This is going to be a little longer of a post,because after HP Maxine's post yesterday,I had to really examine my motives.I do agree with her post,but I have both some confusion,and some experiences of my own to share with the group.
First of all,I have only been a Satanist for a year and a half,but I have been pagan for over a century.I officially broke away from the church,16 years ago,and have always hated all kike religions since.
Now I have to agree that when I first started out,it was all about ego.The I am more aware then you, bullshit.That I wasn't a xtian,and I let everyone around me know that.Now that I think about it,I think it was both ego and trying to educate others that there were other ways to believe.
I have put up with a lot of BS,in the 12 years I have been in the store that I work at.Most brought on by my openness that I was different then most of the xtian assholes,both that I work with,and are customers.We have many pagans in the store,that are a lot more open about their beliefs now,and many have come to me and said that I kind of paved the way for others to be open about their pagan beliefs.No pat on the back for me,just the facts.
When I got away from the church in 95,I was like a kid in a candy store.I was no longer forbidden to do anything,and I fully exercised that right.When I came to the store that I work at now in 99,and living in a very rural town,and may I say religious town in Alabama,and being very open about my pagans beliefs,that when the shit hit the fan.
When I was there about a year,I was a department manager,even than I wore a pentacle all the time.One morning I got to work,and my store manager called my into his office,and told me that some idiot put up signs in the parking lot that read,DON'T SHOP HERE THEY HIRE SATANIST AND GAYS.That was in the year 2000.The narrow mindedness of the neighborhood,has gotten a lot better,but there are those who still want to stir up the shit.
No I am not proud of being a xtian minister for over 20 years,and dealing with the terrible effects,that that church life had on me.Now I know there is a very fine line between attention getting,and true education.I would like to think that I have grown enough in my life,that it is more about education,and helping those that are still in mind prison,to break free.Funny thing is,back then I was trying to get people to understand that I was not a Satanist,only pagan.But now I realize that Father was calling me,in His patient way all a long.
Now HP Maxine said in her post,that everyone has there own circumstances,and a personal decision,of how open then can be,without jeopardizing their livelihood,or putting undo stress on their family.But the confusion lies in,just when are you exercising caution,or just hiding you beliefs out of fear.I guess that's why we are all different,and respond differently in those times.So now I would like to hear more about this,and your experiences with being public from my SS family.
Hail Satan!
Brian
First of all,I have only been a Satanist for a year and a half,but I have been pagan for over a century.I officially broke away from the church,16 years ago,and have always hated all kike religions since.
Now I have to agree that when I first started out,it was all about ego.The I am more aware then you, bullshit.That I wasn't a xtian,and I let everyone around me know that.Now that I think about it,I think it was both ego and trying to educate others that there were other ways to believe.
I have put up with a lot of BS,in the 12 years I have been in the store that I work at.Most brought on by my openness that I was different then most of the xtian assholes,both that I work with,and are customers.We have many pagans in the store,that are a lot more open about their beliefs now,and many have come to me and said that I kind of paved the way for others to be open about their pagan beliefs.No pat on the back for me,just the facts.
When I got away from the church in 95,I was like a kid in a candy store.I was no longer forbidden to do anything,and I fully exercised that right.When I came to the store that I work at now in 99,and living in a very rural town,and may I say religious town in Alabama,and being very open about my pagans beliefs,that when the shit hit the fan.
When I was there about a year,I was a department manager,even than I wore a pentacle all the time.One morning I got to work,and my store manager called my into his office,and told me that some idiot put up signs in the parking lot that read,DON'T SHOP HERE THEY HIRE SATANIST AND GAYS.That was in the year 2000.The narrow mindedness of the neighborhood,has gotten a lot better,but there are those who still want to stir up the shit.
No I am not proud of being a xtian minister for over 20 years,and dealing with the terrible effects,that that church life had on me.Now I know there is a very fine line between attention getting,and true education.I would like to think that I have grown enough in my life,that it is more about education,and helping those that are still in mind prison,to break free.Funny thing is,back then I was trying to get people to understand that I was not a Satanist,only pagan.But now I realize that Father was calling me,in His patient way all a long.
Now HP Maxine said in her post,that everyone has there own circumstances,and a personal decision,of how open then can be,without jeopardizing their livelihood,or putting undo stress on their family.But the confusion lies in,just when are you exercising caution,or just hiding you beliefs out of fear.I guess that's why we are all different,and respond differently in those times.So now I would like to hear more about this,and your experiences with being public from my SS family.
Hail Satan!
Brian
