I have a quick question relating to making offerings to demons. This last halloween was my birthday, so I decided it would be a good time to start a habit of thanksgiving rituals. I didn't have access to the "official" ritual on the JoS site, but since I kept hearing about how intention was more important than details I decided to wing it. I started by getting my thoughts regarding Satan on paper, then meditating, then mentally reading the letter whilst trying to affix Satan in my mind. Then the letter was burned and after a quick moment of pensive silence and I poured myself a shot of vodka and put the intent that in drinking it I was sealing a pact between myself and the old gods. After that, I poured a second shot and offered it as a gift to my GD. I left the shot on my improvised alter for 24 hours then disposed of it in a respectful fashion.
Here's where I have a problem. I'm not a very good meditator. My mind is undisciplined and rather noisy, as I have an active imagination and sometimes when bored I play music in my head almost like a portable music player. Because of this, I never know when I'm being spoken to by my subconscious, a demon, or anything else. It all feels like common stray thought.
Now to the point. Since I can't hear demons or see energy almost at all, I can't tell if my offering was accepted or seen as a slight against Satan. I could very well have gone and forgotten an important rule here. Please let me know if anything described here would be thought of as disrespectful. Also, if you have any tips for silencing your mind (other than void meditation, which I should really be practicing more) please let me know.
Here's where I have a problem. I'm not a very good meditator. My mind is undisciplined and rather noisy, as I have an active imagination and sometimes when bored I play music in my head almost like a portable music player. Because of this, I never know when I'm being spoken to by my subconscious, a demon, or anything else. It all feels like common stray thought.
Now to the point. Since I can't hear demons or see energy almost at all, I can't tell if my offering was accepted or seen as a slight against Satan. I could very well have gone and forgotten an important rule here. Please let me know if anything described here would be thought of as disrespectful. Also, if you have any tips for silencing your mind (other than void meditation, which I should really be practicing more) please let me know.