About my mind

[Derrick Cepeda]

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Hey I have a problem in which my mind wants to create problems. For example: when I thank Father Satan, a little powerful voice in my head insults him and I hate that this happens. Its so shameful, I just hope that father can forgive me. I want to get rid of this other me, its like a different soul is in me or something. Maybe split personalities? This other side of me drags me down and it feels as if it wants me to turn cold hearted, a hollow soul, and a monster. This thing also tempts me to do things I wouldn't normally do. Please help! Thank you! Hail Satan!

 

[Austyn Rivera]

Woah, i get the same thing! I think its a recurring in the brain where its still programed to use xian brainwashing. Like a computer trying to use two completely different operating systems
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Date: Wednesday, August 26, 2009 4:07:31 pm
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From: "derrick cepeda" <derrick_cepeda@...
Subject: [Teens4Satan] About my mind

Hey I have a problem in which my mind wants to create problems. For example: when I thank Father Satan, a little powerful voice in my head insults him and I hate that this happens. Its so shameful, I just hope that father can forgive me. I want to get rid of this other me, its like a different soul is in me or something. Maybe split personalities? This other side of me drags me down and it feels as if it wants me to turn cold hearted, a hollow soul, and a monster. This thing also tempts me to do things I wouldn't normally do. Please help! Thank you! Hail Satan!

 

[highabove72]

I just finished reading Revolutionary Psychology by Samael Aun Weor and it talks about exactly what you just mentioned; the different "I"s that control a human. There are infinite "I"s and the objective is to dissolve all of them in order to achieve a true individuality:

http://www.scribd.com/search?cx=0078906 ... earch#1104

 

[Cat Fish]

 Lol, you’re in for a lot of fun. Well, try using reverse psychology on yourself.  Maybe you feel sick of thinking about what is right or wrong and just need to relax your morals just a bit. Maybe if you did tell your brain that he is bad your mind might start to say “no, no” your wrong I am right and in order to be so I will tell you the opposite of such. Eh, but that does not work all the time. I dislike that state of mind, but at the same time it is a lot of fun arguing with yourself because it makes you think about what you are doing. Maybe it is not you who hates him but more like wanting to question yourself enough to where you are confident, or a way your mind is trying to be able to sort out the new information that you just crammed in your head. ( Umm... unless you have been doing Satanism for a year, idk if that would still apply with the cramming info part. )   Or you are really bored and need to have some excitement so disagreeing with yourself about a religion is simply for your entertainment.
If it is none of these then IDK why.   I guess talk with your self for a bit, or if you think that would make it worse and simply need some one to talk it out with I might be able to help you with that on a private chat.    From: derrick cepeda <derrick_cepeda@...
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Subject: [Teens4Satan] About my mind

  Hey I have a problem in which my mind wants to create problems. For example: when I thank Father Satan, a little powerful voice in my head insults him and I hate that this happens. Its so shameful, I just hope that father can forgive me. I want to get rid of this other me, its like a different soul is in me or something. Maybe split personalities? This other side of me drags me down and it feels as if it wants me to turn cold hearted, a hollow soul, and a monster. This thing also tempts me to do things I wouldn't normally do. Please help! Thank you! Hail Satan!
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[Derrick Cepeda]

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Thanks I'll try talking to myself to clear this all out, although the voice that insults him I can clearly hear, I think it could be a spirit in my house jamming thoughts into my head because I know there are spirits in my house.

Cat Fish <aphilous55@... wrote:

 Lol, you’re in for a lot of fun. Well, try using reverse psychology on yourself.  Maybe you feel sick of thinking about what is right or wrong and just need to relax your morals just a bit. Maybe if you did tell your brain that he is bad your mind might start to say “no, no” your wrong I am right and in order to be so I will tell you the opposite of such. Eh, but that does not work all the time.
I dislike that state of mind, but at the same time it is a lot of fun arguing with yourself because it makes you think about what you are doing. Maybe it is not you who hates him but more like wanting to question yourself enough to where you are confident, or a way your mind is trying to be able to sort out the new information that you just crammed in your head. ( Umm... unless you have been doing Satanism for a year, idk if that would still apply with the cramming info part. )
 
Or you are really bored and need to have some excitement so disagreeing with yourself about a religion is simply for your entertainment.
If it is none of these then IDK why.

I guess talk with your self for a bit, or if you think that would make it worse and simply need some one to talk it out with I might be able to help you with that on a private chat. 
 
 

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From: derrick cepeda <derrick_cepeda@...
To: [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url]
Sent: Wednesday, August 26, 2009 4:34:12 AM
Subject: [Teens4Satan] About my mind

Hey I have a problem in which my mind wants to create problems. For example: when I thank Father Satan, a little powerful voice in my head insults him and I hate that this happens. Its so shameful, I just hope that father can forgive me. I want to get rid of this other me, its like a different soul is in me or something. Maybe split personalities? This other side of me drags me down and it feels as if it wants me to turn cold hearted, a hollow soul, and a monster. This thing also tempts me to do things I wouldn't normally do. Please help! Thank you! Hail Satan!