Dearest brothers and sisters, I have a question burning on my mind...
In the beginning of my satanic path, I once called upon Lady Isis. I asked her this ''Please grant me valuable knowledge and wisdom''. Shortly after that, a voice told me ''look up chaos magick''. So I looked it up, read all about it, and I learned much. This, I believe, was inspiration brought to me by Lady Isis.
But the point being here is, in Chaos magick it is taught that you must be able to throw off all belief systems at will. That belief is just a tool of the mind, and that it should be used at will. After many days of practising incorporating this in daily life and after many meditations with this principle in mind, I realised something...
Everything we deem good or evil is only in the eye of the beholder. I know, it's an old axiom that has been repeated for the last thousands of years, but it's different to hear and know it then to understand and realise it. Before this realisation, I was a steadfast socialist. For example; I believed people should be helped at old age because the society has built on them in their days. After this realisation I figured that they were no longer of use to society and no one owed them anything personally. If we deem it necessary to keep an old man alive, we should do him a visit every now and then and do his groceries ourselves! This was just an example. But here's where it gets stranger. I also gained the ability to believe different( and opposite) things at the same time!
This sounds extremely strange, but I realised that if good is evil in one eye, and evil good in the other.. I will always do both good and evil, no matter which action I take. So whatever I believe is right and wrong at the same time. This depends on what you believe in a deeper mindset than concious belief.
When I realised that, I started controlling my subconscious belief systems. And when I removed ALL previous beliefs and morals from my subconsciousness, to the people who hold morals over logic I now seemed a morally oblivious madman who would kill his own mother for his own gains, but to the people who saw logic over morals(my teachers) a philosopher like they had not seen of my age ever before ( I'm 16). My current mindset allows me to look at a picture of a crucified kitten without horror or disgust, while only having a cold disaprovement. The morals I hold now are completely of my own choosing, and I can assure you that is a freedom like no other. To be no product of your ancestors no more, but a product of your own experience. To create thyself is the feat of gods!
Now, that is my current situation and the history of my mental state. In the while since that first summoning I have made progress and some Daemon friends have contacted me, but I would like to know if anyone else has experienced a distancing of sorts to mundane morals, like losing any previous bonds to the extreme.
And if it seems I am the only lunatic who has had this happen to himself, I would like to hear your opinions on this fenomenon.
Great thanks to all my brothers and sisters who have taken the time to read through this volume of uninteresting rubbish that is my psychotic mind.
Regards,
Adam Alkemis(self proclaimed name)
In nominei dei nostri Satanas, Luciferi excelci!
Ave Lucifer!
Ave Astaroth!
Ave Leraje!
Ave Haures!
Ave Focalor!
Ave all ye fledglings whom walk beneath the wings of the shining one!
In the beginning of my satanic path, I once called upon Lady Isis. I asked her this ''Please grant me valuable knowledge and wisdom''. Shortly after that, a voice told me ''look up chaos magick''. So I looked it up, read all about it, and I learned much. This, I believe, was inspiration brought to me by Lady Isis.
But the point being here is, in Chaos magick it is taught that you must be able to throw off all belief systems at will. That belief is just a tool of the mind, and that it should be used at will. After many days of practising incorporating this in daily life and after many meditations with this principle in mind, I realised something...
Everything we deem good or evil is only in the eye of the beholder. I know, it's an old axiom that has been repeated for the last thousands of years, but it's different to hear and know it then to understand and realise it. Before this realisation, I was a steadfast socialist. For example; I believed people should be helped at old age because the society has built on them in their days. After this realisation I figured that they were no longer of use to society and no one owed them anything personally. If we deem it necessary to keep an old man alive, we should do him a visit every now and then and do his groceries ourselves! This was just an example. But here's where it gets stranger. I also gained the ability to believe different( and opposite) things at the same time!
This sounds extremely strange, but I realised that if good is evil in one eye, and evil good in the other.. I will always do both good and evil, no matter which action I take. So whatever I believe is right and wrong at the same time. This depends on what you believe in a deeper mindset than concious belief.
When I realised that, I started controlling my subconscious belief systems. And when I removed ALL previous beliefs and morals from my subconsciousness, to the people who hold morals over logic I now seemed a morally oblivious madman who would kill his own mother for his own gains, but to the people who saw logic over morals(my teachers) a philosopher like they had not seen of my age ever before ( I'm 16). My current mindset allows me to look at a picture of a crucified kitten without horror or disgust, while only having a cold disaprovement. The morals I hold now are completely of my own choosing, and I can assure you that is a freedom like no other. To be no product of your ancestors no more, but a product of your own experience. To create thyself is the feat of gods!
Now, that is my current situation and the history of my mental state. In the while since that first summoning I have made progress and some Daemon friends have contacted me, but I would like to know if anyone else has experienced a distancing of sorts to mundane morals, like losing any previous bonds to the extreme.
And if it seems I am the only lunatic who has had this happen to himself, I would like to hear your opinions on this fenomenon.
Great thanks to all my brothers and sisters who have taken the time to read through this volume of uninteresting rubbish that is my psychotic mind.
Regards,
Adam Alkemis(self proclaimed name)
In nominei dei nostri Satanas, Luciferi excelci!
Ave Lucifer!
Ave Astaroth!
Ave Leraje!
Ave Haures!
Ave Focalor!
Ave all ye fledglings whom walk beneath the wings of the shining one!
They would thus become as Gods, for they, my Sisters and Brothers would BECOME THEM SELVES.
