This was the last message I sent in reply to an answer I got from one of admins of the site.
thank you for responding. I understand wicca can be turned into an used as a
"fun pass time" but I only got into it for relaxation and trying to calm my life
down. I can also understand how and why people turn it into an entertainment
source and abuse it. I've personally dealt with idiots and had so called witches
that were apparently peaceful attack and try to kill me and my loved one's. I
made it through it all. Not sure if I was protected or not but I've always been
able to sense the area around me and being's that are in it.
I'm not even a full fledged witch and I'm stuck at this point in my life right
now where I dont know how to continue and if I want to even continue in wicca.
After dealing with so many idiot's and being mislead by people I thought I could
trust, I just honestly don't know anymore. I wish to learn and get closer
spiritually and just unlock all ability's that are in my body and mind, and to
be honest after reading through the main website a bit it does scare me a bit,
but this is what I'm looking for. The fact it's satanism does bug me a bit. no
offense to anyone but let me explain why. It's because my whole family is
christian and they keep trying to convert me back. (not gonna happen) and as I
said in my first post I was christian for I guess half my lifetime. From birth
to I think when I was 10. The church and my family burned a fear into my head
that I just can't un-program yet.
I don't fear demon's at all, and I love demon's. I respect them and wish to grow
closer to them. I want to learn from them and better myself In anyway I can.
A few month's ago I was at an anime convention that happens every year where I
live and they had a tarot card reading's stand, So I have if I'm not mistaken a
10 card reading. The reading was done by a guy name Micheal Lovecraft. The
reading basically said I'm going to be going an a knowledge adventure, It's
going to make or break me, People I know that are close to me are in need of
money, and the last card that I got that really meant anything was the ace of
cup's. From what I've read on the website that is Astaroth's tarot card. So I
think that might mean something. Any idea's?
thank you for responding. I understand wicca can be turned into an used as a
"fun pass time" but I only got into it for relaxation and trying to calm my life
down. I can also understand how and why people turn it into an entertainment
source and abuse it. I've personally dealt with idiots and had so called witches
that were apparently peaceful attack and try to kill me and my loved one's. I
made it through it all. Not sure if I was protected or not but I've always been
able to sense the area around me and being's that are in it.
I'm not even a full fledged witch and I'm stuck at this point in my life right
now where I dont know how to continue and if I want to even continue in wicca.
After dealing with so many idiot's and being mislead by people I thought I could
trust, I just honestly don't know anymore. I wish to learn and get closer
spiritually and just unlock all ability's that are in my body and mind, and to
be honest after reading through the main website a bit it does scare me a bit,
but this is what I'm looking for. The fact it's satanism does bug me a bit. no
offense to anyone but let me explain why. It's because my whole family is
christian and they keep trying to convert me back. (not gonna happen) and as I
said in my first post I was christian for I guess half my lifetime. From birth
to I think when I was 10. The church and my family burned a fear into my head
that I just can't un-program yet.
I don't fear demon's at all, and I love demon's. I respect them and wish to grow
closer to them. I want to learn from them and better myself In anyway I can.
A few month's ago I was at an anime convention that happens every year where I
live and they had a tarot card reading's stand, So I have if I'm not mistaken a
10 card reading. The reading was done by a guy name Micheal Lovecraft. The
reading basically said I'm going to be going an a knowledge adventure, It's
going to make or break me, People I know that are close to me are in need of
money, and the last card that I got that really meant anything was the ace of
cup's. From what I've read on the website that is Astaroth's tarot card. So I
think that might mean something. Any idea's?
