AskSatanOperator
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I read a while back that the power of the orgasm is equal with the life force, I don't remember how it was exactly. I am a man in my early twenties and for the past years the quality of my orgasm are getting worse and worse. The intense feeling is kinda gone. It's very hard to explain how it is, as I don't have a point of reference, but over the years, like 3 or more, how the orgasm feels gradually degraded, at first I though that over the years that's how it gets. I thought due to bad habbits like smoking or drinking I got here, also maybe porn use that degraded the feeling or something. When I was a teen expecially at 14-15 I had very high sexual desires, and sex was my "ultimate dream" and orgasms were wonderfull, now it's 180, thinking about sex is painfull(mentally), and the orgasms are shit. Also a very weird thing started happening, for the past year I feel the orgasm on only one Cavernousal erectile tissue (I don't know if the term is good but I googled a cross section of the penis, if you google it you will see that it has 3 tube like sections, 2 are for the erectile properties and orgasm, and the urethra which is for peeing), I don't know what that means.
For reference, I don't necessary look for medical advice, I want to ask about the spiritual aspect/background of this. Could I interpret it as a spiritual attack on the base/sacral chakra? Or could it be only because of a bad way of living?
Weird sexual thoughts, better said deranged and a weird hate for women, like a frustrated "incel" goes thru my mind out of nowhere. I don't have fantasies that would be considered deranged and never had, but out of nowhere intrusive thoughts of sexual nature comes out of nowhere, and I feel very bad for it. It's hard to explain again here, It feels like it's not me, my porn usage was always limited in a way, never searched weird ass fantasies(the only thing that is not normal I watched was the step-fantasies type porn) or gore-porn as some of my friends did, I was always a vanilla type man related to sexual activities.
How should I interpret this and how should I go about this?
For reference, I don't necessary look for medical advice, I want to ask about the spiritual aspect/background of this. Could I interpret it as a spiritual attack on the base/sacral chakra? Or could it be only because of a bad way of living?
Weird sexual thoughts, better said deranged and a weird hate for women, like a frustrated "incel" goes thru my mind out of nowhere. I don't have fantasies that would be considered deranged and never had, but out of nowhere intrusive thoughts of sexual nature comes out of nowhere, and I feel very bad for it. It's hard to explain again here, It feels like it's not me, my porn usage was always limited in a way, never searched weird ass fantasies(the only thing that is not normal I watched was the step-fantasies type porn) or gore-porn as some of my friends did, I was always a vanilla type man related to sexual activities.
How should I interpret this and how should I go about this?