Feeling worried and confused.

[richardlesterhailsatan11]

As these days go by, I keep having weird experiences, it's getting to that point where I'm starting to believe almost everyone I encounter is telepathic, including my family, which I grew up with and knowing them my whole life, but yet they never spoke a word of this... I've prayed to Father Satan to give me an answer, and prayed, and prayed, and prayed... but nothing... It's really messing with my head. I was trying to figure all of this out, maybe I'm reading these people subconsciously? And they're not really telepathic at all? But then there is countless red flags and experiences I've had that showed me this wasn't the case at all. I even started going online and researching this myself, and come to find out there is people stuck in my same situation...
Gangstalking/Mind-reading/Induced Psychosis/My experiences : Schizophrenia Forum - Psych forums If anyone has time, please read this link right here because this is EXACTLY what I'm going through... and it's driving me insane as the days go by. It's hard for me to grasp that what I'm going through is real, but as time goes by I'm really starting to believe that it is.
I've never read anything on JoS that talks about this, and that's another thing that worries me. I'm getting to the point where I'm actually starting to believe that my mother, grandmother, brother, sister, and other people in my family like my cousins, let alone quite a few people in society... just everyday random people aren't human at all... but something more, something else... And the evidence and the red flags are there, but yet Joy of Satan doesn't explain any of this. I'm actually starting to believe that some of these people in society are angels, if not angels, but actual VESSELS for angels to use when they see fit. I'm having too many strange experiences that can't be ignored much longer and it seems like Father Satan or the Gods definitely ain't helping me answer these questions, because I've been asking for quite a while now, as far as I'm concerned it's been months.
Life is starting to look more and more like the movie "They Live" by John Carpenter. Can someone here please explain angelic attacks a little bit more? Are there people in society that are vessels for angelic beings to use and are these people aware of it themselves? Because my family definitely knows something, but they aren't telling me... and a lot of people I'm running into in society are showing the red flags too. Man, I seriously need to move the fuck out of this town, get to somewhere where I can actually FIND and MEET TRUE and REAL Spiritual Satanists, and see if they show these same red flags or not... Because life for me is getting weird and there is people on these forums that know what I'm talking about, but wont tell me the full on truth. Please, let me know the TRUTH. Hail Satan, Hail Astaroth, Hail Azazel, Hail Belzeebub.  

 

[richardlesterhailsatan11]

(Posted by Choiceless from Psychology and Mental Health Forum - Psych forums   )Hello.

I am wondering if anybody else has similar experiences to my own. I had what I thought was a normal life in a normal world but then the pressure began, at work, at home, on the internet, chatrooms - inducing me into a 'psychosis'.

Lots and lots and lots of people, including my friends, family and strangers - showed me relentlessly that they could read my mind and hear my thoughts, know my private life and past, dating back to being a child. I had no word for this - I had never considered the term ' read my mind' or considered that what I thought were other humans could hear my internal thoughts with ease.

Websites I'd visit, would leave hints and clues that they were also 'in on it' - I'd go to yahoo pool, and user IDs would flash into the room, ridiculous ones, repeating what I was just thinking about it or mocking the main issues of my life. Or showing me that they could hear what I had just said to my 'mother'. And so on.

At work I'd visit a toilet alone and someone would then say 'at least he washes his hands in the toilet I don't even do that'.

This happened a lot - what they try to pass off later on as 'auditory hallucinations' were not in fact that - but super-intelligent beings who were able to utter words and phrases at the precise volume so that I would hear it even from far away.

I was shown that some entity or force could see through my eyes - know exactly at all times what I am looking at, thinking or feeling. Human beings, or those that pose as such, could do this, down to me having a dry mouth.

If they wanted me to see something in the corner of my eye, they were able to do this.

I was also subjected to intense and strange feeligns of deja vu. It became apparent that they could see my dreams, perhaps even create my dreams if they wanted to?

Live radio stations, the presenters would somehow talk about me with such superintelligence and ease to synchronise their words with my thoughts. The same happened with live tv.

Obviously I was hammered by a combination of mind-reading, 'remote' viewing, superintelligent psychology and technology also.

All of this, especially things like deja vu, has led me to believe in the possibility of fate - other dimensions/universes/time travel.

What has been the hardest part of this to swallow - was that all of my friends, and immediate family, perhaps all of them, are able to effortlessly know my thoughts, moods, hear my thoughts, read my mind, whenever they want to or perhaps all of the time.

I have been caught in a cycle of anger, paranoia, and confusion, making terrible decisions due to their influence, regarding both finance and matters of the law. I am unable to get a job, nevermind handle one, because I would immediately be haunted by the knowledge that everyone around me is probably reading my mind at all times. Because of this, I may never work again, and it's not my fault. It is very difficult to deal with for a sensitive shy person such as myself. I cannot stop 'thinking' - talking to myself - as everyone does, in my head, commenting on everything - a running commentary, explaining my thoughts, explaining and justifying everything relentlessly.

It has become obvious that a huge secret society of mind-readers exist. And they work in tandem effortlessly. They deliver 'fate'. They can be the homeless, doctors, other schizophrenics, those who claim to be depressed, cleaners, anyone and everyone.

Other things I have learned the hard way are that animals too are capable of hearing one's thoughts (cats and dogs for sure and I'm sure many other creatures) and do understand language.

It is hard to get your head round the fact that your parents, siblings, cousins, friends, were always able to read your mind, and hear your thoughts, and know what you are doing or feeling. Hard to accept that they set up traps for you - to become a smoker - to break the law - to go through horrible, horrible, psychosis. It is hard to accept just how amazingly capable they are - in intelligence and behaviour, compared to a human such as myself.

It is hard to figure out why I am human, unable to read minds or hear thoughts, and not part of their hive mind, and hard to put the fear of what happens after you die, out of your mind. It is hard to know that if you speak about these thigns they have answers ready to frustrate you or make you feel even more isolated. It is hard to know you are not crazy but that you will be treated as such.

Do I have a soul? Do they? Are they here as part of my experience - is it a gift? If so, why so harsh - what sort of experience is this? How many others are in the same position? Do they do this for fun? Am I even related to them, or was I created somehow or swapped at birth?

I have absolutely no doubt that my father, mother, sister, friends, family - are all mind-readers. I've been through a lot - even the PM of my country came on TV to show me he could read my mind - know a word I was trying to recall and drop it into conversation on TV effortlessly.

The only positives out of this are that my mind has been opened up to concepts that I would not have probably ever naturally thought about for long consciously. Other universes/dimensions - time travel - fate - souls - the meaning behind dejavu - the meaning behind dreams. But it's still harsh.

I could type, tonnes more, tonnes more. So much - I've seen a cousin from India appear as a Dr in a white coat to screw with my mind- was that him? Was it another being shapeshifting? I've seen my sister with white skin - I've seen just how capable they are of driving you into psychosis. I've seen just how many people are in on it.

Am I alone? Are there others who feel the same, genuinely? And try to cope the best they can but everything they think say or do seems to be used against them?

Much obliged for any answers or questions I get, or any examples of similar experiences others have had. The only 'answers' I've got are from the 'free your brain matrix artificial syncronicity' site and from montalk.net.

I am 31 now and this has been going on since I was 21/22. Having re-examined all my memories dating to childhood it has become apparent that everyone around me always was a mind-reader. Girlfriends, best friends, all throughout school, college and university. The evidence is irrefutable. Are there others who feel the same?

It's hard not to feel victimised and setup! It's impossible to know who to trust. It's hard not to blame others when you know it can't all be your fault.

Seeing the reality, behind reality - can drive you insane. They have watched me try to kill myself - and I ask myself how they can be so heartless.

 

[Magus Immortalis]

You explain a lot of what is happening to you, but I noticed in your posts you don't explain what you have done to deal with this.Program your aura so that others cannot read your thoughts or feel your emotions.

On Sunday, May 18, 2014 3:28:02 PM, "richardlesterhailsatan11@... [JoyofSatan666]" <[email protected] wrote:


  (Posted by Choiceless from Psychology and Mental Health Forum - Psych forums   )Hello.

I am wondering if anybody else has similar experiences to my own. I had what I thought was a normal life in a normal world but then the pressure began, at work, at home, on the internet, chatrooms - inducing me into a 'psychosis'.

Lots and lots and lots of people, including my friends, family and strangers - showed me relentlessly that they could read my mind and hear my thoughts, know my private life and past, dating back to being a child. I had no word for this - I had never considered the term ' read my mind' or considered that what I thought were other humans could hear my internal thoughts with ease.

Websites I'd visit, would leave hints and clues that they were also 'in on it' - I'd go to yahoo pool, and user IDs would flash into the room, ridiculous ones, repeating what I was just thinking about it or mocking the main issues of my life. Or showing me that they could hear what I had just said to my 'mother'. And so on.

At work I'd visit a toilet alone and someone would then say 'at least he washes his hands in the toilet I don't even do that'.

This happened a lot - what they try to pass off later on as 'auditory hallucinations' were not in fact that - but super-intelligent beings who were able to utter words and phrases at the precise volume so that I would hear it even from far away.

I was shown that some entity or force could see through my eyes - know exactly at all times what I am looking at, thinking or feeling. Human beings, or those that pose as such, could do this, down to me having a dry mouth.

If they wanted me to see something in the corner of my eye, they were able to do this.

I was also subjected to intense and strange feeligns of deja vu. It became apparent that they could see my dreams, perhaps even create my dreams if they wanted to?

Live radio stations, the presenters would somehow talk about me with such superintelligence and ease to synchronise their words with my thoughts. The same happened with live tv.

Obviously I was hammered by a combination of mind-reading, 'remote' viewing, superintelligent psychology and technology also.

All of this, especially things like deja vu, has led me to believe in the possibility of fate - other dimensions/universes/time travel.

What has been the hardest part of this to swallow - was that all of my friends, and immediate family, perhaps all of them, are able to effortlessly know my thoughts, moods, hear my thoughts, read my mind, whenever they want to or perhaps all of the time.

I have been caught in a cycle of anger, paranoia, and confusion, making terrible decisions due to their influence, regarding both finance and matters of the law. I am unable to get a job, nevermind handle one, because I would immediately be haunted by the knowledge that everyone around me is probably reading my mind at all times. Because of this, I may never work again, and it's not my fault. It is very difficult to deal with for a sensitive shy person such as myself. I cannot stop 'thinking' - talking to myself - as everyone does, in my head, commenting on everything - a running commentary, explaining my thoughts, explaining and justifying everything relentlessly.

It has become obvious that a huge secret society of mind-readers exist. And they work in tandem effortlessly. They deliver 'fate'. They can be the homeless, doctors, other schizophrenics, those who claim to be depressed, cleaners, anyone and everyone.

Other things I have learned the hard way are that animals too are capable of hearing one's thoughts (cats and dogs for sure and I'm sure many other creatures) and do understand language.

It is hard to get your head round the fact that your parents, siblings, cousins, friends, were always able to read your mind, and hear your thoughts, and know what you are doing or feeling. Hard to accept that they set up traps for you - to become a smoker - to break the law - to go through horrible, horrible, psychosis. It is hard to accept just how amazingly capable they are - in intelligence and behaviour, compared to a human such as myself.

It is hard to figure out why I am human, unable to read minds or hear thoughts, and not part of their hive mind, and hard to put the fear of what happens after you die, out of your mind. It is hard to know that if you speak about these thigns they have answers ready to frustrate you or make you feel even more isolated. It is hard to know you are not crazy but that you will be treated as such.

Do I have a soul? Do they? Are they here as part of my experience - is it a gift? If so, why so harsh - what sort of experience is this? How many others are in the same position? Do they do this for fun? Am I even related to them, or was I created somehow or swapped at birth?

I have absolutely no doubt that my father, mother, sister, friends, family - are all mind-readers. I've been through a lot - even the PM of my country came on TV to show me he could read my mind - know a word I was trying to recall and drop it into conversation on TV effortlessly.

The only positives out of this are that my mind has been opened up to concepts that I would not have probably ever naturally thought about for long consciously. Other universes/dimensions - time travel - fate - souls - the meaning behind dejavu - the meaning behind dreams. But it's still harsh.

I could type, tonnes more, tonnes more. So much - I've seen a cousin from India appear as a Dr in a white coat to screw with my mind- was that him? Was it another being shapeshifting? I've seen my sister with white skin - I've seen just how capable they are of driving you into psychosis. I've seen just how many people are in on it.

Am I alone? Are there others who feel the same, genuinely? And try to cope the best they can but everything they think say or do seems to be used against them?

Much obliged for any answers or questions I get, or any examples of similar experiences others have had. The only 'answers' I've got are from the 'free your brain matrix artificial syncronicity' site and from montalk.net.

I am 31 now and this has been going on since I was 21/22. Having re-examined all my memories dating to childhood it has become apparent that everyone around me always was a mind-reader. Girlfriends, best friends, all throughout school, college and university. The evidence is irrefutable. Are there others who feel the same?

It's hard not to feel victimised and setup! It's impossible to know who to trust. It's hard not to blame others when you know it can't all be your fault.

Seeing the reality, behind reality - can drive you insane. They have watched me try to kill myself - and I ask myself how they can be so heartless.

 

[richardlesterhailsatan11]

Alright, I'll try to do that... I guess affirm to myself everyday, 5 times in the morning and 5 times at night that "No one can read my thoughts, my mind, or emotions"? Is that a good affirmation or no? I've never been good with coming up with affirmations on my own, always kind of sucked at that them, but I think mostly what I want is answers... the solutions are good, but I want to know if this is true. Are most people in society telepathic? I know there's been a few times people on these forums told me no, but that's not the case with me... Almost everyone I run into are able to read minds, and now I'm learning that some of these people are people I knew my whole life? I just want answers... Why doesn't the JoS website tell people that most people are telepathic? I've had far too many coincidences and red flags happen to me in life to believe that this is not the case, and it's getting to that point where I don't know who to trust...

 

[richardlesterhailsatan11]

Can anyone answer my question? Is there anyone going through the same problem as me? Or am I all alone in this? I haven't heard anyone go through the same problem as this on these forums. Is it true that most people are telepathic? Why am I experiencing what I am experiencing? I really don't understand... and I'm experiencing this with most people. There's too many coincidences, and I don't believe in coincidences... too many red flags. Please can someone explain this to help me understand, is this true?

 

[Sadie Terry]

(Sorry first time I accidentally sent it before I was finished) I have had similar thoughts about some of the same things you have, but I feel that some of it is just enemy realizing your being to sucked into this, alas, further sucking you into these beliefs. I'm not telling you you're wrong, I very much so feel the same way to an extent, but I feel that in you learning some of this, you have a hard time processing it all at once, so the enemy adds more "false pressure" in the form of thoughts and ideas. Even before I dedicated I used to believe and still mostly do, that birds could read our minds, and also sometimes cats. I found that birds seem to feel more in tune with there 3rd eye/6th chakra than that of other animals. And I've also heard of the possibility that birds are completely blind and only see with their third eye, which could make sense as to why so many birds kill themselves running into transparent, and solid objects. I also believe if that's true that then their flight path could easily be directed by the influence of your mind. As for you believing that almost everyone can read your mind, I don't believe so, as most people I see barely have much brain capacity past that of a middle schooler. And most of them would be unable to hold such satanic life concepts, as many aren't able to handle so much complex ideas about life and the universe. I believe that your stage of progression has caused you to believe this but I see it as an illusion, and nothing more than just because you advanced , YOU are now able to pick up on what they are thinking, but you as a person doesn't know that yet, so it "seems" to play out in a way like your thinking something, and someone says just what you were thinking. That's actually you picking up on THEM, not them hearing yours. I had the same start happening to me like 6 months to a year ago. Your merely able to pick up on things telepathically now, but your not used to it yet so it looks like others are doing it. It's now a daily or almost daily part of my life. Whenever I'm in an argument with my bf, and I want him to say something to fix it, he says exactly what I thought word for word. As well as I'll think or say something and then right after I'll see it or hear it in real life or on tv.


Don't feel scared and confused! This is not a bad thing, this is proof of progress! Your hard work is starting to pay off!


I barely ever reply to these posts unless I feel really urged to. Think of it as your guardian is having a fuzzy connection with you right now, and so the help you need is being given to you in a more clear way, through a more physical means, that would best be recognizable by you at this point in time. As for example the help you may need to get past it and understand, may be easiest through another human.


So maybe your guardian is unable to communicate with you because the stress and confusion is blocking your ability to clearly understand.


I believe it would be very good for you, if you take this advice as you would if you heard it from your guardian.


Take note of such progress and don't see it as a burden, see it as another step towards spiritual advancement, and a reward for your persistence!


May the powers of Hell always be with you!


Hail Satan!
Hail Andras!
Hail Ajax!

Hail all the Gods of Duat!

 

[richardlesterhailsatan11]

Thanks for explaining this to me, it makes sense and you're probably right. I definitely hope this is the case. Thanks again sister.
Hail Satan and the Gods and Goddesses of Hell.

 

[Sadie Terry]

I have had similar thoughts about some of the same things you have, but I feel that some of it is just enemy realizing your being to sucked into this, alas, further sucking you into these beliefs. I'm not telling you you're wrong, I very much so feel the same way to an extent, but I feel that in you learning some of this, you have a hard time processing it all at once, so the enemy adds more "false pressure" in the form of thoughts and ideas. Even before I dedicated I used to believe and still mostly do, that birds could read our minds, and also sometimes cats. I found that birds seem to feel more in tune with there 3rd eye/6th chakra than that of other animals. And



Hail Satan!
Hail Andras!

 

[richardlesterhailsatan11]

@Saudie Hey, also want to add how you are able to put things in people's heads telepathically, like your boyfriend for example, I'm also able to do this to people on TV. Like TV shows, movies, what ever... I just wanted to ask, how can you explain this Saudie? because sometimes, the things I do with my mind... doesn't match up with reality, it really makes me feel like life/reality itself is just an illusion, one very very very bad dream... Sometimes it feels like, no one is real, nothing is real, everything is a construct of my own mind... and that's one of the things that scares me the most. Either I'm very very delusional, or the enemy is attacking me to a level beyond my comprehension, or my thoughts about reality is true, which I hope not... I pray to Satan and the Gods and Goddesses of Duat almost everyday to send me answers, to help me through. No answers yet, and I'm scared that I'll get the answers I don't want.

 

[koin444]

be strong. get up! stop worrying about them and their weak attempts at influencing you. Satan shows you how to be strong, Use the wisdom. Fuck their ideas, use your power to reflect it back at them and watch them squirm, watch them cry and try to kill themselves. Heartless? The heart is an organ that's all. 
Someone smites you you fucking smite them!  Someone pisses on you, You shit on them.
But maybe......They are not telepathic ...you are! maybe you have all the power and have been hurting yourself out of ignorance and fear.
Either way. Stand strong,Be the change!

If you don't like what I say....If  you want to make the world a better placeturn the gun on yourself and shoot yourself in the face..

 

[babyb00m]

A good affirmation for preventing people from reading you is "Those not of Satan cannot read me or my thoughts or influence me in any way whatsoever."

 

[Magus Immortalis]

Even though we may be brothers and sisters in Lord Satan, not all of us would be friends or friendly to one another. Maybe civilized, though, if even that.That's why I take issue with your affirmation, Johnson_Akemi. I value my privacy and don't want to be influenced by even another brother/sister in Satanism and wouldn't want another reading me, not knowing if they would be mature enough to keep their mouths shut from gossip, minds from assumptions and their intentions pure.I speak from experience.
Hail Satan!

On Saturday, October 18, 2014 9:12 AM, "johnson_akemi@... [JoyofSatan666]" <[email protected] wrote:


  A good affirmation for preventing people from reading you is "Those not of Satan cannot read me or my thoughts or influence me in any way whatsoever."

 

[Yii Pipur]

<td val[/IMG] From:"johnson_akemi@... [JoyofSatan666]" <[email protected]
Date:Sat, 18 Oct, 2014 at 15:12
Subject:[JoyofSatan666] Re: Feeling worried and confused.

  A good affirmation for preventing people from reading you is "Those not of Satan cannot read me or my thoughts or influence me in any way whatsoever." [/TD]

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[richardlesterhailsatan11]

[/IMG]cont[/IMG] to persecute me. Why is Satan not helping me?  Am I being tested? Is this all a test? What the fuck?
Anyways, Hail Satan, Hail all the Gods and Goddesses of Hell/Duat.

 

[demongod977]

I agree with you on this one.

 

[Yii Pipur]

<td val[/IMG]I'm afraid that won't help. If I would want to read a person I would just simply connect my kundalini to that persons third eye. If the person I'm reading doesn't know how to close his/her third eye then that person will be powerless against me.
[/IMG] www.angelfire.com/empire/serpentis666/Telepathy.html Sent from Yahoo Mail on Android [/TD]