awatters87
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AND if a demon did choose a human would he be angry if that person was not being good to themself? and like a parent who punishes there child when they do wrong, do the same to them? When I was a teenager i once heard a name: "beelzebub". i dont know why but for some reason that name has resonated within me for years, but i never thought to much of it. but there were two instances where i think he may have came to me, and oddly enough they were at times when i was indeed not standing up for myself. the first was years ago. where i was tied into a relationship with a woman that looking back i can now see it was no productive nor healthy at all. one night when i was alone at home i was resting on the couch. and went into a kind of twighlighted sleep. then the whole room covered in black and i felt as though i were smothered. at one point i feel as though i passed out and when i woke up it was all gone. years later i moved to an apartment and was involved with another that yet again was not good. When i slept i woke up and was somehow in the living room on the floor. some would say it was a dream but i tell you i was awake. unless somehow my astral spirit was seperated from my body. i was on the floor and couldnt move. i was pinned down, memories of the first event came to me and i decided this time i would fight it. with every ounce of my strength i attempted to get up but all i could do was turn over. then i saw him. all the lights were off. it was pitch black in the lving room, but i could still make out a figure on top of my loveseat staring down at me, the one thing i strongly remember is his eyes. which were somehow amazing, almost like they were greyish but everything was so dark. and his form was odd. i could never quite describe to the few people i told he looked like but on the Jos website when i saw the first sigil for beelzebub i realized that the form i saw was almost identical to the form of that sigil. i dont quite remember everything that was said to me. and i didnt hear it with words. it was like the words were coming to me in my head but i knew they were not mine. i remember him telling me he followed me from my house on 4th street (the location of the first event) and thats when i believe i heard him tell me his name was beelzebub. i dont remember anything else happening that night except i woke up on my bed in my bedroom. a few years later i was talking to my cousine kristen. she used to live with me when i was a child and this was at yet a different house that was also in philadelphia. she then commented that she used to think that house was haunted, i asked her why. both her and her sister moved into my bedroom when they came to live with us and i moved into the room with my older brother. she said that one night she woke up and was pinned to the bed, and couldnt move. and she looked over and saw this dark smaller figure dancing, this figures description resembled the figure i saw, then she also fell asleep and woke up with nothing there. this was before i told her of my experience at the apartment, so theres no way she could have been toying with me. if it is beelzebub who had been there with me all these years. why would he choose me? and for that matter do demons choose people? i havent been in a destructive relationship since that second event and since then have never experienced any events.
