Something happened to me a few days ago that I can't quite wrap my head around. Particularly because it deals with emotions. By my very nature I am quite even tempered and exceptionally strong bouts of emotion are a rarity for me.
We had a small family reunion of sorts and that evening some wanted to go see a show. There was this woman, part of the cast, on stage. She was attractive but to be honest there were probably others who I would have said were better looking so I know it wasn't a lust thing.
At first I didn't pay much attention to it but I was drawn to her. Then it hit me like a ton of bricks. Out of nowhere it felt like I had deep deep feelings for her. I literally felt it in the location of my heart chakra as pressure. I can't tell you how badly I wanted to speak with her.
Then as the show ended this sinking feeling set it in and it almost brought tears to my eyes. Knowing that chances are I would never see or speak to her again it felt like I was losing someone close to me. I tried to write it off but here we are days later and it still feels like someone ripped my heart out of my chest. What I can't wrap my head around is, is that I know nothing about her! Absolutely nothing. If we spoke we might of hated each other. Where did this come from? It's almost funny but I have had family members die and I have not felt like this. I don't think I have ever felt like this.
We had a small family reunion of sorts and that evening some wanted to go see a show. There was this woman, part of the cast, on stage. She was attractive but to be honest there were probably others who I would have said were better looking so I know it wasn't a lust thing.
At first I didn't pay much attention to it but I was drawn to her. Then it hit me like a ton of bricks. Out of nowhere it felt like I had deep deep feelings for her. I literally felt it in the location of my heart chakra as pressure. I can't tell you how badly I wanted to speak with her.
Then as the show ended this sinking feeling set it in and it almost brought tears to my eyes. Knowing that chances are I would never see or speak to her again it felt like I was losing someone close to me. I tried to write it off but here we are days later and it still feels like someone ripped my heart out of my chest. What I can't wrap my head around is, is that I know nothing about her! Absolutely nothing. If we spoke we might of hated each other. Where did this come from? It's almost funny but I have had family members die and I have not felt like this. I don't think I have ever felt like this.
