Filling the emptiness

[craciuneduardsilviu]

I recently had a spiritual awakening but then I lost my enlightement (because the procces was not complete). In the search of finding myself again / the process of filling the void that caused my compulsive addiction, I really understood alot of things. I observed my mind, my emotions, my body. I was seeing 11:11 everywhere and things like that before. The first stage of my healing was to connect to my higher self conciousness (ex: I can choose if I want to suffer) and the second one to connect to Earth by changing my life (taking action because I had no motivation, even if I don't suffer, the pain of regret still remains and I can work on it). I did that by listening to my spiritual heart because the feelings are a mirror of our conciousness. Firstly I found God, then I found Satan. I am the proof that both: good-bad, dark-light, inside-out are necessary in order for us to balance and evolve as earthwalkers.Let's look at it from a religious point of view: If God forgives everyone, and I am a part of God conciousness, why can't I forget Satan, why can't I forgive myself? I am the good and the bad, I am a creator. Excuse my english and sorry if this post isn't related to the group.~Eduard, 18. 

 

[tjs4satan]

Eduard. Your post really isn't related to the group, but I will answer it as accordingly.

Eduard. You are experiencing the opposite of an awakening, from the way you typed and what you are saying, you are experiencing this 'awakeness' 'higher self' soley from materialistic drugs, which are another form of jewish control.

Get yourself off of drugs.

Everything that Christianity has taught & forced upon the masses is a lie, read see_the_truth.webs.com & JoyofSatan.org Christianity is Jewish Witchcraft.
                   
Many of us come into this life from past lives of brainwashing and spiritual slavedom.

The True creator God of humanity is Satan. The suffering and the thoughts of us deserving it come extensively from the jewish plague that has reigned over humanity for the past thousand years, involving christianity, catholism, judaism, islam, buddhism, these religions and programs are simply that programs of degeneration of spiritual and materialistic health.

Satan is not a christian invention, He predates all religions. PAGANISM is SATANISM.

 

[craciuneduardsilviu]

I understand. I am not religious, but I didn't expressed my self well. Thank you for this message anyway. I will read that.

 

[buubuurocket]

after I did the ritual to except father I felt naked/empty like my soul was missing, but other than that nothing.