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sinbad

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LMFAO, alright in all seriousness, is there anything besides void meditation to make my emotions less visible to others?

My ambitions require me to have a constant poker face, but I end up laughing/smiling at literally everything, because everybody treats me so well I can't hold in the smiles for very long, but it feels corny and goofbally af

I did multiple Sun squares in the past which exacerbated the visibility of my emotions to a very uncomfortable degree, and it feels as though I'm walking around naked and people are staring at me all the time, as though I have "nowhere to hide".
 
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Smiling is not a bad thing. It is beneficial for your and also it is good for the people around you. Don't take the false assumption that having constantly a poker face or serious face is something that gives you the look of an alpha male, this is all hollywood trash. Of course, all of this smiling and laughing at the right situations.
Anyway, you may want to use rune ISA, which "works to calm hysteria, hyperactivity and restlessness" if your really want to calm yourself more.
 
LMFAO, alright in all seriousness, is there anything besides void meditation to make my emotions less visible to others?

My ambitions require me to have a constant poker face, but I end up laughing/smiling at literally everything, because everybody treats me so well I can't hold in the smiles for very long, but it feels corny and goofbally af

I did multiple Sun squares in the past which exacerbated the visibility of my emotions to a very uncomfortable degree, and it feels as though I'm walking around naked and people are staring at me all the time, as though I have "nowhere to hide".

You could just do another planetary square to balance out your emotions a bit more if you feel these emotions are a bit too much... But if there is no issue and this is who you truly are it's best to embrace it.

Being a brooding mysterious person isn't some great thing. I spent a good part of my early life in this state.

It comes with some serious drawbacks, and will lead to serious issues with milestones in life and socializing if it is left unchecked, I was behind in some ways for awhile simply because I engaged way too much into this, it can harm a person if they are too withdrawn from life and socializing.

It's better to just be yourself, and let what is natural for you as a person come to you.

Best not to overthink this. Just be yourself.
 
I simply think you should accept your character for what it is. Being introverted is not always good, and you are lucky to have such an open character. I am telling you this as an introverted and shy person.
 
I was naturally stoic as a child but my hysterical mother guilt tripped me into being more expressive over the years because she thought I didn't love her.

Now it is a gut reflex to smile at everything, oft genuinely, but it is simultaneously so at odds with my nature that I genuinely want to stab my eyes out everytime it happens; compromising my inner sovereignty to appease others.

I was basically a mini Clint Eastwood, but I felt as though I had to be talkative and expressive so people can feel safe and that I am not dangerous.
I was worried about using the ISA rune, but what is a good number to use for the affirmations here?

Also, I was wondering how to be less empathetic in general?

I hate feeling vulnerable/exposed, at least to strangers. It's fine with close friends/family.

I got memed into worrying I was an evil person, but I literally have a heart of gold (which I just don't want anyone to know, because it is easily taken advantage of).

I learnt a lot of social skills from it, but I also wish I didn't care what other's thought of me to begin with and that they had no influence over my emotional world. I want to revert back to my old state with this new knowledge, but it feels like a monumental task at this point.
 

Al Jilwah: Chapter IV

"It is my desire that all my followers unite in a bond of unity, lest those who are without prevail against them." - Shaitan

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