AskSatanOperator
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Nestabil'nost' vo vsem, v oshchushcheniyakh ot meditatsiy v oshchushcheniyakh ot ritualov, v predskazaniyakh. V odin den' ya mogu sdelat' yogu, pochuvstvovat' effekt legkosti, poluchit' astral'noye prikosnovniye v otvet na vopros, nayti poteryannyy predmet s pomoshch'yu mayatnika, sdelat' ritual - oshchutiv yego silu, pomeditirovat' na sigilu - oshchushchaya prekrasnyye energii. No byvayet inache - byvayet chto yoga - slovno bessmyslennaya rutina ya ne chuvstvuyu nichego krome ustalosti, ne chuvtvuyu bukval'no nichego ot meditatsii na sigily, ot ritualov. Kak by ne staralsya - mayatnik ne mozhet otvetit' dazhe na prosteyshiye voprosy. A vmesto astral'nogo prikosnoveniya - slovno lopnuvshis' zudyashchiy sosud v pal'tse chto drebezhzhit na vse voprosy v 1 tochke, v etot den' ikh net. YA zanimayus' uzhe mnogo let, no v takiye periody ya chuvstvuyu chto mogu soyti s uma, vrode by ya byl na 100% uveren v tom, chem ya zanimayus' i vot - ya uzhe polnost'yu somnevayus' i gotov priznat' chto ya oshibsya v vybore tem, chem mne stoit zanimat'sya.
964 / 5 000
Instability in everything, in sensations from meditations, in sensations from rituals, in predictions.
In one day I can do yoga, feel the effect of lightness, receive an astral touch in response to a question, find a lost object with the help of a pendulum, do a ritual - feeling its power, meditate on a sigil - feeling beautiful energies.
But it happens differently - it happens that yoga is like a meaningless routine, I feel nothing but fatigue, I feel literally nothing from meditation on sigils, from rituals.
No matter how hard I try - the pendulum cannot answer even the simplest questions.
And instead of an astral touch - as if an itchy vessel in the finger burst that rattles to all questions at 1 point, on this day they are not there.
I have been doing this for many years, but during such periods I feel like I can go crazy, it seems like I was 100% sure of what I was doing and now I am completely in doubt and ready to admit that I made a mistake in choosing what I should do.
Once I can just start doing the work and immediately see the results - which can simply disappear in the middle of it, for example - at the beginning of the square of the Sun, I was immediately offered a very profitable deal, literally fantastic, I was covered in goosebumps and felt like a powerful magician, by the middle of the square (I 100% did not make a single mistake, did not miss a day) - the deal fell through for a funny reason, I finished the square hoping that there would be something else, but nothing, silence. This is an example, other jobs are also unstable.
Sometimes, literally nonsense comes true - at night I imagined that I lived in a country house in a pine forest and for some reason imagined that the Internet there was bad - as a result, the whole next day, the damn Internet was bad for me.
As an example.
What can you advise me on how to stop being a schizo-magician as if I were cursed by chaos or something like that and become normal?
964 / 5 000
Instability in everything, in sensations from meditations, in sensations from rituals, in predictions.
In one day I can do yoga, feel the effect of lightness, receive an astral touch in response to a question, find a lost object with the help of a pendulum, do a ritual - feeling its power, meditate on a sigil - feeling beautiful energies.
But it happens differently - it happens that yoga is like a meaningless routine, I feel nothing but fatigue, I feel literally nothing from meditation on sigils, from rituals.
No matter how hard I try - the pendulum cannot answer even the simplest questions.
And instead of an astral touch - as if an itchy vessel in the finger burst that rattles to all questions at 1 point, on this day they are not there.
I have been doing this for many years, but during such periods I feel like I can go crazy, it seems like I was 100% sure of what I was doing and now I am completely in doubt and ready to admit that I made a mistake in choosing what I should do.
Once I can just start doing the work and immediately see the results - which can simply disappear in the middle of it, for example - at the beginning of the square of the Sun, I was immediately offered a very profitable deal, literally fantastic, I was covered in goosebumps and felt like a powerful magician, by the middle of the square (I 100% did not make a single mistake, did not miss a day) - the deal fell through for a funny reason, I finished the square hoping that there would be something else, but nothing, silence. This is an example, other jobs are also unstable.
Sometimes, literally nonsense comes true - at night I imagined that I lived in a country house in a pine forest and for some reason imagined that the Internet there was bad - as a result, the whole next day, the damn Internet was bad for me.
As an example.
What can you advise me on how to stop being a schizo-magician as if I were cursed by chaos or something like that and become normal?
