In answering another post in the Yahoo! group "Advanced Meditations", I thought I would talk about my answer here in more detail.
The subject is how other beings will try to manipulate your thoughts, emotions, and trick you into thinking things that are not true.
I know that everyone of us here deals with this, consciously or not.
I wanted to bring this to light, shared from my own experience.
In the past two years, I have been troubled by a spirit, who would insert thoughts into my head.
At first, these thoughts were clearly his voice. But I did not pay attention and listened to those thoughts. I wasted a lot of money, time, and energy in listening to those thoughts. I was never brought to harm, but I have humiliated myself physically and sexually. (Yes, you read right: SEXUALLY.
I am lucky, I never caught anything, or got pregnant, but I believed at one point I was, even going in for xrays and tests. I got all the symptoms of pregnancy, including morning sickness, tenderness, and weight gain, except I had no baby inside me.)
This is what this spirit did. It is possible that the enemy can make you sick, tired, lazy, unmotivated. Most of the time, it is us, not any outside force.
But the possibility is there. Remember this, and fight it.
Later on, I started hearing thoughts in my own voice. I believed they came from me, but it was the spirit.
I can sometimes hear other people's thoughts, but when I did, and realized that it was the spirit.
He could mimic other people's energies, thoughts, and made me think it was them.
He made me paranoid or wary of people, thinking they were conspiring against me.
When in fact, it was him all along.
They are not always thoughts and words in my head, but emotions, a "knowingness" (intuition can even be played with), and they would be thrown against me like waves crashing against a harbor.
My dreams have differed. I thought that I could always trust my dreams. I have for most of my life. But since this spirit has come into my life, this is what has happened.
That same spirit formed my dreams, putting (mostly) false symbolic messages in there, misinforming me.
He would control everything from the landscape and the beings I would meet in my dreams.
He would stop me from astral travelling, cleaning my chakras, and harass me endlessly about everything and anything, mentally and spiritually. I doubted myself, my decisions, and others.
This happened everyday, if not every couple of hours, depending on what I was doing.
He has imitated angels and demons alike, and can imitate their energy for those (like myself) who don't know better. He has told me that he is half angel, half demon. Thus, he can imitate both perfectly to an extent.
For those who don't know better, or who have not been exposed to the True Gods and Demons of Hell and Duat, one can believe what they are first exposed to, even it is not truth.
I thought (before I came to Father) that I was dealing with certain demons and angels, when it was him all along.
He has imitated Michael, Raphael, Gabriel, Metatron, and other Demons.
I have been made to feel utter and endless despair, even contemplating suicide. I have considered it. This spirit has done this.
This spirit has revealed to me that he is only 2.5 Earth years old.
But also know, that demons born in Hell mature faster and differently then humans (obviously.) I understand Time moves differently in Hell.
It could be the case in many different realms.
Imagine, then, how an older spirit/being/ET can manipulate us.
I learned not to always listen immediately to my emotions, thoughts, or even intuition, but to reason with myself, rationalize, and to be logical.
COLD, HARD INTELLIGENCE won out over emotions and intuition every time. EVERY TIME.
This is how learned to overcome this harassment.
However, it was to my benefit: he would always tell me afterwards, in thoughts packages (which are not single words and sentences, like conversations, but all of that in one thought, sent to me, and I would understand immediately.) I believe that this Spirit was from Father, and whenever I learned the lesson I had to learn, the spirit would move onto something else, and so would it begin again.
Since I have dedicated myself to Father 3 weeks ago, my life has been more peaceful, calmer, and I have grown a great deal.
Since I have dedicated myself to Father, the attacks have stopped, but I am still tried and tested. Often. Daily.
Without him, I would not have learned what I learned.
These are things that can only come from experiences, and are not found in books.
Many people may not go through this with a demon/angel sent by Father. Or they may. You will never know.
The spirit in question is under the rule of Lord Enlil, and the spirit's father is directly under the rule of Lord Enlil.
Most times, when we are troubled and harassed psychically and spiritually, it will be xians, enemies of Father, and our own ego.
You know what helped me more then anything? My dedication to Father.
Because of free will, we have to ask for help before He and other Gods, Demons, and other helpful Beings can interfere for help.
This is often, but not always.
I asked for help from Father, that the truth may be shown to me, that I may stop being harassed and troubled so much.
What I learned is this demon only stopped harassing me when I learned the lesson that the demon was trying to impart, contemplated it, and figured out what I could do so I would not repeat the mistake.
Not every Demon will use this method of teaching you. Not everyone of you will be taught this by Demons, but by enemies of Father. Either way, you must KNOW yourself, your beliefs, and what you stand for.
Above all else, you must be strong in yourself and in Father.
I now know my bloodlines, my birthright, my heritage and inheritance.
I know my purposes here on this Earth. I have fulfilled one of them so far.
I know that I am made to fight in Father's army, both in this mortal guise, and when this mortal shell is no more, I know my place when I leave this world. As for my purpose after this Earth life, I know I will serve Father and fight in the battles to come.
I know that I belong to Father. I am His follower and childe.
Doing void meditation, clearing my chakras, bodies and aura, while also putting up a protective shield around me helped my as a neophyte in Satanism. (Or newbie. We all have to start somewhere.)
The lessons I have learned thus far, and have corrected (or in the process of correcting myself on:
1)spending money and being dependent on it for happiness;
2)overcoming unhealthy emotions like lust for others(I am married);
3)standing up for myself
4)to stop trying to conform to what society deems is acceptable;
5)using common sense;
6)to pursue the truth, and what will help me, instead of being discouraged at every little setback and obstacle;
7)overcoming drug addiction relaspe, and refusing to go back to it;
8)embracing what I am meant to be, instead of trying to be something else.
This sermon is long, but I hope I have been able to enlighten some facts and help you spiritually and mentally.
The demon asked me to put this sermon up.
I thank him, Father Satan, and Lord Enlil for teaching me these things.
Hail Father Enki! Hail Lord Enlil! Hail the True Gods!
The subject is how other beings will try to manipulate your thoughts, emotions, and trick you into thinking things that are not true.
I know that everyone of us here deals with this, consciously or not.
I wanted to bring this to light, shared from my own experience.
In the past two years, I have been troubled by a spirit, who would insert thoughts into my head.
At first, these thoughts were clearly his voice. But I did not pay attention and listened to those thoughts. I wasted a lot of money, time, and energy in listening to those thoughts. I was never brought to harm, but I have humiliated myself physically and sexually. (Yes, you read right: SEXUALLY.
I am lucky, I never caught anything, or got pregnant, but I believed at one point I was, even going in for xrays and tests. I got all the symptoms of pregnancy, including morning sickness, tenderness, and weight gain, except I had no baby inside me.)
This is what this spirit did. It is possible that the enemy can make you sick, tired, lazy, unmotivated. Most of the time, it is us, not any outside force.
But the possibility is there. Remember this, and fight it.
Later on, I started hearing thoughts in my own voice. I believed they came from me, but it was the spirit.
I can sometimes hear other people's thoughts, but when I did, and realized that it was the spirit.
He could mimic other people's energies, thoughts, and made me think it was them.
He made me paranoid or wary of people, thinking they were conspiring against me.
When in fact, it was him all along.
They are not always thoughts and words in my head, but emotions, a "knowingness" (intuition can even be played with), and they would be thrown against me like waves crashing against a harbor.
My dreams have differed. I thought that I could always trust my dreams. I have for most of my life. But since this spirit has come into my life, this is what has happened.
That same spirit formed my dreams, putting (mostly) false symbolic messages in there, misinforming me.
He would control everything from the landscape and the beings I would meet in my dreams.
He would stop me from astral travelling, cleaning my chakras, and harass me endlessly about everything and anything, mentally and spiritually. I doubted myself, my decisions, and others.
This happened everyday, if not every couple of hours, depending on what I was doing.
He has imitated angels and demons alike, and can imitate their energy for those (like myself) who don't know better. He has told me that he is half angel, half demon. Thus, he can imitate both perfectly to an extent.
For those who don't know better, or who have not been exposed to the True Gods and Demons of Hell and Duat, one can believe what they are first exposed to, even it is not truth.
I thought (before I came to Father) that I was dealing with certain demons and angels, when it was him all along.
He has imitated Michael, Raphael, Gabriel, Metatron, and other Demons.
I have been made to feel utter and endless despair, even contemplating suicide. I have considered it. This spirit has done this.
This spirit has revealed to me that he is only 2.5 Earth years old.
But also know, that demons born in Hell mature faster and differently then humans (obviously.) I understand Time moves differently in Hell.
It could be the case in many different realms.
Imagine, then, how an older spirit/being/ET can manipulate us.
I learned not to always listen immediately to my emotions, thoughts, or even intuition, but to reason with myself, rationalize, and to be logical.
COLD, HARD INTELLIGENCE won out over emotions and intuition every time. EVERY TIME.
This is how learned to overcome this harassment.
However, it was to my benefit: he would always tell me afterwards, in thoughts packages (which are not single words and sentences, like conversations, but all of that in one thought, sent to me, and I would understand immediately.) I believe that this Spirit was from Father, and whenever I learned the lesson I had to learn, the spirit would move onto something else, and so would it begin again.
Since I have dedicated myself to Father 3 weeks ago, my life has been more peaceful, calmer, and I have grown a great deal.
Since I have dedicated myself to Father, the attacks have stopped, but I am still tried and tested. Often. Daily.
Without him, I would not have learned what I learned.
These are things that can only come from experiences, and are not found in books.
Many people may not go through this with a demon/angel sent by Father. Or they may. You will never know.
The spirit in question is under the rule of Lord Enlil, and the spirit's father is directly under the rule of Lord Enlil.
Most times, when we are troubled and harassed psychically and spiritually, it will be xians, enemies of Father, and our own ego.
You know what helped me more then anything? My dedication to Father.
Because of free will, we have to ask for help before He and other Gods, Demons, and other helpful Beings can interfere for help.
This is often, but not always.
I asked for help from Father, that the truth may be shown to me, that I may stop being harassed and troubled so much.
What I learned is this demon only stopped harassing me when I learned the lesson that the demon was trying to impart, contemplated it, and figured out what I could do so I would not repeat the mistake.
Not every Demon will use this method of teaching you. Not everyone of you will be taught this by Demons, but by enemies of Father. Either way, you must KNOW yourself, your beliefs, and what you stand for.
Above all else, you must be strong in yourself and in Father.
I now know my bloodlines, my birthright, my heritage and inheritance.
I know my purposes here on this Earth. I have fulfilled one of them so far.
I know that I am made to fight in Father's army, both in this mortal guise, and when this mortal shell is no more, I know my place when I leave this world. As for my purpose after this Earth life, I know I will serve Father and fight in the battles to come.
I know that I belong to Father. I am His follower and childe.
Doing void meditation, clearing my chakras, bodies and aura, while also putting up a protective shield around me helped my as a neophyte in Satanism. (Or newbie. We all have to start somewhere.)
The lessons I have learned thus far, and have corrected (or in the process of correcting myself on:
1)spending money and being dependent on it for happiness;
2)overcoming unhealthy emotions like lust for others(I am married);
3)standing up for myself
4)to stop trying to conform to what society deems is acceptable;
5)using common sense;
6)to pursue the truth, and what will help me, instead of being discouraged at every little setback and obstacle;
7)overcoming drug addiction relaspe, and refusing to go back to it;
8)embracing what I am meant to be, instead of trying to be something else.
This sermon is long, but I hope I have been able to enlighten some facts and help you spiritually and mentally.
The demon asked me to put this sermon up.
I thank him, Father Satan, and Lord Enlil for teaching me these things.
Hail Father Enki! Hail Lord Enlil! Hail the True Gods!
