need help plZ(if posible then today??)

[xtreme_x99]

hi
i'm aman
i read the dedication ritual
i read a lot of stuff on site
nywyaZ
i wanted to ask is that am i ready?
OR
more appropriately that am i meant to be a satanist
help

THE INFO(if some is required)
from since i was a kid
i had liked the "dark side"(its what everyone calls it)
and had an affinity to demons, devils(not that i can see them or anything just a feeling for all the demons, devils and father satan too ---that i'm someway a part of this all)

and
maybe this will sound weird
i've always felt like i'm "possessed"(in luny words) rather
i'd actually felt that i myself is a devil(donno y or how?--)
i know i'm a human
but theirs a HUGE difference btw knowing and feeling something

alwayZ liked heavy/gohic muZic

since the day i started writing lyrics
its all like
"hell rizen"
"nightmare"
"god has fallen" ( the xian god)
nd more(some 11 lyrics--cause i've started around jus 6 months or so)

i know for a person my age(i might be in teens of satan group but my age is at the limit of this group 19)
all that i'm saying sounds weird

i am alwayz affinited to stuff like---supernatural powers, devils, hell(not the weird punishing place acc to xians---what i believe hell is--like a place where spirits of people live--spirits of those, who didn' walk on the "right" path and those who've lived life on their terms rather than someone else's without worrying about what people think)

ok
i guess i've written a lill too much

so
help me please!

 

[siguard666]

Dude, nobody will come to you and say 'yes, you are ready' or 'no, not yet'.

Have you read JoS?? If no, than do it, and if yes - do it again.
Hey, I also like the darkside of existence, yet Spiritual Satanism is more of light AND dark, not 'dark more than light'

It is the RHP followers that remain in the dark (double meaning), which is the lack of knowledge and the lack of its hunger.

HAIL SATAN!!

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "xtreme_x99" <xtreme_x99@... wrote:

hi
i'm aman
i read the dedication ritual
i read a lot of stuff on site
nywyaZ
i wanted to ask is that am i ready?
OR
more appropriately that am i meant to be a satanist
help

THE INFO(if some is required)
from since i was a kid
i had liked the "dark side"(its what everyone calls it)
and had an affinity to demons, devils(not that i can see them or anything just a feeling for all the demons, devils and father satan too ---that i'm someway a part of this all)

and
maybe this will sound weird
i've always felt like i'm "possessed"(in luny words) rather
i'd actually felt that i myself is a devil(donno y or how?--)
i know i'm a human
but theirs a HUGE difference btw knowing and feeling something

alwayZ liked heavy/gohic muZic

since the day i started writing lyrics
its all like
"hell rizen"
"nightmare"
"god has fallen" ( the xian god)
nd more(some 11 lyrics--cause i've started around jus 6 months or so)

i know for a person my age(i might be in teens of satan group but my age is at the limit of this group 19)
all that i'm saying sounds weird

i am alwayz affinited to stuff like---supernatural powers, devils, hell(not the weird punishing place acc to xians---what i believe hell is--like a place where spirits of people live--spirits of those, who didn' walk on the "right" path and those who've lived life on their terms rather than someone else's without worrying about what people think)

ok
i guess i've written a lill too much

so
help me please!

 

[xtreme_x99]

thanx a lot!

i believe i am ready!