Fuck, not ready!

[demonic_fury29]

Hi group,

I was sooo tempted to do the ritual tonight when I realized I still have lots to do lol.

I havent finished reading all the websites yet and it would be a good idea to do that.

I still don't know what else Im suppose to do...i mean, I can't do destruction rituals yet or will destruction against the Enemy!

I don't know for sure how to do real meditation. Ive tried it but I get impatient and distracted.

Fuck, I wish I dedicated myself years ago so I can destroy the Enemy!!!

Even if I haven't dedicated yet, are there any small "energies" or wharever to start destruction for the Enemy as I keep reading the websites?

I keep getting that feeling and temptation to do the Dedication to Father Satan but I just ain't ready

Not to mention I still can't get over the fear of fire - no candles!

So I say a big HAIL SATAN!!!

P.S. My spirituality has been dead since I left Xianity...fucking Catholic church fucked me up - meaning it almost destroyed my spirituality - but I am trying to heal, maybe that's why I can't meditate?

 

[C Y]

Do it in your astral temple, your true decision to join comes from you inside. If that is what you truly want, there would be anyone/anything getting in your way.

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "demonic_fury29" <demonic_fury29@... wrote:

Hi group,

I was sooo tempted to do the ritual tonight when I realized I still have lots to do lol.

I havent finished reading all the websites yet and it would be a good idea to do that.

I still don't know what else Im suppose to do...i mean, I can't do destruction rituals yet or will destruction against the Enemy!

I don't know for sure how to do real meditation. Ive tried it but I get impatient and distracted.

Fuck, I wish I dedicated myself years ago so I can destroy the Enemy!!!

Even if I haven't dedicated yet, are there any small "energies" or wharever to start destruction for the Enemy as I keep reading the websites?

I keep getting that feeling and temptation to do the Dedication to Father Satan but I just ain't ready

Not to mention I still can't get over the fear of fire - no candles!

So I say a big HAIL SATAN!!!

P.S. My spirituality has been dead since I left Xianity...fucking Catholic church fucked me up - meaning it almost destroyed my spirituality - but I am trying to heal, maybe that's why I can't meditate?