Meditations #78109 Merkaba Science and Philosophy?

[AskSatanOperator]

Hello, this is Gearshift. I don't feel comfortable joining the forums again. I stopped coming about two years ago. As some remember I have mental health issues. And I kinda blame the merkaba at speed of light and spinning my chakaras at speed of light back in 2005. I've never been successful at spirituality. And while I respect the organization it's never changed me.

But I've always been curious on merkaba and lately I've been studying around. I'm aware of new age and kiked up shit. But I wonder are we wrong about our merkaba. Is it possible other shapes such as even the enemy merkaba double-tetrahedron isn't bad?

It's just it states 3/6 and the octohedron is 13/20.

But is that a bad thing? Isn't Saturn and under the watch of the Gods that we actually use other shapes to improve ourselves.

I ran into a website that states, Octohedron is water, Double-tetrahedron is fire element. The hexahedron (cube shape), grounding. dodecahedron spirit. And a few other information.

My issue is I keep hearing these voices male and female. And they mention merkaba is an entire scientific field. And that hitting the speed of light and going 13/20 has hindered me. Every time I do the merkaba I become a sick , twisted fuck. And I need to return back to a beginner state as your doing too much.

Can some please help me out and I understand this sound disrespectful. But why do I think JoS is the end all be all of meditation?

I honestly don't know what meditation is and it has never helped me out. I'm not saying JoS i fake or anything. But I just don't think the meditation has ever enlightened me. If anything it's kinda made me worse of a person.

Is this because I did merkaba and chakra spinning to the speed of light back in 2005. And it caused issues, I keep hearing this voice stating I wish you never did it. Or if I did it, it was a calculated risk. I've done it quite a few times maybe since 2005 about 40-50 times. To Speed of light and even upwards of 50x past the speed of light. I even did Vovim Baughies version before we discovered he was fake.

I want to improve my life, heal myself of mental illness, and live my life. But I seem stuck in this house. I love where I live and love my life and my mentality compared to the NPCs but it seems like I need to return to the beginning and evolve better.

I understand each and everyone follows dictates of their own nature. But these voices if the Gods no idea. I don't think the enemy has ever fucked with me. But they want me to evolve in my own way without meditation as it causes me issues.

Back in 2023 I spent quite a few months meditating. And I kept seeing around the walls of my house flashing all this hellraiser torture and tartarus stuff, seeing myself butchered and tortured by the enemy blood and organs hanging everywhere. And after a period of time I can see my walls gold or cleansed even seeing with my mind not literally the entire floor wet ankle high water and taking steps and walking with lotuses of different color appearing after my foot steps.

Then back in 2024 last mental illness yet I had. And all I did was spend the week at the mental facility meditating on my nadis an cleansing, aligning and spinning my chakras and protecting. And when I returned home after two weeks, one week in the hospital, one week in the facility. I felt my entire neighborhood changed as if the Gods cleaned up all the negativity and my absence cleared all the negativity.

I just want to know is spirituality real? or is it just a byproduct of entheogenic and psychedelic substances affecting the filters of the mind. At this point I just want to consume cannabis and psychdelics like psilocybin shrooms, peyote, LSD, and DPT. Sorry but not sorry I want to enjoy my life and truly be spiritual not be a destittute suffering in life and not enjoying it.

I'm aware JoS isn't friendly with drugs I guess that is to establish a rational sober minset.. But I feel like that is a mistake an unscientific mistake and some people need extreme measures to advance their mind, body, and soul. Please don't Mr.Mackey me of drugs are bad m'kay. I know what I'm doing studying this phenomena since 2003 after dedicating and smoking cannabis a few times from 2003-2004 with my friend. Then stopped which I regret.

Sheer fact is I these voices tell me i should just be physical and carnal. Something that is mentally and spiritually intense. I pay more attention to my mind and soul than my physical vessel akin to walking on one foot while holding my other leg in the air.

I want to know why this organization denies substances that are proper cannabis and psychedelics? And I want to know how can I perform other merkabas to like the old saying goes, "Fall from heaven" and "Rise from Hell"?

How can I return to normal and work mentally, physically, and spiritually at the same time. So that I may affect my reality and enjoy my life. Which is hindered deeply and I didn't enjoy as much.

I feel after merkaba and chakra spinning to the speed of light. I fucked myself over. How can I fix myself?

How can I fix 34 almost 35 years of this profound self. I really need someone to read my astro chart and help me out. I don't care if the enemy knows my chart. I don't give a shit about anything the shit I give is non-existent. I'm just a cool, calm dude who wishes to enjoy life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness.

I just want to know why my life didn't go well. And is it possible our merkaba scientific system and philosophy need improvement?

 

[MercuryWisdom]

Hello, this is Gearshift. I don't feel comfortable joining the forums again. I stopped coming about two years ago. As some remember I have mental health issues. And I kinda blame the merkaba at speed of light and spinning my chakaras at speed of light back in 2005. I've never been successful at spirituality. And while I respect the organization it's never changed me.

But I've always been curious on merkaba and lately I've been studying around. I'm aware of new age and kiked up shit. But I wonder are we wrong about our merkaba. Is it possible other shapes such as even the enemy merkaba double-tetrahedron isn't bad?

It's just it states 3/6 and the octohedron is 13/20.

But is that a bad thing? Isn't Saturn and under the watch of the Gods that we actually use other shapes to improve ourselves.

I ran into a website that states, Octohedron is water, Double-tetrahedron is fire element. The hexahedron (cube shape), grounding. dodecahedron spirit. And a few other information.

My issue is I keep hearing these voices male and female. And they mention merkaba is an entire scientific field. And that hitting the speed of light and going 13/20 has hindered me. Every time I do the merkaba I become a sick , twisted fuck. And I need to return back to a beginner state as your doing too much.

Can some please help me out and I understand this sound disrespectful. But why do I think JoS is the end all be all of meditation?

I honestly don't know what meditation is and it has never helped me out. I'm not saying JoS i fake or anything. But I just don't think the meditation has ever enlightened me. If anything it's kinda made me worse of a person.

Is this because I did merkaba and chakra spinning to the speed of light back in 2005. And it caused issues, I keep hearing this voice stating I wish you never did it. Or if I did it, it was a calculated risk. I've done it quite a few times maybe since 2005 about 40-50 times. To Speed of light and even upwards of 50x past the speed of light. I even did Vovim Baughies version before we discovered he was fake.

I want to improve my life, heal myself of mental illness, and live my life. But I seem stuck in this house. I love where I live and love my life and my mentality compared to the NPCs but it seems like I need to return to the beginning and evolve better.

I understand each and everyone follows dictates of their own nature. But these voices if the Gods no idea. I don't think the enemy has ever fucked with me. But they want me to evolve in my own way without meditation as it causes me issues.

Back in 2023 I spent quite a few months meditating. And I kept seeing around the walls of my house flashing all this hellraiser torture and tartarus stuff, seeing myself butchered and tortured by the enemy blood and organs hanging everywhere. And after a period of time I can see my walls gold or cleansed even seeing with my mind not literally the entire floor wet ankle high water and taking steps and walking with lotuses of different color appearing after my foot steps.

Then back in 2024 last mental illness yet I had. And all I did was spend the week at the mental facility meditating on my nadis an cleansing, aligning and spinning my chakras and protecting. And when I returned home after two weeks, one week in the hospital, one week in the facility. I felt my entire neighborhood changed as if the Gods cleaned up all the negativity and my absence cleared all the negativity.

I just want to know is spirituality real? or is it just a byproduct of entheogenic and psychedelic substances affecting the filters of the mind. At this point I just want to consume cannabis and psychdelics like psilocybin shrooms, peyote, LSD, and DPT. Sorry but not sorry I want to enjoy my life and truly be spiritual not be a destittute suffering in life and not enjoying it.

I'm aware JoS isn't friendly with drugs I guess that is to establish a rational sober minset.. But I feel like that is a mistake an unscientific mistake and some people need extreme measures to advance their mind, body, and soul. Please don't Mr.Mackey me of drugs are bad m'kay. I know what I'm doing studying this phenomena since 2003 after dedicating and smoking cannabis a few times from 2003-2004 with my friend. Then stopped which I regret.

Sheer fact is I these voices tell me i should just be physical and carnal. Something that is mentally and spiritually intense. I pay more attention to my mind and soul than my physical vessel akin to walking on one foot while holding my other leg in the air.

I want to know why this organization denies substances that are proper cannabis and psychedelics? And I want to know how can I perform other merkabas to like the old saying goes, "Fall from heaven" and "Rise from Hell"?

How can I return to normal and work mentally, physically, and spiritually at the same time. So that I may affect my reality and enjoy my life. Which is hindered deeply and I didn't enjoy as much.

I feel after merkaba and chakra spinning to the speed of light. I fucked myself over. How can I fix myself?

How can I fix 34 almost 35 years of this profound self. I really need someone to read my astro chart and help me out. I don't care if the enemy knows my chart. I don't give a shit about anything the shit I give is non-existent. I'm just a cool, calm dude who wishes to enjoy life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness.

I just want to know why my life didn't go well. And is it possible our merkaba scientific system and philosophy need improvement?

What you really actually need is establishing control.

Your mind faculties are so out of control, it literally makes you go insane.

Then you want to erode your control more with hard drugs and psychedelics? You’ll be on a path of extreme ruin. Just weed alone scientifically causes schizophrenia, when you’re already vulnerable, you’ll get fucked.

Why do you care what Merkaba or other *very advanced* meditation practices and disciplines mean or say when you’re not even mentally fit to do basic stuff.

I would recommend you go to therapy, establish control and grow control step by step and consistently, the most meditation you can do is Void meditation and that’s also very important for establishing your control. Don’t worry about Merkaba or whatever mental insanities you have in your mind. Ground yourself a bit.

 

[Henu the Great]

The core of the problem is the same as it was years ago.

Please try to understand that when a house is built without a foundation, problems are going to be encountered. In more practical terms, you have been empowering a dirty soul which is major reason why you have had problems. You never established control, meaning, did not built awareness, never cleansed and purified to the required extent while at the same time haphazardly did whatever you felt at the time.

As for solutions to this, we have relayed to you many times over, but you never listened.

 

[Henu the Great]

I want to know why this organization denies substances that are proper cannabis and psychedelics? And I want to know how can I perform other merkabas to like the old saying goes, "Fall from heaven" and "Rise from Hell"?

First of all, you are free to live life as you see fit.

That being said, the Temple of Zeus provides the framework for godhood, which means that things such as cannabis and listening to unknown entities and one's damaged psyche will have to be dropped/healed at some point during the advancement as they are not part and parcel of becoming a Human and eventually, a Demon and so forth, but the path of andrapoda. Yet, the statement above is true, as ToZ does not make your decisions. So you need to make a decision, will you continue as an andrapod, or will you choose the path of Gods. No one forces this on you. It is a personal decision made by you.

How can I return to normal and work mentally, physically, and spiritually at the same time. So that I may affect my reality and enjoy my life. Which is hindered deeply and I didn't enjoy as much.

By heeding the advice that has been relayed many times in the past: Cleaning, void meditation, purification, workings to address personal faults and deficiencies, yoga asanas, breathing exercises, and so on. The very basic meditations and routines on top of which everything else is built, that you have been avoiding all this time. It is not easy, it will get boring, at times you want to give up, and yet, if you follow through despite every hardship, you will become superhuman, bit by bit.

And is it possible our merkaba scientific system and philosophy need improvement?

No.... Sorry, you need to start listening to those who went before you instead of obsessing over something you have no understanding of.