Guardian Demons

[otto_javier]

About an hour ago I used a ouji board for the first time, I asked if there were any demons that wished to speak to me. I spelled out K-U-S-U-E-T, and saying the name aloud gave me a rush of energy, almost like a feeling of goosebumps. Before using the ouji board I made sure to bathe, light good smelling incense and enter a trance state. When I was done I said "I'm gonna get going now Kusuet" and the board answered goodbye. I am currently feeling symptoms of anxiety and am feeling elevated. I wanted to make sure that I did not come off as disrespectful, I only asked a few questions such as how old he was, if he was of satan, and if he was my guardian demon. Did I show any signs of disrespect? I certainly hope I did not... 

 

[otto_javier]

anyone/:?

 

[nebula.stardust]

About how long is the wait to actually meet your guardian demon? I was communicating with a demon (using a pendulum, since I'm not that advanced) and I got to draw her, and later I had asked if she was my guardian, the answer was no, but she said I would get to meet them sometime. I was wondering about how long it took you to meet yours.

 

[Magus Immortalis]

It depends on how open and aware you are. It was in my first year as a Spiritual Satanist that Marchosias reached out to me and let me know, continually, that she was and is my Guardian. I realized this through hearing her voice in my head, reading posts about her and feeling a "nudge" that "this was her speaking to me".
Everyone is different though. What happened for me may not happen for everyone, or it may happen differently. Our Guardians may reveal themselves through dreams, visions, hearing their voices in our head, feeling warmth and happiness and surety when coming across their name in the Demons list on JoS or elsewhere, etc. Just be open and aware. There are no coincidences.
Even after 6 years I am still meeting some of my Guardians. They come to you when they want. And not sooner.
In the meantime, please consider working on your relationship with Satan. That's the most important thing for relationships with the Gods of Hell. Do rituals, talk to him, meditate on his sigil, etc.

On Saturday, October 8, 2016 11:53 PM, "nebula.stardust@... [JoyofSatan666]" <[email protected] wrote:


  About how long is the wait to actually meet your guardian demon? I was communicating with a demon (using a pendulum, since I'm not that advanced) and I got to draw her, and later I had asked if she was my guardian, the answer was no, but she said I would get to meet them sometime. I was wondering about how long it took you to meet yours.

 

[Sims336]

I will celebrate my third year as a Spiritual Satanist next month. Just this past month
have I had any of the Gods, other than Father Satan himself, tell me who they were by
name. I know others have come and gone, but I did not know all their names.


Hail Father Satan! Hail Azazel and Hail Asmodeus!





Sims


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On Sun, 10/9/16, Magus Immortalis magus.immortalis@... [JoyofSatan666] <[url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url] wrote:


Subject: Re: [JoyofSatan666] Guardian Demons
To: "[url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url]" <[url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url]
Date: Sunday, October 9, 2016, 10:58 AM


 









It
depends on how open and aware you are. It was in my first
year as a Spiritual Satanist that Marchosias reached out to
me and let me know, continually, that she was and is my
Guardian. I realized this through hearing her voice in my
head, reading posts about her and feeling a
"nudge" that "this was her speaking to
me".
Everyone
is different though. What happened for me may not happen for
everyone, or it may happen differently. Our Guardians may
reveal themselves through dreams, visions, hearing their

voices in our head, feeling warmth and happiness and surety
when coming across their name in the Demons list on JoS or
elsewhere, etc. Just be open and aware. There are no
coincidences.
Even
after 6 years I am still meeting some of my Guardians. They
come to you when they want. And not sooner.
In the
meantime, please consider working on your relationship with
Satan. That's the most important thing for relationships
with the Gods of Hell. Do rituals, talk to him, meditate on
his sigil, etc.

On Saturday, October
8, 2016 11:53 PM, "nebula.stardust@...
[JoyofSatan666]" <[url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url]
wrote:



 









About how long is the wait to
actually meet your guardian demon? I was communicating with
a demon (using a pendulum, since I'm not that advanced)
and I got to draw her, and later I had asked if she was my
guardian, the answer was no, but she said I would get to
meet them sometime. I was wondering about how long it took
you to meet yours.





















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[Sims336]

Each person is different. I've been a Spiritual Satanist for almost three years, and
only recently was given names of two different ones. But the Gods come and
go, and they are all amazing.


Hail Satan!


Sims


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On Fri, 10/7/16, nebula.stardust@... [JoyofSatan666] <[url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url] wrote:


Subject: [JoyofSatan666] Guardian Demons
To: [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url]
Date: Friday, October 7, 2016, 8:21 PM


 









About how long is the wait to actually
meet your guardian demon? I was communicating with a demon
(using a pendulum, since I'm not that advanced) and I
got to draw her, and later I had asked if she was my
guardian, the answer was no, but she said I would get to
meet them sometime. I was wondering about how long it took
you to meet yours.










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On Sun, 9 Oct, 2016 at 9:23 am, nebula.stardust@... [JoyofSatan666]<[email protected] wrote:   About how long is the wait to actually meet your guardian demon? I was communicating with a demon (using a pendulum, since I'm not that advanced) and I got to draw her, and later I had asked if she was my guardian, the answer was no, but she said I would get to meet them sometime. I was wondering about how long it took you to meet yours.

 

[magnum.arcanum]

I've established that I have more than one Demon that watches out for me.  The first one and me get along great and has a great sense of humor and they want to help me with specific things. 

I was always under the impression that just one was assigned to you or something.  I just talked to another person that has been with me for at least 2000 years. 

This is kind of a crazy question, but here goes:  Is it possible to have a Demon soulmate?  I've evidently been a husband and a wife to this Demon and they've been a husband and wife to me.

They are willing to talk to me and I have yet to establish whether or not they will tell me there name and so forth.  This Demon was willing to talk, but it was obvious they were heavily engaged in other things.  I was very courteous and let him/her know that I took up enough of their time, and he/she is willing to talk to me again when I want to.

Anybody heard of such a thing?  A human having a Demon soulmate from another lifetime? I guess it kind of makes sense now that I think about it.  I'll be anxious to find out who this Demon is.

 

[Allison Passino]

Short answer, Magnum? Yes. ^ lots of Brethren have Daemon lovers,
soulmates whatever you care to call them. But they have intimate
relationships with them, don't know about karma and all that, but I'm
sure it is possible. You really ought to have them swear allegiance to
Father, not saying they're an angel or anything, but it really is good
policy to have them swear. If they're angels, they'll never use our
Father's name.

Oh, and I, myself, have two Guardian Daemons, Sorath and Andras. I
have personally met several Brothers and Sisters who have multiple
Guardians as well. Perfectly possible. ^ I adore my Guardians,
specially Sorath! He's so brilliant and beautiful! I do not know what
I would have done in recent years without their aid and comfort, and
also Father Satan and Mother Lilith too. Hope this helps a bit. Ave!

On 11/18/16, magnum.arcanum@... [JoyofSatan666]
<[url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url] wrote:

I've established that I have more than one Demon that watches out for me.
The first one and me get along great and has a great sense of humor and they
want to help me with specific things.

I was always under the impression that just one was assigned to you or
something. I just talked to another person that has been with me for at
least 2000 years.

This is kind of a crazy question, but here goes: Is it possible to have a
Demon soulmate? I've evidently been a husband and a wife to this Demon and
they've been a husband and wife to me.

They are willing to talk to me and I have yet to establish whether or not
they will tell me there name and so forth. This Demon was willing to talk,
but it was obvious they were heavily engaged in other things. I was very
courteous and let him/her know that I took up enough of their time, and
he/she is willing to talk to me again when I want to.

Anybody heard of such a thing? A human having a Demon soulmate from another
lifetime? I guess it kind of makes sense now that I think about it. I'll be
anxious to find out who this Demon is.

 

[Allison Passino]

Big big no, Magnum! Lol. I mean, no past life stuff. As i say, I've a
sneaking suspicion that I've never had any, but I'll have to ask
Sorath about it. He'll give it to me straight. I'm closest to him, I
adore Andras, but I've got a bit of a thing for Sorath. ^ He's so
beautiful, and he is beyond wise.

On 11/20/16, magnum.arcanum@... [JoyofSatan666]
<[url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url] wrote:

% Allison and Everyone Else

I haven’t really met any other Demons. I know that Sorath and Andras are
obviously great Demons and their name is starting to jog my past memories.

I did get both of those I’m in contact with to swear that they are “with
Satan” and I told them that if I suspect they are not I will find out who
they are, “immediately” (because one wants to wait awhile to tell me) and if
they are not who they say they are, they will pay a heavy price for using my
father’s name. They are comfortable with that.

You need to talk to Sorath and Andras about your past lives. They will
tell you about it. It’s a total mind fuck that most of us are born into.
People are taught to believe they are a “one life organism”. This is
completely done by the enemy insect shit fungus species and is complete
bullshit.

I know HP Maxine did an excellent job of describing karma and how twisted
and fucked up it is, but I feel what is needed for many is to undercut that
with a gradient approach to that advanced topic. It’s a real fucker to
learn about past lives if you haven’t experienced anything in that regard.
I mean a REAL FUCKER. It’s such a big concept and such a big reality change
once you learn it, that it’s difficult to approach, let alone learn about.


For now, do yourself a favor and just strike that bullshit karma term from
your vocabulary and learn about Past Lives. I know about past lives and in
reading what HP Maxine said about karma, it was still hard to confront and
accept what she said, even though it’s clearly the truth. It’s a confront
issue. Not a willingness issue or an intelligence issue. Get your Demons
to help you with that. They will be easier to believe.

I’m looking for someone to answer the question that is comfortable with and
knows with certainty that they have lived past lives. I’m assuming you
haven’t experienced that phenomena yet. If I’m wrong, then please accept my
apology.

 

[magnum.arcanum]

% Allison

It's a real mind fucker.  I'm telling you.  Once Sorath or Andras tell you that you have, just take your time.  Its a process.  Maybe you can get them to reveal a past life to you or tell you about one.  There is nothing to be afraid of.  Nothing will unravel or screw up this life.  It's going to freak you out for awhile.