PharaohRahorakhty
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Ok I been a long time member here. Many names.
So since I do my best to remain reasonably humble meaning not an arrogant know-it-all asshole. Not afraid to be wrong either.
So guys. I have an active mind, I get best results from rigorous activity like weight training or cardio. But something has happened to me. I lost motivation. It’s like I am in a tough living situation, and financially struggling. I do not get good results in meditation in doing just hatha yoga postures. I got to admit, I do not have much to do with hatha yoga except the practical physical uses when I am doing more rigorous training. I’m stubborn as hell. I prefer other means. Chanting and breath work.
I also the type who feels if I see two different systems being appropriated, it frustrates me because then it feels like a never ending study of both systems to understand why have both? I am prone to be indecisive and it’s partly to blame for my Venus in Gemini and north node in Gemini , I feel like a nut job sometimes.
So I been suffering horribly from a lack of motivation from doing anything, I am stuck where I live with a family steeped in Christianity and believe in Bible bullshit end times! And because of all the crap going on, it has been making it worse for myself. I love my family , my mom is the most vulnerable she is older and she’s not too bad when it comes to all of that. But still I’m the eldest and take care of her the most, no one else in my family isn’t helping at all. She also has an addictive personality she knows she has an issue with alcohol and has tried to break from it a lot. She always tells me she’s ready to go be with lord Jesus and says she’s not of this world. But that’s when she’s drinking I hear that shit and yes I get the urge to strangle her to snap out of it but of course that’s metaphorically speaking of my frustration. Anyway I’m left to deal with that shit.
I think I may need a realignment spiritual ritual to be protected while I’m trying to get out of this mess and working hard to get out of here and work on myself. I won’t lie it’s been hard for me because I been feeling horribly drained of energy.
I am asking for advice on something quick and simple I can do that pairs well with my style of thought control aka meditation.
So since I do my best to remain reasonably humble meaning not an arrogant know-it-all asshole. Not afraid to be wrong either.
So guys. I have an active mind, I get best results from rigorous activity like weight training or cardio. But something has happened to me. I lost motivation. It’s like I am in a tough living situation, and financially struggling. I do not get good results in meditation in doing just hatha yoga postures. I got to admit, I do not have much to do with hatha yoga except the practical physical uses when I am doing more rigorous training. I’m stubborn as hell. I prefer other means. Chanting and breath work.
I also the type who feels if I see two different systems being appropriated, it frustrates me because then it feels like a never ending study of both systems to understand why have both? I am prone to be indecisive and it’s partly to blame for my Venus in Gemini and north node in Gemini , I feel like a nut job sometimes.
So I been suffering horribly from a lack of motivation from doing anything, I am stuck where I live with a family steeped in Christianity and believe in Bible bullshit end times! And because of all the crap going on, it has been making it worse for myself. I love my family , my mom is the most vulnerable she is older and she’s not too bad when it comes to all of that. But still I’m the eldest and take care of her the most, no one else in my family isn’t helping at all. She also has an addictive personality she knows she has an issue with alcohol and has tried to break from it a lot. She always tells me she’s ready to go be with lord Jesus and says she’s not of this world. But that’s when she’s drinking I hear that shit and yes I get the urge to strangle her to snap out of it but of course that’s metaphorically speaking of my frustration. Anyway I’m left to deal with that shit.
I think I may need a realignment spiritual ritual to be protected while I’m trying to get out of this mess and working hard to get out of here and work on myself. I won’t lie it’s been hard for me because I been feeling horribly drained of energy.
I am asking for advice on something quick and simple I can do that pairs well with my style of thought control aka meditation.
