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When I was new, in my first year of Spiritual Satanism, my trouble was looking up to people who were insane. Depending on others as mentors. They thought they were a reincarnated goddess and higher then the Four Crowns of Hell. And were a teacher to the Gods. What I learned was that I gave trust and weight to that person and their words far too easily and we are so eager to fluff up our egos to be someone important that we lose sight of what is important: Working for Satan, empowering our souls, studying and advancing.Â
The Gods are our teachers, as They are mighty and powerful. And have a sea of knowledge to draw from, and not Their  egos, like the above mentioned person. As I advanced and grew more sensitive to energy, I saw that there were many Greys and Nordics surrounding her constantly, parading as Lord Satan and the Gods. I tried to warn her but she wouldn't listen. I cut off contact with her soon thereafter. What infuriated me was that others looked up to her naturally, and she thought she was good enough to "teach " them with her own made-up meditations instead of just leading them to JoS.Â
My point: there are no mentors in Satanism. The Gods are our Teachers. We are our own leaders and heros. Make yourself the hero and leader you want to be and see.
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Few of us have been completely gung ho with power meditations when we first started out.I talked talk to many who have been here for years like me,and are just starting to get really serious with them.So just be proud of yourself as this all takes much time and patience.Glad to hear of your great success though.
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Ah, I'm embarrassed to admit that I never had any 'complaints', I was never really searching for a sign, yet I had abandoned the meditations for years.
I first found out this site when I was in high school (13-14 years old) and I instantly *knew* that this was the right place, that this was the truth. I had felt intense euphoria, I was really happy...
I remember looking at the computer screen and quietly whispering 'I can't believe this, I found the truth...' haha xD
Well then I did my dedication ritual, started the meditations... and soon I stopped. I don't know why. Maybe I wasn't taking it too seriously..? Who knows... Also, I remember back then I never cleaned my aura and chakras so this can play a great role in that.
Then when I was a bit older (again in high school though) I did again the dedication ritual. haha... Even though I had never stopped believing in Satan and my heart was always to Him, I thought that because I stopped the meditations it was as if I stopped believing so I re-did it. Let's just say that I was a silly child that couldn't think the way I am thinking now.
So I then started the meditations... stopped again.
This had been happening for years to be honest. And for all these years... I never... cleaned my aura and chakras.
So yeah, I believe that was the greatest mistake I had ever done in my life, but now I know and I find this experience of mine important for my advancement.
Also, since I re-started the meditations (this year) it's also the first time I started doing Destruction Rituals and Destruction Workings (the Runes) and I'm really happy and proud of myself that I am finally helping actively Father Satan.
But of course, as you said as well, patience is really important especially when you're a beginner. Even if you can't get the meditations right at the beginning, all you need to do is practice more. Hm, as an expression says 'you don't need to strive with it, you just need to find the correct method'.
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[email protected][/url], "spencerlfa" <igorbedzor@ wrote:
Hello brothers,
As a begginer and someone that is really dedicating my being to Father, I'd like to everyone come here and kinda talk about all the struggles you had when you first joined Satanism. I think it would be good so all the people that embraced SS lately can identify with this and feel motivated to overcome struggles, and realize it's not an easy and instant process, where our faith may be tested.
In my experience, It's mainly just doubts sometimes of what I am doing, negative thoughts and all the psychic fatigue I get before doing my daily meditations. Also in around 1 month I haven't, and you mostly won't have, a BIG CLEAR SIGN from the Gods. Patiente is important, the only signs I had were dreams ( very abstract) and during my dedication the flame of my candle got EXTREMELY high and strong. This is the kind of things you should look out for, Satan gives value to Patience, you mostly won't see a clear sign of one of our Gods or Satan himself after dedication. You must realize it doesn't mean they are not looking out for you and following your progress.
THE ONLY PATH IS FORWARD.
Ave Satani
Good point!
I was alone when I started my Satanic journey and that was very good because I was just eight years old and IT just came from me and my path of knowledge began. Then I met too couple of so called "mentors" but they were selfish bastards and they didn't believed in SATAN as personal being so I left in my own way... and still today I'm in the same journey and Joy Of Satan is my one way to put my believes and thought's in there. And I haven't met many people who are same like me !
-Shatarnad-
