Question #3209: About relationships and interactions with people

[AskSatanOperator]

I will start my story from afar so that people can understand me more clearly. All my conscious life, past and present, I feel only loneliness and emptiness inside me. Trouble with the staff at school, bullying. After college, first attempts at socialization, another failure. No matter how hard I try to find peace, it is always disturbed by a mind that won't shut up. Being spiritually on the middle level, my psychology still dwells in the lowest levels, along with worms and dirt. No matter how many times I try to find "the one and only girl," I can't get a damn thing. People just ignore me, with my sisters in Satan also nothing works out, money, respectively, and mobility in movement. Loneliness just ruins me, not allowing me to break the fucking restrictions, suppression. I can drown out these feelings with anything, but I can't shut them out completely. I struggle to do my meditative practices as well as rituals on a schedule. I don't know how much longer I can keep up this pace. My parents aren't doing well either, I lost contact with them a long time ago, there is no trust at all. Only my duties to Satan keep me alive physically, but spiritually I am rotting. No purification helps at all, it's just another pill for conditional schizophrenia. The higher I go, the more my problems come out. I'm just so fucking fucked up.

 

[Blitzkreig [JG]]

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If you have spiritual power, then there is a way out of these negative patterns. No, it is not true that you become worse from more spiritual development, but you are probably more aware of the negativity, or also transits can make you aware, as well.

If you are citing problems with happiness and your social situation, then Wunjo is the main rune to apply for this. Apply this broadly so it can help your emotions, as well as other points in your soul that reflect one's interactions with others.

Regarding a struggle with meditations and low optimism, my first instinct is to say you should increase your fire element. The moon is now in Aries and you can use Sowilo to increase your confidence and optimism, such as towards life in general, or even specifically with spiritually advancement.

Similarly, solar energy drives us to have fun and be friendly, and this aids our socialization with others. As the Sun enters Sagittarius, you can apply its energies to yourself. In the moment of being with other people, inhale solar energy and program it for an immediate boost to success with social situations.

Through this, you should feel happier and also willing to share and engage with others. Others can sense this "solar output" radiating from you, and will be more receptive as well.

Be mindful of your negative karma, shown through astrology, which can create these situations, and try to view this from an objective standpoint, as otherwise it is too easy to go down a path of self-hatred.

Your astrology will also show you where you seek comfort (Moon), what makes you happy (Sun), and so on. Look at all planets and aspects for a full picture.

The situation is not hopeless, as you are not the first SS to go through these things and successfully solve them. Good luck.