Finding Father.

[Dane H.]

I made a reply earlier that hinted about my search for Father. I feel it is time to tell my journey, in a shortened manner.

I began my actual search at the age of 13. Though my childhood is pocked with oddities that helped lead me to beginning the search. I have been aware of my Third Eye for as long as I can remember it. Throbbing like a headache, but not in as painful of a manner. I can close my eyes now, and see into my past and relive every day in stunningly vivid detail, bringing back every taste, smell and feeling. I have, for 18 years had a repeating image in my mind along with the name that it gave to me. A giant blue serpent with red spots covering its skin, it spoke to me in my dreams, and still does. It calls me Crisius Decimus Meridius. I have gone so far as to answer to the name Cris and have used Crisius throughout my life.. At the age of 10, my mother found "God" in the Mormon Church, I was shown many things and even then I knew I was being lied to.

Back to age 13, I picked up a black book. I read it, I devoured the book, every page, hungry for an answer. And found a piece of Father there. I poured through the Bible and the Koran as well. Devouring the words, seeing the blood and lies in the pages. But becoming closer to the truth, to finding Father. With my newfound knowledge of what the lies were, I was more able to see the truth. I was about 15 when I picked up a candle and a razor, I opened the palm of my hand and bled onto a page, I sealed my hand up and signed my name, with a prayer and the flame from the candle I had taken a giant step towards what I am now. At first I was bombarded my nightmares, scenes of my death and my serpent was gone. I fought the images with my mind and after many months, I found an egg. Nuturing it with my desires, my serpent was reborn, It has become very big by now. Though I rarely speak of it to anyone. I reveal myself and him now.

Here at 21, I know Fathers face, I can hear his voice with in me. And I know that you can too.

 

[Dark God]

intresting story , thanks for sharing it

 

[aeinar72]

Awesome. Thanks for sharing your story. It is encouraging.

Hail Satan!

 

[rekha amerekha]

thank you 4 sharing diz storie.... very inspiring... loved it... any more stories?? 

On Wed, Jan 12, 2011 at 10:44 AM, rekha amerekha <dadevilzprincezz@... wrote:

On Tue, Jan 11, 2011 at 11:11 PM, Dane H. <icyy_one@... wrote:

  I made a reply earlier that hinted about my search for Father. I feel it is time to tell my journey, in a shortened manner.

I began my actual search at the age of 13. Though my childhood is pocked with oddities that helped lead me to beginning the search. I have been aware of my Third Eye for as long as I can remember it. Throbbing like a headache, but not in as painful of a manner. I can close my eyes now, and see into my past and relive every day in stunningly vivid detail, bringing back every taste, smell and feeling. I have, for 18 years had a repeating image in my mind along with the name that it gave to me. A giant blue serpent with red spots covering its skin, it spoke to me in my dreams, and still does. It calls me Crisius Decimus Meridius. I have gone so far as to answer to the name Cris and have used Crisius throughout my life.. At the age of 10, my mother found "God" in the Mormon Church, I was shown many things and even then I knew I was being lied to.

Back to age 13, I picked up a black book. I read it, I devoured the book, every page, hungry for an answer. And found a piece of Father there. I poured through the Bible and the Koran as well. Devouring the words, seeing the blood and lies in the pages. But becoming closer to the truth, to finding Father. With my newfound knowledge of what the lies were, I was more able to see the truth. I was about 15 when I picked up a candle and a razor, I opened the palm of my hand and bled onto a page, I sealed my hand up and signed my name, with a prayer and the flame from the candle I had taken a giant step towards what I am now. At first I was bombarded my nightmares, scenes of my death and my serpent was gone. I fought the images with my mind and after many months, I found an egg. Nuturing it with my desires, my serpent was reborn, It has become very big by now. Though I rarely speak of it to anyone. I reveal myself and him now.

Here at 21, I know Fathers face, I can hear his voice with in me. And I know that you can too.

 

[Allison P]

Very cool story! Thanks for sharing. Hail Satan, the true Father!

On 1/11/11, rekha amerekha <dadevilzprincezz@... wrote:
thank you 4 sharing diz storie.... very inspiring... loved it... any more
stories??

On Wed, Jan 12, 2011 at 10:44 AM, rekha amerekha <dadevilzprincezz@...
wrote:



On Tue, Jan 11, 2011 at 11:11 PM, Dane H. <icyy_one@... wrote:



I made a reply earlier that hinted about my search for Father. I feel it
is time to tell my journey, in a shortened manner.

I began my actual search at the age of 13. Though my childhood is pocked
with oddities that helped lead me to beginning the search. I have been
aware
of my Third Eye for as long as I can remember it. Throbbing like a
headache,
but not in as painful of a manner. I can close my eyes now, and see into
my
past and relive every day in stunningly vivid detail, bringing back every
taste, smell and feeling. I have, for 18 years had a repeating image in
my
mind along with the name that it gave to me. A giant blue serpent with
red
spots covering its skin, it spoke to me in my dreams, and still does. It
calls me Crisius Decimus Meridius. I have gone so far as to answer to the
name Cris and have used Crisius throughout my life.. At the age of 10, my
mother found "God" in the Mormon Church, I was shown many things and even
then I knew I was being lied to.

Back to age 13, I picked up a black book. I read it, I devoured the book,
every page, hungry for an answer. And found a piece of Father there. I
poured through the Bible and the Koran as well. Devouring the words,
seeing
the blood and lies in the pages. But becoming closer to the truth, to
finding Father. With my newfound knowledge of what the lies were, I was
more
able to see the truth. I was about 15 when I picked up a candle and a
razor,
I opened the palm of my hand and bled onto a page, I sealed my hand up
and
signed my name, with a prayer and the flame from the candle I had taken a
giant step towards what I am now. At first I was bombarded my nightmares,
scenes of my death and my serpent was gone. I fought the images with my
mind
and after many months, I found an egg. Nuturing it with my desires, my
serpent was reborn, It has become very big by now. Though I rarely speak
of
it to anyone. I reveal myself and him now.

Here at 21, I know Fathers face, I can hear his voice with in me. And I
know that you can too.

 

[Desdemona the Wicked]

Very inspiring story. i myself was 13 when i found father satan. though i have always had a keen interest in him years before. thank you for sharing your story.

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], Allison P <apocalypseofjon@... wrote:

Very cool story! Thanks for sharing. Hail Satan, the true Father!

On 1/11/11, rekha amerekha <dadevilzprincezz@... wrote:
thank you 4 sharing diz storie.... very inspiring... loved it... any more
stories??

On Wed, Jan 12, 2011 at 10:44 AM, rekha amerekha <dadevilzprincezz@...
wrote:



On Tue, Jan 11, 2011 at 11:11 PM, Dane H. <icyy_one@... wrote:



I made a reply earlier that hinted about my search for Father. I feel it
is time to tell my journey, in a shortened manner.

I began my actual search at the age of 13. Though my childhood is pocked
with oddities that helped lead me to beginning the search. I have been
aware
of my Third Eye for as long as I can remember it. Throbbing like a
headache,
but not in as painful of a manner. I can close my eyes now, and see into
my
past and relive every day in stunningly vivid detail, bringing back every
taste, smell and feeling. I have, for 18 years had a repeating image in
my
mind along with the name that it gave to me. A giant blue serpent with
red
spots covering its skin, it spoke to me in my dreams, and still does. It
calls me Crisius Decimus Meridius. I have gone so far as to answer to the
name Cris and have used Crisius throughout my life.. At the age of 10, my
mother found "God" in the Mormon Church, I was shown many things and even
then I knew I was being lied to.

Back to age 13, I picked up a black book. I read it, I devoured the book,
every page, hungry for an answer. And found a piece of Father there. I
poured through the Bible and the Koran as well. Devouring the words,
seeing
the blood and lies in the pages. But becoming closer to the truth, to
finding Father. With my newfound knowledge of what the lies were, I was
more
able to see the truth. I was about 15 when I picked up a candle and a
razor,
I opened the palm of my hand and bled onto a page, I sealed my hand up
and
signed my name, with a prayer and the flame from the candle I had taken a
giant step towards what I am now. At first I was bombarded my nightmares,
scenes of my death and my serpent was gone. I fought the images with my
mind
and after many months, I found an egg. Nuturing it with my desires, my
serpent was reborn, It has become very big by now. Though I rarely speak
of
it to anyone. I reveal myself and him now.

Here at 21, I know Fathers face, I can hear his voice with in me. And I
know that you can too.

 

[[email protected]]

I am still thirteen, though I have not had as abnormal experiences as you, I know there is something inside me. I am still looking for a black book, they seem hard to find, & I need to get one without my parents knowing.

 

[L K]

<td val[/IMG]Many people here wont agree, but I found Anton LaVeys "Satanic Bible" when I was around that age. And while I would call it the best source for a Satanist. If you are looking for some kind of small guide or a way to delve further into yourself, I recommend it. You can find it at any major bookstore, and its only about 10 bucks. Its kind small too, very east to fit in a jacket pocket of in-between your mattresses.

--- On Tue, 1/25/11, clawsick0@... <clawsick0@... wrote:

From: clawsick0@... <clawsick0@...
Subject: [HellsArmy666] Re: Finding Father.
To: [email protected]
Date: Tuesday, January 25, 2011, 5:39 PM

  I am still thirteen, though I have not had as abnormal experiences as you, I know there is something inside me. I am still looking for a black book, they seem hard to find, & I need to get one without my parents knowing.

[/TD]

 

[rui_miguel_2]

The best guide there is, is Joy of Satan's website, and we do not believe in LaVeyan Satanism... It's a lot different than Spiritual Satanism... They believe in Satan as a force of nature, not as a real being as we do, they call themselves gods without even caring about meditation!

Hail Father Enki and The Gods of Duat!!

 

[[email protected]]

Yes, I have his bible on my iPod I found recently... But not completely convinced about Anton LaVey, I just don;t know why though...

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], L K <icyy_one@... wrote:

Many people here wont agree, but I found Anton LaVeys "Satanic Bible" when I was around that age. And while I would call it the best source for a Satanist. If you are looking for some kind of small guide or a way to delve further into yourself, I recommend it. You can find it at any major bookstore, and its only about 10 bucks. Its kind small too, very east to fit in a jacket pocket of in-between your mattresses.

--- On Tue, 1/25/11, clawsick0@... <clawsick0@... wrote:

From: clawsick0@... <clawsick0@...
Subject: [HellsArmy666] Re: Finding Father.
To: [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url]
Date: Tuesday, January 25, 2011, 5:39 PM
















 









I am still thirteen, though I have not had as abnormal experiences as you, I know there is something inside me. I am still looking for a black book, they seem hard to find, & I need to get one without my parents knowing.

 

[DemonW]

You just have to be careful with that bible, take everything in it with a dumptruck load of salt because levay was an atheist. Personaly I think levay's phliosophy should not even be called Satanism, it's insulting. The most holy book in Satanism is The Al-Jilwah which can be found on The JOS website.
666/88

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], clawsick0@... wrote:

Yes, I have his bible on my iPod I found recently... But not completely convinced about Anton LaVey, I just don;t know why though...

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], L K <icyy_one@ wrote:

Many people here wont agree, but I found Anton LaVeys "Satanic Bible" when I was around that age. And while I would call it the best source for a Satanist. If you are looking for some kind of small guide or a way to delve further into yourself, I recommend it. You can find it at any major bookstore, and its only about 10 bucks. Its kind small too, very east to fit in a jacket pocket of in-between your mattresses.

--- On Tue, 1/25/11, clawsick0@ <clawsick0@ wrote:

From: clawsick0@ <clawsick0@
Subject: [HellsArmy666] Re: Finding Father.
To: [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url]
Date: Tuesday, January 25, 2011, 5:39 PM
















 









I am still thirteen, though I have not had as abnormal experiences as you, I know there is something inside me. I am still looking for a black book, they seem hard to find, & I need to get one without my parents knowing.