Hello all...
I've been having some problems, of all kinds, one after another... and
they seem endless, when I think I figured out something, another thing
just pops up in my life to screw it up.
I know that I should try to speak with my GD and try to maintain a
good aura etc... but I just can't do that, even if I try eveyday,
failure is the only answer I get. I feel extremely blocked, this isn't
the first time this happens, it has happened much times before I
became a satanist... actually since I was a child, but after I
dedicated things just got a bit heavier (I know this is supposed to
happen with some people).
When I started to meditate, I was quickly getting stronger and
stronger, along with a friend of mine. She was more astrally opened
than me, so she talked with satan and her GDs earlier than me (I never
did), they helped us many times... I got my all my chakras blocked
once, it was angel's work, Satan helped us giving us the knowledge to
surpass this, he said the process to unblock my chakras would be
dangerous because we would be dealing with pure elemental energy, but
we did it, Satan was happy for us... and we moved on.
After some time, I lost contact with this friend of mine, which was
like my 24/7 support since I can't speak with any demon yet, and since
then things started to get worse. I stopped making progress, I usually
feel my energy really low, I lost most of the progress I have made.
There are sometimes I can feel like I had a really heavy thing making
me weak, there are sometimes bad thoughts just pop on my mind, really
bad thoughts, thoughts of things that would screw me even more. And
latelly, this all has became a major stream of bad luck, things simply
seem to never work.
The worst of all is that I know there are demons and past lives'
people willing to help me, but I just don't know how to reach them...
I've tried to figure things out by myself many times but now I'm here
trying to see if someone could give me some *hint* about what to do...
I feel totally lost.
Hail Satan.
I've been having some problems, of all kinds, one after another... and
they seem endless, when I think I figured out something, another thing
just pops up in my life to screw it up.
I know that I should try to speak with my GD and try to maintain a
good aura etc... but I just can't do that, even if I try eveyday,
failure is the only answer I get. I feel extremely blocked, this isn't
the first time this happens, it has happened much times before I
became a satanist... actually since I was a child, but after I
dedicated things just got a bit heavier (I know this is supposed to
happen with some people).
When I started to meditate, I was quickly getting stronger and
stronger, along with a friend of mine. She was more astrally opened
than me, so she talked with satan and her GDs earlier than me (I never
did), they helped us many times... I got my all my chakras blocked
once, it was angel's work, Satan helped us giving us the knowledge to
surpass this, he said the process to unblock my chakras would be
dangerous because we would be dealing with pure elemental energy, but
we did it, Satan was happy for us... and we moved on.
After some time, I lost contact with this friend of mine, which was
like my 24/7 support since I can't speak with any demon yet, and since
then things started to get worse. I stopped making progress, I usually
feel my energy really low, I lost most of the progress I have made.
There are sometimes I can feel like I had a really heavy thing making
me weak, there are sometimes bad thoughts just pop on my mind, really
bad thoughts, thoughts of things that would screw me even more. And
latelly, this all has became a major stream of bad luck, things simply
seem to never work.
The worst of all is that I know there are demons and past lives'
people willing to help me, but I just don't know how to reach them...
I've tried to figure things out by myself many times but now I'm here
trying to see if someone could give me some *hint* about what to do...
I feel totally lost.
Hail Satan.