ramses13th
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Come to think of it, a memory struck me.
A few years ago before I was a SS, I was practicing an art called Cardistry, I was practicing it restlessly, became the best at it in my entire city despite my young age.
Mastering skill after skill, being hungry chasing the skill and the perfection of it.
But I was actually enjoying the process a lot, I was enjoying setting this one goal in front of me and getting better and better, looking for my mistakes and ways to improve while I was practicing. I was practicing one skill that would've took me around 1-2 months to master for atleast 6-7 hours a day.
I don't need to go to that extreme right now but I must remember to lose myself in the process, in a good way.
And you know, I'm not even mad I dedicated 6 years ago and made such small progress. I can feel energy, I can feel my chakras, I have a clear mind.. These 6 years since I was 15 helped me absorb and embody a bit of what it means to be a satanist, it helped me form a satanic mindset and escape from the negative. I find this mindset precious, don't be hard on yourself if your progress doesn't look how you expect it to be, for some it might be a linear curve, for some it might be up and lows until they can hold onto that curve.
And after so many centuries of programming and curses upon the human soul, if you manage to truly start, you won. In these 6 Years, there is one thing I've kept in my heart and never let it go. The Gods.
They answered my questions every time, they showed me the path every time, I just had to fight for it.
This is still wisdom I recently received, even though it was built on years of study and progress as a human, I must still meditate on it.
A few years ago before I was a SS, I was practicing an art called Cardistry, I was practicing it restlessly, became the best at it in my entire city despite my young age.
Mastering skill after skill, being hungry chasing the skill and the perfection of it.
But I was actually enjoying the process a lot, I was enjoying setting this one goal in front of me and getting better and better, looking for my mistakes and ways to improve while I was practicing. I was practicing one skill that would've took me around 1-2 months to master for atleast 6-7 hours a day.
I don't need to go to that extreme right now but I must remember to lose myself in the process, in a good way.
And you know, I'm not even mad I dedicated 6 years ago and made such small progress. I can feel energy, I can feel my chakras, I have a clear mind.. These 6 years since I was 15 helped me absorb and embody a bit of what it means to be a satanist, it helped me form a satanic mindset and escape from the negative. I find this mindset precious, don't be hard on yourself if your progress doesn't look how you expect it to be, for some it might be a linear curve, for some it might be up and lows until they can hold onto that curve.
And after so many centuries of programming and curses upon the human soul, if you manage to truly start, you won. In these 6 Years, there is one thing I've kept in my heart and never let it go. The Gods.
They answered my questions every time, they showed me the path every time, I just had to fight for it.
This is still wisdom I recently received, even though it was built on years of study and progress as a human, I must still meditate on it.
