Dearest Family of mine,
I have come today with some of my own research that I have conducted, and I wish to post the results here where all my family can learn from it.
In my many nights of research, I came across a sentence of a mage that had a crude idea, a concept, which I thought interesting and I started developing it. The sentence was 'and as our mind always works against us', seemingly meaningless, but I saught deeper. There after consulting psychology-texts, I came across something that went deeper than I thought.
Here it is.
The anti-will.
The anti-will is, as the name implies, the opposite of your will. The unconcious hatred towards anything you want conciously. This is also the reason why one should forget about the working for it to work, because the anti-will will neutralise the goal and stop it from working.
This anti-will is self-imposed, how ridiculous it may sound from the first sound of it. But when thinking about it mundanely, it's a gift.
When you were a child, do you remember that one toy you wanted. It wasn't a special toy, but you wanted it with your entire being, because you wanted to have it. Period.
But you didn't get it. You were dissapointed and it hurt excrusiatingly.
That's the point you started building anti-will. You started saying to yourself : I didn't want it anyway... and in time, you didn't want those things anyway. You started building a defensive mechanism that allowed you to believe you didn't want all that stuff you actually wanted, so when you don't get it, you won't be as dissapointed and broken. This is what stops you from being spoiled.
All fine and well in mundane life. But we are spiritual people, and here is when it comes to bite us in the ass.
When we Will something to pass, we also anti-will it. So that stops us from achieving our full potential effectiveness.
Simply realising this handicap is a step on the way to controlling it, but you should know the FEEL of anti-will.
I recommend you to invoke the anti-will within yourself to draw to the surface and then know how it feels so you can control and push it down when you're working on magick.
More questions may be sent to Omar_adam@...
Ave Satanas.
I have come today with some of my own research that I have conducted, and I wish to post the results here where all my family can learn from it.
In my many nights of research, I came across a sentence of a mage that had a crude idea, a concept, which I thought interesting and I started developing it. The sentence was 'and as our mind always works against us', seemingly meaningless, but I saught deeper. There after consulting psychology-texts, I came across something that went deeper than I thought.
Here it is.
The anti-will.
The anti-will is, as the name implies, the opposite of your will. The unconcious hatred towards anything you want conciously. This is also the reason why one should forget about the working for it to work, because the anti-will will neutralise the goal and stop it from working.
This anti-will is self-imposed, how ridiculous it may sound from the first sound of it. But when thinking about it mundanely, it's a gift.
When you were a child, do you remember that one toy you wanted. It wasn't a special toy, but you wanted it with your entire being, because you wanted to have it. Period.
But you didn't get it. You were dissapointed and it hurt excrusiatingly.
That's the point you started building anti-will. You started saying to yourself : I didn't want it anyway... and in time, you didn't want those things anyway. You started building a defensive mechanism that allowed you to believe you didn't want all that stuff you actually wanted, so when you don't get it, you won't be as dissapointed and broken. This is what stops you from being spoiled.
All fine and well in mundane life. But we are spiritual people, and here is when it comes to bite us in the ass.
When we Will something to pass, we also anti-will it. So that stops us from achieving our full potential effectiveness.
Simply realising this handicap is a step on the way to controlling it, but you should know the FEEL of anti-will.
I recommend you to invoke the anti-will within yourself to draw to the surface and then know how it feels so you can control and push it down when you're working on magick.
More questions may be sent to Omar_adam@...
Ave Satanas.
