I already have experience with. I thought: This is Satanism? I didn’t know that! But this is who I am!

As I sat and read, I was electrified with positive energy and my truth sense was saying YES, YES, YES! That said there was information there that I didn’t know and it was this missing cornerstone that was the key to finally putting the entire puzzle into perspective, giving me the truth I have sought for so long, long before there was an internet. He wants me to read it all and get busy. He isn’t against my creative idea; He just wanted to be sure he is represented correctly lest I do the enemy’s work for them – NOT my intention. I am grateful to be saved from any such error. This is a relief to me for I really worried I had inadvertently been offensive. I am busy revising and adding what I feel He wishes me to add. I love writing. I guess you can tell from the length of this?

I have begun getting busy - yoga daily, studying the info, practicing the basic fundamental 2X a day breathing and visualizations to get started as I am out of practice. The Father I turn to who always answers or sends my special friend/Guide to answer, it turns out I didn't know his real name all this time – I just called him God and Father - and still he answered me when I asked him what should I do? I guess he knew what was in my heart all along. I suspect I have always been his. I am grateful he took my hand and led me JOS. Thank you also to HP Maxine and the Ministry for all your work compiling this info - it is high quality must read - was a blessing for me not only for providing the final missing links but also to know I am not alone – in terms of other humans who feel/believe this way I mean. Satan/Lucifer is a real Being. If you are new to Satanism and want guidance he is the best person to ask. Then be open to him. And when he answers say thank you. He's always told the truth to me. I also want to give a shout out to my Guardian (Don't know your name though I know your face) but thank you too for everything. You are wonderful!
Hail Satan/Lucifer, thank you Daddy! You are the best Father ever! Your loving Daughter.