A long awaited Home Coming

[amanda.magos]

I was a Satanist when I was a teenager. Of course, I was a novice, ignorant and full of myself. I read TSB by Mr. Lavey and thought that's all I ever needed to know and could, without consequence, figure everything out myself. A foolish young girl I was to avoid asking for the proper guidance by The Father. I simply worked the Rites I found in that little black book, failing to commit myself, failing to submit ANY actual respect - I never realized this back then, of course, as hind-sight is ALWAYS 20/20. I was frightened out of the following, most likely due DIRECTLY because of my wanton actions - 2 days following a ritual I was in a bad car accident - in my MOTHER'S car. The only vehicle we had. The impact had fractured my wrist, and had the truck struck the car just a few inches more to the right, my passenger and very close friend would have been terribly injured. That was my wake up call - though I didn't realize what it was then - THEN I thought it was "divine" intervention, angels, if you will, pulling me from the proverbial fire. I was wrong. For YEARS afterward I would feel a deep desire burning just beneath my flesh for what I had abandoned. A magnetism that would constantly beckon, it was fear and the words of my family that cemented me where I stood. I am older now, live on my own, I can do what I will without fear of persecution any longer. However, my family is very important to me - I love them with all that I am and would NEVER want to lose them - of course, they would never have to know of my religion. My concern is simply this: I live in a duplex - right on the other side of my walls is my mother, stepfather, and very young sister of 4 yrs. The room in which I practice my Rites and such is directly opposite my kid sisters bedroom. Do all the Rites HAVE to be done at night? If so, to Hail to the Father with the usual HAIL SATAN - does this truly have to be spoken LOUDLY - or can it simply be spoken FIRMLY, but not so loud as to possibly wake a sleeping child?? I understand He is only concerned with what is in our hearts, but it feels right to want to shout it! However, my current situation prohibits that a little... I look forward to your answers. Thank you, Dark Blessings to all of you.

 

[blackkat_411]

Hail Father Satan!! i understand completely what you mean, but Father understands very much if you cannot do ritual at night, do ritual whenever you have a chance. also no need to shout, or even say out loud, you can telepathically speak or even do rituals in your astral temple. remember, it is what is in your heart that Father Satan will see.

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "amanda.magos" <spudakis@... wrote:

I was a Satanist when I was a teenager. Of course, I was a novice, ignorant and full of myself. I read TSB by Mr. Lavey and thought that's all I ever needed to know and could, without consequence, figure everything out myself. A foolish young girl I was to avoid asking for the proper guidance by The Father. I simply worked the Rites I found in that little black book, failing to commit myself, failing to submit ANY actual respect - I never realized this back then, of course, as hind-sight is ALWAYS 20/20. I was frightened out of the following, most likely due DIRECTLY because of my wanton actions - 2 days following a ritual I was in a bad car accident - in my MOTHER'S car. The only vehicle we had. The impact had fractured my wrist, and had the truck struck the car just a few inches more to the right, my passenger and very close friend would have been terribly injured. That was my wake up call - though I didn't realize what it was then - THEN I thought it was "divine" intervention, angels, if you will, pulling me from the proverbial fire. I was wrong. For YEARS afterward I would feel a deep desire burning just beneath my flesh for what I had abandoned. A magnetism that would constantly beckon, it was fear and the words of my family that cemented me where I stood. I am older now, live on my own, I can do what I will without fear of persecution any longer. However, my family is very important to me - I love them with all that I am and would NEVER want to lose them - of course, they would never have to know of my religion. My concern is simply this: I live in a duplex - right on the other side of my walls is my mother, stepfather, and very young sister of 4 yrs. The room in which I practice my Rites and such is directly opposite my kid sisters bedroom. Do all the Rites HAVE to be done at night? If so, to Hail to the Father with the usual HAIL SATAN - does this truly have to be spoken LOUDLY - or can it simply be spoken FIRMLY, but not so loud as to possibly wake a sleeping child?? I understand He is only concerned with what is in our hearts, but it feels right to want to shout it! However, my current situation prohibits that a little... I look forward to your answers. Thank you, Dark Blessings to all of you.

 

[Blacklegions Of satan]

I can truly relate to this I too grew up as a satanist from a child. although my parents were christians, for some reason I could think about was Satan. Before I even knew who he was. I never even heard about the bible, I was so young. But as the years went by and my parent finally started making us go to sunday school and all that crap. They started teaching us these bible verses and saying how bad and evil Satan was, but for some reason I never felt the same way they did.    To make a long story short, by the time I was 15 or sixteen I had Father visted me in a dream. He spoke to me and then I was shown this place. Which at the time I had assumed that it was hell, this place the xian kept lieing to me about. The first thing I notices that it was not a lake of fire. Though it was a little gloomy or just was kind of darker then here on earth, but you can most definitely see everything around you.   After that I decided to find some books, which then I found the satanic bible by lavey. I thought I was the shit,. I was like im a satanist and I carried that book with me every where I went.  After my incarceration my dad had my p.o take all my satanic belongings. So  I quit for a while, then I decided to get a pentagram tattooed on my arm. After a while I just felt like everything was a joke. So I started praying to Father Satan asking him what am I to do next? I took it slow, by the time I was 22 I did more research and found a plethora of satanic sites. But they all seem to disagree with eachother in one way or the other. But they did agree that the cos was not real traditional satanism.   So I kept studying and researching, ran into the alsiter crowley, immediately noticed the xian crap intertwined in his workings. Kept praying to Father Satan to steer me in the right path. Came across the jos, read about meditating and all kinds of other information. So I joined at sat back for a minute just watching the group. This was around that time that idiot sam williams was treading where he didnt belong. I asked Father Satan was the Jos reliable or should I look some where else.I never had post any messages, yet  Hp Vovim had written a message or some post and I felt it hit me directly over my head. I knew it was my answer from Father Satan, and it couldnt have came from a better source than the Hp's. I knew then that I wasted years of my life listening to a guy who really spoke blasephemous about father Satan and didnt know him for who he really is, our true creator.   Rege, Satanas! Rege, Azazel! Rege, Eligos! Rege, Decarabia!   Al Jiwah- I remember necessary affairs and execute them in due time. I teach and guide those who follow my instructions.

From: amanda.magos <spudakis@...
To: [email protected]
Sent: Thu, October 7, 2010 8:59:20 AM
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] A long awaited Home Coming

  I was a Satanist when I was a teenager. Of course, I was a novice, ignorant and full of myself. I read TSB by Mr. Lavey and thought that's all I ever needed to know and could, without consequence, figure everything out myself. A foolish young girl I was to avoid asking for the proper guidance by The Father. I simply worked the Rites I found in that little black book, failing to commit myself, failing to submit ANY actual respect - I never realized this back then, of course, as hind-sight is ALWAYS 20/20. I was frightened out of the following, most likely due DIRECTLY because of my wanton actions - 2 days following a ritual I was in a bad car accident - in my MOTHER'S car. The only vehicle we had. The impact had fractured my wrist, and had the truck struck the car just a few inches more to the right, my passenger and very close friend would have been terribly injured. That was my wake up call - though I didn't realize what it was then - THEN I thought it was "divine" intervention, angels, if you will, pulling me from the proverbial fire. I was wrong. For YEARS afterward I would feel a deep desire burning just beneath my flesh for what I had abandoned. A magnetism that would constantly beckon, it was fear and the words of my family that cemented me where I stood. I am older now, live on my own, I can do what I will without fear of persecution any longer. However, my family is very important to me - I love them with all that I am and would NEVER want to lose them - of course, they would never have to know of my religion. My concern is simply this: I live in a duplex - right on the other side of my walls is my mother, stepfather, and very young sister of 4 yrs. The room in which I practice my Rites and such is directly opposite my kid sisters bedroom. Do all the Rites HAVE to be done at night? If so, to Hail to the Father with the usual HAIL SATAN - does this truly have to be spoken LOUDLY - or can it simply be spoken FIRMLY, but not so loud as to possibly wake a sleeping child?? I understand He is only concerned with what is in our hearts, but it feels right to want to shout it! However, my current situation prohibits that a little... I look forward to your answers. Thank you, Dark Blessings to all of you.

 

[Bixeus Meda]

<td val[/IMG]You can create an astral temple where you can do all your satanic rituals and communicate with Father Satan and Demons.

AVE SATANUS!!!HAIL MELEK TA'US!!![/TD]