A Womans Body

[tabby]

Before forming an opinion about things, you should always listen to both sides, even if you don’t like them.
People always tell you their own „view“ and story of things.

You are right, however I unfortunately cannot really talk in depth about this, but trust me that if you knew what Siatris meant (something I was unaware of while making my replies to meteor), you'd be disgusted and furious beyond words.

Take Siatris's words as they are, it's really true...

If this is ever meant to be known, you will know it by that time. I just want people to understand that there in more behind this than what can be openly stated at this time and consider that when judging all of this.

Hail Satan!

I'll assume that my senses were potentially wrong then. When I astral projected to them to get to the bottom of this confusion, and felt the amount of pain coming from them, I couldn't get any closer because it hurt. I couldn't see their face either since the figure was balled up with their back to me.

I wonder if my own karmic patterns are going through a new repeat by reflecting through this mess, but I'll deal with that in my personal time.

 

[High Priest Hooded Cobra 666]

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You are somehow even more dramatic than me, can you stop with this woe is me and my plight bs. Just get the surgery and tell us how it went. Or go to therapy like every other trans person does. This is not therapy this is joy of Satan.

I want to know if I should do it too, go find out for me. Thanks

Ps if I find out that you are alt 123 you are going to get bodyslammed.

Go do life altering surgeries because of whatever goy, it's for my amusement. Make it quick. The goy at the Joy of Satan are evil.

Meanwhile I'll pretend I'm a trans person here to advise people do life altering decisions or surgeries or adopt a lifestyle with 70%+ non satisfaction or suicide rate. I was one of you goy, believe it. Going back to the synagogue I'll tell the kikes how I pretend to be a trans person on the goyish forum and how I told the idiots that their Gods wanted them to do it, preying on people's weaknesses. Adopt my insanity goy.

 

[NinRick]

Before forming an opinion about things, you should always listen to both sides, even if you don’t like them.
People always tell you their own „view“ and story of things.

You are right, however I unfortunately cannot really talk in depth about this, but trust me that if you knew what Siatris meant (something I was unaware of while making my replies to meteor), you'd be disgusted and furious beyond words.

Take Siatris's words as they are, it's really true...

If this is ever meant to be known, you will know it by that time. I just want people to understand that there in more behind this than what can be openly stated at this time and consider that when judging all of this.

Hail Satan!

I know Meteor‘s version of the story, and I didn’t accept it as 100% percent true. The only way to verify this would be to ask HPHC, but I don’t want to harass him.

But if what Meteor told me was true, then it would make sense why siatris and siatris friends hate meteor this much. Because those people, especially siatris friend would be people with no ethics, they had a coven and you know what happens there, lots of bs and they stole money in btc from innocent people, like Meteor already mentioned.

All I can say that Meteor was in a Position to harm me, and he didn’t do any harm to me whatsoever.

I won’t share anything what Meteor told me, if he openly tells the story, it can be verified who is telling the truth, and who is lying.

 

[siatris666]

Before forming an opinion about things, you should always listen to both sides, even if you don’t like them.
People always tell you their own „view“ and story of things.

You are right, however I unfortunately cannot really talk in depth about this, but trust me that if you knew what Siatris meant (something I was unaware of while making my replies to meteor), you'd be disgusted and furious beyond words.

Take Siatris's words as they are, it's really true...

If this is ever meant to be known, you will know it by that time. I just want people to understand that there in more behind this than what can be openly stated at this time and consider that when judging all of this.

Hail Satan!

I know Meteor‘s version of the story, and I didn’t accept it as 100% percent true. The only way to verify this would be to ask HPHC, but I don’t want to harass him.

But if what Meteor told me was true, then it would make sense why siatris and siatris friends hate meteor this much. Because those people, especially siatris friend would be people with no ethics, they had a coven and you know what happens there, lots of bs and they stole money in btc from innocent people, like Meteor already mentioned.

All I can say that Meteor was in a Position to harm me, and he didn’t do any harm to me whatsoever.

I won’t share anything what Meteor told me, if he openly tells the story, it can be verified who is telling the truth, and who is lying.

i wasnt there. not my friends. just facts logic. i just read things. all in all. emails, texts.

these people are not my friends. never were. not speaking now or ever

meteor is manipulator. he manipulated people as it do here.

weak minds fall for this. this bish telling you its a female and u idiots believe it...get serious.. its a fking man bro. it also say it was alien from another planet that drains peoples lifeforce. it was anal fucking with a poor dude who later disappear. she says he steal people money but i dont know abt this it could be meteor too. if other scenario this guy took money and disappeared.

guy was a successful person. he destroy his business & life. why? because this guy meteor that wanted to say is female, brainwash him. she turn him against his business. then i think if i remember he destroy his life. he was the victim there. not this dude who thinks his ass is a pussy

this was from turkish coven. u have no clue how fking shit this manipulative bro is. :lol: :lol:

i sent evidence to cobra but he is mute. maybe he know even more. id demand input. he know best. he told me before its all fking nonsnse. to not waste his time. etc

 

[Alexandros Iowno [SG]]

I tell everyone as this is important. Stop associating yourself with ugly, bad, dramatic people. You deserve better. Your environment and people you surround with are very important. Stop fiddling with bad apples and gather around the good apples. A bad apple will always devour the good apple. You have the capacity to walk away from the bad apple.

All of this topic was just a vampiric exercise during our schedule. Stop caring about people who don't care about themselves and you and the Gods.

 

[siatris666]

half of my replies, not even approved.

i cannot speak in this forum. i shouldnt maybe. he deletes my comment .or moderation does.

sry but i cant take this . i know its wrong but thats manipulation this meteor does. stfu dude

 

[Henu the Great]

half of my replies, not even approved.

i cannot speak in this forum. i shouldnt maybe. he deletes my comment .or moderation does.

sry but i cant take this . i know its wrong but thats manipulation this meteor does. stfu dude

An educated guess: You focus too much time and energy on something trivial, or better yet, useless drivel.

Do not take it personally, and focus on something better. You did your thing uncovering the truth about the matter. Dwelling on it so much is not required.

 

[High Priest Hooded Cobra 666]

half of my replies, not even approved.

i cannot speak in this forum. i shouldnt maybe. he deletes my comment .or moderation does.

sry but i cant take this . i know its wrong but thats manipulation this meteor does. stfu dude

Can you stop spreading time wasting stuff and just focus on what's meaningful and important? At some point as you can see that's only drama. What happens in every den of random people that weren't even here is not my problem or the communities problem. We tell people to not do that stuff as it can be damaging.

If people form a den and eat each other's life away it's nothing that I can do. I have spent overwhelming amounts of time and energy to tell people to stay away from these false conceptions and traps about Satanism. For many years.

Just stop and focus on what is important if you want to be a Satanist. Regardless, I have read all your emails still and I am aware of the situation.

 

[siatris666]

lumi u are still loved in SS and community. my last message. jos appreciates u

is ok u didnt have to destroy urself. reach and theyll know.

we know everything fuck the lies.

to anyone against Satan, FUCK YOU! LIES WONT PASS

anyone true to Satan, we appreciate u. fuck appearances, fuck jews, fuck lies.

i dont continue this as i was called off.

Siatris out

 

[Voice of Enki [SG]]

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I'll tell you this for your own sake.

Don't associate with him anymore. It won't do you any good.

Do not trust his words either. It is easy to lie about many things. Best to leave it at this for now and just not involve yourself with them any longer.

 

[NinRick]

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I'll tell you this for your own sake.

Don't associate with him anymore. It won't do you any good.

Do not trust his words either. It is easy to lie about many things. Best to leave it at this for now and just not involve yourself with them any longer.

Last time we mailed was in march or april, I don’t quite remember. We won’t speak in private anymore don’t worry ^^

 

[tabby]

I'll never be able to forgive that disgusting piece of shit that siatris calls his friend if it's really who I think he means, even if he might already be dead. If I'm allowed to, then I will explain why.

Last year I was struggling very much in my relationship with my partner. The void inside felt ever deeper the more spiritually aware I became, and we didn't know how to have sex astrally yet, so I didn't know any way to fill it up. That's when I happened to get in contact with the owner of some Discord server "for Spiritual Satanists" (which I know now is extremely shady and should be avoided, but that's how I got introduced to JoS, so I didn't know any better and thought he was trustworthy). We both had a rather similar secret: we wanted to be something we're not, and liked to pretend that we already were. My secret was that I wanted to become female, and his secret was that he wanted to become a Gentile. We were definitely on the same wavelength in a sense, which was immediately apparent as we could effortlessly read each other's innermost feelings and even occasionally hear each other's conscious thoughts, even though we were merely chatting over the internet. As we talked to each other even in our dreams, we ended up convincing each other that we were fated to be together, broke up with our partners, and started dating each other instead. He actually lived rather close too.

I noticed right away that he was struggling with very deeply rooted self-esteem issues, and I had been doing some experiments with ripping energy out of others at the time (I don't do that stuff anymore as it seriously messes with my sense of self, but I was interested in it at the time since I wondered if that could fill the hole inside of me), so I would "eat" his doubts and fears in an attempt to help him. As he became fearless, reckless and overconfident, he began to get delusions of grandeur beyond any scale I ever saw before, and since I saw and felt the contents of his mind directly myself as well through our connection, I was deeply impressed and wanted to help and support him even more, so that he could become the emperor that he felt he was supposed to be all along. Meanwhile, I became unable to clean my aura anymore as I was too infested with vile jewish filth from spending every day ripping out and absorbing the negative energies that I felt were holding him back (it was painful for me each time, but I felt like I should bear with it for his sake), so I began to rip positive energies out of his enemies in order to compensate and make me feel relatively good and healthy despite the filth, although this eroded my sense of self even further and I started to hear intrusive voices in my head. For some reason, my spine was also searing hot around that time to the point of it feeling physically painful, and I figured that had something to do with my Serpent, so like the naive fool I was, I tried to force it up, as I wanted more power immediately so that I could be more useful to him. That made everything much worse.

He would see "goddesses" in his mind that would tell him all sorts of crazy stories about who he is really meant to be and encourage him further into insanity, and I could see and hear them as well, although in hindsight it's blatantly obvious now that they were enemy entities. But at the time, what this meant is that we would both always receive the exact same delusions astrally, to the point that we were both able to confirm that we got the same message, even a hundred times in a row. I realise now that this likely happened because I was rather deeply connected to him at that point and thus sensing the same things as him, but at the time, we instead thought this was a sign that these things were actually all real; I mean, if it's not real, how could we always hear the same things with such accuracy? But despite the "accuracy", all of it was, in fact, false.

At some point, he decided to create a cult consisting of me, him, and 7 SS from the now infamous Turkish SS Discord server. He felt like HP Hoodedcobra was failing to see important truths, and therefore he wanted to create his own "Satanic" religion instead; with him at the top as the true heir of the universe, although only he and I knew about that last little detail. My mind was so full of foreign voices at that point that I could hardly think for myself anymore, and simply followed instructions from him as well as the voices, which involved me creating thoughtforms and getting others to vibrate their names in an attempt to link their minds together to encourage social cohesion in the cult. He would tell people with great emotion about their "tragic backstories" from their past lives to gaslight them and get them invested more deeply and instil a sense of unity, and I would participate in that as well to further encourage people to believe those things. I believed anything he said or thought anyway (as did he believe anything I said), so I didn't realise at the time how wrong and false it all was.

I'm not sure what triggered it, but one day when I was draining the negative energy out of him like usual so that he wouldn't get distracted by negative thoughts, I suddenly noticed that it seemed as thought his entire being was made up of filthy, disgusting, enemy filth beneath the surface. I didn't make the connection mentally at the time that that was because of his jewish genes, and thought it was some horrible attack against him and that I had to save him. Even as the voices in my head were screaming at me to stop, I painstakingly ripped all of it out of him, absorbing it directly into my own being even as I nearly passed out from the excruciating pain, since it was too much for me to dispose of it safely. Later that evening, he told me he suddenly realised everything we believed was false and that the Gods hated him and wanted him dead for being a jew, and he disbanded the cult while blaming everything that happened on me, as if he was just an innocent Gentile man that was tricked into all of this.

I couldn't sleep from the nightmares as the voices wouldn't stop, and that's when I reached out to Father Satan. Focusing on Him intensely made my mind calm down, and the voices gradually stopped. My body was still in immense pain from my horrible abuse of psychic abilities and all the jewish filth I absorbed, and I hardly even remembered who I even was, but my partner reached out to me, and thanks to him I was able to remember who I was, and realised how much I hated that jewish scumbag. That's when I began to return all of the energy I drained over the course of months back to him, programmed as a death curse, which simultaneously helped me as my own energy became cleaner again. He disappeared from the internet back then, and I suspect he might be dead by now as I can no longer sense his existence, although I have no actual confirmation of that. But even if he really is dead, it's not enough for me. I realise now that the problem wasn't him as an individual, but the very essence of what he really was despite his attempts to pretend. Unless that disgusting, filthy, despicable jewish essence is erased from this entire world, I will never truly be able to rest at peace. That's why I fight.

I feel too ashamed to even assume that the Gods might forgive my mistakes. But for saving my life, I hail Satan. I considered taking my own life to atone, but if I do that then I can't get my vengeance against the disgusting filth that still haunts this world. Therefore, I've decided that I will still trudge onwards until I can't anymore. I feel that I can never atone for my mistakes, but I can at least inform people about the wonders of Satanism in a safe way, and fight back against the filth I hate so much. That's enough for me.

So you’re just like them. A cult leader who ruined people’s lives. The enemies who create “spiritual” cults like this always create thoughtforms that they brainwash their victims to connect to and take their wealth, while the person is left to deal with a rooted thoughtform or entity that eats at them from the inside out. They do it so the enemy has an easy hold on gentile victim's, and even if they manage to escape the cult, their life and soul is damaged forever if they can’t heal themselves.

There are people from the cult that I was in that never made it out, and some that did haven’t been able to rid themselves of the entities. Some of them were just kids. If not for JoS, jrvan and I would still be severely damaged and rotting from those entities. But we didn’t get rid of them by sitting on our asses, asking the Gods to do it, we ripped them out ourselves. It’s taken a full year to do it, and the healing is still in progress.

No wonder your energy feels like a phantom and painful to be close to. No wonder you’re insane and want to self mutilate. How do we know you’re not still head deep into some crazy shit?

I hate cult leaders. You walk away subconsciously hungry for new victims while the people you hurt are left scarred and connected to you through their chakras, feeding off them constantly. You always appear normal, decent, and innocent, but underneath you’re monsters.

I don’t care right now if my own trauma of what happened to me is bleeding out onto your shit. I don’t care what your place in that cult was or if you’re a victim. The fact remains that you did to others what was done to me, and you let your insanity fester. As someone who knows the damage people suffer and have to heal from with shit like that, I am disgusted that you call yourself SS.

I thought I saw traits of myself in you. I was embarrassingly wrong. If you’re only remaining to participate in RTR’s, don’t spread your crap here.

 

[FlameGhost]

There is no such thing as a trans women and this idea is only possible in the most depraved and morally bankrupt society there is. Men can never be women and Man cannot fundamentally change Nature or go against it and succeed in any way.

You are both crossdressing delusional freaks who are Ashamed of yourselves and nothing else. Accept reality and don't fall into comfortable lies. There is no truth to be found in flesh ,only lies. The real truth is a spiritual truth and to reach that you have to accept what you are fundamentally first.

I did just mention that I will be willing to change from that mentallity in which I'm already doing. I think that I am starting to see how this has been playing into my paranoia of "Am I a Jew" shit as well and how even thinking on certain things is enough to invite some bad energy. I felt almost like pure crap the day before yesterday when I decided to make a change on that.

And with that; I don't think I have been delving into the idea of being trans as much or as long as my lover tbh though and I'm not sure how hard it will be for him to get rid of those thoughts and energies...

You are great to willing to overcome this.
But yes, you have to overcome this, as this will help you. Stay together but change for your own best.

Also thank you for your encouraging reply NinRick and I will press on. I wonder if there any form of meditation or runes that can help in getting rid of it? I do believe it will take a bit to get rid of it in myself as well..

I am glad to be able to come here and find some form of truth each time I come to this site and I know I need to trust some people here more when something is said to be wrong as I do with Satan and the Gods.

Hail Satan and the Gods of hell!!!

 

[Blitzkreig [SG]]

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For this condition of you wanting to change gender, what have you done in the way of trying to resolve it? Understand that just as someone else cannot do just physical solutions for their spiritual problems, you will not find your solution in a surgery either. You have to resolve these feelings through spiritual workings.

For example, removing any negative karma associated with your identity, sexuality, or gender, and doing this for long enough. As others said, if your soul manifested itself physically with a penis, then that means the male gender is part of you. You need to figure out where these feminine feelings are coming from, whether they are healthy or not, then respond appropriately to harmonize them.

Try to take a deep breath and know that just as you came to this point without the surgery, you can continue to do so without resorting to drastic actions that may not actually solve your condition. I am sure you are aware of the big trans communities which regret their surgery and feel like they were pushing into doing it without due consideration.

Good luck, Meteor. You'll be fine. Don't stress.

 

[Jack]

What I don't understand is why my life has gotten so better over the years in everything I do and have money ,resources and awareness wise ,and why these people on these forum posts see their lives unglued and unhinged into total insanity. I've seen this time and time again. Why is it that some people are getting more and more knowledgeable and better over the years and others are progressively getting worse ?

Last years all of my doubts about myself and the future progressively evaporated and I saw four to five different futures depending upon what happened in the world ,but all of them lead to one single coordinate (AOT lingo). And in all of these futures I had a crystal clear idea exactly what I had to do. And it's not even about being hesitant or thinking about why or if ,I have to do those things as laid out before me to complete my job so I can focus on the most important thing - The Sadhana.

You guys need to seriously do some self introspection about what exactly it is that you are doing on this world because time is running out one minute by a minute. There's not much time left before the advent of the transition period during which all of us will be tested. You need to have a clear cut understanding relating what material work you need to do in life. Because there is one spiritual truth that all of us are pursuing ,but the material path is personal to you ordained by your karma. Do the RTRs man the more RTRs you do the path becomes clearer and clearer until its undeniable.

 

[Blitzkreig [SG]]

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If these feelings were not resolved from the prior body modification, and you have already identified pre-existing issues that may be the root of these feelings, then I cannot see how the surgery will help, just like it did not help many trans people who regret it.

You may fear confronting these issues, but the nature of karma is that you are forced to. What you are going through right now: the negative thoughts, this forum post, and any other manifestations of this, IS your karma. You are already fighting with it, whether you want to or not.

All of these physical "solutions" don't work because they don't treat the source of the problem. Spiritual solutions work because they apply energy right into the "wound". A little stinging now is much better than leaving a gaping wound to fester. You are already in pain from your untreated wound, so don't fear the treatment.

Furthermore, the programming of your cure, whether it be Munka or Ansuz or something else, can modulate the stress that comes from the healing process. Being healed as fast as possible versus being healed in a minimally painful way, for example.

Our problems do not define us, because we can move past them with the tools we have available. However, you must first try to use these tools, otherwise, you will be stuck in a karmic loop. So don't feel bad about all this, just do your best to move forward. Anyone who is not facing their deepest problems or fears is not progressing.

On December 1st and 2nd, the waning moon will be back in Scorpio, near the new moon. This presents you with an opportunity to resolve these issues and end your suffering. I don't know the nature of your chart, so I can't easily create an affirmation for you, but you can easily make one that resolves either the hard aspects or anything else negatively influencing your identity. Feel free to ask if you need help, though.

 

[HelmOfLight]

I believe your Spiritual transcendence can indeed falsely attack the mind into a Sexual transition.; Consider your own transcendence and what the Origin would be....The unknown 'T' (now remember where you came from and that it cannot be changed) just like the years in the calendar. A sexual transition is done through ones own will, so I say if it makes you feel better than go for it but remember (in the spiritual realms) it's the equivalent of speeding off into something that's already in place but instead going backwards. You need to worry more about just being you and what's coming next but at the same time be comfortable. "A river may be dammed, and its water controlled for a time, but eventually it will force an outlet".

 

[HelmOfLight]

half of my replies, not even approved.

i cannot speak in this forum. i shouldnt maybe. he deletes my comment .or moderation does.

sry but i cant take this . i know its wrong but thats manipulation this meteor does. stfu dude

Can you stop spreading time wasting stuff and just focus on what's meaningful and important? At some point as you can see that's only drama. What happens in every den of random people that weren't even here is not my problem or the communities problem. We tell people to not do that stuff as it can be damaging.

If people form a den and eat each other's life away it's nothing that I can do. I have spent overwhelming amounts of time and energy to tell people to stay away from these false conceptions and traps about Satanism. For many years.

Just stop and focus on what is important if you want to be a Satanist. Regardless, I have read all your emails still and I am aware of the situation.

Not everything has to be approved Siatris, it's hard for myself to stay on topic. A few days ago I got two disapprovals in a row hahaha it's nothing at all though! Remember, we joined their community?You wouldn't want the role of having to host an insane amount of people including the trolls like big cheese and his other goober accounts! This forum provides so much information; The library here alone could crash a work station. Also please consider the advice is being given from a horde of people. If I'm asking something then it's up to me to decipher it, alone! Then I'll use what's given for my own interest. People here meditate allot and others can astral plane/project themselves, it's important they share this knowledge for others to see. This forum is ahead of its time and brings Satanism back to where it belongs. You will never find (unearth) anything like this on either side of the web.

 

[Blitzkreig [SG]]

The aspects I mentioned relate to insecurities about my self-worth and feelings of inadequacy, like that no matter how hard I try I can never be masculine enough. Those feelings are so oppressive, that they've pushed me to the point that I feel like I'd rather just give up on being male altogether, so that I can reassure myself that that isn't my role anyway, and that I can just leave all the manly things to the person who will be my husband instead. In that way, I would try to make peace with it. But so long as I'm still male, I can't shake the feeling that I'm a horrible failure of a man, and this ties in with the other, connected aspect that eats away at my self-esteem. I could never shake those feelings, even when I was just a young boy.

I think perhaps I need to do a working to instill in myself the notion that no matter how masculine or unmasculine I am, I'm good enough; that I'm not a failure for not being the manliest man in the world, regardless of whether I'm male.

Do you have any recommendations for runes or an affirmation I could use for this? If not, I'll think of something myself.

I am glad you are able to understand what some people were trying to tell you. It would be a real tragedy if you undertook some drastic action that did not fix your problems, only add to them.

I'd be highly surprised if what you are mentioning is not described by your Chiron or other astrological placements. Everyone can relate to you in feeling inadequate in some way. Mine is in Libra and I am currently doing work to fix this as we speak.

I know of someone who has their Chiron in Gemini and so they feel intellectually inadequate. Then, if you look at their Mercury, it is in Scorpio, plus the large part of their chart is water and earth. Therefore, it is not a surprise that they might have developed negative feelings over their past lives pertaining to a lack of air.

As you may know, "negative karma" is a giant category that encompasses basically anything you could think of, including mental blocks or bad programming. Perhaps your soul has many feminine qualities and this resulted in suffering relative to your sense of identity.

Obviously, having identity issues is not just a normal state of existence for the soul, therefore this is akin to dross or karma that should be removed. I would first try to scrub away the karma before trying to do an "additive" working, if that makes sense. Both types of workings will probably get the same result, but I bet that removing negative karma would work more efficiently.

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Regardless, I currently think the best way to remove negative karma is Munka, unless there is a reason that Ansuz or Uruz seem to fit better. So you can do this to any multiple of 9, and you will want to do it for a good amount of time since you are facing probably your largest karmic issue.

"The energy of Munka has completely and permanently removed any negative karma pertaining to my sense of identity as a man, in a positive manner for me." x9

Obviously, you can modify this based on how you think of the karma in your head. Maybe you want to change the terms used, for example, or maybe you want to broaden this to include related transits or something.

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I don't know what your chart's makeup is, but it may make sense for you to follow this up by doing work to increase your overall yang characteristics. Now is a good time for Mars and Sun Squares, as well as the first half of next year. Uruz and Sowilo will accomplish similar things as well.

Of course, the main priority is resolving the emotional issues before adding things on top of it. However, increasing your masculine traits is useful for general balancing. We all have to appreciate and incorporate both femininity and masculinity into ourselves for true success.

Hope this helps.