AskSatanOperator
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I've been a dedicated Zevist for 10 years. Dedicated my soul immediately and have been in devoted practice since. During this time Ive done a great many amazing things with the help of the Gods. I've seen, I've spoken, and I've felt the spiritual on this path. Things you can't ever do as a xtian.
Recently I have been called, like a siren song, back to xtianity. It's embarrassing. I have resisted it and simple logic debunks so much of their belief, as well as the experiences I've directly had with the Gods. But I'm still being called to it like someone from your past asking to sit down to have a conversation with you.
I don't even fully know what I'm trying to say here. I've just been called back to my old religion recently and I've never experienced influence from the enemy like this before. It's an emotional appeal and a nostalgic one and I feel... almost like I miss the feeling of having so many people around you with similar beliefs, the community and understanding that comes with that. The aesthetics that go with it, the crosses that logically I know they stole from the diagram of human chakras, the grand cathedrals, and the straightforward structure of the religion. I'm very conservative and I share a lot of beliefs with xtians, like sex work is disgusting, marriage is for one man and one woman only, polygamy isn't for humans, etc.
I could never go back to a religion so starved of knowledge and wisdom but I've never experienced this feeling before. I'm used to the enemy sending me terror but since I conquered fear and those don't work anymore, this has been the recent trend. Doesn't help that the exposing christianity site is down.
This feels like a failure to even think about xtianity. I abhored it for nearly 10 years and for some reason right now it's calling. I haven't given in of course but I guess I'm wondering if others have felt this before.
Recently I have been called, like a siren song, back to xtianity. It's embarrassing. I have resisted it and simple logic debunks so much of their belief, as well as the experiences I've directly had with the Gods. But I'm still being called to it like someone from your past asking to sit down to have a conversation with you.
I don't even fully know what I'm trying to say here. I've just been called back to my old religion recently and I've never experienced influence from the enemy like this before. It's an emotional appeal and a nostalgic one and I feel... almost like I miss the feeling of having so many people around you with similar beliefs, the community and understanding that comes with that. The aesthetics that go with it, the crosses that logically I know they stole from the diagram of human chakras, the grand cathedrals, and the straightforward structure of the religion. I'm very conservative and I share a lot of beliefs with xtians, like sex work is disgusting, marriage is for one man and one woman only, polygamy isn't for humans, etc.
I could never go back to a religion so starved of knowledge and wisdom but I've never experienced this feeling before. I'm used to the enemy sending me terror but since I conquered fear and those don't work anymore, this has been the recent trend. Doesn't help that the exposing christianity site is down.
This feels like a failure to even think about xtianity. I abhored it for nearly 10 years and for some reason right now it's calling. I haven't given in of course but I guess I'm wondering if others have felt this before.
