Re: "My Battle"

[spiritual.jedi]

I became a Satanist 5 years ago. After few weeks since i started i started to suffer. Enemies are constantly attacking me. I suffer every day for 5 years. Im fighting but it works slowly. I have a problem, where i cant control energies, so i put gray energy, or any other negative energy to myself, or to those who i love. I have more similar problems like this. I do void meditation every day, but it works slowly. Satan said: "Those who suffer for my sake i will surely reward in one of the worlds". I put this sentence in my mind, and i remember it every day. The biggest gift from Satan would be, that i reach Magnus opus in this life, and become a god. I hope Satan will reward me with this gift. If anyone has any advice, that would help me i will be happy.

Hail Satan/Lucifer!
Hail Leraje!
Hail Andras!

 

[ashleyslade0124]

I was always an unusual kid, especially for a girl. I didn't talk to people or make friends and I went through some very awkward stages growing up but it was worth it because it brought me into my psychic awareness and power.

The truth is I just don't have much of "conscience". I just went with my natural tendencies and here I am. My attitude my entire life always was, me and my people, right or wrong. I'm not saying that's what SS represents or advocating that as a message to recruit Whites, just that is how I felt.

I grew up with all the same anti White propaganda shoved in my face as everyone else "HOLOCO$T HOLOCO$T HOLOCO$T SLAVERY SLAVERY SLAVERY! WHITES ARE BAD! FEEL GUILTY!" But somehow it never worked on me, not that I never believed it, I used to believe it before coming here. I just didn't care. I still naturally cared about my race the most and hated being in a multi-racial environment as a young child and never cared if I was called "racist" or "bad". Thank the Gods.

I think it's because Cancer and the Moon are strong in my chart as is Pluto. I was born both innately tribal or "racist" and also psychic. I found the Joy of Satan ministries and it confirmed many things I had an intuitive sense of my entire life but wasn't sure about.

Before that I was Pagan and close to some of the Gods or Demons that are worshiped here also. Particularly Baal, Asherah and Nergal and also a God named Qos. I love them all and was also happy to welcome father Enki and Ninlil (Lilith) as Gods of mine when I dedicated.