Overly Emotional?

[Tyrone1978]

It's just that I cannot talk about a lot of things because my interest in Spiritual Satanism, SS. Are things that I need to keep to myself at this moment in time.

True, I have nothing to say to people because my interests are what everybody labels as Nazi, racist, strange, delusional ecc lol
People are also very shallow, they care more about their social media then actually talking, they're in the jewtrix, like borgs.

If you've looked into that Alexander Technique you will notice how people used to sit and stand a lot straighter than they do today.

All of that social media is making people permanently be hunched over which will cause them muscular skeletal problems down the line.

How are you getting on with it. It's like the 'mindfulness' meditation where you're always aware of how you're using yourself and planning how you will carry out your next move.

I read that the Alexander Technique is old fashioned for today. And it's true life is so much faster now. I find it particularly difficult in supermarkets because of trolleys, baskets and people moving past. With the Alexander Technique a person uses themselves as nature intended and doesn't crane down from the waist. I feel like I cannot squat down because of people that aren't looking out for me and don't expect a person to move like that. So I find myself annoyed because for my wellbeing I cannot go down because I'm aware the people just keep coming at you while you're squatting down to the low stuff.

And yes back to social media. I hope it can become freer and less censored. I only use it to look but don't post because getting involved there takes too much time. And also I have to self censor because I'm scared of trouble.

You see I've lost a job because I was telling people about South Africa and the institutional racial discrimination happening there.

Strange thing is. And this blows my mind. I never would have guessed the people that it came from.

There were people that didn't like me and that was out in the open with them. And then there were the friendly ones that were happy to talk.

I was invited in for a disciplinary because I had a couple colleague complaints and grievances against me.

Shock, horror it was the friendly ones. They all gossiped and conspired together and the names of the complainants and their grievances were read out to me.

They had checked me out on facebook and taken screen shots. Not anything malicious just the truth. A person cannot even talk the truth nowadays. The sheeple have outdone the sheep!

You see by censoring the discussion on race a person self censors thinking about it. And if no one thinks it they will not be able to comprehend it exists. Brutal hitting a person with their livelihood. Now I close up with anyone bringing up the racial problems of South Africa.

I see it as a red herring. I don't believe people here in the UK really care. They heard something. Saw some documentary or something. But whatever I say will be used against me.

You guys are my solitude that I'm not alone with my racial awareness and we are a most worthwhile Spiritualist group.

 

[RavenSky666]

I get that this is a group effort, but I'm making an attempt to at least keep up with the average here. I'm not sure on what that is, but I see one user post that he's done 9 RTRs per day, another does 12 RTRs, you know how many I do? Two. Those are pussy numbers for someone who's done this for a long time, losing his way every now and again only to come back weaker than when he started.

The longer I've been an SS, the more that's expected from me, so why not aim for such an extreme number?

You are doing the best for you and that is all that matters. There is no need to try and do too much As Hoodedcobra said in the race awakening post, spamming isn't always the way. It is probably more important how much energy you raise for your Rtrs rather than the quantity that you do. I think doing 3 or 4 really amped up rtrs is probably 100% more effective than doing 18 non amped up rtrs. I did 18 to see if I could do it. I always try to outdo myself to see what my limit is. This is not always a good thing. but I have a need to outdo myself and challenge myself to prove to myself what my limit is and try to challenge it. But one can get caught up on that and it can be unhealthy and dangerous. I say this from experience. Keep doing what you do, you are doing great and your efforts are important. we are all in this together! you are doing great.

 

[ShadowTheRaven]

You are constantly trying to be in war mode and being as hard on yourself as possible

Can you blame me? I mean, we are in the middle of war here, with another one looming on the horizon if the jews keep this up.

What you should do is to stay at the number you are at, and work at your sense of self-worth so you can feel fine with yourself without needing to break your bones every couple weeks.

Already taken care of. I know I matter....somewhat. I just don't want to be tossed in the garbage after all this in favor of the SS that "broke their bones" and contributed a fuckton more than I did. 1-3 RTRs per day? As I said, pussy numbers for someone who has done this a long time. I try to do more, but I exhaust myself in the process. I have no idea how people can do 9-12 per day, keep a full time job, and pay bills.

I just don't want my nightmares to come true.

 

[RavenSky666]

You guys are my solitude that I'm not alone with my racial awareness and we are a most worthwhile Spiritualist group.

This is one of the many reasons why I love our group so much. NONE of us are truly alone, we have Father Satan, and the Gods and we have each other. We are a family. we can break away from the rest of the world and find comfort, knowledge, advice, friendship, and understanding here amongst our own. amongst our SS brethren and sistren. we are united by our true satanic blood, by Father Satan and the Gods. We have each other's backs. as Father Satan and the Gods have ours. And our family keeps growing in numbers as we keep growing in strength and understanding within ourselves.

I have been feeling a certain way and I just want to share my thoughts.
The world may look like it's going to shit. But it is only appearing this way because the jewish filth is trying to pull out every card they have trying to stop us because we are a threat to them more and more, and they are becoming exposed over and over. everything they do, it is falling to pieces before their eyes and they are trying to cause unrest and disruptions from every direction. Their attacks are stronger because they are afraid so they keep trying to throw out negative thoughts and feelings onto us, but as long as we keep our eyes away from their distractions and instead keep them on what the Gods have set before us to do, the rituals and the rtrs, and as long and we keep our hearts and minds strong with Father Satan's energy and guidance We can see that these things going on they are a bi product of the enemy losing this battle. don't be discouraged, and don't be too hard on yourself, and do not over do yourself, All that matters is that we are doing something to fight back. I want you to know you are stronger and better than you have ever been before and you will continue to grow and advance. Don't get discouraged from these enemy attacks the sadness, depression, pain, and anger. these are feelings that they wish to stir up inside of us so we lose focus. Void meditation is helping me to ignore their mental attacks. What shael said down below here is true

Because that's exactly why you keep fucking up and losing your way. You are constantly trying to be in war mode and being as hard on yourself as possible, then it burns you out, you quit, you come back weaker than before, get pissed at yourself, and the cycle repeats.

we all have to remember not to burn ourselves out! It is unhealthy and we must take care of ourselves, do something fun, lighten up for a bit, we are humans not machines. and it is OK to not think of war for a short moment, it is OK to skim down a little bit on some of our spiritual warfare to relax and try to recharge. it is OK to relax and feel happy and good about what progress we have made and to reward yourself with something truly fun and enjoyable to do. Then when you get back into war mode you will feel stronger and better. Much love to you all! and remember to take care of yourselves!!

 

[Aquarius]

It's just that I cannot talk about a lot of things because my interest in Spiritual Satanism, SS. Are things that I need to keep to myself at this moment in time.

True, I have nothing to say to people because my interests are what everybody labels as Nazi, racist, strange, delusional ecc lol
People are also very shallow, they care more about their social media then actually talking, they're in the jewtrix, like borgs.

If you've looked into that Alexander Technique you will notice how people used to sit and stand a lot straighter than they do today.

All of that social media is making people permanently be hunched over which will cause them muscular skeletal problems down the line.

How are you getting on with it. It's like the 'mindfulness' meditation where you're always aware of how you're using yourself and planning how you will carry out your next move.

I read that the Alexander Technique is old fashioned for today. And it's true life is so much faster now. I find it particularly difficult in supermarkets because of trolleys, baskets and people moving past. With the Alexander Technique a person uses themselves as nature intended and doesn't crane down from the waist. I feel like I cannot squat down because of people that aren't looking out for me and don't expect a person to move like that. So I find myself annoyed because for my wellbeing I cannot go down because I'm aware the people just keep coming at you while you're squatting down to the low stuff.

And yes back to social media. I hope it can become freer and less censored. I only use it to look but don't post because getting involved there takes too much time. And also I have to self censor because I'm scared of trouble.

You see I've lost a job because I was telling people about South Africa and the institutional racial discrimination happening there.

Strange thing is. And this blows my mind. I never would have guessed the people that it came from.

There were people that didn't like me and that was out in the open with them. And then there were the friendly ones that were happy to talk.

I was invited in for a disciplinary because I had a couple colleague complaints and grievances against me.

Shock, horror it was the friendly ones. They all gossiped and conspired together and the names of the complainants and their grievances were read out to me.

They had checked me out on facebook and taken screen shots. Not anything malicious just the truth. A person cannot even talk the truth nowadays. The sheeple have outdone the sheep!

You see by censoring the discussion on race a person self censors thinking about it. And if no one thinks it they will not be able to comprehend it exists. Brutal hitting a person with their livelihood. Now I close up with anyone bringing up the racial problems of South Africa.

I see it as a red herring. I don't believe people here in the UK really care. They heard something. Saw some documentary or something. But whatever I say will be used against me.

You guys are my solitude that I'm not alone with my racial awareness and we are a most worthwhile Spiritualist group.

I still haven't looked at it because I had trouble fitting it in my day, but I do understand what you mean. If you wanna squat free of prejudice you should go in Russia

 

[ShadowTheRaven]

we all have to remember not to burn ourselves out! It is unhealthy and we must take care of ourselves, do something fun, lighten up for a bit, we are humans not machines. and it is OK to not think of war for a short moment, it is OK to skim down a little bit on some of our spiritual warfare to relax and try to recharge. it is OK to relax and feel happy and good about what progress we have made and to reward yourself with something truly fun and enjoyable to do. Then when you get back into war mode you will feel stronger and better. Much love to you all! and remember to take care of yourselves!!

I'm sure you meant to reply to me, not Shael.

I've already received the "You're not a robot" speech from someone else. How could I not think about war when white people are expected to go extinct in 40 to 60 years? How could I not think about war when World War III or the Second American Civil War is constantly threatened? How could I not think about war when every government in North America and Europe is accelerating our racial destruction? How could I not think about war when the jew preaches to their dumbfuck audiences that all white people must die, nationalism must be wiped out, diversity is a strength, and all this other bullshit that we hear on the news?

This is why my mind is always on war, because this isn't a hobby. This is a serious fucking problem that I have to face, and I know this is a group effort and all but the faster we finish this war, the better.

 

[ShadowTheRaven]

I still haven't looked at it because I had trouble fitting it in my day, but I do understand what you mean. If you wanna squat free of prejudice you should go in Russia

Russia isn't very friendly with National Socialist ideals, try Ukraine. Hell, join the Azov Battalion, they have a lot of NS in there.

 

[Shael]

I just don't want to be tossed in the garbage after all this in favor of the SS that "broke their bones" and contributed a fuckton more than I did. 1-3 RTRs per day? As I said, pussy numbers for someone who has done this a long time. I try to do more, but I exhaust myself in the process. I have no idea how people can do 9-12 per day, keep a full time job, and pay bills.

I just don't want my nightmares to come true.

I understand that, but you need to realize that nothing like that could ever happen. Try to understand Satan and the Gods on a more deep level, and it'll become very clear that they would never toss away anyone because they didnt do as many RTRs as someone else. Most people who do that many RTRs do not have a full-time job, and are in some way or another in a situation where they have more time.

If the Gods cared only about "results" and "efficiency", like some purely-logical machine, then they wouldnt even bother to waste a single second on any of us here. The reason that they help us is because of the love their feel for their creation. They want us to advance and become Gods like them, even though this is definitely NOT the most "efficient" thing to do from a logical standpoint. If all they cared about was gaining more power, then I'm sure there are thousands of other ways to strengthen their ranks that are more effective than this.

Knowing this, it should be very obvious also that they do not "throw away" SS who do less than 9 RTRs a day. They help us here out of love, so all you have to do to keep that love is to show yourself determined in advancing yourself and following their path. You don't have to constantly exhaust yourself and burn yourself out.

 

[ShadowTheRaven]

If the Gods cared only about "results" and "efficiency", like some purely-logical machine, then they wouldnt even bother to waste a single second on any of us here. The reason that they help us is because of the love their feel for their creation. They want us to advance and become Gods like them, even though this is definitely NOT the most "efficient" thing to do from a logical standpoint. If all they cared about was gaining more power, then I'm sure there are thousands of other ways to strengthen their ranks that are more effective than this.

Knowing this, it should be very obvious also that they do not "throw away" SS who do less than 9 RTRs a day. They help us here out of love, so all you have to do to keep that love is to show yourself determined in advancing yourself and following their path. You don't have to constantly exhaust yourself and burn yourself out.

So I guess me having the desire for efficiency and being results-oriented all these years is a waste of time? Because I have 60 years left to live (I'm 23, my family tends to die in their mid-to-late 80s) if I'm not murdered by then to achieve Godhood. I have this sense of urgency because America is being quickly turned into a communist shithole, and I'm unfortunate enough to be right in the middle of it.

Not only that but white people are going extinct and as soon as non-whites become the majority, they will seize power, and lo and behold we have a new South Africa: Where whites are not allowed to own land, have a job, or get an education. It's even more frightening when you realize that most of Europe is only 20 years behind, and what's Europe without Europeans? It'd be like Turkey, or Sub Saharan Africa where they can't go 20 years without a genocide. Hutu on Tutsi in Rwanda, Black on White in South Africa and Rhodesia, Arab militias killing the Darfurs in Sudan, coming soon to what's left of Western Civilization. After all's said and done, the history books will be rewritten to depict a world in which we never existed in the first place.

Even if the Gods aren't vengeful and demanding as I've thought them to be, I still have to put in 220% to save my race, and take matters into my hands even if this is a group project.

 

[Shael]

So I guess me having the desire for efficiency and being results-oriented all these years is a waste of time?

If you control and harness it healthily, it's a great thing. But if you overdo it and let it constantly harm yourself, then it's not just a waste of time but actually something that will actively impede your progress and advancement.

 

[Aquarius]

If the Gods cared only about "results" and "efficiency", like some purely-logical machine, then they wouldnt even bother to waste a single second on any of us here. The reason that they help us is because of the love their feel for their creation. They want us to advance and become Gods like them, even though this is definitely NOT the most "efficient" thing to do from a logical standpoint. If all they cared about was gaining more power, then I'm sure there are thousands of other ways to strengthen their ranks that are more effective than this.

Knowing this, it should be very obvious also that they do not "throw away" SS who do less than 9 RTRs a day. They help us here out of love, so all you have to do to keep that love is to show yourself determined in advancing yourself and following their path. You don't have to constantly exhaust yourself and burn yourself out.

So I guess me having the desire for efficiency and being results-oriented all these years is a waste of time? Because I have 60 years left to live (I'm 23, my family tends to die in their mid-to-late 80s) if I'm not murdered by then to achieve Godhood. I have this sense of urgency because America is being quickly turned into a communist shithole, and I'm unfortunate enough to be right in the middle of it.

Not only that but white people are going extinct and as soon as non-whites become the majority, they will seize power, and lo and behold we have a new South Africa: Where whites are not allowed to own land, have a job, or get an education. It's even more frightening when you realize that most of Europe is only 20 years behind, and what's Europe without Europeans? It'd be like Turkey, or Sub Saharan Africa where they can't go 20 years without a genocide. Hutu on Tutsi in Rwanda, Black on White in South Africa and Rhodesia, Arab militias killing the Darfurs in Sudan, coming soon to what's left of Western Civilization. After all's said and done, the history books will be rewritten to depict a world in which we never existed in the first place.

Even if the Gods aren't vengeful and demanding as I've thought them to be, I still have to put in 220% to save my race, and take matters into my hands even if this is a group project.

No it's not a waste of time for you to try and be efficient, but you're not really efficient. Let's say you do 12 rtrs one day because your're motivated, but normally you do 4, the next day since you will feel burned out you just do 2, that's effective but not efficient. Choosing to have a job that makes you work shitty hours is effective but not efficient in getting you money, so you're either stuck for the next 40 years doing shit jobs or sacrifice a couple years and more effort in getting a degree that is gonna give you a better job that gives you more freedom to pursue yourself and your goals, that is efficient and not mediocre. If you don't want to get genocided by angry blacks just go live somewhere where blacks are a minority, the USA is as big as Europe, there must be a place where there's a little amount of blacks, and even then, I doubt you would get genocided by them lol.

 

[ShadowTheRaven]

Choosing to have a job that makes you work shitty hours is effective but not efficient in getting you money, so you're either stuck for the next 40 years doing shit jobs or sacrifice a couple years and more effort in getting a degree that is gonna give you a better job that gives you more freedom to pursue yourself and your goals, that is efficient and not mediocre. If you don't want to get genocided by angry blacks just go live somewhere where blacks are a minority, the USA is as big as Europe, there must be a place where there's a little amount of blacks, and even then, I doubt you would get genocided by them lol.

If I went to Europe, I'm just going to find more blacks, and even though there are a quarter as many as in the US, they're 4x more feral. Plus, no gun to protect myself.

Also I'm going to flight school so I already have something I can do as a career. I sit in a cockpit for 14 hours, and planes pretty much fly themselves. I do this for 40 years....and then I die. But $100,000 a year sounds pretty damn good yeah?

 

[Aquarius]

Choosing to have a job that makes you work shitty hours is effective but not efficient in getting you money, so you're either stuck for the next 40 years doing shit jobs or sacrifice a couple years and more effort in getting a degree that is gonna give you a better job that gives you more freedom to pursue yourself and your goals, that is efficient and not mediocre. If you don't want to get genocided by angry blacks just go live somewhere where blacks are a minority, the USA is as big as Europe, there must be a place where there's a little amount of blacks, and even then, I doubt you would get genocided by them lol.

If I went to Europe, I'm just going to find more blacks, and even though there are a quarter as many as in the US, they're 4x more feral. Plus, no gun to protect myself.

Also I'm going to flight school so I already have something I can do as a career. I sit in a cockpit for 14 hours, and planes pretty much fly themselves. I do this for 40 years....and then I die. But $100,000 a year sounds pretty damn good yeah?

Flight school is pretty dope. But when I was informing myself about it I heard that new pilots are very under payed, and won't have it easy. But nothing you can fix with workings. When I was seeing if becoming a pilot was for me I knew I would always be away from my family and advancing spiritually would be more difficult, so that was a big no for me.

 

[ShadowTheRaven]

Flight school is pretty dope. But when I was informing myself about it I heard that new pilots are very under payed, and won't have it easy. But nothing you can fix with workings. When I was seeing if becoming a pilot was for me I knew I would always be away from my family and advancing spiritually would be more difficult, so that was a big no for me.

Underpaid perhaps, but it's something I can do for the rest of my life. I won't love it, I certainly won't hate it, all i want is a job that i don't mind doing for 40 years and then I die. I'm well aware that payment is based on experience so give me a few years as a first officer, I'll work my way up to being a Captain.

Captain Shadow...I like it.

 

[Azoun]

This is one of my flaws. I am very emotional to begin with and take things deeply to heart...

I am glad you made this because I find most of what you said very relatable about being emotional, caring about justice, and the following guilt/regret from being unable to control myself during heated moments.

I don't want to hijack this thread but I am wondering if people could elaborate more on using the air element to control emotions. I have a fire sun/water moon and lean towards those two elements but have tried invoking air a few times around 15 years ago.

Right now I am like a sponge and while it is very useful to pickup what others are feeling to understand them I tend to overreact and get very aggressive even to my wife over stupid arguments. I remember talking to Cobra in an email once where he said "Are you familiar with computer firewalls? You need a sort of said mental firewall, to avoid negativity from others." yet I haven't been able to figure out how to do that.