advice needed please

[lolaruth19]

alright so i am very interested in everything that satanism has to offer. however i am a person who has spent their entire life growing up in a xian household and I HATE IT. I would really love to dedicate myself but the problem would be i would still be forced to go to church every sunday. I was talking to my xian friend who was trying to convince me that Father Satan is a bad person but i told her to think about it and how much he actually loves us. Another thing I am worried about is that I have already been attacked by an angel (posing as Amon) for saying a satanic prayer when summoning horus. Horus was with me for about a week but when I was attacked, he left and I have not been able to sense him or see his aura at all. Will he come back? One last thing. If i convert and have doubts will Father Satan leave me forever? I am only 17 and i have been considering this for quite some time now im just nervous of the risks and I dont want to make a commitment until I have all the details. And most of all I dont want to put myself or anyone else in danger being a former xian and all. so please someone contact me with info or respond to this message thanks!
my email is soccerjoker19@...
Thanks again, Katie

 

[Skye Gamet]

hey i am 14 and have grown up in an xian household. i am going to dedicate as late as next week friday. parents don't trust me with candles or lighters of any sort. i would be careful who u talk to about Father cause some people might elieve you are crazy. i have never been attacked by and angel never want to so i can't help you there. he most likely will come back he was pribably the one who chased that nasty angel away from u. having doubts about things is human nature Father wouldn't be angry at you for being you. only if you begin to beiave the lies jews are saying and decide to leave Father will he then leave you forever. i was a former xian, but i never truly believed in the crap they through my way. yes i did get baptized and all that other crap. but after i spent hours pleading with "God" on my hands and knees(Not going into detail) and nothing happened i lost complete faith. my guardian reached out to me then.  now i am more happy then i have ever felt in my entire life as an xian. you will not get hurt, but will gain treasures you could have never imagined as a xian 

From: lolaruth19 <soccerjoker19@...
To: [email protected]
Sent: Wed, November 18, 2009 3:01:08 PM
Subject: [Teens4Satan] advice needed please

  alright so i am very interested in everything that satanism has to offer. however i am a person who has spent their entire life growing up in a xian household and I HATE IT. I would really love to dedicate myself but the problem would be i would still be forced to go to church every sunday. I was talking to my xian friend who was trying to convince me that Father Satan is a bad person but i told her to think about it and how much he actually loves us. Another thing I am worried about is that I have already been attacked by an angel (posing as Amon) for saying a satanic prayer when summoning horus. Horus was with me for about a week but when I was attacked, he left and I have not been able to sense him or see his aura at all. Will he come back? One last thing. If i convert and have doubts will Father Satan leave me forever? I am only 17 and i have been considering this for quite some time now im just nervous of the risks and I dont want to make a commitment until I have all the details. And most of all I dont want to put myself or anyone else in danger being a former xian and all. so please someone contact me with info or respond to this message thanks!
my email is soccerjoker19@ aim.com
Thanks again, Katie

 

[kasandra brower]

<td val[/IMG]lol you werent dedicated when you tried to summon? that isnt the best idea .

From: lolaruth19 <soccerjoker19@...
Subject: [Teens4Satan] advice needed please
To: [email protected]
Date: Wednesday, November 18, 2009, 6:01 PM

  alright so i am very interested in everything that satanism has to offer. however i am a person who has spent their entire life growing up in a xian household and I HATE IT. I would really love to dedicate myself but the problem would be i would still be forced to go to church every sunday. I was talking to my xian friend who was trying to convince me that Father Satan is a bad person but i told her to think about it and how much he actually loves us. Another thing I am worried about is that I have already been attacked by an angel (posing as Amon) for saying a satanic prayer when summoning horus. Horus was with me for about a week but when I was attacked, he left and I have not been able to sense him or see his aura at all. Will he come back? One last thing. If i convert and have doubts will Father Satan leave me forever? I am only 17 and i have been considering this for quite some time now im just nervous of the risks and I dont want to make a commitment until I have all the details. And most of all I dont want to put myself or anyone else in danger being a former xian and all. so please someone contact me with info or respond to this message thanks!
my email is soccerjoker19@ aim.com
Thanks again, Katie

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