Shadiel said:
Hi everyone, I was hesitant to ask this because I was a bit embarrassed, but finally decided to do it. About a year ago I discovered jos, I have always had a certain inclination towards demons, Egyptian culture, and I never truly believed the "evil" that the church attributes to Satan and his demons. Finding out about him and reading the information about him at first gave me a feeling of ... happiness that I can't describe.
Welcome to the forums. It is good that you created this thread. There is no need to feel embarrassed at all. Everyone comes to Satan at a different level of power, understanding, and potential. What may take person a 5 minutes to master may take person b 5 years and vice versa. Never be afraid to ask questions in spiritual Satanism. There are no "stupid" or "off-limit" questions. Spiritual Satanism is humanities true and only religion and it encourages free thought and learning. You will NEVER be shouted down or hated for not knowing something! Please ask questions! We(Spiritual Satanists) are happy to help a fellow family member in their persuit of knowledge!
Shadiel said:
Lately these days I have had a single thought in my head, I want to do the dedication ritual. But I don't know for what reason every time I am determined to do it, doubts begin to arise in me.
Something important you should know is that the enemy controls through fear. Fear is spread throughout their Buy-Bull(Bible but Buy-Bull as in Buy-Bullshit haha) and is used as a means of control. You are not a bad person for having doubts and nobody will criticize you for them. Fear is a means of control for the enemy.
Shadiel said:
It must be because of that damn Christian programming, I no longer believe in that garbage, nor in that false god, that is why I want to ask you, will so many doubts be dispelled when I dedicate myself?
Dedication is not a "magic pill" that will cure all of your doubts and fears. Dedication is you joining Satans family and you will be protected. I remember when I was new I was very scared to dedicate. I was very worried that I might be making the wrong choice and that MAYBE I was wrong. After readining through https://www.exposingchristianity.com/ a couple of times I was convinced 100% that christianity was completely false and the entities associated with it are nafarious.
Your doubts may be coming from enemy influence but they may also be deep seated doubts from your past. Christianity indoctrinates people while they are young. This indoctrination often lasts a lifetime. Here is a video I would recommend watching as it explains how christianity brainwashes people in a short animated video.
...but intelligent people believe in God
I would also recommend reading through ExposingChristianity until you are 100% sure that Christianity is wrong and evil. If even after reading through it all you still have doubts I would advise you to meditate on Satans sigil and call out to him. Be completely honest with him and straightforward to him about your intentions. That you want to dedicate but you're scared and have doubts or whatever the full situation is.
Shadiel said:
Will I be worthy enough for Father Satan and his demons to help me? And will I be able to talk to them and let them be my teachers and guides?
You are worthy, do not worry. The fact that you have been studying Satanism for a year and have been trying to dedicate is proof enough that you are worthy. Do not worry. Satan and his demons help those who are new but eventually you are expected to become independent. Independence is gained through spiritual advancement. Satan and his Gods don't want people grovling at their feet asking for healing like jewsus does. Satan and his Gods want people to become Spiritually, Physically, and Mentally advanced enough to heal themselves.
As for your questions about talking to them. Once you dedicate you will always be able to talk to them. You may not be able to hear them at first but they can hear you. The reason for this is because you may not be spiritually advanced enough to hear them. You would need to advance signifigantly to achieve reliable communication with Satan and his Gods. Humanity has been cursed for so long so advancing spiritually is not going to come as quickly as it did in say, ancient egypt.
Shadiel said:
Seriously, I want to advance spiritually, I am already tired of so many lies of Christianity, I know that all this is said in the jos but it is that with 22 years I have gone through some things for which it is already a bit difficult for me to fully trust others, but for some reason I think this is the right thing to do. Please clarify these doubts for me to see if I can overcome this insecurity. Thank you very much.
As I said before I would recommend reading through ExposingChristianity and watching the video I sent you. If those things don't help with your doubts then you should meditate on Satans sigil and speak to him. Be honest to him about your intentions and your struggles and I am sure he will help you.