AskSatanOperator
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Often times I would contemplate on things I want. Is it something I need? Is it something I want? What about in 2 weeks or 2 months or even 2 years, do I still want it then? From there I think about all the ways it can help me or hurt me.
The thing is, more often then not I end up thinking it isnt worth it. I try to keep all decisions I make from a proper SS perspective. Will this help me advance myself or community?
But lately I have felt like I too quickly decide it isn't worth it. This context is specifically in regards to my social circle. I have purposefully and gradually shrunk who it is I keep and who I dont. This part was easy and I have no regrets. The difficult part is the adding to my circle. I don't have problems interacting or talking to others. It comes easy to me. But opening up or rather deepening a connection is difficult. There are too many negatives and not enough positives.
I know in the future I'll be wiser and more mature and be able to make better decisions. What I want to ask is if this is ok? Is this just a manifestation of blockages in my soul? Or did I unknowningly created a blockage for myself?
My chart already tells me that when it comes to friendships, unless I make a concious effort it would always be skin deep from my perspective even if it isnt the case for the other person. Mixing a need to be alone yet a need for others makes half the time unbearable while the other half as just fine. I just want some advice on what to do. Should I do a freeing the soul working in regards to this? Or am I doing it right and nothing is wrong and I am over thinking it.
The thing is, more often then not I end up thinking it isnt worth it. I try to keep all decisions I make from a proper SS perspective. Will this help me advance myself or community?
But lately I have felt like I too quickly decide it isn't worth it. This context is specifically in regards to my social circle. I have purposefully and gradually shrunk who it is I keep and who I dont. This part was easy and I have no regrets. The difficult part is the adding to my circle. I don't have problems interacting or talking to others. It comes easy to me. But opening up or rather deepening a connection is difficult. There are too many negatives and not enough positives.
I know in the future I'll be wiser and more mature and be able to make better decisions. What I want to ask is if this is ok? Is this just a manifestation of blockages in my soul? Or did I unknowningly created a blockage for myself?
My chart already tells me that when it comes to friendships, unless I make a concious effort it would always be skin deep from my perspective even if it isnt the case for the other person. Mixing a need to be alone yet a need for others makes half the time unbearable while the other half as just fine. I just want some advice on what to do. Should I do a freeing the soul working in regards to this? Or am I doing it right and nothing is wrong and I am over thinking it.