Confused ~.~

[akame_alex]

Hi, it's not that i'm new it's that i'm very confused.

The thing is ..that as someone posted before, i can't find my way...i mean i'm so confused that now i can love everyone and then i hate all...like in this moment i will kill whomever with no reason and then i'll cry for it. And when i'm with people i am thinking that it is impossible for this world to be this way and why are they like this etc... as i said when i'm with them i always am happy/laugh/make jokes and then when i'm alone i start thinking about it and i consider myself stupid. This means that i have too much of water element or what? I am sometimes so depressed that i feel like i can commit suicide anytime. Also i am very into dreaming... i am dreaming people i don't know...same with places. It can't pass a night without me remembering one dream[sometimes i remember up to 5 and they are having a big impact on me...i can wake up laughing/crying and i'll be all day like that] just if someone wakes me up...(I ,once, dreamed about HP Maxine..) Can someone help me or give me an advice on what should i do for stabilizing myself ? Don't judge me already as an idiot .-. I am just confused...

 

[early.mary]

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "akame_alex" <akame_alex@... wrote:

Hi, it's not that i'm new it's that i'm very confused.

The thing is ..that as someone posted before, i can't find my way...i mean i'm so confused that now i can love everyone and then i hate all...like in this moment i will kill whomever with no reason and then i'll cry for it. And when i'm with people i am thinking that it is impossible for this world to be this way and why are they like this etc... as i said when i'm with them i always am happy/laugh/make jokes and then when i'm alone i start thinking about it and i consider myself stupid. This means that i have too much of water element or what? I am sometimes so depressed that i feel like i can commit suicide anytime. Also i am very into dreaming... i am dreaming people i don't know...same with places. It can't pass a night without me remembering one dream[sometimes i remember up to 5 and they are having a big impact on me...i can wake up laughing/crying and i'll be all day like that] just if someone wakes me up...(I ,once, dreamed about HP Maxine..) Can someone help me or give me an advice on what should i do for stabilizing myself ? Don't judge me already as an idiot .-. I am just confused...

it does sound like an overbalance of water element which can be corrected by invoving the fire element. the meditation is on the jos site.

 

[vorpulor]

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "akame_alex" <akame_alex@... wrote:

Hi, it's not that i'm new it's that i'm very confused.

The thing is ..that as someone posted before, i can't find my way...i mean i'm so confused that now i can love everyone and then i hate all...like in this moment i will kill whomever with no reason and then i'll cry for it. And when i'm with people i am thinking that it is impossible for this world to be this way and why are they like this etc... as i said when i'm with them i always am happy/laugh/make jokes and then when i'm alone i start thinking about it and i consider myself stupid. This means that i have too much of water element or what? I am sometimes so depressed that i feel like i can commit suicide anytime. Also i am very into dreaming... i am dreaming people i don't know...same with places. It can't pass a night without me remembering one dream[sometimes i remember up to 5 and they are having a big impact on me...i can wake up laughing/crying and i'll be all day like that] just if someone wakes me up...(I ,once, dreamed about HP Maxine..) Can someone help me or give me an advice on what should i do for stabilizing myself ? Don't judge me already as an idiot .-. I am just confused...

it seems to me like your mind is overworked, that you overthink things and this could be why your emotions can swing so suddenly (you're so focused on being happy when you're around everyone that you're actually happy, and you're so focused on thought when you're alone that you start thinking odd and depressing thoughts). this is also why your dreams are so vivid; your mind is totally engrossed in the dream, so it becomes more powerful and therefore will be remembered throughout the day and can have an impact on your mood.

my advice to you would be to calm down, clear your mind, take deep breaths and practice your void meditation. you need to completely forget about everything that has happened, all of your worries, your desires, your fears, your frustrations, your pain, and focus as much as you can on nothing at all. literally shove out of your mind any thought that enters. focus intently on driving all conscious thought from your mind(if you aren't experienced in meditation and self control, this can be very difficult at first). your brain is sort of like a computer, in that in needs to be completely shut off now and then to repair itself. your brain does not shut down during sleep (as evidenced by your continuous dreams), therefore you must shut it down consciously while you are awake. this will allow your brain to make sense of all of the information it is given, and will help to put things into perspective.

once your mind is clear, you will begin to see things more clearly. if the problem persists after you are sure you have mental clarity, then i would suggest looking into imbalanced elements or chakras as the cause.

HAIL ALMIGHTY SATAN!!!

 

[azureblackcandlexx]

thats mean ur mind and emotions are controlling u, learn 2 master ur mind through power mediations.
because right now ur not ur self.

 

[Paul1]

I don't now why I am copeled to give you advice but this is what I think. don't let your dreams bother you. try to enjoy them and kill only for personal resones such as self defence, not for fun or because you feel like it and talk to good friends who are real with you. And trust Satan you will be ok and try not to worry about anything. a lot of times worry causes more troble than it is worth. And trust your self. Don't think you are nuts just love your self. Praze the Devil Love from Paul.

 

[akame_alex]

thanks everyone for help


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