Father Satan

[Viego]

I was thinking about Father Satan and I've lately contacted him a few times, I have completely lost touch with what I am, I have not meditated anymore and I been and still am trough tough shit, I'm not comparing but fuck me dude all of my life.

Anyways , I've admitted responsibility that my own action took me in the wrong place, even if there's other things as play as the enemies, bad luck etc..

I've admitted I am lost , thing which I hate saying but no point in avoiding the truth.

I was laying in bed contacting him trough his Sigil and invocation by repeating it into my mind for 4-7 times and focusing on his Sigil. I am what I am for long time, longer then I might even know myself to be honest. After a while like out of nowhere from my back I felt something coming like very fast it felt like I have been grabbed but in a good way as in that feeling of a good hug ,compassionate one but I got scared as in not afraid but it was shocking it happened that unexpectedly ,feeling was nice. Then today I remembered I've also had a dream where I've first meet Father Satan in this life , I don't quite remember what we're saying but of course some conversations are private.

I don't know.. I am stuck in a 9-5 job which I hate doing, I do it from the principle as everyone needs to contribute in this world or as in a need to survival [Saturn].
Yea , the thing is I've used to meditate and live life long scale now I have become this worthless creature , I haven't meditated in years, I am perma depressed , I am looking at my own words and I can't believe how "weak" I have become for not meditating and yes, sure , I know I can always get back into it but I think I've lost myself, I have not lost the faith in Father Satan and the God's I think if that would have ever happened I wouldn't had meet them not only in this life but yes.

I am sorry but English is not my main language. What I want to say is that a lot of events have happened in my life which kind of crippled me , most psychological I would say.

Things happened and I know that's life for everyone but fuck me dude I am just looking at the sky and I am like: Ok...???

I know it's just a matter of time and even if I were to die a nobody in this lifetime I know for 100% believe it or not that I will be back and still work until the end for immortality but then I am saying that and it's like whining about life when I knew and use the universal law of obtaining whatever but I think this has become a problem of a "self" then the outer world or let's even better call it "conscious" It's more internal on a subconscious level.

I don't know what to do. One thing is for sure I will try speak to Father Satan and the God's , I am very disappointed of myself as how weak I've became. I know I can and I did , many times, that's not like I am waiting anyone to believe me or send me their hope , so to do things , I can but I am like... what for ? I mean sure, I want to be happy and at peace but how can I in such uhm yea. Any thoughts ?

 

[Padme Hansol]

First of all, you are not weak. You are a human like all of us and feeling lost is completely normal. I want you to understand that this feelings are not things that define your entire life. You are powerful cause you find the Father Satan. You are powerful cause you can see the through the dirty jobs of Jews.
You are powerful because of who you are.
We are always with you, Satan is always with you.
In this times you can try to connect with Astarte as well, she is emotinoally supportive and know how to teach you the right things.
And ofc connect with your Guardian Demon/ess.
Please do not ever say that you are weak cause i know you are not, none of us that can see the truth are.
Stay with Satan my Brother/Sister.

 

[Yzaurqp]

Hey, just what I read this small part of your life. And I get impressed about your assumption. I am not that advanced in that, but I can recognize that I experienced the same feelings as you a few days ago.

And I want to try to help you somehow, because I know that you are not lost and Satan its near you all the time. We all experience these emotions at some point due to neglect of daily rituals an meditation, focusing more on the material evolution (money, the unknownledgeable humanity way to live this life and after to die), and avoiding the spiritual one (the priority one).

You have to focus more on yourself, you have to avoid what its around you for a while. Void meditation helps a lot (same in my situation), when there is probably only chaos in your head and you feel lost and lonely. Take 5/10 minutes for your time and start concentrated at you, put the chaos on 'mute mode' . But we, as you know, are used to embracing the chaos, and making shine through us. Remember who you really are! Try to represent only love, and you will attract only love. Whatever you transmit, you will attract! For exemple ( if you are thinking that you are lost, you will have the feeling that you are lost) everything we are creating around us and we are thinking its just our consciousness . Thoughts and feeling are not facts, I can assure you. Remember, everything is transmitted through vibration, as we are 'energy', we must not forget the law of the universe, whatever it may be. Otherwise we are gonna be in this situation as you, as me..
If what I wrote here its helping you, send me an email, and I'll try me best for you!

 

[Crystal Lake]

Relax. Don't put too much pressure on yourself. You need to understand your true feelings and reconcile with yourself.

 

[Viego]

Hey, just what I read this small part of your life. And I get impressed about your assumption. I am not that advanced in that, but I can recognize that I experienced the same feelings as you a few days ago.

And I want to try to help you somehow, because I know that you are not lost and Satan its near you all the time. We all experience these emotions at some point due to neglect of daily rituals an meditation, focusing more on the material evolution (money, the unknownledgeable humanity way to live this life and after to die), and avoiding the spiritual one (the priority one).

You have to focus more on yourself, you have to avoid what its around you for a while. Void meditation helps a lot (same in my situation), when there is probably only chaos in your head and you feel lost and lonely. Take 5/10 minutes for your time and start concentrated at you, put the chaos on 'mute mode' . But we, as you know, are used to embracing the chaos, and making shine through us. Remember who you really are! Try to represent only love, and you will attract only love. Whatever you transmit, you will attract! For exemple ( if you are thinking that you are lost, you will have the feeling that you are lost) everything we are creating around us and we are thinking its just our consciousness . Thoughts and feeling are not facts, I can assure you. Remember, everything is transmitted through vibration, as we are 'energy', we must not forget the law of the universe, whatever it may be. Otherwise we are gonna be in this situation as you, as me..
If what I wrote here its helping you, send me an email, and I'll try me best for you!

We can talk here. I get what you are saying and you are right and thank you for your time.
The thing is that I know what are you saying but that dose not mean that I can stop my feelings of many things [despair,hate,melancholy] and some other.
Indeed we attract what we feel and mostly what we think including , It's easy for me to swap the energies as in making things go my way by just affirming something like " which each of my breath I inspire the energy of prosperity and abundance which offers me always extreme success in all matter that I do " but this is shorter in my native language and more understandable , you have to truly understand what are you saying , even if it's something "big" or "small" it's all up to each individual as per their how I call it "codex" in this universe.

Okay , fair enough , indeed. I have stopped meditating and I knew about this effect but it seems as I forgotten about it then experience it in my own blood and flesh and soul.

Indeed living up to the materialistic life is not a way to live but my point is that I think I should use my so called power as of our one and each of us and use my aura to attract money , thing he is that I would love to live without having to work a job and have full time and intimacy to just meditate, I think when I use magik to gain money I should take in consideration this thought that I just said now. Ok , understanding that meditation and spirituality is obviously more important as per my own astrology chart and not only that but things even higher then our capacity to maybe ever comprehend what the heck are we and how truly majestic this universe is.

I was thinking that If I focus spirituality to attract money I might release myself of this useless job which takes my time and many other things. Now I am not saying I will just sit but I will do my own businesses as I always wanted to do. But main thing is to gain the time which if I would have money I would have time. I do not say that I need 500m dollars now to finish MO but what I am sayin is that something enough to make me safe enough and sure that I can wake tomorrow morning at whatever time I wish and be myself and maybe even just myself as I could have notice across the time this life as a SS is a very private and people will judge you even your own family it happened to me, I haven't said anything about what I am or why or how or whatever just a very few rare people which turned out that most of them were a piece of fucking shit , excuse my language.

And another thing that I've wanted to mention is that you say that and we know that as been true but then when life hits hard it can fuck you up so much that you might even forget about your own self or at least circle some of your emotions or even things in your mind ,everything is just.. it's not anymore a matter of the chaos, fuck chaos, chaos is summer bro , now it became more as a existential crisis where you've just sitting there watching in the void maybe even very relaxed like you're sitting in the most depth's of the universe anyways back to it.

I am not here to waste anyone of their time , whoever whishes to read then reads , whoever chooses to believe then that's up to them.

In regard to Love, it seems all fake, mostly when I use my aura or even direct energy into someone, it's boring after you get everything and it looks very artificial even if it's real life, real flesh , it feels more real and nice to be in a lucid dream then reallity honestly , that boring of a life I have but at least I kinda discovered more of myself and of myself but in the same time i kinda lost myself ?

 

[Viego]

Another thing I've wanted to add is that I didn't give a fuck I have been judged even by my own family , fuck them. I love them, I understand how they are and why ,I care about them but I hated when I have been kind of lets say told off in a bad way and unwillingly to submit to their Christianity they mostly know what I am because they discovered my candles , my rozari ,pendul and some other occult stuff so they straight up assumed that I am a Satanist, but they are not the point I just wanted to add this one.

 

[Viego]

It's started to get all to me now. In a good way , I understand what I must do now.

 

[Blitzkreig [JG]]

We can talk here. I get what you are saying and you are right and thank you for your time.
The thing is that I know what are you saying but that dose not mean that I can stop my feelings of many things [despair,hate,melancholy] and some other.
Indeed we attract what we feel and mostly what we think including , It's easy for me to swap the energies as in making things go my way by just affirming something like " which each of my breath I inspire the energy of prosperity and abundance which offers me always extreme success in all matter that I do " but this is shorter in my native language and more understandable , you have to truly understand what are you saying , even if it's something "big" or "small" it's all up to each individual as per their how I call it "codex" in this universe.

Okay , fair enough , indeed. I have stopped meditating and I knew about this effect but it seems as I forgotten about it then experience it in my own blood and flesh and soul.

Indeed living up to the materialistic life is not a way to live but my point is that I think I should use my so called power as of our one and each of us and use my aura to attract money , thing he is that I would love to live without having to work a job and have full time and intimacy to just meditate, I think when I use magik to gain money I should take in consideration this thought that I just said now. Ok , understanding that meditation and spirituality is obviously more important as per my own astrology chart and not only that but things even higher then our capacity to maybe ever comprehend what the heck are we and how truly majestic this universe is.

I was thinking that If I focus spirituality to attract money I might release myself of this useless job which takes my time and many other things. Now I am not saying I will just sit but I will do my own businesses as I always wanted to do. But main thing is to gain the time which if I would have money I would have time. I do not say that I need 500m dollars now to finish MO but what I am sayin is that something enough to make me safe enough and sure that I can wake tomorrow morning at whatever time I wish and be myself and maybe even just myself as I could have notice across the time this life as a SS is a very private and people will judge you even your own family it happened to me, I haven't said anything about what I am or why or how or whatever just a very few rare people which turned out that most of them were a piece of fucking shit , excuse my language.

And another thing that I've wanted to mention is that you say that and we know that as been true but then when life hits hard it can fuck you up so much that you might even forget about your own self or at least circle some of your emotions or even things in your mind ,everything is just.. it's not anymore a matter of the chaos, fuck chaos, chaos is summer bro , now it became more as a existential crisis where you've just sitting there watching in the void maybe even very relaxed like you're sitting in the most depth's of the universe anyways back to it.

I am not here to waste anyone of their time , whoever whishes to read then reads , whoever chooses to believe then that's up to them.

In regard to Love, it seems all fake, mostly when I use my aura or even direct energy into someone, it's boring after you get everything and it looks very artificial even if it's real life, real flesh , it feels more real and nice to be in a lucid dream then reallity honestly , that boring of a life I have but at least I kinda discovered more of myself and of myself but in the same time i kinda lost myself ?

Love is not fake, although it may feel so if you have gone through troubles in that area, or if you are not sensitive to it, etc. Our perception of love is supposed to advance like all other things. Look at the exalted sign of Venus and you will see it is in Pisces, which is a sign of high sensitivity and dreaminess, also higher levels of purity. This shows that the natural state of love is something that should be peaceful and calming to us, and make us happy and feel good. Look at other runes like Wunjo, Gebo, and Berkano as well for other insight on this area of human connection.

Regarding your concerns of free time, this is certainly valid. Please read this topic: https://ancient-forums.com/index.ph...itations-gaining-free-time.78950/#post-395481