Astrology #80009 Neptune transiting first house and feeling emotions

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I am going to edit this down and not go into specifics about my drug use (which was extensive and lasted years) cause i think thats why this wasnt approved but I need to talk about this so i will try atain yes I didnt start using substances before Neptune went in the first. Also my Ascendant is 25 Aquarius I wonder if that's why I had so many problems with alcohol and related things (drugs that use the same neruo pathways as alcohol) anyways neptune didn't help this and I also feel less grounded and more spacy and dreamy. I have too much empathy and get taken advantage of quite a bit this didnt happen before this neptune transit. Since Pisces is intercepted in my first house my my neptune doesn't leave first house till the middle of Aries. I had plenty of problems related to my natal neptune placement as well. Since it's in the 11th house i attracted plenty of times drug users and those who are unreliable or neptune like usually in a bad way. Any advice I do not currently use street drugs and rarely use alchohol.

Anyways my second question is I had something happen with an enemy attack and I seem to have lost the ability to feel most emotions I can sometimes feel sadness laughter or anger certain times but not strongly and it's random. What can I do meditation wise to fix this. I tried invoking water several times and that didn't help much.

Thank you for taking the time to read this and Hail Zeus.