ok i will sit and do it. I just think that it should not matter sitting or standing i should not fall down like that. its more like im thrown down. and i am not blaming it all on angels. i do take responsibly and its not the first time ive been thrown down when doing the breath of fire. its more like the 8th or something. and i have read most all of the jos problem is i cant recall what i have read or remember it. i cant even get myself to read it anymore. there was a point where i was knowledgeable with jos stuff. its like i try to remember something, and its like blocked with black clouds of some sort. i cant think straight half the time, i say things out loud that i obviously dont mean to say. my thoughts are not my own, i can barely do basic meditations. its been like this since last year and i have been severing the cords and cleaning my aura, banishing them, its tough. im obviously severely attacked by angels. and i hardly ever get sick. i think alot of people lately are misunderstanding me and im having a hard time expressing myself correctly and then i feel bad i even said anything in the first place. look im asking for someone who is willing to fight for me and give me some real spiritual help. because a few months ago i needed it and i didnt have it and i was attacked severly, almost died, almost got into a car accident, got forced into the looney bin which mind u i have been in all my childhood because i was a ward of the state and my whole life was ruined and it seems i am ending and have ended in disaster alot lately. so im not just blaming the angels ok. there have been times i couldnt get out of bed, couldnt eat, couldn't stay awake, couldnt think, couldnt function at all for weeks at a time all i could do was hold on to enkis sigil and all this fighting i have done seems to go unrecognized. also i still have alot of those problems. all of the time i have suffered for my fellow brothers and sisters and i feel as tho the fight is not being returned. now i understand that i have went about things the wrong way and i also understand that i made alot of mistakes and the only thing i can do is try to fix them and do it better this time. now i was never taught, never loved, never parented, never raised, and constantly tortured with drugs, restraints, secluded rooms, forced therapy, etc in psych wards all because i was a crazy kid who had fucked up parents and a system that wanted to make a profit off of me. of all of the poeple on this group i think ive had it the worst. i was a kid that was crazy because i had a dream about aliens attacking earth and people having sex inside burgers, filled with lettuce and tomato, i mean seriously something like that i was crazy for. idk anymore. and i am dedicating my life to you all and all i ask is for some time and some real help that i dont feel i am getting. my life is ruined, my relationships are ruined, i have no one but my mother, i dont know where to turn and i am lost. i feel like u have made me out to be irresponsible, illogical, someone who hasnt read the joy of satan, someone who blames his problems on everyone else, someone who is oh just sick and tripped, this is not true. i never trip or get sick.well i havnt been sick for a very long time because i meditate and i dont accept sickness as reality. the point is thank you for your help but i dont think it helped much other than make me sit my ass down. idk what to say anymore but u know i need spiritual help and i dont feel like im getting it. and i am not happy with my brothers and sisters for this. if theres anything u can do let me know.
Zarion
From: hecktic_shadow <hecktic_shadow@...
To: [email protected]
Sent: Saturday, November 10, 2012 11:54 PM
Subject: [HellsArmy666] Re: getting hurt by negative entities
I would recomend sitting down. It is good to do what you feel best and most comfortable with. But it is also not good to build a dependancy on something. If you keep falling over from meditating standing up. Then do the logical thing and sit down. I recomend sitting up straight with a straight back, as this will alow you for better breathing rather than sitting in a couch slouching.
As for the pain/pressure in your head. It is advised on the JoS that if you are getting pain or feelings of uncomfort from any meditation that you stop them and lessen the amounts that it has on the site. Everyone is different and so one amount might be good for one person, but too much for the next. Take it easy and don't over do it. The last thing we or you would want is for you to hurt yourself.
Don't look to blame everything on the angels. "Oh, I feel sick today, i'm being attacked"; "I tripped over, I'm being attacked". No, you just got sick and you just tripped over. Take some responsibility for yourself.
Hail Satan! Praise the True Gods of Old!
-En Haradren Amlug.
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[email protected][/url], "Danyl" <danyl.eder@... wrote:
when i do the breath of fire exercise i have been falling down and hurting myself and i dont know how but i think its the angels that have been attacking me for sometime. I do it standing up,maybe i should do it sitting down but i find it easier to do i standing up. today i hit my head on the bottom of my table and it always seems to come out of nowhere. also the breath of fire hurts to do. it causes me pressure/pounding type pain in my head sometimes as well. any ideas on why this is happening. i have been doing the aura of protection and i am protected but it still happens.
please help.
Zarion
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