RJ the Acolyte
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- Jul 7, 2005
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ok so here's the story...in 10th grade i was really interested in satanism. i researched it on the JoS webpage and i decided it was for me. i however didnt do the real dedication ritual (for some reason i have a major problem with self inflicted pain, i couldnt cut myself) so i did it in my astral temple. then a few months later or so i got charged with two felonies for arson. they told me there was a chance i could go to jail since it was such a big deal (two 1st degree felonies). i turned to satan and asked him please help me get through this and i felt very reassured everything was going to be alright. afterwards they declared me guilty. i felt like my world was crashing at my feet, and of course like an idiot i blamed satan and not myself. i went into my astral temple and destroyed it and i strayed away from satanism for awhile. of course after a year or so i got that calling again, and i returned to the JoS page. I had just really researched it for awhile but last summer i had a good feeling about it, and i did the actual dedication ritual. now i was just wondering is this still valid? has satan turned his back on me because i turned my back on him? i really want to be satanist ive had an interest in it for a really long time (i am a 12th grader now) and i want to start working on things such as, opening and aligning my chakras, demon summoning, witchcraft, and the spiritual warfare program. do you think satan has abandoned me or does he forgive this stupidity?