Leighton Yagami
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Hello! So funny story!! Well not really heheh... But either way last night i had a complete melt down last night. Since as a lottle kid i was abused multiple times. And normally my wife is by me to calm me down cause I start having a seizure type of reaction. Where my body shivers violently and i really cant focus on anything but the faces of the people who abused me. Since now my wife is with her family and for some reason they are not letting her come back to me cause I had an argument with my wives mother. I hate that woman always saying that she is a Christian acting like she never does anything bad but yet out if a church she's a complete....i cant find a better word but a bitch!... well either way I had that melt down and it was honestly worse then anything ever had as i was shaking it felt painful my body just couldnt stop shaking violently. My mom lives with me and she came in and tried to calm me down but nothing worked. Okay do of the track a but i recently got a new dog because I had my other dog stolen. And he went over me licked me and tried his best to calm down he didnt let me cover my face or scratch myself or anything. He's not even a therapy dog he was literally an older guard dog for junk yards a big pitbull! I feel like hes my familiar...a gift sent from my father!! Satan!! Well after I calmed down and was able to sleep I had a dream and saw zaza my guardian demon I love that guy btw!! And he brought me this "old friend" of mine but i never seen him before but i feel like I know him for some reason. And I remember. Being invited over for dinner and there was this figure covered by gold and white and when he would talk he made me calm he told the boy to always be with me to protect me it ended with my "old friend" taking to my room and he took his shirt off and he was covered by strange markings that when i touched them it appeared on me and disappeared on him leaving his skin looking so smooth and soft. He said something and then I woke up. Feeling so refreshed my skin felt so soft and almost looked like i was glowing. Then my wife called me to tell me she loved me and missed. All of this is like a way father came to me to comfort me. I remember i stared at, before i fell asleep was his sigil I drew on a large sheet I have framed on my wall. Its like he knew i was begging for help....i just find this all beautiful....father really is out there he really is wonderful being.... He doesng let go of his people his children... sorry it was so long but i wanted to share my experience that i had. Heheh im not an open physically or visually or anything but I do know my arua is strong and really hard to control making me lazy with it...i know its stupid...but I feel like what happened last night was a signal from father telling me he hadn't forgotten me... This makes me want to work again with my arua to thank him for not letting me go ever...
HAIL FATHER SATAN!!!
HAIL FATHER SATAN!!!