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My name is Brandy, Im 19 yrs old,I Live in tampa, fl.

I havnt slept in almost 3 days so if i sound a little off, its because its really hard for me to think right now


Its weird how i grew up truly hating "god" and yet scared to death of Satan, I really thought there was no hope for me. instead of writing 5 paragraphs explaining my life, long story short, this so called loving and forgiving poser, has made my life a living hell. Half of my life, I wished that I could be on Satan's side, that he would love me, but like I said I was scared. The only satanism I knew little about was Anton LeVay, and it wasn't for me, Ive never thought that Satan doesn't exit..even tho i have doubted god so many times

About 4 months ago, I don't know why but I decided to look up all of the different types of satanism, just for kicks I guess, and maybe just a little bit of hope...THATS WHEN I FOUND THE JoS, And it just blew my fucking mind away, reading about SS. Nothing has made more sense in my fuckin life.


ok, first off, I haven't dedicated myself yet, From the bottom of my heart I truly do, but there's one big problem, There is NO privacy where I live. I live with my boyfriend, who is, sadly, very closed minded. He definitely gets it from his parents, which are very religious. I dont want to hear all this bs how The REAL FATHER OF LIES has all the damn glory, i mean it really makes me sad, which i was accually surprised that I felt like that, holding back tears,. but i got to put up with it. I feel stuck in a rock n a hard place, If I come out and be who I feel like I realy am,Unfortunately, I will be a bum out on the streets.

And something I dont get, ok, I havnt had any sleep in about 3 days, not for nothing though, Ive read what other SS have siad about Satan will make himself more known to you after the dedication ritual.
I was meditating couple night ago, and it was impossible, In my head it was very vivd..and annoying! My boyfriends father was trying to distract me, (my boyfriends dad does talk alot tho, and he annoys me) but this was bad, like it wasnt my bfs dad, he was taunting me, laughing at me, In my head I would get up and start waling the shit out of him when I saw that creepy ass smile then I knew it wasnt me, So in my head I got up, ran up toward him and just starting beating the crap out of him, he got scared at first, but then just started doing the same shit, laughing making me go crazy


Id tell myself something like calm down, ignore it, and for some reason, Eminem's voice (YES EMINEM) would rhyme what I siad, so I couldnt meditate, I couldnt sleep.

I used to smoke out on the front porch (now i have to smoke in the back yard) and after i got into ss, this tree accross the street, the leaves are perfectly haped to look exactly like the the "evil" Satan, big creepy grin, horns, scary eyes. I thought it was just because Im thinking of Satan or something

Last night I was smokin out back and i just noticed another tree and WTF, I cant even describe it, it had a human features to it but it had alot more detail, urgh my stupid brain cant think right now! I know it aint a demon that shit was really trying to scare me, I was smilin on the outside but inside,i was like "ooo fuukk.."

Its just bullshit cuz they make me real weak then pull this shit on me, I mean all night last nyt, it was on it was either i was really hallucinating from no sleep or something was always following me, tall dark shadow.

It just confuses me because I havnt dedicated myself yet, why are these fuckers fucking with me now?, Ive only seen satan once, he never spoke, just smiled, and left and that was it.

I need some help, Im not sure what to do.

I feel so alone
 
<td val[/IMG]Firstly,
I advise you to do the dedication soon so as to permanently link yoursel to Father Satan...trust m,I can state with certainty that what you fear is nothing more than Bullshit

Overcome it,Father Satan says he takes care of his own and that is true
Second,ask for Father Satan's help
SAVAL[/TD]
 
first off you arent alone your never alone and as long as you follow satan youll never be alone as for your visions or whatever they were idk ive never experienced anything like that before for the most part of what im reading it sounds like you may have one or more of the enemy "grey reptilian "angel"" i would advise doing a banishing ritual and afew protection rituals to see if that helps as for the dedication you can do it in your astral temple if you like and the last point ill make is about your boyfriend and his family i myself would tell them to go fuck themselves...damn closed minded xians but i wont advise you to do that because im not in your position and ive always been one to say what pops into my mind..regardless of the way people react to it but as i was saying you can do the dedication in your astral temple and id advise trying to banish and protect yourself from whatever is harrasing you.   hope my rant helped you alittle.

From: brandyl91 <brandyl91@...
To: [email protected]
Sent: Mon, November 1, 2010 5:04:18 PM
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] Gay ass angels,

  My name is Brandy, Im 19 yrs old,I Live in tampa, fl.

I havnt slept in almost 3 days so if i sound a little off, its because its really hard for me to think right now

Its weird how i grew up truly hating "god" and yet scared to death of Satan, I really thought there was no hope for me. instead of writing 5 paragraphs explaining my life, long story short, this so called loving and forgiving poser, has made my life a living hell. Half of my life, I wished that I could be on Satan's side, that he would love me, but like I said I was scared. The only satanism I knew little about was Anton LeVay, and it wasn't for me, Ive never thought that Satan doesn't exit..even tho i have doubted god so many times

About 4 months ago, I don't know why but I decided to look up all of the different types of satanism, just for kicks I guess, and maybe just a little bit of hope...THATS WHEN I FOUND THE JoS, And it just blew my fucking mind away, reading about SS. Nothing has made more sense in my fuckin life.

ok, first off, I haven't dedicated myself yet, From the bottom of my heart I truly do, but there's one big problem, There is NO privacy where I live. I live with my boyfriend, who is, sadly, very closed minded. He definitely gets it from his parents, which are very religious. I dont want to hear all this bs how The REAL FATHER OF LIES has all the damn glory, i mean it really makes me sad, which i was accually surprised that I felt like that, holding back tears,. but i got to put up with it. I feel stuck in a rock n a hard place, If I come out and be who I feel like I realy am,Unfortunately, I will be a bum out on the streets.

And something I dont get, ok, I havnt had any sleep in about 3 days, not for nothing though, Ive read what other SS have siad about Satan will make himself more known to you after the dedication ritual.
I was meditating couple night ago, and it was impossible, In my head it was very vivd..and annoying! My boyfriends father was trying to distract me, (my boyfriends dad does talk alot tho, and he annoys me) but this was bad, like it wasnt my bfs dad, he was taunting me, laughing at me, In my head I would get up and start waling the shit out of him when I saw that creepy ass smile then I knew it wasnt me, So in my head I got up, ran up toward him and just starting beating the crap out of him, he got scared at first, but then just started doing the same shit, laughing making me go crazy

Id tell myself something like calm down, ignore it, and for some reason, Eminem's voice (YES EMINEM) would rhyme what I siad, so I couldnt meditate, I couldnt sleep.

I used to smoke out on the front porch (now i have to smoke in the back yard) and after i got into ss, this tree accross the street, the leaves are perfectly haped to look exactly like the the "evil" Satan, big creepy grin, horns, scary eyes. I thought it was just because Im thinking of Satan or something

Last night I was smokin out back and i just noticed another tree and WTF, I cant even describe it, it had a human features to it but it had alot more detail, urgh my stupid brain cant think right now! I know it aint a demon that shit was really trying to scare me, I was smilin on the outside but inside,i was like "ooo fuukk.."

Its just bullshit cuz they make me real weak then pull this shit on me, I mean all night last nyt, it was on it was either i was really hallucinating from no sleep or something was always following me, tall dark shadow.

It just confuses me because I havnt dedicated myself yet, why are these fuckers fucking with me now?, Ive only seen satan once, he never spoke, just smiled, and left and that was it.

I need some help, Im not sure what to do.

I feel so alone



 
Well, i now know it was def the greys, I found a picture of one, and it was EXACTLY the same as the face staring at me, it freaked me out, also, do all demons have a blue aura? I told satan i wasnt backing down they can get fucked, i got 2 calls for an interview tomarrow, both in short walking distance, i havnt been able to find a job in over a year.
HAIL SATAN!

From: Kevin Poole <k.poole83@...
To: [email protected]
Sent: Tue, November 2, 2010 2:57:03 PM
Subject: Re: [JoyofSatan666] Gay ass angels,

  first off you arent alone your never alone and as long as you follow satan youll never be alone as for your visions or whatever they were idk ive never experienced anything like that before for the most part of what im reading it sounds like you may have one or more of the enemy "grey reptilian "angel"" i would advise doing a banishing ritual and afew protection rituals to see if that helps as for the dedication you can do it in your astral temple if you like and the last point ill make is about your boyfriend and his family i myself would tell them to go fuck themselves...damn closed minded xians but i wont advise you to do that because im not in your position and ive always been one to say what pops into my mind..regardless of the way people react to it but as i was saying you can do the dedication in your astral temple and id advise trying to banish and protect yourself from whatever is harrasing you.   hope my rant helped you alittle.

From: brandyl91 <brandyl91@...
To: [email protected]
Sent: Mon, November 1, 2010 5:04:18 PM
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] Gay ass angels,

  My name is Brandy, Im 19 yrs old,I Live in tampa, fl.

I havnt slept in almost 3 days so if i sound a little off, its because its really hard for me to think right now

Its weird how i grew up truly hating "god" and yet scared to death of Satan, I really thought there was no hope for me. instead of writing 5 paragraphs explaining my life, long story short, this so called loving and forgiving poser, has made my life a living hell. Half of my life, I wished that I could be on Satan's side, that he would love me, but like I said I was scared. The only satanism I knew little about was Anton LeVay, and it wasn't for me, Ive never thought that Satan doesn't exit..even tho i have doubted god so many times

About 4 months ago, I don't know why but I decided to look up all of the different types of satanism, just for kicks I guess, and maybe just a little bit of hope...THATS WHEN I FOUND THE JoS, And it just blew my fucking mind away, reading about SS. Nothing has made more sense in my fuckin life.

ok, first off, I haven't dedicated myself yet, From the bottom of my heart I truly do, but there's one big problem, There is NO privacy where I live. I live with my boyfriend, who is, sadly, very closed minded. He definitely gets it from his parents, which are very religious. I dont want to hear all this bs how The REAL FATHER OF LIES has all the damn glory, i mean it really makes me sad, which i was accually surprised that I felt like that, holding back tears,. but i got to put up with it. I feel stuck in a rock n a hard place, If I come out and be who I feel like I realy am,Unfortunately, I will be a bum out on the streets.

And something I dont get, ok, I havnt had any sleep in about 3 days, not for nothing though, Ive read what other SS have siad about Satan will make himself more known to you after the dedication ritual.
I was meditating couple night ago, and it was impossible, In my head it was very vivd..and annoying! My boyfriends father was trying to distract me, (my boyfriends dad does talk alot tho, and he annoys me) but this was bad, like it wasnt my bfs dad, he was taunting me, laughing at me, In my head I would get up and start waling the shit out of him when I saw that creepy ass smile then I knew it wasnt me, So in my head I got up, ran up toward him and just starting beating the crap out of him, he got scared at first, but then just started doing the same shit, laughing making me go crazy

Id tell myself something like calm down, ignore it, and for some reason, Eminem's voice (YES EMINEM) would rhyme what I siad, so I couldnt meditate, I couldnt sleep.

I used to smoke out on the front porch (now i have to smoke in the back yard) and after i got into ss, this tree accross the street, the leaves are perfectly haped to look exactly like the the "evil" Satan, big creepy grin, horns, scary eyes. I thought it was just because Im thinking of Satan or something

Last night I was smokin out back and i just noticed another tree and WTF, I cant even describe it, it had a human features to it but it had alot more detail, urgh my stupid brain cant think right now! I know it aint a demon that shit was really trying to scare me, I was smilin on the outside but inside,i was like "ooo fuukk.."

Its just bullshit cuz they make me real weak then pull this shit on me, I mean all night last nyt, it was on it was either i was really hallucinating from no sleep or something was always following me, tall dark shadow.

It just confuses me because I havnt dedicated myself yet, why are these fuckers fucking with me now?, Ive only seen satan once, he never spoke, just smiled, and left and that was it.

I need some help, Im not sure what to do.

I feel so alone




 
i am not afraid of doing the ritual, in fact i cant wait lol. i dont have any candles right now :/ or privacy


From: The only Saval <sonaked365ke@...
To: [email protected]
Sent: Tue, November 2, 2010 1:38:18 PM
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] Gay ass angels,

 
<td style="font:[/IMG]Firstly,
I advise you to do the dedication soon so as to permanently link yoursel to Father Satan...trust m,I can state with certainty that what you fear is nothing more than Bullshit

Overcome it,Father Satan says he takes care of his own and that is true
Second,ask for Father Satan's help
<img>They're not Dead,they that leave their hearts behind.Live Free!              <img>SAVAL[/TD]

 
Everything is going to work out. We have to take the money from the jews!! HAIL SATAN and all who are his!! 88Sent via BlackBerry from T-MobileFrom: brandy light <brandyl91@... Sender: [email protected] Date: Tue, 2 Nov 2010 16:12:16 -0700 (PDT)To: <[email protected]ReplyTo: [email protected] Subject: Re: [JoyofSatan666] Gay ass angels,
  Well, i now know it was def the greys, I found a picture of one, and it was EXACTLY the same as the face staring at me, it freaked me out, also, do all demons have a blue aura? I told satan i wasnt backing down they can get fucked, i got 2 calls for an interview tomarrow, both in short walking distance, i havnt been able to find a job in over a year.
HAIL SATAN!

From: Kevin Poole <k.poole83@...
To: [email protected]
Sent: Tue, November 2, 2010 2:57:03 PM
Subject: Re: [JoyofSatan666] Gay ass angels,

  first off you arent alone your never alone and as long as you follow satan youll never be alone as for your visions or whatever they were idk ive never experienced anything like that before for the most part of what im reading it sounds like you may have one or more of the enemy "grey reptilian "angel"" i would advise doing a banishing ritual and afew protection rituals to see if that helps as for the dedication you can do it in your astral temple if you like and the last point ill make is about your boyfriend and his family i myself would tell them to go fuck themselves...damn closed minded xians but i wont advise you to do that because im not in your position and ive always been one to say what pops into my mind..regardless of the way people react to it but as i was saying you can do the dedication in your astral temple and id advise trying to banish and protect yourself from whatever is harrasing you.   hope my rant helped you alittle.

From: brandyl91 <brandyl91@...
To: [email protected]
Sent: Mon, November 1, 2010 5:04:18 PM
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] Gay ass angels,

  My name is Brandy, Im 19 yrs old,I Live in tampa, fl.

I havnt slept in almost 3 days so if i sound a little off, its because its really hard for me to think right now

Its weird how i grew up truly hating "god" and yet scared to death of Satan, I really thought there was no hope for me. instead of writing 5 paragraphs explaining my life, long story short, this so called loving and forgiving poser, has made my life a living hell. Half of my life, I wished that I could be on Satan's side, that he would love me, but like I said I was scared. The only satanism I knew little about was Anton LeVay, and it wasn't for me, Ive never thought that Satan doesn't exit..even tho i have doubted god so many times

About 4 months ago, I don't know why but I decided to look up all of the different types of satanism, just for kicks I guess, and maybe just a little bit of hope...THATS WHEN I FOUND THE JoS, And it just blew my fucking mind away, reading about SS. Nothing has made more sense in my fuckin life.

ok, first off, I haven't dedicated myself yet, From the bottom of my heart I truly do, but there's one big problem, There is NO privacy where I live. I live with my boyfriend, who is, sadly, very closed minded. He definitely gets it from his parents, which are very religious. I dont want to hear all this bs how The REAL FATHER OF LIES has all the damn glory, i mean it really makes me sad, which i was accually surprised that I felt like that, holding back tears,. but i got to put up with it. I feel stuck in a rock n a hard place, If I come out and be who I feel like I realy am,Unfortunately, I will be a bum out on the streets.

And something I dont get, ok, I havnt had any sleep in about 3 days, not for nothing though, Ive read what other SS have siad about Satan will make himself more known to you after the dedication ritual.
I was meditating couple night ago, and it was impossible, In my head it was very vivd..and annoying! My boyfriends father was trying to distract me, (my boyfriends dad does talk alot tho, and he annoys me) but this was bad, like it wasnt my bfs dad, he was taunting me, laughing at me, In my head I would get up and start waling the shit out of him when I saw that creepy ass smile then I knew it wasnt me, So in my head I got up, ran up toward him and just starting beating the crap out of him, he got scared at first, but then just started doing the same shit, laughing making me go crazy

Id tell myself something like calm down, ignore it, and for some reason, Eminem's voice (YES EMINEM) would rhyme what I siad, so I couldnt meditate, I couldnt sleep.

I used to smoke out on the front porch (now i have to smoke in the back yard) and after i got into ss, this tree accross the street, the leaves are perfectly haped to look exactly like the the "evil" Satan, big creepy grin, horns, scary eyes. I thought it was just because Im thinking of Satan or something

Last night I was smokin out back and i just noticed another tree and WTF, I cant even describe it, it had a human features to it but it had alot more detail, urgh my stupid brain cant think right now! I know it aint a demon that shit was really trying to scare me, I was smilin on the outside but inside,i was like "ooo fuukk.."

Its just bullshit cuz they make me real weak then pull this shit on me, I mean all night last nyt, it was on it was either i was really hallucinating from no sleep or something was always following me, tall dark shadow.

It just confuses me because I havnt dedicated myself yet, why are these fuckers fucking with me now?, Ive only seen satan once, he never spoke, just smiled, and left and that was it.

I need some help, Im not sure what to do.

I feel so alone




 
Why are you using the word "gay" as an insult here?We're not homophobic, and there's nothing bad in being gay.

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "brandyl91" <brandyl91@... wrote:

My name is Brandy, Im 19 yrs old,I Live in tampa, fl.

I havnt slept in almost 3 days so if i sound a little off, its because its really hard for me to think right now


Its weird how i grew up truly hating "god" and yet scared to death of Satan, I really thought there was no hope for me. instead of writing 5 paragraphs explaining my life, long story short, this so called loving and forgiving poser, has made my life a living hell. Half of my life, I wished that I could be on Satan's side, that he would love me, but like I said I was scared. The only satanism I knew little about was Anton LeVay, and it wasn't for me, Ive never thought that Satan doesn't exit..even tho i have doubted god so many times

About 4 months ago, I don't know why but I decided to look up all of the different types of satanism, just for kicks I guess, and maybe just a little bit of hope...THATS WHEN I FOUND THE JoS, And it just blew my fucking mind away, reading about SS. Nothing has made more sense in my fuckin life.


ok, first off, I haven't dedicated myself yet, From the bottom of my heart I truly do, but there's one big problem, There is NO privacy where I live. I live with my boyfriend, who is, sadly, very closed minded. He definitely gets it from his parents, which are very religious. I dont want to hear all this bs how The REAL FATHER OF LIES has all the damn glory, i mean it really makes me sad, which i was accually surprised that I felt like that, holding back tears,. but i got to put up with it. I feel stuck in a rock n a hard place, If I come out and be who I feel like I realy am,Unfortunately, I will be a bum out on the streets.

And something I dont get, ok, I havnt had any sleep in about 3 days, not for nothing though, Ive read what other SS have siad about Satan will make himself more known to you after the dedication ritual.
I was meditating couple night ago, and it was impossible, In my head it was very vivd..and annoying! My boyfriends father was trying to distract me, (my boyfriends dad does talk alot tho, and he annoys me) but this was bad, like it wasnt my bfs dad, he was taunting me, laughing at me, In my head I would get up and start waling the shit out of him when I saw that creepy ass smile then I knew it wasnt me, So in my head I got up, ran up toward him and just starting beating the crap out of him, he got scared at first, but then just started doing the same shit, laughing making me go crazy


Id tell myself something like calm down, ignore it, and for some reason, Eminem's voice (YES EMINEM) would rhyme what I siad, so I couldnt meditate, I couldnt sleep.

I used to smoke out on the front porch (now i have to smoke in the back yard) and after i got into ss, this tree accross the street, the leaves are perfectly haped to look exactly like the the "evil" Satan, big creepy grin, horns, scary eyes. I thought it was just because Im thinking of Satan or something

Last night I was smokin out back and i just noticed another tree and WTF, I cant even describe it, it had a human features to it but it had alot more detail, urgh my stupid brain cant think right now! I know it aint a demon that shit was really trying to scare me, I was smilin on the outside but inside,i was like "ooo fuukk.."

Its just bullshit cuz they make me real weak then pull this shit on me, I mean all night last nyt, it was on it was either i was really hallucinating from no sleep or something was always following me, tall dark shadow.

It just confuses me because I havnt dedicated myself yet, why are these fuckers fucking with me now?, Ive only seen satan once, he never spoke, just smiled, and left and that was it.

I need some help, Im not sure what to do.

I feel so alone
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I don't think he meant it to insult us. I'm homosexual and I take no offense to it, hell even I use gay in that term and I'm the one sucking rainbows here. Not saying nobody would take offense, just saying, I don't think he meant it to insult -us-.
--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "kikesmasher71" <kikesmasher71@... wrote:

Why are you using the word "gay" as an insult here?We're not homophobic, and there's nothing bad in being gay.
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lol I was waiting for someone to say something

My bad, I def dont have a problem with gay people, my aunt and my brother are gay and i love them both dearly. I really dont know why I chose that word, just the lack of sleep.


From: kikesmasher71 <kikesmasher71@...
To: [email protected]
Sent: Wed, November 3, 2010 10:26:15 AM
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] Re: Gay ass angels,

  Why are you using the word "gay" as an insult here?We're not homophobic, and there's nothing bad in being gay.

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "brandyl91" <brandyl91@... wrote:

My name is Brandy, Im 19 yrs old,I Live in tampa, fl.

I havnt slept in almost 3 days so if i sound a little off, its because its really hard for me to think right now


Its weird how i grew up truly hating "god" and yet scared to death of Satan, I really thought there was no hope for me. instead of writing 5 paragraphs explaining my life, long story short, this so called loving and forgiving poser, has made my life a living hell. Half of my life, I wished that I could be on Satan's side, that he would love me, but like I said I was scared. The only satanism I knew little about was Anton LeVay, and it wasn't for me, Ive never thought that Satan doesn't exit..even tho i have doubted god so many times

About 4 months ago, I don't know why but I decided to look up all of the different types of satanism, just for kicks I guess, and maybe just a little bit of hope...THATS WHEN I FOUND THE JoS, And it just blew my fucking mind away, reading about SS. Nothing has made more sense in my fuckin life.


ok, first off, I haven't dedicated myself yet, From the bottom of my heart I truly do, but there's one big problem, There is NO privacy where I live. I live with my boyfriend, who is, sadly, very closed minded. He definitely gets it from his parents, which are very religious. I dont want to hear all this bs how The REAL FATHER OF LIES has all the damn glory, i mean it really makes me sad, which i was accually surprised that I felt like that, holding back tears,. but i got to put up with it. I feel stuck in a rock n a hard place, If I come out and be who I feel like I realy am,Unfortunately, I will be a bum out on the streets.

And something I dont get, ok, I havnt had any sleep in about 3 days, not for nothing though, Ive read what other SS have siad about Satan will make himself more known to you after the dedication ritual.
I was meditating couple night ago, and it was impossible, In my head it was very vivd..and annoying! My boyfriends father was trying to distract me, (my boyfriends dad does talk alot tho, and he annoys me) but this was bad, like it wasnt my bfs dad, he was taunting me, laughing at me, In my head I would get up and start waling the shit out of him when I saw that creepy ass smile then I knew it wasnt me, So in my head I got up, ran up toward him and just starting beating the crap out of him, he got scared at first, but then just started doing the same shit, laughing making me go crazy


Id tell myself something like calm down, ignore it, and for some reason, Eminem's voice (YES EMINEM) would rhyme what I siad, so I couldnt meditate, I couldnt sleep.

I used to smoke out on the front porch (now i have to smoke in the back yard) and after i got into ss, this tree accross the street, the leaves are perfectly haped to look exactly like the the "evil" Satan, big creepy grin, horns, scary eyes. I thought it was just because Im thinking of Satan or something

Last night I was smokin out back and i just noticed another tree and WTF, I cant even describe it, it had a human features to it but it had alot more detail, urgh my stupid brain cant think right now! I know it aint a demon that shit was really trying to scare me, I was smilin on the outside but inside,i was like "ooo fuukk.."

Its just bullshit cuz they make me real weak then pull this shit on me, I mean all night last nyt, it was on it was either i was really hallucinating from no sleep or something was always following me, tall dark shadow.

It just confuses me because I havnt dedicated myself yet, why are these fuckers fucking with me now?, Ive only seen satan once, he never spoke, just smiled, and left and that was it.

I need some help, Im not sure what to do.

I feel so alone
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I know your comment was directed at the other person, and I not her. I use the term "gay" all the time. Like for instance "my computer is being gay." I don't mean to insult homosexuals with that, nor am I homophobic. It is just something I say. I'm bisexual, so I am technically half "gay."

Likewise, my homo-friend, who is actually gay, says "that's gay" quite frequently. I don't think she meant it as an insult to homosexuals.

HAIL SATAN AND THE GODS OF HELL
--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "kikesmasher71" <kikesmasher71@... wrote:

Why are you using the word "gay" as an insult here?We're not homophobic, and there's nothing bad in being gay.

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "brandyl91" <brandyl91@ wrote:

My name is Brandy, Im 19 yrs old,I Live in tampa, fl.

I havnt slept in almost 3 days so if i sound a little off, its because its really hard for me to think right now


Its weird how i grew up truly hating "god" and yet scared to death of Satan, I really thought there was no hope for me. instead of writing 5 paragraphs explaining my life, long story short, this so called loving and forgiving poser, has made my life a living hell. Half of my life, I wished that I could be on Satan's side, that he would love me, but like I said I was scared. The only satanism I knew little about was Anton LeVay, and it wasn't for me, Ive never thought that Satan doesn't exit..even tho i have doubted god so many times

About 4 months ago, I don't know why but I decided to look up all of the different types of satanism, just for kicks I guess, and maybe just a little bit of hope...THATS WHEN I FOUND THE JoS, And it just blew my fucking mind away, reading about SS. Nothing has made more sense in my fuckin life.


ok, first off, I haven't dedicated myself yet, From the bottom of my heart I truly do, but there's one big problem, There is NO privacy where I live. I live with my boyfriend, who is, sadly, very closed minded. He definitely gets it from his parents, which are very religious. I dont want to hear all this bs how The REAL FATHER OF LIES has all the damn glory, i mean it really makes me sad, which i was accually surprised that I felt like that, holding back tears,. but i got to put up with it. I feel stuck in a rock n a hard place, If I come out and be who I feel like I realy am,Unfortunately, I will be a bum out on the streets.

And something I dont get, ok, I havnt had any sleep in about 3 days, not for nothing though, Ive read what other SS have siad about Satan will make himself more known to you after the dedication ritual.
I was meditating couple night ago, and it was impossible, In my head it was very vivd..and annoying! My boyfriends father was trying to distract me, (my boyfriends dad does talk alot tho, and he annoys me) but this was bad, like it wasnt my bfs dad, he was taunting me, laughing at me, In my head I would get up and start waling the shit out of him when I saw that creepy ass smile then I knew it wasnt me, So in my head I got up, ran up toward him and just starting beating the crap out of him, he got scared at first, but then just started doing the same shit, laughing making me go crazy


Id tell myself something like calm down, ignore it, and for some reason, Eminem's voice (YES EMINEM) would rhyme what I siad, so I couldnt meditate, I couldnt sleep.

I used to smoke out on the front porch (now i have to smoke in the back yard) and after i got into ss, this tree accross the street, the leaves are perfectly haped to look exactly like the the "evil" Satan, big creepy grin, horns, scary eyes. I thought it was just because Im thinking of Satan or something

Last night I was smokin out back and i just noticed another tree and WTF, I cant even describe it, it had a human features to it but it had alot more detail, urgh my stupid brain cant think right now! I know it aint a demon that shit was really trying to scare me, I was smilin on the outside but inside,i was like "ooo fuukk.."

Its just bullshit cuz they make me real weak then pull this shit on me, I mean all night last nyt, it was on it was either i was really hallucinating from no sleep or something was always following me, tall dark shadow.

It just confuses me because I havnt dedicated myself yet, why are these fuckers fucking with me now?, Ive only seen satan once, he never spoke, just smiled, and left and that was it.

I need some help, Im not sure what to do.

I feel so alone
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I was wondering the same thing! It really gets under my skin when people say that like it is an insult!
Sounds like someone still has some Xtian (Jewish) hang ups to get over, and if they don't think its a bad thing, they need to be a fuck of a lot more careful about how you word things.
I'm sure most of us don't tolerate homophobia, and we shouldn't have to among those that know the truth, our God, Satan himself, is attracted to both men and women, so of course he isn't going to persecute us for it.
Its human nature!!
Hail Satan!!
Hail Khil!!
Hail Gomory!!
Power to the Gods of Hell!!Sent via BlackBerry by AT&TFrom: "kikesmasher71" <kikesmasher71@... Sender: [email protected] Date: Wed, 03 Nov 2010 14:26:15 -0000To: <[email protected]ReplyTo: [email protected] Subject: [JoyofSatan666] Re: Gay ass angels,
  Why are you using the word "gay" as an insult here?We're not homophobic, and there's nothing bad in being gay.

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "brandyl91" <brandyl91@... wrote:

My name is Brandy, Im 19 yrs old,I Live in tampa, fl.

I havnt slept in almost 3 days so if i sound a little off, its because its really hard for me to think right now


Its weird how i grew up truly hating "god" and yet scared to death of Satan, I really thought there was no hope for me. instead of writing 5 paragraphs explaining my life, long story short, this so called loving and forgiving poser, has made my life a living hell. Half of my life, I wished that I could be on Satan's side, that he would love me, but like I said I was scared. The only satanism I knew little about was Anton LeVay, and it wasn't for me, Ive never thought that Satan doesn't exit..even tho i have doubted god so many times

About 4 months ago, I don't know why but I decided to look up all of the different types of satanism, just for kicks I guess, and maybe just a little bit of hope...THATS WHEN I FOUND THE JoS, And it just blew my fucking mind away, reading about SS. Nothing has made more sense in my fuckin life.


ok, first off, I haven't dedicated myself yet, From the bottom of my heart I truly do, but there's one big problem, There is NO privacy where I live. I live with my boyfriend, who is, sadly, very closed minded. He definitely gets it from his parents, which are very religious. I dont want to hear all this bs how The REAL FATHER OF LIES has all the damn glory, i mean it really makes me sad, which i was accually surprised that I felt like that, holding back tears,. but i got to put up with it. I feel stuck in a rock n a hard place, If I come out and be who I feel like I realy am,Unfortunately, I will be a bum out on the streets.

And something I dont get, ok, I havnt had any sleep in about 3 days, not for nothing though, Ive read what other SS have siad about Satan will make himself more known to you after the dedication ritual.
I was meditating couple night ago, and it was impossible, In my head it was very vivd..and annoying! My boyfriends father was trying to distract me, (my boyfriends dad does talk alot tho, and he annoys me) but this was bad, like it wasnt my bfs dad, he was taunting me, laughing at me, In my head I would get up and start waling the shit out of him when I saw that creepy ass smile then I knew it wasnt me, So in my head I got up, ran up toward him and just starting beating the crap out of him, he got scared at first, but then just started doing the same shit, laughing making me go crazy


Id tell myself something like calm down, ignore it, and for some reason, Eminem's voice (YES EMINEM) would rhyme what I siad, so I couldnt meditate, I couldnt sleep.

I used to smoke out on the front porch (now i have to smoke in the back yard) and after i got into ss, this tree accross the street, the leaves are perfectly haped to look exactly like the the "evil" Satan, big creepy grin, horns, scary eyes. I thought it was just because Im thinking of Satan or something

Last night I was smokin out back and i just noticed another tree and WTF, I cant even describe it, it had a human features to it but it had alot more detail, urgh my stupid brain cant think right now! I know it aint a demon that shit was really trying to scare me, I was smilin on the outside but inside,i was like "ooo fuukk.."

Its just bullshit cuz they make me real weak then pull this shit on me, I mean all night last nyt, it was on it was either i was really hallucinating from no sleep or something was always following me, tall dark shadow.

It just confuses me because I havnt dedicated myself yet, why are these fuckers fucking with me now?, Ive only seen satan once, he never spoke, just smiled, and left and that was it.

I need some help, Im not sure what to do.

I feel so alone
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Come on guys dont make a big deal out of nothing. Im sure he meant no harm by it. We as Spiritual Satanist welcome people from all walks of life and we dont care about being gay or not gay.  But just because your in this group dont mean that the way society uses words to express a certain point is going to stop. You just have to look past that and move on and not to take it so personal. The word gay is used a lot in many different fashions. It's just like Satanist saying "fuck god" knowing that the One true God is Satan. Still no one takes it personal because we know how it was intended to mean. when mainstream here "God," they think of jewbus. So thats why we still use the term "fuck god" so that mainstream knows exactly what we mean.   I myself even talk like that, sometimes I will make refrence to something as being "gay". Dont mean I dislike gay people, it's just the way people use the word and you shouldnt take it so personal unless you know for sure he was anti-homo/gay. I have a gay brother so I am fairly use to gay people and I wouldnt want anyone hurting my brother.   Rege, Satanas! Rege, Azazel! Rege, Eligos! Rege, Decarabia!   Al Jiwah-<em>I remember necessary affairs and execute them in due time. I teach and guide those who follow my instructions.</em>   <em>-BlackLegionsOfSatan</em> <em>www.joyofsatan.com</em>

From: "xxmissylalaxx@..." <xxmissylalaxx@...
To: [email protected]
Sent: Wed, November 3, 2010 11:09:00 AM
Subject: Re: [JoyofSatan666] Re: Gay ass angels,

  I was wondering the same thing! It really gets under my skin when people say that like it is an insult!
Sounds like someone still has some Xtian (Jewish) hang ups to get over, and if they don't think its a bad thing, they need to be a fuck of a lot more careful about how you word things.
I'm sure most of us don't tolerate homophobia, and we shouldn't have to among those that know the truth, our God, Satan himself, is attracted to both men and women, so of course he isn't going to persecute us for it.
Its human nature!!
Hail Satan!!
Hail Khil!!
Hail Gomory!!
Power to the Gods of Hell!! Sent via BlackBerry by AT&T <hr> From: "kikesmasher71" <kikesmasher71@... Sender: [email protected] Date: Wed, 03 Nov 2010 14:26:15 -0000 To: <[email protected] ReplyTo: [email protected] Subject: [JoyofSatan666] Re: Gay ass angels,
  Why are you using the word "gay" as an insult here?We're not homophobic, and there's nothing bad in being gay.

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "brandyl91" <brandyl91@... wrote:

My name is Brandy, Im 19 yrs old,I Live in tampa, fl.

I havnt slept in almost 3 days so if i sound a little off, its because its really hard for me to think right now


Its weird how i grew up truly hating "god" and yet scared to death of Satan, I really thought there was no hope for me. instead of writing 5 paragraphs explaining my life, long story short, this so called loving and forgiving poser, has made my life a living hell. Half of my life, I wished that I could be on Satan's side, that he would love me, but like I said I was scared. The only satanism I knew little about was Anton LeVay, and it wasn't for me, Ive never thought that Satan doesn't exit..even tho i have doubted god so many times

About 4 months ago, I don't know why but I decided to look up all of the different types of satanism, just for kicks I guess, and maybe just a little bit of hope...THATS WHEN I FOUND THE JoS, And it just blew my fucking mind away, reading about SS. Nothing has made more sense in my fuckin life.


ok, first off, I haven't dedicated myself yet, From the bottom of my heart I truly do, but there's one big problem, There is NO privacy where I live. I live with my boyfriend, who is, sadly, very closed minded. He definitely gets it from his parents, which are very religious. I dont want to hear all this bs how The REAL FATHER OF LIES has all the damn glory, i mean it really makes me sad, which i was accually surprised that I felt like that, holding back tears,. but i got to put up with it. I feel stuck in a rock n a hard place, If I come out and be who I feel like I realy am,Unfortunately, I will be a bum out on the streets.

And something I dont get, ok, I havnt had any sleep in about 3 days, not for nothing though, Ive read what other SS have siad about Satan will make himself more known to you after the dedication ritual.
I was meditating couple night ago, and it was impossible, In my head it was very vivd..and annoying! My boyfriends father was trying to distract me, (my boyfriends dad does talk alot tho, and he annoys me) but this was bad, like it wasnt my bfs dad, he was taunting me, laughing at me, In my head I would get up and start waling the shit out of him when I saw that creepy ass smile then I knew it wasnt me, So in my head I got up, ran up toward him and just starting beating the crap out of him, he got scared at first, but then just started doing the same shit, laughing making me go crazy


Id tell myself something like calm down, ignore it, and for some reason, Eminem's voice (YES EMINEM) would rhyme what I siad, so I couldnt meditate, I couldnt sleep.

I used to smoke out on the front porch (now i have to smoke in the back yard) and after i got into ss, this tree accross the street, the leaves are perfectly haped to look exactly like the the "evil" Satan, big creepy grin, horns, scary eyes. I thought it was just because Im thinking of Satan or something

Last night I was smokin out back and i just noticed another tree and WTF, I cant even describe it, it had a human features to it but it had alot more detail, urgh my stupid brain cant think right now! I know it aint a demon that shit was really trying to scare me, I was smilin on the outside but inside,i was like "ooo fuukk.."

Its just bullshit cuz they make me real weak then pull this shit on me, I mean all night last nyt, it was on it was either i was really hallucinating from no sleep or something was always following me, tall dark shadow.

It just confuses me because I havnt dedicated myself yet, why are these fuckers fucking with me now?, Ive only seen satan once, he never spoke, just smiled, and left and that was it.

I need some help, Im not sure what to do.

I feel so alone
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As your friendly neighborhood Rev and troll janitor of the SGC. The crucifixion of a newbie for use of popular lingo, is not required. Some people are gay and then some others still are just ghey. This we all know, for popular culture tells us so.

From: Blacklegions Of satan <blacklegionsofsatan@...
To: [email protected]
Sent: Wed, November 3, 2010 5:01:30 PM
Subject: Re: [JoyofSatan666] Re: Gay ass angels,

  Come on guys dont make a big deal out of nothing. Im sure he meant no harm by it. We as Spiritual Satanist welcome people from all walks of life and we dont care about being gay or not gay.  But just because your in this group dont mean that the way society uses words to express a certain point is going to stop. You just have to look past that and move on and not to take it so personal. The word gay is used a lot in many different fashions. It's just like Satanist saying "fuck god" knowing that the One true God is Satan. Still no one takes it personal because we know how it was intended to mean. when mainstream here "God," they think of jewbus. So thats why we still use the term "fuck god" so that mainstream knows exactly what we mean.   I myself even talk like that, sometimes I will make refrence to something as being "gay". Dont mean I dislike gay people, it's just the way people use the word and you shouldnt take it so personal unless you know for sure he was anti-homo/gay. I have a gay brother so I am fairly use to gay people and I wouldnt want anyone hurting my brother.   Rege, Satanas! Rege, Azazel! Rege, Eligos! Rege, Decarabia!   Al Jiwah-<em>I remember necessary affairs and execute them in due time. I teach and guide those who follow my instructions.</em>   <em>-BlackLegionsOfSatan</em> <em>www.joyofsatan.com</em>

From: "xxmissylalaxx@..." <xxmissylalaxx@...
To: [email protected]
Sent: Wed, November 3, 2010 11:09:00 AM
Subject: Re: [JoyofSatan666] Re: Gay ass angels,

  I was wondering the same thing! It really gets under my skin when people say that like it is an insult!
Sounds like someone still has some Xtian (Jewish) hang ups to get over, and if they don't think its a bad thing, they need to be a fuck of a lot more careful about how you word things.
I'm sure most of us don't tolerate homophobia, and we shouldn't have to among those that know the truth, our God, Satan himself, is attracted to both men and women, so of course he isn't going to persecute us for it.
Its human nature!!
Hail Satan!!
Hail Khil!!
Hail Gomory!!
Power to the Gods of Hell!! Sent via BlackBerry by AT&T <hr> From: "kikesmasher71" <kikesmasher71@... Sender: [email protected] Date: Wed, 03 Nov 2010 14:26:15 -0000 To: <[email protected] ReplyTo: [email protected] Subject: [JoyofSatan666] Re: Gay ass angels,
  Why are you using the word "gay" as an insult here?We're not homophobic, and there's nothing bad in being gay.

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "brandyl91" <brandyl91@... wrote:

My name is Brandy, Im 19 yrs old,I Live in tampa, fl.

I havnt slept in almost 3 days so if i sound a little off, its because its really hard for me to think right now


Its weird how i grew up truly hating "god" and yet scared to death of Satan, I really thought there was no hope for me. instead of writing 5 paragraphs explaining my life, long story short, this so called loving and forgiving poser, has made my life a living hell. Half of my life, I wished that I could be on Satan's side, that he would love me, but like I said I was scared. The only satanism I knew little about was Anton LeVay, and it wasn't for me, Ive never thought that Satan doesn't exit..even tho i have doubted god so many times

About 4 months ago, I don't know why but I decided to look up all of the different types of satanism, just for kicks I guess, and maybe just a little bit of hope...THATS WHEN I FOUND THE JoS, And it just blew my fucking mind away, reading about SS. Nothing has made more sense in my fuckin life.


ok, first off, I haven't dedicated myself yet, From the bottom of my heart I truly do, but there's one big problem, There is NO privacy where I live. I live with my boyfriend, who is, sadly, very closed minded. He definitely gets it from his parents, which are very religious. I dont want to hear all this bs how The REAL FATHER OF LIES has all the damn glory, i mean it really makes me sad, which i was accually surprised that I felt like that, holding back tears,. but i got to put up with it. I feel stuck in a rock n a hard place, If I come out and be who I feel like I realy am,Unfortunately, I will be a bum out on the streets.

And something I dont get, ok, I havnt had any sleep in about 3 days, not for nothing though, Ive read what other SS have siad about Satan will make himself more known to you after the dedication ritual.
I was meditating couple night ago, and it was impossible, In my head it was very vivd..and annoying! My boyfriends father was trying to distract me, (my boyfriends dad does talk alot tho, and he annoys me) but this was bad, like it wasnt my bfs dad, he was taunting me, laughing at me, In my head I would get up and start waling the shit out of him when I saw that creepy ass smile then I knew it wasnt me, So in my head I got up, ran up toward him and just starting beating the crap out of him, he got scared at first, but then just started doing the same shit, laughing making me go crazy


Id tell myself something like calm down, ignore it, and for some reason, Eminem's voice (YES EMINEM) would rhyme what I siad, so I couldnt meditate, I couldnt sleep.

I used to smoke out on the front porch (now i have to smoke in the back yard) and after i got into ss, this tree accross the street, the leaves are perfectly haped to look exactly like the the "evil" Satan, big creepy grin, horns, scary eyes. I thought it was just because Im thinking of Satan or something

Last night I was smokin out back and i just noticed another tree and WTF, I cant even describe it, it had a human features to it but it had alot more detail, urgh my stupid brain cant think right now! I know it aint a demon that shit was really trying to scare me, I was smilin on the outside but inside,i was like "ooo fuukk.."

Its just bullshit cuz they make me real weak then pull this shit on me, I mean all night last nyt, it was on it was either i was really hallucinating from no sleep or something was always following me, tall dark shadow.

It just confuses me because I havnt dedicated myself yet, why are these fuckers fucking with me now?, Ive only seen satan once, he never spoke, just smiled, and left and that was it.

I need some help, Im not sure what to do.

I feel so alone
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Since you're new, I'd suggest you de-program yourself from all the lies and then dedicate yourself.

As for having no privacy, when you wake up, keep your eyes shut, and clean your aura in bed. You can also lock yourself in the bathroom and turn the shower on.

Also, I think it's best to stay out of your head [like that] because I personally think that's when the enemy likes to fuck with us. I remember I had a song playing in my head and had one of those fuckers scream at me (wich has really been the only "attack" I've had). My dad has even had the enemy fuck with him, when he was in church one day he was [in his head] just thinking about how stupid everyone looked in the choir and then an angel said "god loves every one of them" to him....which drove him to become a hard-core xian.....

I suggest doing more void meditation.

And when you said "gay" like it was an insult, the first thing that came to mind was that episode of South Park where Cartman repeatedly says "that's fuckin gay" so he can look even more poor & stupid.


--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "brandyl91" <brandyl91@... wrote:

My name is Brandy, Im 19 yrs old,I Live in tampa, fl.

I havnt slept in almost 3 days so if i sound a little off, its because its really hard for me to think right now


Its weird how i grew up truly hating "god" and yet scared to death of Satan, I really thought there was no hope for me. instead of writing 5 paragraphs explaining my life, long story short, this so called loving and forgiving poser, has made my life a living hell. Half of my life, I wished that I could be on Satan's side, that he would love me, but like I said I was scared. The only satanism I knew little about was Anton LeVay, and it wasn't for me, Ive never thought that Satan doesn't exit..even tho i have doubted god so many times

About 4 months ago, I don't know why but I decided to look up all of the different types of satanism, just for kicks I guess, and maybe just a little bit of hope...THATS WHEN I FOUND THE JoS, And it just blew my fucking mind away, reading about SS. Nothing has made more sense in my fuckin life.


ok, first off, I haven't dedicated myself yet, From the bottom of my heart I truly do, but there's one big problem, There is NO privacy where I live. I live with my boyfriend, who is, sadly, very closed minded. He definitely gets it from his parents, which are very religious. I dont want to hear all this bs how The REAL FATHER OF LIES has all the damn glory, i mean it really makes me sad, which i was accually surprised that I felt like that, holding back tears,. but i got to put up with it. I feel stuck in a rock n a hard place, If I come out and be who I feel like I realy am,Unfortunately, I will be a bum out on the streets.

And something I dont get, ok, I havnt had any sleep in about 3 days, not for nothing though, Ive read what other SS have siad about Satan will make himself more known to you after the dedication ritual.
I was meditating couple night ago, and it was impossible, In my head it was very vivd..and annoying! My boyfriends father was trying to distract me, (my boyfriends dad does talk alot tho, and he annoys me) but this was bad, like it wasnt my bfs dad, he was taunting me, laughing at me, In my head I would get up and start waling the shit out of him when I saw that creepy ass smile then I knew it wasnt me, So in my head I got up, ran up toward him and just starting beating the crap out of him, he got scared at first, but then just started doing the same shit, laughing making me go crazy


Id tell myself something like calm down, ignore it, and for some reason, Eminem's voice (YES EMINEM) would rhyme what I siad, so I couldnt meditate, I couldnt sleep.

I used to smoke out on the front porch (now i have to smoke in the back yard) and after i got into ss, this tree accross the street, the leaves are perfectly haped to look exactly like the the "evil" Satan, big creepy grin, horns, scary eyes. I thought it was just because Im thinking of Satan or something

Last night I was smokin out back and i just noticed another tree and WTF, I cant even describe it, it had a human features to it but it had alot more detail, urgh my stupid brain cant think right now! I know it aint a demon that shit was really trying to scare me, I was smilin on the outside but inside,i was like "ooo fuukk.."

Its just bullshit cuz they make me real weak then pull this shit on me, I mean all night last nyt, it was on it was either i was really hallucinating from no sleep or something was always following me, tall dark shadow.

It just confuses me because I havnt dedicated myself yet, why are these fuckers fucking with me now?, Ive only seen satan once, he never spoke, just smiled, and left and that was it.

I need some help, Im not sure what to do.

I feel so alone
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actually to me it sounds like there are demons messing with you. if u have done all your reaserch than u would c that there are many demons that are bad. demons that do not follow father satan. and i used to be taunted by them. they where figures that are shaped like a man but are solid black. sort of like a shadow. and most when they kno you are looking at them will leave. very fast almost in a blur. but some if strong will stare back. evan put thoughts in your head of majorr fear. wat you need to do is next time u see one or are being played with. i kno it will be very hard but star at them back and speak to them. tell them, you do not fear them they are an imberrisment and pathetic. and you will need to really be thinking of father satan youll need his power

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "kikesmasher71" <kikesmasher71@... wrote:

Why are you using the word "gay" as an insult here?We're not homophobic, and there's nothing bad in being gay.

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "brandyl91" <brandyl91@ wrote:

My name is Brandy, Im 19 yrs old,I Live in tampa, fl.

I havnt slept in almost 3 days so if i sound a little off, its because its really hard for me to think right now


Its weird how i grew up truly hating "god" and yet scared to death of Satan, I really thought there was no hope for me. instead of writing 5 paragraphs explaining my life, long story short, this so called loving and forgiving poser, has made my life a living hell. Half of my life, I wished that I could be on Satan's side, that he would love me, but like I said I was scared. The only satanism I knew little about was Anton LeVay, and it wasn't for me, Ive never thought that Satan doesn't exit..even tho i have doubted god so many times

About 4 months ago, I don't know why but I decided to look up all of the different types of satanism, just for kicks I guess, and maybe just a little bit of hope...THATS WHEN I FOUND THE JoS, And it just blew my fucking mind away, reading about SS. Nothing has made more sense in my fuckin life.


ok, first off, I haven't dedicated myself yet, From the bottom of my heart I truly do, but there's one big problem, There is NO privacy where I live. I live with my boyfriend, who is, sadly, very closed minded. He definitely gets it from his parents, which are very religious. I dont want to hear all this bs how The REAL FATHER OF LIES has all the damn glory, i mean it really makes me sad, which i was accually surprised that I felt like that, holding back tears,. but i got to put up with it. I feel stuck in a rock n a hard place, If I come out and be who I feel like I realy am,Unfortunately, I will be a bum out on the streets.

And something I dont get, ok, I havnt had any sleep in about 3 days, not for nothing though, Ive read what other SS have siad about Satan will make himself more known to you after the dedication ritual.
I was meditating couple night ago, and it was impossible, In my head it was very vivd..and annoying! My boyfriends father was trying to distract me, (my boyfriends dad does talk alot tho, and he annoys me) but this was bad, like it wasnt my bfs dad, he was taunting me, laughing at me, In my head I would get up and start waling the shit out of him when I saw that creepy ass smile then I knew it wasnt me, So in my head I got up, ran up toward him and just starting beating the crap out of him, he got scared at first, but then just started doing the same shit, laughing making me go crazy


Id tell myself something like calm down, ignore it, and for some reason, Eminem's voice (YES EMINEM) would rhyme what I siad, so I couldnt meditate, I couldnt sleep.

I used to smoke out on the front porch (now i have to smoke in the back yard) and after i got into ss, this tree accross the street, the leaves are perfectly haped to look exactly like the the "evil" Satan, big creepy grin, horns, scary eyes. I thought it was just because Im thinking of Satan or something

Last night I was smokin out back and i just noticed another tree and WTF, I cant even describe it, it had a human features to it but it had alot more detail, urgh my stupid brain cant think right now! I know it aint a demon that shit was really trying to scare me, I was smilin on the outside but inside,i was like "ooo fuukk.."

Its just bullshit cuz they make me real weak then pull this shit on me, I mean all night last nyt, it was on it was either i was really hallucinating from no sleep or something was always following me, tall dark shadow.

It just confuses me because I havnt dedicated myself yet, why are these fuckers fucking with me now?, Ive only seen satan once, he never spoke, just smiled, and left and that was it.

I need some help, Im not sure what to do.

I feel so alone
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Josh, "Demons" is not a race or a species, it is a TILE, it means the extraterrestrials under Satan. There's no Demon that is not under Satan and if a Demon leaves his/her name changes and is called an angel. Most Demons and most enemy angels look simillar, their difference is the side they are in. They're both nordics.

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "Josh Lingenfelter" <themanchild699@... wrote:

actually to me it sounds like there are demons messing with you. if u have done all your reaserch than u would c that there are many demons that are bad. demons that do not follow father satan. and i used to be taunted by them. they where figures that are shaped like a man but are solid black. sort of like a shadow. and most when they kno you are looking at them will leave. very fast almost in a blur. but some if strong will stare back. evan put thoughts in your head of majorr fear. wat you need to do is next time u see one or are being played with. i kno it will be very hard but star at them back and speak to them. tell them, you do not fear them they are an imberrisment and pathetic. and you will need to really be thinking of father satan youll need his power

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "kikesmasher71" <kikesmasher71@ wrote:

Why are you using the word "gay" as an insult here?We're not homophobic, and there's nothing bad in being gay.

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "brandyl91" <brandyl91@ wrote:

My name is Brandy, Im 19 yrs old,I Live in tampa, fl.

I havnt slept in almost 3 days so if i sound a little off, its because its really hard for me to think right now


Its weird how i grew up truly hating "god" and yet scared to death of Satan, I really thought there was no hope for me. instead of writing 5 paragraphs explaining my life, long story short, this so called loving and forgiving poser, has made my life a living hell. Half of my life, I wished that I could be on Satan's side, that he would love me, but like I said I was scared. The only satanism I knew little about was Anton LeVay, and it wasn't for me, Ive never thought that Satan doesn't exit..even tho i have doubted god so many times

About 4 months ago, I don't know why but I decided to look up all of the different types of satanism, just for kicks I guess, and maybe just a little bit of hope...THATS WHEN I FOUND THE JoS, And it just blew my fucking mind away, reading about SS. Nothing has made more sense in my fuckin life.


ok, first off, I haven't dedicated myself yet, From the bottom of my heart I truly do, but there's one big problem, There is NO privacy where I live. I live with my boyfriend, who is, sadly, very closed minded. He definitely gets it from his parents, which are very religious. I dont want to hear all this bs how The REAL FATHER OF LIES has all the damn glory, i mean it really makes me sad, which i was accually surprised that I felt like that, holding back tears,. but i got to put up with it. I feel stuck in a rock n a hard place, If I come out and be who I feel like I realy am,Unfortunately, I will be a bum out on the streets.

And something I dont get, ok, I havnt had any sleep in about 3 days, not for nothing though, Ive read what other SS have siad about Satan will make himself more known to you after the dedication ritual.
I was meditating couple night ago, and it was impossible, In my head it was very vivd..and annoying! My boyfriends father was trying to distract me, (my boyfriends dad does talk alot tho, and he annoys me) but this was bad, like it wasnt my bfs dad, he was taunting me, laughing at me, In my head I would get up and start waling the shit out of him when I saw that creepy ass smile then I knew it wasnt me, So in my head I got up, ran up toward him and just starting beating the crap out of him, he got scared at first, but then just started doing the same shit, laughing making me go crazy


Id tell myself something like calm down, ignore it, and for some reason, Eminem's voice (YES EMINEM) would rhyme what I siad, so I couldnt meditate, I couldnt sleep.

I used to smoke out on the front porch (now i have to smoke in the back yard) and after i got into ss, this tree accross the street, the leaves are perfectly haped to look exactly like the the "evil" Satan, big creepy grin, horns, scary eyes. I thought it was just because Im thinking of Satan or something

Last night I was smokin out back and i just noticed another tree and WTF, I cant even describe it, it had a human features to it but it had alot more detail, urgh my stupid brain cant think right now! I know it aint a demon that shit was really trying to scare me, I was smilin on the outside but inside,i was like "ooo fuukk.."

Its just bullshit cuz they make me real weak then pull this shit on me, I mean all night last nyt, it was on it was either i was really hallucinating from no sleep or something was always following me, tall dark shadow.

It just confuses me because I havnt dedicated myself yet, why are these fuckers fucking with me now?, Ive only seen satan once, he never spoke, just smiled, and left and that was it.

I need some help, Im not sure what to do.

I feel so alone
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And sounds to me you're confusing the shadow beings with our Gods/Demons. Demons are ALWAYS friendly, and if a being isn't then it isn't called a Demon. They also don't look like shadows, most are nordics and look like blond haired blue eyed humans, with some exceptions.

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "kikesmasher71" <kikesmasher71@... wrote:

Josh, "Demons" is not a race or a species, it is a TILE, it means the extraterrestrials under Satan. There's no Demon that is not under Satan and if a Demon leaves his/her name changes and is called an angel. Most Demons and most enemy angels look simillar, their difference is the side they are in. They're both nordics.

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "Josh Lingenfelter" <themanchild699@ wrote:

actually to me it sounds like there are demons messing with you. if u have done all your reaserch than u would c that there are many demons that are bad. demons that do not follow father satan. and i used to be taunted by them. they where figures that are shaped like a man but are solid black. sort of like a shadow. and most when they kno you are looking at them will leave. very fast almost in a blur. but some if strong will stare back. evan put thoughts in your head of majorr fear. wat you need to do is next time u see one or are being played with. i kno it will be very hard but star at them back and speak to them. tell them, you do not fear them they are an imberrisment and pathetic. and you will need to really be thinking of father satan youll need his power

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "kikesmasher71" <kikesmasher71@ wrote:

Why are you using the word "gay" as an insult here?We're not homophobic, and there's nothing bad in being gay.

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "brandyl91" <brandyl91@ wrote:

My name is Brandy, Im 19 yrs old,I Live in tampa, fl.

I havnt slept in almost 3 days so if i sound a little off, its because its really hard for me to think right now


Its weird how i grew up truly hating "god" and yet scared to death of Satan, I really thought there was no hope for me. instead of writing 5 paragraphs explaining my life, long story short, this so called loving and forgiving poser, has made my life a living hell. Half of my life, I wished that I could be on Satan's side, that he would love me, but like I said I was scared. The only satanism I knew little about was Anton LeVay, and it wasn't for me, Ive never thought that Satan doesn't exit..even tho i have doubted god so many times

About 4 months ago, I don't know why but I decided to look up all of the different types of satanism, just for kicks I guess, and maybe just a little bit of hope...THATS WHEN I FOUND THE JoS, And it just blew my fucking mind away, reading about SS. Nothing has made more sense in my fuckin life.


ok, first off, I haven't dedicated myself yet, From the bottom of my heart I truly do, but there's one big problem, There is NO privacy where I live. I live with my boyfriend, who is, sadly, very closed minded. He definitely gets it from his parents, which are very religious. I dont want to hear all this bs how The REAL FATHER OF LIES has all the damn glory, i mean it really makes me sad, which i was accually surprised that I felt like that, holding back tears,. but i got to put up with it. I feel stuck in a rock n a hard place, If I come out and be who I feel like I realy am,Unfortunately, I will be a bum out on the streets.

And something I dont get, ok, I havnt had any sleep in about 3 days, not for nothing though, Ive read what other SS have siad about Satan will make himself more known to you after the dedication ritual.
I was meditating couple night ago, and it was impossible, In my head it was very vivd..and annoying! My boyfriends father was trying to distract me, (my boyfriends dad does talk alot tho, and he annoys me) but this was bad, like it wasnt my bfs dad, he was taunting me, laughing at me, In my head I would get up and start waling the shit out of him when I saw that creepy ass smile then I knew it wasnt me, So in my head I got up, ran up toward him and just starting beating the crap out of him, he got scared at first, but then just started doing the same shit, laughing making me go crazy


Id tell myself something like calm down, ignore it, and for some reason, Eminem's voice (YES EMINEM) would rhyme what I siad, so I couldnt meditate, I couldnt sleep.

I used to smoke out on the front porch (now i have to smoke in the back yard) and after i got into ss, this tree accross the street, the leaves are perfectly haped to look exactly like the the "evil" Satan, big creepy grin, horns, scary eyes. I thought it was just because Im thinking of Satan or something

Last night I was smokin out back and i just noticed another tree and WTF, I cant even describe it, it had a human features to it but it had alot more detail, urgh my stupid brain cant think right now! I know it aint a demon that shit was really trying to scare me, I was smilin on the outside but inside,i was like "ooo fuukk.."

Its just bullshit cuz they make me real weak then pull this shit on me, I mean all night last nyt, it was on it was either i was really hallucinating from no sleep or something was always following me, tall dark shadow.

It just confuses me because I havnt dedicated myself yet, why are these fuckers fucking with me now?, Ive only seen satan once, he never spoke, just smiled, and left and that was it.

I need some help, Im not sure what to do.

I feel so alone
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relax alittle it wasnt meant to insult gay people being bisexual and oddly sleeping with more men than women..idk i guess they are just easier to get into bed i didnt take it insultingly and im sure my bisexual and gay brothers and sisters have the same mindset i dont get upset at people for useing the word gay in a sentence as that to is human nature to speak without thought at times and we should all be alittle more understanding towards our brothers and sisters i hate when we get upset at eachother because it just weakens us when we should be standing together my point is noone said they were offended and she even said she was sorry...in a way so i think it would be best for everyone if we just dropped it because i know you all have said thing you regreted saying later on.

From: "xxmissylalaxx@..." <xxmissylalaxx@...
To: [email protected]
Sent: Wed, November 3, 2010 2:09:00 PM
Subject: Re: [JoyofSatan666] Re: Gay ass angels,

  I was wondering the same thing! It really gets under my skin when people say that like it is an insult!
Sounds like someone still has some Xtian (Jewish) hang ups to get over, and if they don't think its a bad thing, they need to be a fuck of a lot more careful about how you word things.
I'm sure most of us don't tolerate homophobia, and we shouldn't have to among those that know the truth, our God, Satan himself, is attracted to both men and women, so of course he isn't going to persecute us for it.
Its human nature!!
Hail Satan!!
Hail Khil!!
Hail Gomory!!
Power to the Gods of Hell!! Sent via BlackBerry by AT&T <hr> From: "kikesmasher71" <kikesmasher71@... Sender: [email protected] Date: Wed, 03 Nov 2010 14:26:15 -0000 To: <[email protected] ReplyTo: [email protected] Subject: [JoyofSatan666] Re: Gay ass angels,
  Why are you using the word "gay" as an insult here?We're not homophobic, and there's nothing bad in being gay.

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "brandyl91" <brandyl91@... wrote:

My name is Brandy, Im 19 yrs old,I Live in tampa, fl.

I havnt slept in almost 3 days so if i sound a little off, its because its really hard for me to think right now


Its weird how i grew up truly hating "god" and yet scared to death of Satan, I really thought there was no hope for me. instead of writing 5 paragraphs explaining my life, long story short, this so called loving and forgiving poser, has made my life a living hell. Half of my life, I wished that I could be on Satan's side, that he would love me, but like I said I was scared. The only satanism I knew little about was Anton LeVay, and it wasn't for me, Ive never thought that Satan doesn't exit..even tho i have doubted god so many times

About 4 months ago, I don't know why but I decided to look up all of the different types of satanism, just for kicks I guess, and maybe just a little bit of hope...THATS WHEN I FOUND THE JoS, And it just blew my fucking mind away, reading about SS. Nothing has made more sense in my fuckin life.


ok, first off, I haven't dedicated myself yet, From the bottom of my heart I truly do, but there's one big problem, There is NO privacy where I live. I live with my boyfriend, who is, sadly, very closed minded. He definitely gets it from his parents, which are very religious. I dont want to hear all this bs how The REAL FATHER OF LIES has all the damn glory, i mean it really makes me sad, which i was accually surprised that I felt like that, holding back tears,. but i got to put up with it. I feel stuck in a rock n a hard place, If I come out and be who I feel like I realy am,Unfortunately, I will be a bum out on the streets.

And something I dont get, ok, I havnt had any sleep in about 3 days, not for nothing though, Ive read what other SS have siad about Satan will make himself more known to you after the dedication ritual.
I was meditating couple night ago, and it was impossible, In my head it was very vivd..and annoying! My boyfriends father was trying to distract me, (my boyfriends dad does talk alot tho, and he annoys me) but this was bad, like it wasnt my bfs dad, he was taunting me, laughing at me, In my head I would get up and start waling the shit out of him when I saw that creepy ass smile then I knew it wasnt me, So in my head I got up, ran up toward him and just starting beating the crap out of him, he got scared at first, but then just started doing the same shit, laughing making me go crazy


Id tell myself something like calm down, ignore it, and for some reason, Eminem's voice (YES EMINEM) would rhyme what I siad, so I couldnt meditate, I couldnt sleep.

I used to smoke out on the front porch (now i have to smoke in the back yard) and after i got into ss, this tree accross the street, the leaves are perfectly haped to look exactly like the the "evil" Satan, big creepy grin, horns, scary eyes. I thought it was just because Im thinking of Satan or something

Last night I was smokin out back and i just noticed another tree and WTF, I cant even describe it, it had a human features to it but it had alot more detail, urgh my stupid brain cant think right now! I know it aint a demon that shit was really trying to scare me, I was smilin on the outside but inside,i was like "ooo fuukk.."

Its just bullshit cuz they make me real weak then pull this shit on me, I mean all night last nyt, it was on it was either i was really hallucinating from no sleep or something was always following me, tall dark shadow.

It just confuses me because I havnt dedicated myself yet, why are these fuckers fucking with me now?, Ive only seen satan once, he never spoke, just smiled, and left and that was it.

I need some help, Im not sure what to do.

I feel so alone
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I know that many of you have said that you use the word "gay" as an insult without actually hating on homosexuals, but everytime you say it there will be someone who subconsciously associates gay with meaning bad.. Especially children who don't know any better.
When I was young I remember playing "smear the queer" at the Lutheran church my family went to. I'm sure the 7 year olds that were playing didn't understand what that meant, but subconsciously they were learning from a young age to want to kick the shit out of gay people.
None of you can fucking say that this hostility doesn't exist, and if you haven't seen it yourself look up the Matthew Shepard story, and countless others..
Homophobia needs to stop and I think saying gay in a bad way is adding to it, whether you mean to or not.
Hail Satan! Sent via BlackBerry by AT&TFrom: Blacklegions Of satan <blacklegionsofsatan@... Sender: [email protected] Date: Wed, 3 Nov 2010 14:01:30 -0700 (PDT)To: <[email protected]ReplyTo: [email protected] Subject: Re: [JoyofSatan666] Re: Gay ass angels,
  Come on guys dont make a big deal out of nothing. Im sure he meant no harm by it. We as Spiritual Satanist welcome people from all walks of life and we dont care about being gay or not gay.  But just because your in this group dont mean that the way society uses words to express a certain point is going to stop. You just have to look past that and move on and not to take it so personal. The word gay is used a lot in many different fashions. It's just like Satanist saying "fuck god" knowing that the One true God is Satan. Still no one takes it personal because we know how it was intended to mean. when mainstream here "God," they think of jewbus. So thats why we still use the term "fuck god" so that mainstream knows exactly what we mean.   I myself even talk like that, sometimes I will make refrence to something as being "gay". Dont mean I dislike gay people, it's just the way people use the word and you shouldnt take it so personal unless you know for sure he was anti-homo/gay. I have a gay brother so I am fairly use to gay people and I wouldnt want anyone hurting my brother.   Rege, Satanas! Rege, Azazel! Rege, Eligos! Rege, Decarabia!   Al Jiwah-<em>I remember necessary affairs and execute them in due time. I teach and guide those who follow my instructions.</em>   <em>-BlackLegionsOfSatan</em> <em>www.joyofsatan.com</em>

From: "xxmissylalaxx@..." <xxmissylalaxx@...
To: [email protected]
Sent: Wed, November 3, 2010 11:09:00 AM
Subject: Re: [JoyofSatan666] Re: Gay ass angels,

  I was wondering the same thing! It really gets under my skin when people say that like it is an insult!
Sounds like someone still has some Xtian (Jewish) hang ups to get over, and if they don't think its a bad thing, they need to be a fuck of a lot more careful about how you word things.
I'm sure most of us don't tolerate homophobia, and we shouldn't have to among those that know the truth, our God, Satan himself, is attracted to both men and women, so of course he isn't going to persecute us for it.
Its human nature!!
Hail Satan!!
Hail Khil!!
Hail Gomory!!
Power to the Gods of Hell!! Sent via BlackBerry by AT&T <hr> From: "kikesmasher71" <kikesmasher71@... Sender: [email protected] Date: Wed, 03 Nov 2010 14:26:15 -0000 To: <[email protected] ReplyTo: [email protected] Subject: [JoyofSatan666] Re: Gay ass angels,
  Why are you using the word "gay" as an insult here?We're not homophobic, and there's nothing bad in being gay.

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "brandyl91" <brandyl91@... wrote:

My name is Brandy, Im 19 yrs old,I Live in tampa, fl.

I havnt slept in almost 3 days so if i sound a little off, its because its really hard for me to think right now


Its weird how i grew up truly hating "god" and yet scared to death of Satan, I really thought there was no hope for me. instead of writing 5 paragraphs explaining my life, long story short, this so called loving and forgiving poser, has made my life a living hell. Half of my life, I wished that I could be on Satan's side, that he would love me, but like I said I was scared. The only satanism I knew little about was Anton LeVay, and it wasn't for me, Ive never thought that Satan doesn't exit..even tho i have doubted god so many times

About 4 months ago, I don't know why but I decided to look up all of the different types of satanism, just for kicks I guess, and maybe just a little bit of hope...THATS WHEN I FOUND THE JoS, And it just blew my fucking mind away, reading about SS. Nothing has made more sense in my fuckin life.


ok, first off, I haven't dedicated myself yet, From the bottom of my heart I truly do, but there's one big problem, There is NO privacy where I live. I live with my boyfriend, who is, sadly, very closed minded. He definitely gets it from his parents, which are very religious. I dont want to hear all this bs how The REAL FATHER OF LIES has all the damn glory, i mean it really makes me sad, which i was accually surprised that I felt like that, holding back tears,. but i got to put up with it. I feel stuck in a rock n a hard place, If I come out and be who I feel like I realy am,Unfortunately, I will be a bum out on the streets.

And something I dont get, ok, I havnt had any sleep in about 3 days, not for nothing though, Ive read what other SS have siad about Satan will make himself more known to you after the dedication ritual.
I was meditating couple night ago, and it was impossible, In my head it was very vivd..and annoying! My boyfriends father was trying to distract me, (my boyfriends dad does talk alot tho, and he annoys me) but this was bad, like it wasnt my bfs dad, he was taunting me, laughing at me, In my head I would get up and start waling the shit out of him when I saw that creepy ass smile then I knew it wasnt me, So in my head I got up, ran up toward him and just starting beating the crap out of him, he got scared at first, but then just started doing the same shit, laughing making me go crazy


Id tell myself something like calm down, ignore it, and for some reason, Eminem's voice (YES EMINEM) would rhyme what I siad, so I couldnt meditate, I couldnt sleep.

I used to smoke out on the front porch (now i have to smoke in the back yard) and after i got into ss, this tree accross the street, the leaves are perfectly haped to look exactly like the the "evil" Satan, big creepy grin, horns, scary eyes. I thought it was just because Im thinking of Satan or something

Last night I was smokin out back and i just noticed another tree and WTF, I cant even describe it, it had a human features to it but it had alot more detail, urgh my stupid brain cant think right now! I know it aint a demon that shit was really trying to scare me, I was smilin on the outside but inside,i was like "ooo fuukk.."

Its just bullshit cuz they make me real weak then pull this shit on me, I mean all night last nyt, it was on it was either i was really hallucinating from no sleep or something was always following me, tall dark shadow.

It just confuses me because I havnt dedicated myself yet, why are these fuckers fucking with me now?, Ive only seen satan once, he never spoke, just smiled, and left and that was it.

I need some help, Im not sure what to do.

I feel so alone
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No I think its the other way around. Homosexuals need to stop getting so offeneded, if thats who you are then thats who you are. No one here hates the gay community, at least I dont but I am guilty of using that word. Heck if anything gay also means to be happy.   You ever watch "The Flintstones", cartoon show from the 1960's.   *Lyrics*
Flintstones. Meet the Flintstones.
They're the modern stone age family.
From the town of Bedrock,
They're a page right out of history.

Let's ride with the family down the street.
Through the courtesy of Fred's two feet.

When you're with the Flintstones
you'll have a yabba dabba doo time.
A dabba doo time.
You'll have a gay old time.    "We are all having a gay old time!"   Rege, Satanas! Rege, Azazel! Rege, Eligos! Rege, Decarabia!   Al Jiwah- I remember necessary affairs and execute them in due time. I teach and guide those who follow my instructions.   -BlackLegionsOfSatan www.joyofsatan.com
 

From: "xxmissylalaxx@..." <xxmissylalaxx@...
To: [email protected]
Sent: Sun, November 7, 2010 10:04:40 AM
Subject: Re: [JoyofSatan666] Re: Gay ass angels,

  I know that many of you have said that you use the word "gay" as an insult without actually hating on homosexuals, but everytime you say it there will be someone who subconsciously associates gay with meaning bad.. Especially children who don't know any better.
When I was young I remember playing "smear the queer" at the Lutheran church my family went to. I'm sure the 7 year olds that were playing didn't understand what that meant, but subconsciously they were learning from a young age to want to kick the shit out of gay people.
None of you can fucking say that this hostility doesn't exist, and if you haven't seen it yourself look up the Matthew Shepard story, and countless others..
Homophobia needs to stop and I think saying gay in a bad way is adding to it, whether you mean to or not.
Hail Satan! Sent via BlackBerry by AT&T <hr> From: Blacklegions Of satan <blacklegionsofsatan@... Sender: [email protected] Date: Wed, 3 Nov 2010 14:01:30 -0700 (PDT) To: <[email protected] ReplyTo: [email protected] Subject: Re: [JoyofSatan666] Re: Gay ass angels,
  Come on guys dont make a big deal out of nothing. Im sure he meant no harm by it. We as Spiritual Satanist welcome people from all walks of life and we dont care about being gay or not gay.  But just because your in this group dont mean that the way society uses words to express a certain point is going to stop. You just have to look past that and move on and not to take it so personal. The word gay is used a lot in many different fashions. It's just like Satanist saying "fuck god" knowing that the One true God is Satan. Still no one takes it personal because we know how it was intended to mean. when mainstream here "God," they think of jewbus. So thats why we still use the term "fuck god" so that mainstream knows exactly what we mean.   I myself even talk like that, sometimes I will make refrence to something as being "gay". Dont mean I dislike gay people, it's just the way people use the word and you shouldnt take it so personal unless you know for sure he was anti-homo/gay. I have a gay brother so I am fairly use to gay people and I wouldnt want anyone hurting my brother.   Rege, Satanas! Rege, Azazel! Rege, Eligos! Rege, Decarabia!   Al Jiwah-<em>I remember necessary affairs and execute them in due time. I teach and guide those who follow my instructions.</em>   <em>-BlackLegionsOfSatan</em> <em>www.joyofsatan.com</em>

From: "xxmissylalaxx@..." <xxmissylalaxx@...
To: [email protected]
Sent: Wed, November 3, 2010 11:09:00 AM
Subject: Re: [JoyofSatan666] Re: Gay ass angels,

  I was wondering the same thing! It really gets under my skin when people say that like it is an insult!
Sounds like someone still has some Xtian (Jewish) hang ups to get over, and if they don't think its a bad thing, they need to be a fuck of a lot more careful about how you word things.
I'm sure most of us don't tolerate homophobia, and we shouldn't have to among those that know the truth, our God, Satan himself, is attracted to both men and women, so of course he isn't going to persecute us for it.
Its human nature!!
Hail Satan!!
Hail Khil!!
Hail Gomory!!
Power to the Gods of Hell!! Sent via BlackBerry by AT&T <hr> From: "kikesmasher71" <kikesmasher71@... Sender: [email protected] Date: Wed, 03 Nov 2010 14:26:15 -0000 To: <[email protected] ReplyTo: [email protected] Subject: [JoyofSatan666] Re: Gay ass angels,
  Why are you using the word "gay" as an insult here?We're not homophobic, and there's nothing bad in being gay.

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "brandyl91" <brandyl91@... wrote:

My name is Brandy, Im 19 yrs old,I Live in tampa, fl.

I havnt slept in almost 3 days so if i sound a little off, its because its really hard for me to think right now


Its weird how i grew up truly hating "god" and yet scared to death of Satan, I really thought there was no hope for me. instead of writing 5 paragraphs explaining my life, long story short, this so called loving and forgiving poser, has made my life a living hell. Half of my life, I wished that I could be on Satan's side, that he would love me, but like I said I was scared. The only satanism I knew little about was Anton LeVay, and it wasn't for me, Ive never thought that Satan doesn't exit..even tho i have doubted god so many times

About 4 months ago, I don't know why but I decided to look up all of the different types of satanism, just for kicks I guess, and maybe just a little bit of hope...THATS WHEN I FOUND THE JoS, And it just blew my fucking mind away, reading about SS. Nothing has made more sense in my fuckin life.


ok, first off, I haven't dedicated myself yet, From the bottom of my heart I truly do, but there's one big problem, There is NO privacy where I live. I live with my boyfriend, who is, sadly, very closed minded. He definitely gets it from his parents, which are very religious. I dont want to hear all this bs how The REAL FATHER OF LIES has all the damn glory, i mean it really makes me sad, which i was accually surprised that I felt like that, holding back tears,. but i got to put up with it. I feel stuck in a rock n a hard place, If I come out and be who I feel like I realy am,Unfortunately, I will be a bum out on the streets.

And something I dont get, ok, I havnt had any sleep in about 3 days, not for nothing though, Ive read what other SS have siad about Satan will make himself more known to you after the dedication ritual.
I was meditating couple night ago, and it was impossible, In my head it was very vivd..and annoying! My boyfriends father was trying to distract me, (my boyfriends dad does talk alot tho, and he annoys me) but this was bad, like it wasnt my bfs dad, he was taunting me, laughing at me, In my head I would get up and start waling the shit out of him when I saw that creepy ass smile then I knew it wasnt me, So in my head I got up, ran up toward him and just starting beating the crap out of him, he got scared at first, but then just started doing the same shit, laughing making me go crazy


Id tell myself something like calm down, ignore it, and for some reason, Eminem's voice (YES EMINEM) would rhyme what I siad, so I couldnt meditate, I couldnt sleep.

I used to smoke out on the front porch (now i have to smoke in the back yard) and after i got into ss, this tree accross the street, the leaves are perfectly haped to look exactly like the the "evil" Satan, big creepy grin, horns, scary eyes. I thought it was just because Im thinking of Satan or something

Last night I was smokin out back and i just noticed another tree and WTF, I cant even describe it, it had a human features to it but it had alot more detail, urgh my stupid brain cant think right now! I know it aint a demon that shit was really trying to scare me, I was smilin on the outside but inside,i was like "ooo fuukk.."

Its just bullshit cuz they make me real weak then pull this shit on me, I mean all night last nyt, it was on it was either i was really hallucinating from no sleep or something was always following me, tall dark shadow.

It just confuses me because I havnt dedicated myself yet, why are these fuckers fucking with me now?, Ive only seen satan once, he never spoke, just smiled, and left and that was it.

I need some help, Im not sure what to do.

I feel so alone
Click to expand...

 
I don't think you understood what morticia said, it only matters if its used in a negative way. If someone uses it to mean happy, it is perfectly okay. It DID originally mean "happy". The fact is it got a negative meaning in other uses is because of judeo/xian influence and homophobia. See this from wikipedia:

"At about the same time, a new, pejorative use became prevalent in some parts of the world. In the Anglosphere, this connotation, among younger speakers, has a derisive meaning equivalent to rubbish or stupid (as in "That's so gay."). In this use the word does not mean "homosexual", so it can be used, for example, to refer to an inanimate object or abstract concept of which one disapproves. This usage can also refer to weakness or unmanliness."

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], Blacklegions Of satan <blacklegionsofsatan@... wrote:

No I think its the other way around. Homosexuals need to stop getting so
offeneded, if thats who you are then thats who you are.
No one here hates the gay community, at least I dont but I am guilty of using
that word. Heck if anything gay also means to be happy.

You ever watch "The Flintstones", cartoon show from the 1960's.

*Lyrics*
Flintstones. Meet the Flintstones.
They're the modern stone age family.
From the town of Bedrock,
They're a page right out of history.

Let's ride with the family down the street.
Through the courtesy of Fred's two feet.

When you're with the Flintstones
you'll have a yabba dabba doo time.
A dabba doo time.
You'll have a gay old time. 

"We are all having a gay old time!"
 
Rege, Satanas!
Rege, Azazel!
Rege, Eligos!
Rege, Decarabia!
 
Al Jiwah-I remember necessary affairs and execute them in due time. I teach and
guide those who follow my instructions. 
-BlackLegionsOfSatan
www.joyofsatan.com





________________________________
From: "xxmissylalaxx@..." <xxmissylalaxx@...
To: [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url]
Sent: Sun, November 7, 2010 10:04:40 AM
Subject: Re: [JoyofSatan666] Re: Gay ass angels,

 
I know that many of you have said that you use the word "gay" as an insult
without actually hating on homosexuals, but everytime you say it there will be
someone who subconsciously associates gay with meaning bad.. Especially children
who don't know any better.
When I was young I remember playing "smear the queer" at the Lutheran church my
family went to. I'm sure the 7 year olds that were playing didn't understand
what that meant, but subconsciously they were learning from a young age to want
to kick the shit out of gay people.
None of you can fucking say that this hostility doesn't exist, and if you
haven't seen it yourself look up the Matthew Shepard story, and countless
others..
Homophobia needs to stop and I think saying gay in a bad way is adding to it,
whether you mean to or not.

Hail Satan!
Sent via BlackBerry by AT&T
________________________________

From: Blacklegions Of satan <blacklegionsofsatan@...
Sender: [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url]
Date: Wed, 3 Nov 2010 14:01:30 -0700 (PDT)
To: <[url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url]
ReplyTo: [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url]
Subject: Re: [JoyofSatan666] Re: Gay ass angels,
 
Come on guys dont make a big deal out of nothing. Im sure he meant no harm by
it. We as Spiritual Satanist welcome people from all walks of life and we dont
care about being gay or not gay.  But just because your in this group dont mean
that the way society uses words to express a certain point is going to stop. You
just have to look past that and move on and not to take it so personal. The word
gay is used a lot in many different fashions. It's just like Satanist saying
"fuck god" knowing that the One true God is Satan. Still no one takes it
personal because we know how it was intended to mean. when mainstream here
"God," they think of jewbus. So thats why we still use the term "fuck god" so
that mainstream knows exactly what we mean.

I myself even talk like that, sometimes I will make refrence to something as
being "gay". Dont mean I dislike gay people, it's just the way people use the
word and you shouldnt take it so personal unless you know for sure he was
anti-homo/gay.
I have a gay brother so I am fairly use to gay people and I wouldnt want anyone
hurting my brother.

Rege, Satanas!
Rege, Azazel!
Rege, Eligos!
Rege, Decarabia!
 
Al Jiwah-I remember necessary affairs and execute them in due time. I teach and
guide those who follow my instructions.
 
-BlackLegionsOfSatan
www.joyofsatan.com




________________________________
From: "xxmissylalaxx@..." <xxmissylalaxx@...
To: [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url]
Sent: Wed, November 3, 2010 11:09:00 AM
Subject: Re: [JoyofSatan666] Re: Gay ass angels,

 
I was wondering the same thing! It really gets under my skin when people say
that like it is an insult!

Sounds like someone still has some Xtian (Jewish) hang ups to get over, and if
they don't think its a bad thing, they need to be a fuck of a lot more careful
about how you word things.

I'm sure most of us don't tolerate homophobia, and we shouldn't have to among
those that know the truth, our God, Satan himself, is attracted to both men and
women, so of course he isn't going to persecute us for it.

Its human nature!!
Hail Satan!!
Hail Khil!!
Hail Gomory!!
Power to the Gods of Hell!!
Sent via BlackBerry by AT&T
________________________________

From: "kikesmasher71" <kikesmasher71@...
Sender: [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url]
Date: Wed, 03 Nov 2010 14:26:15 -0000
To: <[url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url]
ReplyTo: [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url]
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] Re: Gay ass angels,
 
Why are you using the word "gay" as an insult here?We're not homophobic, and
there's nothing bad in being gay.

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "brandyl91" <brandyl91@ wrote:

My name is Brandy, Im 19 yrs old,I Live in tampa, fl.

I havnt slept in almost 3 days so if i sound a little off, its because its
really hard for me to think right now


Its weird how i grew up truly hating "god" and yet scared to death of Satan, I
really thought there was no hope for me. instead of writing 5 paragraphs
explaining my life, long story short, this so called loving and forgiving poser,
has made my life a living hell. Half of my life, I wished that I could be on
Satan's side, that he would love me, but like I said I was scared. The only
satanism I knew little about was Anton LeVay, and it wasn't for me, Ive never
thought that Satan doesn't exit..even tho i have doubted god so many times

About 4 months ago, I don't know why but I decided to look up all of the
different types of satanism, just for kicks I guess, and maybe just a little bit
of hope...THATS WHEN I FOUND THE JoS, And it just blew my fucking mind away,
reading about SS. Nothing has made more sense in my fuckin life.



ok, first off, I haven't dedicated myself yet, From the bottom of my heart I
truly do, but there's one big problem, There is NO privacy where I live. I live
with my boyfriend, who is, sadly, very closed minded. He definitely gets it from
his parents, which are very religious. I dont want to hear all this bs how The
REAL FATHER OF LIES has all the damn glory, i mean it really makes me sad, which
i was accually surprised that I felt like that, holding back tears,. but i got
to put up with it. I feel stuck in a rock n a hard place, If I come out and be
who I feel like I realy am,Unfortunately, I will be a bum out on the streets.

And something I dont get, ok, I havnt had any sleep in about 3 days, not for
nothing though, Ive read what other SS have siad about Satan will make himself
more known to you after the dedication ritual.
I was meditating couple night ago, and it was impossible, In my head it was
very vivd..and annoying! My boyfriends father was trying to distract me, (my
boyfriends dad does talk alot tho, and he annoys me) but this was bad, like it
wasnt my bfs dad, he was taunting me, laughing at me, In my head I would get up
and start waling the shit out of him when I saw that creepy ass smile then I
knew it wasnt me, So in my head I got up, ran up toward him and just starting
beating the crap out of him, he got scared at first, but then just started doing
the same shit, laughing making me go crazy


Id tell myself something like calm down, ignore it, and for some reason,
Eminem's voice (YES EMINEM) would rhyme what I siad, so I couldnt meditate, I
couldnt sleep.


I used to smoke out on the front porch (now i have to smoke in the back yard)
and after i got into ss, this tree accross the street, the leaves are perfectly
haped to look exactly like the the "evil" Satan, big creepy grin, horns, scary
eyes. I thought it was just because Im thinking of Satan or something

Last night I was smokin out back and i just noticed another tree and WTF, I
cant even describe it, it had a human features to it but it had alot more
detail, urgh my stupid brain cant think right now! I know it aint a demon that
shit was really trying to scare me, I was smilin on the outside but inside,i was
like "ooo fuukk.."


Its just bullshit cuz they make me real weak then pull this shit on me, I mean
all night last nyt, it was on it was either i was really hallucinating from no
sleep or something was always following me, tall dark shadow.

It just confuses me because I havnt dedicated myself yet, why are these fuckers
fucking with me now?, Ive only seen satan once, he never spoke, just smiled, and
left and that was it.


I need some help, Im not sure what to do.

I feel so alone




 
Click to expand...
 
No I understood perfectly, im saying to stop taking it so personal!   Rege, Satanas! Rege, Azazel! Rege, Eligos! Rege, Decarabia!   Al Jiwah- I remember necessary affairs and execute them in due time. I teach and guide those who follow my instructions.   -BlackLegionsOfSatan www.joyofsatan.com

From: kikesmasher71 <kikesmasher71@...
To: [email protected]
Sent: Mon, November 8, 2010 9:58:33 AM
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] Re: Gay ass angels,

  I don't think you understood what morticia said, it only matters if its used in a negative way. If someone uses it to mean happy, it is perfectly okay. It DID originally mean "happy". The fact is it got a negative meaning in other uses is because of judeo/xian influence and homophobia. See this from wikipedia:

"At about the same time, a new, pejorative use became prevalent in some parts of the world. In the Anglosphere, this connotation, among younger speakers, has a derisive meaning equivalent to rubbish or stupid (as in "That's so gay."). In this use the word does not mean "homosexual", so it can be used, for example, to refer to an inanimate object or abstract concept of which one disapproves. This usage can also refer to weakness or unmanliness."

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], Blacklegions Of satan <blacklegionsofsatan@... wrote:
No I think its the other way around. Homosexuals need to stop getting so
offeneded, if thats who you are then thats who you are.
No one here hates the gay community, at least I dont but I am guilty of using
that word. Heck if anything gay also means to be happy.

You ever watch "The Flintstones", cartoon show from the 1960's.

*Lyrics*
Flintstones. Meet the Flintstones.
They're the modern stone age family.
From the town of Bedrock,
They're a page right out of history.

Let's ride with the family down the street.
Through the courtesy of Fred's two feet.

When you're with the Flintstones
you'll have a yabba dabba doo time.
A dabba doo time.
You'll have a gay old time. 

"We are all having a gay old
Click to expand...
time!"
 
Rege, Satanas!
Rege, Azazel!
Rege, Eligos!
Rege, Decarabia!
 
Al Jiwah-I remember necessary affairs and execute them in due time. I teach and
guide those who follow my instructions. 
-BlackLegionsOfSatan
www.joyofsatan.com





________________________________
From: "xxmissylalaxx@..." <xxmissylalaxx@...
To: [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url]
Sent: Sun, November 7, 2010 10:04:40 AM
Subject: Re: [JoyofSatan666] Re: Gay ass angels,

 
I know that many of you have said that you use the word "gay" as an insult
without actually hating on
Click to expand...
homosexuals, but everytime you say it there will be
someone who subconsciously associates gay with meaning bad.. Especially children
who don't know any better.
When I was young I remember playing "smear the queer" at the Lutheran church my
family went to. I'm sure the 7 year olds that were playing didn't understand
what that meant, but subconsciously they were learning from a young age to want
to kick the shit out of gay people.
None of you can fucking say that this hostility doesn't exist, and if you
haven't seen it yourself look up the Matthew Shepard story, and countless
others..
Homophobia needs to stop and I think saying gay in a bad way is adding to it,
whether you mean to or not.

Hail Satan!
Sent via BlackBerry by AT&T
________________________________

From: Blacklegions Of satan
Click to expand...
<blacklegionsofsatan@...
Sender: [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url]
Date: Wed, 3 Nov 2010 14:01:30 -0700 (PDT)
To: <[url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url]
ReplyTo: [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url]
Subject: Re: [JoyofSatan666] Re: Gay ass angels,
 
Come on guys dont make a big deal out of nothing. Im sure he meant no harm by
it. We as Spiritual Satanist welcome people from all walks of life and we dont
care about being gay or not gay.  But just because your in this group dont mean
that the way society uses words to express a certain point is going to stop. You
just have to look past that and move on and not to take it so personal. The word
gay is used a lot in many different fashions. It's just like Satanist saying
"fuck god" knowing that the One true God is Satan. Still no one takes it
personal because we know how it was intended to mean. when mainstream here
"God," they think of jewbus. So thats why we still use the term "fuck god" so
that mainstream knows exactly what we mean.

I myself even talk like that, sometimes I will make refrence to something as
being "gay". Dont mean I dislike gay people, it's just the way people use the
word and you shouldnt take it so personal unless you know for sure he was
anti-homo/gay.
I have a gay brother so I am fairly use to gay people and I wouldnt want anyone
hurting my
Click to expand...
brother.
Rege, Satanas!
Rege, Azazel!
Rege, Eligos!
Rege, Decarabia!
 
Al Jiwah-I remember necessary affairs and execute them in due time. I teach and
guide those who follow my instructions.
 
-BlackLegionsOfSatan
www.joyofsatan.com




________________________________
From: "xxmissylalaxx@..." <xxmissylalaxx@...
To: [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url]
Sent: Wed, November 3, 2010 11:09:00 AM
Subject: Re: [JoyofSatan666] Re: Gay ass angels,

 
I was wondering the same thing! It really gets under my skin when people say
that like it is an insult!

Sounds like someone still has some Xtian (Jewish)
Click to expand...
hang ups to get over, and if
they don't think its a bad thing, they need to be a fuck of a lot more careful
about how you word things.

I'm sure most of us don't tolerate homophobia, and we shouldn't have to among
those that know the truth, our God, Satan himself, is attracted to both men and
women, so of course he isn't going to persecute us for it.

Its human nature!!
Hail Satan!!
Hail Khil!!
Hail Gomory!!
Power to the Gods of Hell!!
Sent via BlackBerry by AT&T
________________________________

From: "kikesmasher71" <kikesmasher71@...
Sender: [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url]
Date: Wed, 03 Nov 2010 14:26:15 -0000
To: <<a rel="nofollow" >
Click to expand...
href="mailto:JoyofSatan666%40yahoogroups.com" rel=nofollow target=_blank ymailto="mailto:JoyofSatan666%40yahoogroups.com"[email protected]
ReplyTo: [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url]
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] Re: Gay ass angels,
 
Why are you using the word "gay" as an insult here?We're not homophobic, and
there's nothing bad in being gay.

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "brandyl91" <brandyl91@ wrote:

My name is Brandy, Im 19 yrs old,I Live in tampa, fl.

I havnt slept in almost 3 days so if i sound a little off, its because its
really hard
Click to expand...
for me to think right now
Its weird how i grew up truly hating "god" and yet scared to death of Satan, I
really thought there was no hope for me. instead of writing 5 paragraphs
explaining my life, long story short, this so called loving and forgiving poser,
has made my life a living hell. Half of my life, I wished that I could be on
Satan's side, that he would love me, but like I said I was scared. The only
satanism I knew little about was Anton LeVay, and it wasn't for me, Ive never
thought that Satan doesn't exit..even tho i have doubted god so many times

About 4 months ago, I don't know why but I decided to look up all of the
different types of satanism, just for kicks I guess, and maybe just a little bit
of hope...THATS WHEN I FOUND THE JoS, And it just blew my fucking mind away,
reading about SS. Nothing has made more sense in my fuckin life.



ok, first off, I haven't dedicated myself yet, From the bottom of my heart I
truly do, but there's one big problem, There is NO privacy where I live. I live
with my boyfriend, who is, sadly, very closed minded. He definitely gets it from
his parents, which are very religious. I dont want to hear all this bs how The
REAL FATHER OF LIES has all the damn glory, i mean it really makes me sad, which
i was accually surprised that I felt like that, holding back tears,. but i got
to put up with it. I feel stuck in a rock n a hard place, If I come out and be
who I feel like I realy am,Unfortunately, I will be a bum out on the streets.

And something I dont get, ok, I havnt had any sleep in about 3 days, not for
nothing though, Ive read what other SS have siad about Satan will make himself
more known to you after the dedication ritual.
I was meditating couple night ago, and it was impossible, In my head it was
very vivd..and annoying! My boyfriends father was trying to distract me, (my
boyfriends dad does talk alot tho, and he annoys me) but this was bad, like it
wasnt my bfs dad, he was taunting me, laughing at me, In my head I would get up
and start waling the shit out of him when I saw that creepy ass smile then I
knew it wasnt me, So in my head I got up, ran up toward him and just starting
beating the crap out of him, he got scared at first, but then just started doing
the same shit, laughing making me go crazy


Id tell myself something like calm down, ignore it, and for some reason,
Eminem's voice (YES EMINEM) would rhyme what I siad, so I couldnt meditate, I
couldnt sleep.


I used to smoke out on the front porch (now i have to smoke in the back yard)
and after i got into ss, this tree accross the street, the leaves are perfectly
haped to look exactly like the the "evil" Satan, big creepy grin, horns, scary
eyes. I thought it was just because Im thinking of Satan or something

Last night I was smokin out back and i just noticed another tree and WTF, I
cant even describe it, it had a human features to it but it had alot more
detail, urgh my stupid brain cant think right now! I know it aint a demon that
shit was really trying to scare me, I was smilin on the outside but inside,i was
like "ooo fuukk.."


Its just
Click to expand...
bullshit cuz they make me real weak then pull this shit on me, I mean
all night last nyt, it was on it was either i was really hallucinating from no
sleep or something was always following me, tall dark shadow.

It just confuses me because I havnt dedicated myself yet, why are these fuckers
fucking with me now?, Ive only seen satan once, he never spoke, just smiled, and
left and that was it.


I need some help, Im not sure what to do.

I feel so alone




 
Click to expand...
 
And then again I can see the concern for those of you who do not like this word. I cant speak for everyone else, but you wont have any problems with me using the word "gay" in a negative manner.   Rege, Satanas! Rege, Azazel! Rege, Eligos! Rege, Decarabia!   Al Jiwah- I remember necessary affairs and execute them in due time. I teach and guide those who follow my instructions.   -BlackLegionsOfSatan www.joyofsatan.com

From: Blacklegions Of satan <blacklegionsofsatan@...
To: [email protected]
Sent: Mon, November 8, 2010 10:39:36 AM
Subject: Re: [JoyofSatan666] Re: Gay ass angels,

  No I understood perfectly, im saying to stop taking it so personal!   Rege, Satanas! Rege, Azazel! Rege, Eligos! Rege, Decarabia!   Al Jiwah- I remember necessary affairs and execute them in due time. I teach and guide those who follow my instructions.   -BlackLegionsOfSatan www.joyofsatan.com

From: kikesmasher71 <kikesmasher71@...
To: [email protected]
Sent: Mon, November 8, 2010 9:58:33 AM
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] Re: Gay ass angels,

  I don't think you understood what morticia said, it only matters if its used in a negative way. If someone uses it to mean happy, it is perfectly okay. It DID originally mean "happy". The fact is it got a negative meaning in other uses is because of judeo/xian influence and homophobia. See this from wikipedia:

"At about the same time, a new, pejorative use became prevalent in some parts of the world. In the Anglosphere, this connotation, among younger speakers, has a derisive meaning equivalent to rubbish or stupid (as in "That's so gay."). In this use the word does not mean "homosexual", so it can be used, for example, to refer to an inanimate object or abstract concept of which one disapproves. This usage can also refer to weakness or unmanliness."

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], Blacklegions Of satan <blacklegionsofsatan@... wrote:
No I think its the other way around. Homosexuals need to stop getting so
offeneded, if thats who you are then thats who you are.
No one here hates the gay community, at least I dont but I am guilty of using
that word. Heck if anything gay also means to be happy.

You ever watch "The Flintstones", cartoon show from the 1960's.

*Lyrics*
Flintstones. Meet the Flintstones.
They're the modern stone age family.
From the town of Bedrock,
They're a page right out of history.

Let's ride with the family down the street.
Through the courtesy of Fred's two feet.

When you're with the Flintstones
you'll have a yabba dabba doo time.
A dabba doo time.
You'll have a gay old time. 

"We are all having a gay old
Click to expand...
time!"
 
Rege, Satanas!
Rege, Azazel!
Rege, Eligos!
Rege, Decarabia!
 
Al Jiwah-I remember necessary affairs and execute them in due time. I teach and
guide those who follow my instructions. 
-BlackLegionsOfSatan
www.joyofsatan.com





________________________________
From: "xxmissylalaxx@..." <xxmissylalaxx@...
To: [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url]
Sent: Sun, November 7, 2010 10:04:40 AM
Subject: Re: [JoyofSatan666] Re: Gay ass angels,

 
I know that many of you have said that you use the word "gay" as an insult
without actually hating
Click to expand...
on homosexuals, but everytime you say it there will be
someone who subconsciously associates gay with meaning bad.. Especially children
who don't know any better.
When I was young I remember playing "smear the queer" at the Lutheran church my
family went to. I'm sure the 7 year olds that were playing didn't understand
what that meant, but subconsciously they were learning from a young age to want
to kick the shit out of gay people.
None of you can fucking say that this hostility doesn't exist, and if you
haven't seen it yourself look up the Matthew Shepard story, and countless
others..
Homophobia needs to stop and I think saying gay in a bad way is adding to it,
whether you mean to or not.

Hail Satan!
Sent via BlackBerry by AT&T
________________________________

From: Blacklegions Of satan
Click to expand...
<blacklegionsofsatan@...
Sender: [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url]
Date: Wed, 3 Nov 2010 14:01:30 -0700 (PDT)
To: <[url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url]
ReplyTo: [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url]
Subject: Re: [JoyofSatan666] Re: Gay ass angels,
 
Come on guys dont make a big deal out of nothing. Im sure he meant no harm by
it. We as Spiritual Satanist welcome people from all walks of life and we dont
care about being gay or not gay.  But just because your in this group dont mean
that the way society uses words to express a certain point is going to stop. You
just have to look past that and move on and not to take it so personal. The word
gay is used a lot in many different fashions. It's just like Satanist saying
"fuck god" knowing that the One true God is Satan. Still no one takes it
personal because we know how it was intended to mean. when mainstream here
"God," they think of jewbus. So thats why we still use the term "fuck god" so
that mainstream knows exactly what we mean.

I myself even talk like that, sometimes I will make refrence to something as
being "gay". Dont mean I dislike gay people, it's just the way people use the
word and you shouldnt take it so personal unless you know for sure he was
anti-homo/gay.
I have a gay brother so I am fairly use to gay people and I wouldnt want anyone
hurting my
Click to expand...
brother.
Rege, Satanas!
Rege, Azazel!
Rege, Eligos!
Rege, Decarabia!
 
Al Jiwah-I remember necessary affairs and execute them in due time. I teach and
guide those who follow my instructions.
 
-BlackLegionsOfSatan
www.joyofsatan.com




________________________________
From: "xxmissylalaxx@..." <xxmissylalaxx@...
To: [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url]
Sent: Wed, November 3, 2010 11:09:00 AM
Subject: Re: [JoyofSatan666] Re: Gay ass angels,

 
I was wondering the same thing! It really gets under my skin when people say
that like it is an insult!

Sounds like someone still has some Xtian (Jewish)
Click to expand...
hang ups to get over, and if
they don't think its a bad thing, they need to be a fuck of a lot more careful
about how you word things.

I'm sure most of us don't tolerate homophobia, and we shouldn't have to among
those that know the truth, our God, Satan himself, is attracted to both men and
women, so of course he isn't going to persecute us for it.

Its human nature!!
Hail Satan!!
Hail Khil!!
Hail Gomory!!
Power to the Gods of Hell!!
Sent via BlackBerry by AT&T
________________________________

From: "kikesmasher71" <kikesmasher71@...
Sender: [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url]
Date: Wed, 03 Nov 2010 14:26:15 -0000
To: <<a rel="nofollow" >
Click to expand...
href="mailto:JoyofSatan666%40yahoogroups.com" rel=nofollow target=_blank ymailto="mailto:JoyofSatan666%40yahoogroups.com"[email protected]
ReplyTo: [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url]
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] Re: Gay ass angels,
 
Why are you using the word "gay" as an insult here?We're not homophobic, and
there's nothing bad in being gay.

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "brandyl91" <brandyl91@ wrote:

My name is Brandy, Im 19 yrs old,I Live in tampa, fl.

I havnt slept in almost 3 days so if i sound a little off, its because its
really hard
Click to expand...
for me to think right now
Its weird how i grew up truly hating "god" and yet scared to death of Satan, I
really thought there was no hope for me. instead of writing 5 paragraphs
explaining my life, long story short, this so called loving and forgiving poser,
has made my life a living hell. Half of my life, I wished that I could be on
Satan's side, that he would love me, but like I said I was scared. The only
satanism I knew little about was Anton LeVay, and it wasn't for me, Ive never
thought that Satan doesn't exit..even tho i have doubted god so many times

About 4 months ago, I don't know why but I decided to look up all of the
different types of satanism, just for kicks I guess, and maybe just a little bit
of hope...THATS WHEN I FOUND THE JoS, And it just blew my fucking mind away,
reading about SS. Nothing has made more sense in my fuckin life.



ok, first off, I haven't dedicated myself yet, From the bottom of my heart I
truly do, but there's one big problem, There is NO privacy where I live. I live
with my boyfriend, who is, sadly, very closed minded. He definitely gets it from
his parents, which are very religious. I dont want to hear all this bs how The
REAL FATHER OF LIES has all the damn glory, i mean it really makes me sad, which
i was accually surprised that I felt like that, holding back tears,. but i got
to put up with it. I feel stuck in a rock n a hard place, If I come out and be
who I feel like I realy am,Unfortunately, I will be a bum out on the streets.

And something I dont get, ok, I havnt had any sleep in about 3 days, not for
nothing though, Ive read what other SS have siad about Satan will make himself
more known to you after the dedication ritual.
I was meditating couple night ago, and it was impossible, In my head it was
very vivd..and annoying! My boyfriends father was trying to distract me, (my
boyfriends dad does talk alot tho, and he annoys me) but this was bad, like it
wasnt my bfs dad, he was taunting me, laughing at me, In my head I would get up
and start waling the shit out of him when I saw that creepy ass smile then I
knew it wasnt me, So in my head I got up, ran up toward him and just starting
beating the crap out of him, he got scared at first, but then just started doing
the same shit, laughing making me go crazy


Id tell myself something like calm down, ignore it, and for some reason,
Eminem's voice (YES EMINEM) would rhyme what I siad, so I couldnt meditate, I
couldnt sleep.


I used to smoke out on the front porch (now i have to smoke in the back yard)
and after i got into ss, this tree accross the street, the leaves are perfectly
haped to look exactly like the the "evil" Satan, big creepy grin, horns, scary
eyes. I thought it was just because Im thinking of Satan or something

Last night I was smokin out back and i just noticed another tree and WTF, I
cant even describe it, it had a human features to it but it had alot more
detail, urgh my stupid brain cant think right now! I know it aint a demon that
shit was really trying to scare me, I was smilin on the outside but inside,i was
like "ooo fuukk.."


Its just
Click to expand...
bullshit cuz they make me real weak then pull this shit on me, I mean
all night last nyt, it was on it was either i was really hallucinating from no
sleep or something was always following me, tall dark shadow.

It just confuses me because I havnt dedicated myself yet, why are these fuckers
fucking with me now?, Ive only seen satan once, he never spoke, just smiled, and
left and that was it.


I need some help, Im not sure what to do.

I feel so alone




 
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Rege, Satanas! Rege, Azazel! Rege, Eligos! Rege, Decarabia! Al Jiwah- I remember necessary affairs and execute them in due time. I teach and guide those who follow my instructions. -BlackLegionsOfSatan www.joyofsatan.com

From: Blacklegions Of satan <blacklegionsofsatan@...
To: [email protected]
Sent: Mon, November 8, 2010 1:42:35 PM
Subject: Re: [JoyofSatan666] Re: Gay ass angels,

  And then again I can see the concern for those of you who do not like this word. I cant speak for everyone else, but you wont have any problems with me using the word "gay" in a negative manner.   Rege, Satanas! Rege, Azazel! Rege, Eligos! Rege, Decarabia!   Al Jiwah- I remember necessary affairs and execute them in due time. I teach and guide those who follow my instructions.   -BlackLegionsOfSatan www.joyofsatan.com

From: Blacklegions Of satan <blacklegionsofsatan@...
To: [email protected]
Sent: Mon, November 8, 2010 10:39:36 AM
Subject: Re: [JoyofSatan666] Re: Gay ass angels,

  No I understood perfectly, im saying to stop taking it so personal!   Rege, Satanas! Rege, Azazel! Rege, Eligos! Rege, Decarabia!   Al Jiwah- I remember necessary affairs and execute them in due time. I teach and guide those who follow my instructions.   -BlackLegionsOfSatan www.joyofsatan.com

From: kikesmasher71 <kikesmasher71@...
To: [email protected]
Sent: Mon, November 8, 2010 9:58:33 AM
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] Re: Gay ass angels,

  I don't think you understood what morticia said, it only matters if its used in a negative way. If someone uses it to mean happy, it is perfectly okay. It DID originally mean "happy". The fact is it got a negative meaning in other uses is because of judeo/xian influence and homophobia. See this from wikipedia:

"At about the same time, a new, pejorative use became prevalent in some parts of the world. In the Anglosphere, this connotation, among younger speakers, has a derisive meaning equivalent to rubbish or stupid (as in "That's so gay."). In this use the word does not mean "homosexual", so it can be used, for example, to refer to an inanimate object or abstract concept of which one disapproves. This usage can also refer to weakness or unmanliness."

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], Blacklegions Of satan <blacklegionsofsatan@... wrote:
No I think its the other way around. Homosexuals need to stop getting so
offeneded, if thats who you are then thats who you are.
No one here hates the gay community, at least I dont but I am guilty of using
that word. Heck if anything gay also means to be happy.

You ever watch "The Flintstones", cartoon show from the 1960's.

*Lyrics*
Flintstones. Meet the Flintstones.
They're the modern stone age family.
From the town of Bedrock,
They're a page right out of history.

Let's ride with the family down the street.
Through the courtesy of Fred's two feet.

When you're with the Flintstones
you'll have a yabba dabba doo time.
A dabba doo time.
You'll have a gay old time. 

"We are all having a gay old
Click to expand...
time!"
 
Rege, Satanas!
Rege, Azazel!
Rege, Eligos!
Rege, Decarabia!
 
Al Jiwah-I remember necessary affairs and execute them in due time. I teach and
guide those who follow my instructions. 
-BlackLegionsOfSatan
www.joyofsatan.com





________________________________
From: "xxmissylalaxx@..." <xxmissylalaxx@...
To: [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url]
Sent: Sun, November 7, 2010 10:04:40 AM
Subject: Re: [JoyofSatan666] Re: Gay ass angels,

 
I know that many of you have said that you use the word "gay" as an insult
without actually hating
Click to expand...
on homosexuals, but everytime you say it there will be
someone who subconsciously associates gay with meaning bad.. Especially children
who don't know any better.
When I was young I remember playing "smear the queer" at the Lutheran church my
family went to. I'm sure the 7 year olds that were playing didn't understand
what that meant, but subconsciously they were learning from a young age to want
to kick the shit out of gay people.
None of you can fucking say that this hostility doesn't exist, and if you
haven't seen it yourself look up the Matthew Shepard story, and countless
others..
Homophobia needs to stop and I think saying gay in a bad way is adding to it,
whether you mean to or not.

Hail Satan!
Sent via BlackBerry by AT&T
________________________________

From: Blacklegions Of satan
Click to expand...
<blacklegionsofsatan@...
Sender: [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url]
Date: Wed, 3 Nov 2010 14:01:30 -0700 (PDT)
To: <[url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url]
ReplyTo: [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url]
Subject: Re: [JoyofSatan666] Re: Gay ass angels,
 
Come on guys dont make a big deal out of nothing. Im sure he meant no harm by
it. We as Spiritual Satanist welcome people from all walks of life and we dont
care about being gay or not gay.  But just because your in this group dont mean
that the way society uses words to express a certain point is going to stop. You
just have to look past that and move on and not to take it so personal. The word
gay is used a lot in many different fashions. It's just like Satanist saying
"fuck god" knowing that the One true God is Satan. Still no one takes it
personal because we know how it was intended to mean. when mainstream here
"God," they think of jewbus. So thats why we still use the term "fuck god" so
that mainstream knows exactly what we mean.

I myself even talk like that, sometimes I will make refrence to something as
being "gay". Dont mean I dislike gay people, it's just the way people use the
word and you shouldnt take it so personal unless you know for sure he was
anti-homo/gay.
I have a gay brother so I am fairly use to gay people and I wouldnt want anyone
hurting my
Click to expand...
brother.
Rege, Satanas!
Rege, Azazel!
Rege, Eligos!
Rege, Decarabia!
 
Al Jiwah-I remember necessary affairs and execute them in due time. I teach and
guide those who follow my instructions.
 
-BlackLegionsOfSatan
www.joyofsatan.com




________________________________
From: "xxmissylalaxx@..." <xxmissylalaxx@...
To: [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url]
Sent: Wed, November 3, 2010 11:09:00 AM
Subject: Re: [JoyofSatan666] Re: Gay ass angels,

 
I was wondering the same thing! It really gets under my skin when people say
that like it is an insult!

Sounds like someone still has some Xtian (Jewish)
Click to expand...
hang ups to get over, and if
they don't think its a bad thing, they need to be a fuck of a lot more careful
about how you word things.

I'm sure most of us don't tolerate homophobia, and we shouldn't have to among
those that know the truth, our God, Satan himself, is attracted to both men and
women, so of course he isn't going to persecute us for it.

Its human nature!!
Hail Satan!!
Hail Khil!!
Hail Gomory!!
Power to the Gods of Hell!!
Sent via BlackBerry by AT&T
________________________________

From: "kikesmasher71" <kikesmasher71@...
Sender: [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url]
Date: Wed, 03 Nov 2010 14:26:15 -0000
To: <<a rel="nofollow" >
Click to expand...
href="mailto:JoyofSatan666%40yahoogroups.com" rel=nofollow target=_blank ymailto="mailto:JoyofSatan666%40yahoogroups.com"[email protected]
ReplyTo: [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url]
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] Re: Gay ass angels,
 
Why are you using the word "gay" as an insult here?We're not homophobic, and
there's nothing bad in being gay.

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "brandyl91" <brandyl91@ wrote:

My name is Brandy, Im 19 yrs old,I Live in tampa, fl.

I havnt slept in almost 3 days so if i sound a little off, its because its
really hard
Click to expand...
for me to think right now
Its weird how i grew up truly hating "god" and yet scared to death of Satan, I
really thought there was no hope for me. instead of writing 5 paragraphs
explaining my life, long story short, this so called loving and forgiving poser,
has made my life a living hell. Half of my life, I wished that I could be on
Satan's side, that he would love me, but like I said I was scared. The only
satanism I knew little about was Anton LeVay, and it wasn't for me, Ive never
thought that Satan doesn't exit..even tho i have doubted god so many times

About 4 months ago, I don't know why but I decided to look up all of the
different types of satanism, just for kicks I guess, and maybe just a little bit
of hope...THATS WHEN I FOUND THE JoS, And it just blew my fucking mind away,
reading about SS. Nothing has made more sense in my fuckin life.



ok, first off, I haven't dedicated myself yet, From the bottom of my heart I
truly do, but there's one big problem, There is NO privacy where I live. I live
with my boyfriend, who is, sadly, very closed minded. He definitely gets it from
his parents, which are very religious. I dont want to hear all this bs how The
REAL FATHER OF LIES has all the damn glory, i mean it really makes me sad, which
i was accually surprised that I felt like that, holding back tears,. but i got
to put up with it. I feel stuck in a rock n a hard place, If I come out and be
who I feel like I realy am,Unfortunately, I will be a bum out on the streets.

And something I dont get, ok, I havnt had any sleep in about 3 days, not for
nothing though, Ive read what other SS have siad about Satan will make himself
more known to you after the dedication ritual.
I was meditating couple night ago, and it was impossible, In my head it was
very vivd..and annoying! My boyfriends father was trying to distract me, (my
boyfriends dad does talk alot tho, and he annoys me) but this was bad, like it
wasnt my bfs dad, he was taunting me, laughing at me, In my head I would get up
and start waling the shit out of him when I saw that creepy ass smile then I
knew it wasnt me, So in my head I got up, ran up toward him and just starting
beating the crap out of him, he got scared at first, but then just started doing
the same shit, laughing making me go crazy


Id tell myself something like calm down, ignore it, and for some reason,
Eminem's voice (YES EMINEM) would rhyme what I siad, so I couldnt meditate, I
couldnt sleep.


I used to smoke out on the front porch (now i have to smoke in the back yard)
and after i got into ss, this tree accross the street, the leaves are perfectly
haped to look exactly like the the "evil" Satan, big creepy grin, horns, scary
eyes. I thought it was just because Im thinking of Satan or something

Last night I was smokin out back and i just noticed another tree and WTF, I
cant even describe it, it had a human features to it but it had alot more
detail, urgh my stupid brain cant think right now! I know it aint a demon that
shit was really trying to scare me, I was smilin on the outside but inside,i was
like "ooo fuukk.."


Its just
Click to expand...
bullshit cuz they make me real weak then pull this shit on me, I mean
all night last nyt, it was on it was either i was really hallucinating from no
sleep or something was always following me, tall dark shadow.

It just confuses me because I havnt dedicated myself yet, why are these fuckers
fucking with me now?, Ive only seen satan once, he never spoke, just smiled, and
left and that was it.


I need some help, Im not sure what to do.

I feel so alone




 
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<td val[/IMG]I've been meditating for over a year and a half now. My chakras have been open for a very, very long time. But lately I've noticed that my heart chakra isnt being as responsive as it should be. It's not that I'm not meditating enough, because my other chakras are working fine. But my heart chakra really feels strange and it hurts. The entire area around it hurts and has been affecting my ribs for a very long time. I know there's a possibility I could have a medical problem, but I wanted to ask the group first if they had any meditations or suggestions for me to try. I want to see if it's that I have a blockage somewhere or whats going on and if the meditations and stuff doesnt work then I'll go see the doctor. i'm not going to ignore the doctor but I wanted to try this first.

Does anyone have any kind of suggestions for something I can do unblock the chakra or make the area around it stop hurting?

Please, I'd appreciate it very much. (So would my boyfriend. He worries.)
Thank you so much in advance!

Ave Satanas!
[/TD]
 
<td val[/IMG]Wow, this got really off topic really fast, didn't it?    A lack of sleep opens your mind to all kinds of wierd freaky shit, some of which is probably manifesting due to stress and fatigue. Onboard ship, every duty day we have to stay up for 36-plus hours, and I start dozing off alot after about half that... Not-quite dreams but definately not reality are what you end up with, and sometimes they can be extremely realistic and scary. Not sleeping or not getting enough satisfying sleep can also open yourself up to attacks of oppurtunity from those entities the JOS warns about.   Here's my suggestion: Try talking to your boyfriend, be honest and unapologetic. If he's a complete dick, why are you hanging onto this loser? It seems like his family feeds him a load of garbage and then that's how he treats you... You should never feel afraid of those who are supposed to care you, and vice versa. It seems like from your post his family is taking care of you both, but you should never feel pressured to change who you are because of simply because of someone you share a house with.   Also, melatonin is a sleep hormone that's about 3-4 dollars at the NEX, I can't imagine it'd be more expensive at a drug store, and I have found it to be very helpful underway when I couldn't get to sleep at night, or day, whatever my shift was. Ask a doctor before you start doing anything with drugs, even over the counter stuff though, and especially with sleep meds be careful with them.   There is nothing wrong with being angry or frustrated. I sincerely hope this is helpful. If you need any more suggestions just ask.   Hail Enki!   Deetz

--- On Mon, 11/8/10, Blacklegions Of satan <blacklegionsofsatan@... wrote:
Click to expand...
From: Blacklegions Of satan <blacklegionsofsatan@...
Subject: Re: [JoyofSatan666] Re: Gay ass angels,
To: [email protected]
Date: Monday, November 8, 2010, 4:51 PM

  Rege, Satanas! Rege, Azazel! Rege, Eligos! Rege, Decarabia! Al Jiwah- I remember necessary affairs and execute them in due time. I teach and guide those who follow my instructions. -BlackLegionsOfSatan www.joyofsatan.com

From: Blacklegions Of satan <blacklegionsofsatan@...
To: [email protected]
Sent: Mon, November 8, 2010 1:42:35 PM
Subject: Re: [JoyofSatan666] Re: Gay ass angels,

  And then again I can see the concern for those of you who do not like this word. I cant speak for everyone else, but you wont have any problems with me using the word "gay" in a negative manner.   Rege, Satanas! Rege, Azazel! Rege, Eligos! Rege, Decarabia!   Al Jiwah- I remember necessary affairs and execute them in due time. I teach and guide those who follow my instructions.   -BlackLegionsOfSatan www.joyofsatan.com

From: Blacklegions Of satan <blacklegionsofsatan@...
To: [email protected]
Sent: Mon, November 8, 2010 10:39:36 AM
Subject: Re: [JoyofSatan666] Re: Gay ass angels,

  No I understood perfectly, im saying to stop taking it so personal!   Rege, Satanas! Rege, Azazel! Rege, Eligos! Rege, Decarabia!   Al Jiwah- I remember necessary affairs and execute them in due time. I teach and guide those who follow my instructions.   -BlackLegionsOfSatan www.joyofsatan.com

From: kikesmasher71 <kikesmasher71@...
To: [email protected]
Sent: Mon, November 8, 2010 9:58:33 AM
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] Re: Gay ass angels,

  I don't think you understood what morticia said, it only matters if its used in a negative way. If someone uses it to mean happy, it is perfectly okay. It DID originally mean "happy". The fact is it got a negative meaning in other uses is because of judeo/xian influence and homophobia. See this from wikipedia:

"At about the same time, a new, pejorative use became prevalent in some parts of the world. In the Anglosphere, this connotation, among younger speakers, has a derisive meaning equivalent to rubbish or stupid (as in "That's so gay."). In this use the word does not mean "homosexual", so it can be used, for example, to refer to an inanimate object or abstract concept of which one disapproves. This usage can also refer to weakness or unmanliness."

--- In [[email protected]][email protected][/email], Blacklegions Of satan <blacklegionsofsatan@... wrote:

No I think its the other way around. Homosexuals need to stop getting so
offeneded, if thats who you are then thats who you are.
No one here hates the gay community, at least I dont but I am guilty of using
that word. Heck if anything gay also means to be happy.

You ever watch "The Flintstones", cartoon show from the 1960's.

*Lyrics*
Flintstones. Meet the Flintstones.
They're the modern stone age family.
From the town of Bedrock,
They're a page right out of history.

Let's ride with the family down the street.
Through the courtesy of Fred's two feet.

When you're with the Flintstones
you'll have a yabba dabba doo time.
A dabba doo time.
You'll have a gay old time. 

"We are all having a gay old time!"
 
Rege, Satanas!
Rege, Azazel!
Rege, Eligos!
Rege, Decarabia!
 
Al Jiwah-I remember necessary affairs and execute them in due time. I teach and
guide those who follow my instructions. 
-BlackLegionsOfSatan
www.joyofsatan.com





________________________________
From: "xxmissylalaxx@..." <xxmissylalaxx@...
To: [[email protected]][email protected][/email]
Sent: Sun, November 7, 2010 10:04:40 AM
Subject: Re: [JoyofSatan666] Re: Gay ass angels,

 
I know that many of you have said that you use the word "gay" as an insult
without actually hating on homosexuals, but everytime you say it there will be
someone who subconsciously associates gay with meaning bad.. Especially children
who don't know any better.
When I was young I remember playing "smear the queer" at the Lutheran church my
family went to. I'm sure the 7 year olds that were playing didn't understand
what that meant, but subconsciously they were learning from a young age to want
to kick the shit out of gay people.
None of you can fucking say that this hostility doesn't exist, and if you
haven't seen it yourself look up the Matthew Shepard story, and countless
others..
Homophobia needs to stop and I think saying gay in a bad way is adding to it,
whether you mean to or not.

Hail Satan!
Sent via BlackBerry by AT&T
________________________________

From: Blacklegions Of satan <blacklegionsofsatan@...
Sender: [[email protected]][email protected][/email]
Date: Wed, 3 Nov 2010 14:01:30 -0700 (PDT)
To: <[[email protected]][email protected][/email]
ReplyTo: [[email protected]][email protected][/email]
Subject: Re: [JoyofSatan666] Re: Gay ass angels,
 
Come on guys dont make a big deal out of nothing. Im sure he meant no harm by
it. We as Spiritual Satanist welcome people from all walks of life and we dont
care about being gay or not gay.  But just because your in this group dont mean
that the way society uses words to express a certain point is going to stop. You
just have to look past that and move on and not to take it so personal. The word
gay is used a lot in many different fashions. It's just like Satanist saying
"fuck god" knowing that the One true God is Satan. Still no one takes it
personal because we know how it was intended to mean. when mainstream here
"God," they think of jewbus. So thats why we still use the term "fuck god" so
that mainstream knows exactly what we mean.

I myself even talk like that, sometimes I will make refrence to something as
being "gay". Dont mean I dislike gay people, it's just the way people use the
word and you shouldnt take it so personal unless you know for sure he was
anti-homo/gay.
I have a gay brother so I am fairly use to gay people and I wouldnt want anyone
hurting my brother.

Rege, Satanas!
Rege, Azazel!
Rege, Eligos!
Rege, Decarabia!
 
Al Jiwah-I remember necessary affairs and execute them in due time. I teach and
guide those who follow my instructions.
 
-BlackLegionsOfSatan
www.joyofsatan.com




________________________________
From: "xxmissylalaxx@..." <xxmissylalaxx@...
To: [[email protected]][email protected][/email]
Sent: Wed, November 3, 2010 11:09:00 AM
Subject: Re: [JoyofSatan666] Re: Gay ass angels,

 
I was wondering the same thing! It really gets under my skin when people say
that like it is an insult!

Sounds like someone still has some Xtian (Jewish) hang ups to get over, and if
they don't think its a bad thing, they need to be a fuck of a lot more careful
about how you word things.

I'm sure most of us don't tolerate homophobia, and we shouldn't have to among
those that know the truth, our God, Satan himself, is attracted to both men and
women, so of course he isn't going to persecute us for it.

Its human nature!!
Hail Satan!!
Hail Khil!!
Hail Gomory!!
Power to the Gods of Hell!!
Sent via BlackBerry by AT&T
________________________________

From: "kikesmasher71" <kikesmasher71@...
Sender: [[email protected]][email protected][/email]
Date: Wed, 03 Nov 2010 14:26:15 -0000
To: <[[email protected]][email protected][/email]
ReplyTo: [[email protected]][email protected][/email]
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] Re: Gay ass angels,
 
Why are you using the word "gay" as an insult here?We're not homophobic, and
there's nothing bad in being gay.

--- In [[email protected]][email protected][/email], "brandyl91" <brandyl91@ wrote:

My name is Brandy, Im 19 yrs old,I Live in tampa, fl.

I havnt slept in almost 3 days so if i sound a little off, its because its
really hard for me to think right now


Its weird how i grew up truly hating "god" and yet scared to death of Satan, I
really thought there was no hope for me. instead of writing 5 paragraphs
explaining my life, long story short, this so called loving and forgiving poser,
has made my life a living hell. Half of my life, I wished that I could be on
Satan's side, that he would love me, but like I said I was scared. The only
satanism I knew little about was Anton LeVay, and it wasn't for me, Ive never
thought that Satan doesn't exit..even tho i have doubted god so many times

About 4 months ago, I don't know why but I decided to look up all of the
different types of satanism, just for kicks I guess, and maybe just a little bit
of hope...THATS WHEN I FOUND THE JoS, And it just blew my fucking mind away,
reading about SS. Nothing has made more sense in my fuckin life.



ok, first off, I haven't dedicated myself yet, From the bottom of my heart I
truly do, but there's one big problem, There is NO privacy where I live. I live
with my boyfriend, who is, sadly, very closed minded. He definitely gets it from
his parents, which are very religious. I dont want to hear all this bs how The
REAL FATHER OF LIES has all the damn glory, i mean it really makes me sad, which
i was accually surprised that I felt like that, holding back tears,. but i got
to put up with it. I feel stuck in a rock n a hard place, If I come out and be
who I feel like I realy am,Unfortunately, I will be a bum out on the streets.

And something I dont get, ok, I havnt had any sleep in about 3 days, not for
nothing though, Ive read what other SS have siad about Satan will make himself
more known to you after the dedication ritual.
I was meditating couple night ago, and it was impossible, In my head it was
very vivd..and annoying! My boyfriends father was trying to distract me, (my
boyfriends dad does talk alot tho, and he annoys me) but this was bad, like it
wasnt my bfs dad, he was taunting me, laughing at me, In my head I would get up
and start waling the shit out of him when I saw that creepy ass smile then I
knew it wasnt me, So in my head I got up, ran up toward him and just starting
beating the crap out of him, he got scared at first, but then just started doing
the same shit, laughing making me go crazy


Id tell myself something like calm down, ignore it, and for some reason,
Eminem's voice (YES EMINEM) would rhyme what I siad, so I couldnt meditate, I
couldnt sleep.


I used to smoke out on the front porch (now i have to smoke in the back yard)
and after i got into ss, this tree accross the street, the leaves are perfectly
haped to look exactly like the the "evil" Satan, big creepy grin, horns, scary
eyes. I thought it was just because Im thinking of Satan or something

Last night I was smokin out back and i just noticed another tree and WTF, I
cant even describe it, it had a human features to it but it had alot more
detail, urgh my stupid brain cant think right now! I know it aint a demon that
shit was really trying to scare me, I was smilin on the outside but inside,i was
like "ooo fuukk.."


Its just bullshit cuz they make me real weak then pull this shit on me, I mean
all night last nyt, it was on it was either i was really hallucinating from no
sleep or something was always following me, tall dark shadow.

It just confuses me because I havnt dedicated myself yet, why are these fuckers
fucking with me now?, Ive only seen satan once, he never spoke, just smiled, and
left and that was it.


I need some help, Im not sure what to do.

I feel so alone




 
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If there is somthing medicaly wrong it is cuased by the chakra. Blocked or unhealthy chakras cuase problems in the srounding area's. Just like you described with your ribs hurting. first i would suggest Cleaning your aura and when you clean your chakras, focus on your heart chakra. After words do the ez chakra spin mediation on your heart chakra.

http://www.angelfire.com/empire/serpent ... _Spin.html

After this your chakra should be much healther and fuctioning properly.

Get better soon, Waric lyco

Hail satan!
Death to right hand path!

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], Elizabeth Remy <wheresfrank2864212@... wrote:

I've been meditating for over a year and a half now. My chakras have been open for a very, very long time. But lately I've noticed that my heart chakra isnt being as responsive as it should be. It's not that I'm not meditating enough, because my other chakras are working fine. But my heart chakra really feels strange and it hurts. The entire area around it hurts and has been affecting my ribs for a very long time. I know there's a possibility I could have a medical problem, but I wanted to ask the group first if they had any meditations or suggestions for me to try. I want to see if it's that I have a blockage somewhere or whats going on and if the meditations and stuff doesnt work then I'll go see the doctor. i'm not going to ignore the doctor but I wanted to try this first.

Does anyone have any kind of suggestions for something I can do unblock the chakra or make the area around it stop hurting?

Please, I'd appreciate it very much. (So would my boyfriend. He worries.)
Thank you so much in advance!

Ave Satanas!
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<td val[/IMG]I will be sure to give this a try in the next few days and let you know how it goes!
Thank you so much for the advice.

Ave Satanas!

--- On Tue, 11/9/10, Waric <waric_lyco@... wrote:
From: Waric <waric_lyco@...
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] Re: Heart Chakra Pains
To: [email protected]
Date: Tuesday, November 9, 2010, 10:26 AM

  If there is somthing medicaly wrong it is cuased by the chakra. Blocked or unhealthy chakras cuase problems in the srounding area's. Just like you described with your ribs hurting. first i would suggest Cleaning your aura and when you clean your chakras, focus on your heart chakra. After words do the ez chakra spin mediation on your heart chakra.

http://www.angelfire.com/empire/serpent ... _Spin.html

After this your chakra should be much healther and fuctioning properly.

Get better soon, Waric lyco

Hail satan!
Death to right hand path!

--- [/IMG][email protected], Elizabeth Remy <wheresfrank2864212@... wrote:

I've been meditating for over a year and a half now. My chakras have been open for a very, very long time. But lately I've noticed that my heart chakra isnt being as responsive as it should be. It's not that I'm not meditating enough, because my other chakras are working fine. But my heart chakra really feels strange and it hurts. The entire area around it hurts and has been affecting my ribs for a very long time. I know there's a possibility I could have a medical problem, but I wanted to ask the group first if they had any meditations or suggestions for me to try. I want to see if it's that I have a blockage somewhere or whats going on and if the meditations and stuff doesnt work then I'll go see the doctor. i'm not going to ignore the doctor but I wanted to try this first.

Does anyone have any kind of suggestions for something I can do unblock the chakra or make the area around it stop hurting?

Please, I'd appreciate it very much. (So would my boyfriend. He worries.)
Thank you so much in advance!

Ave Satanas!
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