So I dedicated myself yesterday and I'm not really sure where to head from here. I've looked at the Joy of Satan website extensively and I figured I'd start with the breathing meditations but after that I get somewhat lost. I'm not sure how to go about chakras cause I'm not entirely sure what they are. I get the idea of them just not what they are specifically. Also people say they feel somewhat different after their dedication but I felt less interested and focused on the subject of Satanism. I really was looking forward to dedicating and I still believe and look forward to practicing Satanism. I have tried to talk to Satan and ask him for some guidance. I really felt ad if something pushed me towards discovering all this because I just happened to stumble upon this website. I had been agnostic and as soon as I began to read the information on the website I instantly began to believe everything. It all made sense. The information blew my mind and I could not stop reading. I can't really describe how I'm feeling. Its not as if i believe less.. Its just i feel less enamored by everything. I have asked Satan for guidance and told him that I look forward to embracing everything that comes with believing and dedicating. I would just like some guidance as to how I am feeling and maybe some insight on how i should go about the next stages of my new life under our true Father.
