In desperate need of some help

[kat6661990]

Ok, well here's the story. Over the last few months, things have really started to go downhill for me. My bf cheated on me, dumped me then sent me away to live with my parents again. Since then, I haven't really been able to call anywhere my home. My parents live apart so that means that they can just kick me out to live with my other parent whenever they want. I don't even have my own room and everything I own can be packed up into two bags. Dad's side of the family are extreme xtians. And mum blames me for her marriage problems with my step dad who is the most racist, homophobic, self centered person I know. I feel like letting them know about me being a satanist would only cause more problems for me right now, so I've been unable to practice any sort of meditations, rituals, just anything at all. Right now, I have very poor concentration skills, so an astral temple is out of the question. I can't move out until I find a job which I've been trying so hard to do. Every day, I feel more depressed and a few times I've made plans to kill myself, but changed my mind. I don't have any friends or anyone I can talk to. I talk to Satan as I'm going to bed and I do breathing exercises when I can. I thank him for getting me this far and ask for his help. All I can do right now is hope that that's enough and that he hears me. I try my hardest, but I'm slowly going downhill. Is there anything I can do to help myself out of this. Is there anyway I can make myself stronger even though I can't do meditations or anything?

 

[krazymuthauka]

I'm very sorry to hear about your situation.
I think that what you're going through is a test.
Never let ANYTHING get in the way of your practices no matter what crazy things you have to do to hide your Satanic ways seriously.
Make up some crazy religion and say you're that.
You can always meditate. Like my Ma always said, "As long as you got 3 fingers and one arm you can always make $5." Get it? Be creative wake up take a shower while no one's awake and take a 15 minute fake shower and meditate. Anything meditate, meditate, meditate. If you meditate do yoga/ tai chi and breathing exercises and keep a clean lucid mind you eventually won't need to do rituals. Plus rituals can consist of anything.
You never need to light a candle all you need is you mind body and soul.

As for telling your mom idk...you have to test her. Talk about Satanism. Tell her you think a celebrity is or ask her something about the afterlife and weigh it. If you don't know about her religious beliefs chances are it won't be a good reaction and if they talk at all she's probably tell your dad so yeh...


Depression? read about the Laws of attraction. If you want to be happy think happy straight up and down do some affirmations. Think about this the more depressed you are the further you are from being anything you want to be. Nothing can happen without your permission, basically. The longer you stay depressed the longer it will take you to be what you want to be. You're feeding your depression you're going to eventually be use to being depressed and it will feel like an addiction. You're feeding the enemy too. Just remember there's an asshole floating around you that loves seeing you miserable that cannot live unless you feel suicidal.

Also if you kill yourself next life you'll eventually be in the same situation.


I've said just about it all
Really hope all is better and soon

Hail Satan!

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "kat6661990" <kaitjordan@... wrote:

Ok, well here's the story. Over the last few months, things have really started to go downhill for me. My bf cheated on me, dumped me then sent me away to live with my parents again. Since then, I haven't really been able to call anywhere my home. My parents live apart so that means that they can just kick me out to live with my other parent whenever they want. I don't even have my own room and everything I own can be packed up into two bags. Dad's side of the family are extreme xtians. And mum blames me for her marriage problems with my step dad who is the most racist, homophobic, self centered person I know. I feel like letting them know about me being a satanist would only cause more problems for me right now, so I've been unable to practice any sort of meditations, rituals, just anything at all. Right now, I have very poor concentration skills, so an astral temple is out of the question. I can't move out until I find a job which I've been trying so hard to do. Every day, I feel more depressed and a few times I've made plans to kill myself, but changed my mind. I don't have any friends or anyone I can talk to. I talk to Satan as I'm going to bed and I do breathing exercises when I can. I thank him for getting me this far and ask for his help. All I can do right now is hope that that's enough and that he hears me. I try my hardest, but I'm slowly going downhill. Is there anything I can do to help myself out of this. Is there anyway I can make myself stronger even though I can't do meditations or anything?

 

[Paul Pseudonym]

Make privacy. Before or after you take a shower take 5 mins and do simple energy breathing and chakra spinning. If you take baths you can do longer meditation times.

Affirm positive things consistantly.

Don't take your life. Talk to someone.

Hail Satan!

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From: kat6661990 <kaitjordan@...
To: <[url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url]
Date: Tuesday, October 18, 2011 4:51:22 PM GMT-0000
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] In desperate need of some help

Ok, well here's the story. Over the last few months, things have really started to go downhill for me. My bf cheated on me, dumped me then sent me away to live with my parents again. Since then, I haven't really been able to call anywhere my home. My parents live apart so that means that they can just kick me out to live with my other parent whenever they want. I don't even have my own room and everything I own can be packed up into two bags. Dad's side of the family are extreme xtians. And mum blames me for her marriage problems with my step dad who is the most racist, homophobic, self centered person I know. I feel like letting them know about me being a satanist would only cause more problems for me right now, so I've been unable to practice any sort of meditations, rituals, just anything at all. Right now, I have very poor concentration skills, so an astral temple is out of the question. I can't move out until I find a job which I've been trying so hard to do. Every day, I feel more depressed and a few times I've made plans to kill myself, but changed my mind. I don't have any friends or anyone I can talk to. I talk to Satan as I'm going to bed and I do breathing exercises when I can. I thank him for getting me this far and ask for his help. All I can do right now is hope that that's enough and that he hears me. I try my hardest, but I'm slowly going downhill. Is there anything I can do to help myself out of this. Is there anyway I can make myself stronger even though I can't do meditations or anything?

 

[Chinthaka Hew]

H[/IMG]kat6661990,


never give up !!!! and do not even think to kill your self...... I'm not good in giving advices and I'm a very new to SS. BUT if you are a true SS our farther is there with his demons to help us, protect us ... just keep the faith and continue your breathing exercises specialy power meditations so that you can have a strong aura and increased energy.... and you may try the affirmations to attract money just go through the JOS .
 
Hail Satan!!!!

On Tue, Oct 18, 2011 at 10:21 PM, kat6661990 <kaitjordan@... wrote:

  Ok, well here's the story. Over the last few months, things have really started to go downhill for me. My bf cheated on me, dumped me then sent me away to live with my parents again. Since then, I haven't really been able to call anywhere my home. My parents live apart so that means that they can just kick me out to live with my other parent whenever they want. I don't even have my own room and everything I own can be packed up into two bags. Dad's side of the family are extreme xtians. And mum blames me for her marriage problems with my step dad who is the most racist, homophobic, self centered person I know. I feel like letting them know about me being a satanist would only cause more problems for me right now, so I've been unable to practice any sort of meditations, rituals, just anything at all. Right now, I have very poor concentration skills, so an astral temple is out of the question. I can't move out until I find a job which I've been trying so hard to do. Every day, I feel more depressed and a few times I've made plans to kill myself, but changed my mind. I don't have any friends or anyone I can talk to. I talk to Satan as I'm going to bed and I do breathing exercises when I can. I thank him for getting me this far and ask for his help. All I can do right now is hope that that's enough and that he hears me. I try my hardest, but I'm slowly going downhill. Is there anything I can do to help myself out of this. Is there anyway I can make myself stronger even though I can't do meditations or anything?

--
Thanks & Regards
Chinthy

 

[Nicholas Gorton]

Keep at the meditations and keep on trucking. It is always darkest before the dawn. Once you are old enough you can just find your own place and leave those uncaring jerks
alone.

 

[hoodedcobra666]

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "kat6661990" <kaitjordan@... wrote:

Ok, well here's the story. Over the last few months, things have really started to go downhill for me. My bf cheated on me, dumped me then sent me away to live with my parents again. Since then, I haven't really been able to call anywhere my home. My parents live apart so that means that they can just kick me out to live with my other parent whenever they want. I don't even have my own room and everything I own can be packed up into two bags. Dad's side of the family are extreme xtians. And mum blames me for her marriage problems with my step dad who is the most racist, homophobic, self centered person I know. I feel like letting them know about me being a satanist would only cause more problems for me right now, so I've been unable to practice any sort of meditations, rituals, just anything at all. Right now, I have very poor concentration skills, so an astral temple is out of the question. I can't move out until I find a job which I've been trying so hard to do. Every day, I feel more depressed and a few times I've made plans to kill myself, but changed my mind. I don't have any friends or anyone I can talk to. I talk to Satan as I'm going to bed and I do breathing exercises when I can. I thank him for getting me this far and ask for his help. All I can do right now is hope that that's enough and that he hears me. I try my hardest, but I'm slowly going downhill. Is there anything I can do to help myself out of this. Is there anyway I can make myself stronger even though I can't do meditations or anything?

You can meditate somewhere if you can sleep somewhere. Just do simple aura and do like 60 breaths of energy into your body. Don't suicide. I had worse shit happen to me, very similiar situations and getting my life ruined by similiar crap. All you need is yourself and I talk from experiance here. Satan hears all of His children. Never give up. I see similiar circumstances like mine here and I have suffered too to the point of wanting to take my life etc. Never did it and never neglected not doing it. Enemy pushes stuff to make things worse and if Satan has plans for you, the enemy will appear and try to tear you down in all forms. Just contain yourself. Take 30 minutes before you sleep or less and meditate. Keeping a straight mind is all you need to do. Keep a close-up plan to fix these things and use your powers. If Satan's responses are not immidiate, most of the time its not neglect but rather that you can sort it in your own. Trusting yourself is trusting Satan because we are all Satan's children. Have faith in yourself and remember that outside words, phrases, bullshit erupting or anything doesn't tell you who you are. If you are alive, all you need to be happy is meditation and the knowledge Satan gave to us. Stay strong mein bruther.

HAIL SATAN!!!

 

[Kaitllin Jordan]

Just got onto my computer and read everyone's replys. It made me smile a bit, thanks for the help. It's good to know that people care, even if they are total strangers. The last thing I ever wanted to do is kill myself. I've seen how good life can be sometimes and I'm going to try my best to get back on top. Even if no one else will help me, it's nice to know that I have a supportive family that I can go to for all the times where I am unable to help myself. Even if I can't hear Father Satan, I know he listens and he gives me the strength to help myself out of this. 

 

[dragonmage777]

Sorry to hear about your troubles. Like the other replys have said it sounds like a test. I am going thur some family stuff just now. The whole family has been split in two. Please don't tell your family your are a Satanist. Satan knows and he is the only other 'person' that matters. As far as your poor concentration skills go. I have been meditating since i was 15, i am 52 now. I only came to father a few month's ago. The Void meditation on the JOS site ( also known as 'Mindless meditation') is the most powerful form of meditation known. Some people try too hard, the trick to try another way. Think of the empty space above your head. There is nothing there. Don't try to analize or judge or expect. Just think of the space. Ever time a thought comes to your mind just ignore it and go back to the empty space above your head. When a thought comes to your mind don't react or interact, that just creates MORE thought. Just go back to the empty space. You will quickly feal gently warm, and them very comfortable. If you can keep it going several things will happen. You WILL hear your body snore. This means you Mind is Awake and you Body is Asleep. Ignore the snoring (its a thought) and go back to the empty space. Next you might be able to see the room thru your closed eyes. IGNORE THIS IT IS A 'THOUGHT'. If you have got this far(easier that it sounds) Your body is an a VERY deep sleep, your mind is fully awake and aware, the snoring has stopped, and you can experience 'STEP OUT ASTRAL PROJECTION' you actually just step out of your physical body. Remember to call to father and your GD before doing this. Also you need to know 'WHAT YOU WISH IN THE ASTRAL COMES TRUE IN THE PHYSICAL'. Happy traveling. Meditation realy is the key to it all. Dont give up and let me know how you get on. Dragonmage777

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "hoodedcobra666" <hoodedcobra666@... wrote:



--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "kat6661990" <kaitjordan@ wrote:

Ok, well here's the story. Over the last few months, things have really started to go downhill for me. My bf cheated on me, dumped me then sent me away to live with my parents again. Since then, I haven't really been able to call anywhere my home. My parents live apart so that means that they can just kick me out to live with my other parent whenever they want. I don't even have my own room and everything I own can be packed up into two bags. Dad's side of the family are extreme xtians. And mum blames me for her marriage problems with my step dad who is the most racist, homophobic, self centered person I know. I feel like letting them know about me being a satanist would only cause more problems for me right now, so I've been unable to practice any sort of meditations, rituals, just anything at all. Right now, I have very poor concentration skills, so an astral temple is out of the question. I can't move out until I find a job which I've been trying so hard to do. Every day, I feel more depressed and a few times I've made plans to kill myself, but changed my mind. I don't have any friends or anyone I can talk to. I talk to Satan as I'm going to bed and I do breathing exercises when I can. I thank him for getting me this far and ask for his help. All I can do right now is hope that that's enough and that he hears me. I try my hardest, but I'm slowly going downhill. Is there anything I can do to help myself out of this. Is there anyway I can make myself stronger even though I can't do meditations or anything?

You can meditate somewhere if you can sleep somewhere. Just do simple aura and do like 60 breaths of energy into your body. Don't suicide. I had worse shit happen to me, very similiar situations and getting my life ruined by similiar crap. All you need is yourself and I talk from experiance here. Satan hears all of His children. Never give up. I see similiar circumstances like mine here and I have suffered too to the point of wanting to take my life etc. Never did it and never neglected not doing it. Enemy pushes stuff to make things worse and if Satan has plans for you, the enemy will appear and try to tear you down in all forms. Just contain yourself. Take 30 minutes before you sleep or less and meditate. Keeping a straight mind is all you need to do. Keep a close-up plan to fix these things and use your powers. If Satan's responses are not immidiate, most of the time its not neglect but rather that you can sort it in your own. Trusting yourself is trusting Satan because we are all Satan's children. Have faith in yourself and remember that outside words, phrases, bullshit erupting or anything doesn't tell you who you are. If you are alive, all you need to be happy is meditation and the knowledge Satan gave to us. Stay strong mein bruther.

HAIL SATAN!!!

 

[Kaitllin Jordan]

Hey, thanks for the advice. I'll have to try that. Sounds like something I might be able to do. Only one problem I can think of. I've been a Satanist for a few years now and I still have no idea who my GD is. Is there any way I can figure this out?

On Thu, Oct 20, 2011 at 1:35 AM, dragonmage777 <dragonmage777@... wrote:

 

Sorry to hear about your troubles. Like the other replys have said it sounds like a test. I am going thur some family stuff just now. The whole family has been split in two. Please don't tell your family your are a Satanist. Satan knows and he is the only other 'person' that matters. As far as your poor concentration skills go. I have been meditating since i was 15, i am 52 now. I only came to father a few month's ago. The Void meditation on the JOS site ( also known as 'Mindless meditation') is the most powerful form of meditation known. Some people try too hard, the trick to try another way. Think of the empty space above your head. There is nothing there. Don't try to analize or judge or expect. Just think of the space. Ever time a thought comes to your mind just ignore it and go back to the empty space above your head. When a thought comes to your mind don't react or interact, that just creates MORE thought. Just go back to the empty space. You will quickly feal gently warm, and them very comfortable. If you can keep it going several things will happen. You WILL hear your body snore. This means you Mind is Awake and you Body is Asleep. Ignore the snoring (its a thought) and go back to the empty space. Next you might be able to see the room thru your closed eyes. IGNORE THIS IT IS A 'THOUGHT'. If you have got this far(easier that it sounds) Your body is an a VERY deep sleep, your mind is fully awake and aware, the snoring has stopped, and you can experience 'STEP OUT ASTRAL PROJECTION' you actually just step out of your physical body. Remember to call to father and your GD before doing this. Also you need to know 'WHAT YOU WISH IN THE ASTRAL COMES TRUE IN THE PHYSICAL'. Happy traveling. Meditation realy is the key to it all. Dont give up and let me know how you get on. Dragonmage777
--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "hoodedcobra666" <hoodedcobra666@... wrote:



--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "kat6661990" <kaitjordan@ wrote:

Ok, well here's the story. Over the last few months, things have really started to go downhill for me. My bf cheated on me, dumped me then sent me away to live with my parents again. Since then, I haven't really been able to call anywhere my home. My parents live apart so that means that they can just kick me out to live with my other parent whenever they want. I don't even have my own room and everything I own can be packed up into two bags. Dad's side of the family are extreme xtians. And mum blames me for her marriage problems with my step dad who is the most racist, homophobic, self centered person I know. I feel like letting them know about me being a satanist would only cause more problems for me right now, so I've been unable to practice any sort of meditations, rituals, just anything at all. Right now, I have very poor concentration skills, so an astral temple is out of the question. I can't move out until I find a job which I've been trying so hard to do. Every day, I feel more depressed and a few times I've made plans to kill myself, but changed my mind. I don't have any friends or anyone I can talk to. I talk to Satan as I'm going to bed and I do breathing exercises when I can. I thank him for getting me this far and ask for his help. All I can do right now is hope that that's enough and that he hears me. I try my hardest, but I'm slowly going downhill. Is there anything I can do to help myself out of this. Is there anyway I can make myself stronger even though I can't do meditations or anything?

You can meditate somewhere if you can sleep somewhere. Just do simple aura and do like 60 breaths of energy into your body. Don't suicide. I had worse shit happen to me, very similiar situations and getting my life ruined by similiar crap. All you need is yourself and I talk from experiance here. Satan hears all of His children. Never give up. I see similiar circumstances like mine here and I have suffered too to the point of wanting to take my life etc. Never did it and never neglected not doing it. Enemy pushes stuff to make things worse and if Satan has plans for you, the enemy will appear and try to tear you down in all forms. Just contain yourself. Take 30 minutes before you sleep or less and meditate. Keeping a straight mind is all you need to do. Keep a close-up plan to fix these things and use your powers. If Satan's responses are not immidiate, most of the time its not neglect but rather that you can sort it in your own. Trusting yourself is trusting Satan because we are all Satan's children. Have faith in yourself and remember that outside words, phrases, bullshit erupting or anything doesn't tell you who you are. If you are alive, all you need to be happy is meditation and the knowledge Satan gave to us. Stay strong mein bruther.

HAIL SATAN!!!

 

[Nessa]

Its sucks sorry to hear you going through it... Your not alone Father wont leave you or unprotected... Just a chain of events and the enemys hands r in it... Stay strong been there and sad to say still in it most of it cuz my stupidity... But I am slowly getting stronger and wit Fathers help will soon b out... I had to learn patience so I learned the hard way... Father loves us all... Be strong dont let get you down to bad...

Hail SATAN

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "kat6661990" <kaitjordan@... wrote:

Ok, well here's the story. Over the last few months, things have really started to go downhill for me. My bf cheated on me, dumped me then sent me away to live with my parents again. Since then, I haven't really been able to call anywhere my home. My parents live apart so that means that they can just kick me out to live with my other parent whenever they want. I don't even have my own room and everything I own can be packed up into two bags. Dad's side of the family are extreme xtians. And mum blames me for her marriage problems with my step dad who is the most racist, homophobic, self centered person I know. I feel like letting them know about me being a satanist would only cause more problems for me right now, so I've been unable to practice any sort of meditations, rituals, just anything at all. Right now, I have very poor concentration skills, so an astral temple is out of the question. I can't move out until I find a job which I've been trying so hard to do. Every day, I feel more depressed and a few times I've made plans to kill myself, but changed my mind. I don't have any friends or anyone I can talk to. I talk to Satan as I'm going to bed and I do breathing exercises when I can. I thank him for getting me this far and ask for his help. All I can do right now is hope that that's enough and that he hears me. I try my hardest, but I'm slowly going downhill. Is there anything I can do to help myself out of this. Is there anyway I can make myself stronger even though I can't do meditations or anything?

 

[Allison P]

I'm sorry you're having these problems, Sister. Don't worry so much
about your GD; if you want to try the void meditation/astral
projection thing, just call on Satan beforehand to protect you. Your
main focus now I think, should be getting yourself out of your bad
situation. Remember, even if you only do aura of protection, or
breathing exercises for five minutes every day, that's better than not
meditating at all. Just do something! Father and the other Gods are
very busy at the moment with the war, but he does hear you and he
cares about you. Things will get better soon, I'm sure. We all go
through rough times. Just part of being human. Lol. Hang in there!
Trust Father Satan, and trust yourself. Hail Father Satan!

On 10/19/11, Nessa <kenessa@... wrote:

Its sucks sorry to hear you going through it... Your not alone Father wont
leave you or unprotected... Just a chain of events and the enemys hands r in
it... Stay strong been there and sad to say still in it most of it cuz my
stupidity... But I am slowly getting stronger and wit Fathers help will soon
b out... I had to learn patience so I learned the hard way... Father loves
us all... Be strong dont let get you down to bad...

Hail SATAN



--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "kat6661990" <kaitjordan@... wrote:

Ok, well here's the story. Over the last few months, things have really
started to go downhill for me. My bf cheated on me, dumped me then sent me
away to live with my parents again. Since then, I haven't really been able
to call anywhere my home. My parents live apart so that means that they
can just kick me out to live with my other parent whenever they want. I
don't even have my own room and everything I own can be packed up into two
bags. Dad's side of the family are extreme xtians. And mum blames me for
her marriage problems with my step dad who is the most racist, homophobic,
self centered person I know. I feel like letting them know about me being
a satanist would only cause more problems for me right now, so I've been
unable to practice any sort of meditations, rituals, just anything at all.
Right now, I have very poor concentration skills, so an astral temple is
out of the question. I can't move out until I find a job which I've been
trying so hard to do. Every day, I feel more depressed and a few times
I've made plans to kill myself, but changed my mind. I don't have any
friends or anyone I can talk to. I talk to Satan as I'm going to bed and I
do breathing exercises when I can. I thank him for getting me this far and
ask for his help. All I can do right now is hope that that's enough and
that he hears me. I try my hardest, but I'm slowly going downhill. Is
there anything I can do to help myself out of this. Is there anyway I can
make myself stronger even though I can't do meditations or anything?

 

[dragonmage777]

the fear and doubts you feal will act as a barrier to contact with father and you GD. I have had several visitations. Seen infront of me in the real world. But i still am not sure of my own GD's name. Just trust he or she IS there waiting to help you. I know we are supposed to be self sufficient and self empowered thur meditations, but there are times when we NEED a Guardian Demon to show us that one step that will take us to a new path. Your GD and father know better than you what you are going thur, they can see all the paths to and from your troubles. Just try the Mindless (void) meditation, before you go under just talk in you mind. As one friend to another and aks for help. No need to go into details. Just ask for a visitation or guidence. Good luck. Regards Dragonmage777

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], Kaitllin Jordan <kaitjordan@... wrote:

Hey, thanks for the advice. I'll have to try that. Sounds like something I
might be able to do. Only one problem I can think of. I've been
a Satanist for a few years now and I still have no idea who my GD is. Is
there any way I can figure this out?

On Thu, Oct 20, 2011 at 1:35 AM, dragonmage777 <[email protected]:

**




Sorry to hear about your troubles. Like the other replys have said it
sounds like a test. I am going thur some family stuff just now. The whole
family has been split in two. Please don't tell your family your are a
Satanist. Satan knows and he is the only other 'person' that matters. As far
as your poor concentration skills go. I have been meditating since i was 15,
i am 52 now. I only came to father a few month's ago. The Void meditation on
the JOS site ( also known as 'Mindless meditation') is the most powerful
form of meditation known. Some people try too hard, the trick to try another
way. Think of the empty space above your head. There is nothing there. Don't
try to analize or judge or expect. Just think of the space. Ever time a
thought comes to your mind just ignore it and go back to the empty space
above your head. When a thought comes to your mind don't react or interact,
that just creates MORE thought. Just go back to the empty space. You will
quickly feal gently warm, and them very comfortable. If you can keep it
going several things will happen. You WILL hear your body snore. This means
you Mind is Awake and you Body is Asleep. Ignore the snoring (its a thought)
and go back to the empty space. Next you might be able to see the room thru
your closed eyes. IGNORE THIS IT IS A 'THOUGHT'. If you have got this
far(easier that it sounds) Your body is an a VERY deep sleep, your mind is
fully awake and aware, the snoring has stopped, and you can experience 'STEP
OUT ASTRAL PROJECTION' you actually just step out of your physical body.
Remember to call to father and your GD before doing this. Also you need to
know 'WHAT YOU WISH IN THE ASTRAL COMES TRUE IN THE PHYSICAL'. Happy
traveling. Meditation realy is the key to it all. Dont give up and let me
know how you get on. Dragonmage777
--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "hoodedcobra666" <hoodedcobra666@
wrote:




--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "kat6661990" <kaitjordan@ wrote:

Ok, well here's the story. Over the last few months, things have really
started to go downhill for me. My bf cheated on me, dumped me then sent me
away to live with my parents again. Since then, I haven't really been able
to call anywhere my home. My parents live apart so that means that they can
just kick me out to live with my other parent whenever they want. I don't
even have my own room and everything I own can be packed up into two bags.
Dad's side of the family are extreme xtians. And mum blames me for her
marriage problems with my step dad who is the most racist, homophobic, self
centered person I know. I feel like letting them know about me being a
satanist would only cause more problems for me right now, so I've been
unable to practice any sort of meditations, rituals, just anything at all.
Right now, I have very poor concentration skills, so an astral temple is out
of the question. I can't move out until I find a job which I've been trying
so hard to do. Every day, I feel more depressed and a few times I've made
plans to kill myself, but changed my mind. I don't have any friends or
anyone I can talk to. I talk to Satan as I'm going to bed and I do breathing
exercises when I can. I thank him for getting me this far and ask for his
help. All I can do right now is hope that that's enough and that he hears
me. I try my hardest, but I'm slowly going downhill. Is there anything I can
do to help myself out of this. Is there anyway I can make myself stronger
even though I can't do meditations or anything?

You can meditate somewhere if you can sleep somewhere. Just do simple
aura and do like 60 breaths of energy into your body. Don't suicide. I had
worse shit happen to me, very similiar situations and getting my life ruined
by similiar crap. All you need is yourself and I talk from experiance here.
Satan hears all of His children. Never give up. I see similiar circumstances
like mine here and I have suffered too to the point of wanting to take my
life etc. Never did it and never neglected not doing it. Enemy pushes stuff
to make things worse and if Satan has plans for you, the enemy will appear
and try to tear you down in all forms. Just contain yourself. Take 30
minutes before you sleep or less and meditate. Keeping a straight mind is
all you need to do. Keep a close-up plan to fix these things and use your
powers. If Satan's responses are not immidiate, most of the time its not
neglect but rather that you can sort it in your own. Trusting yourself is
trusting Satan because we are all Satan's children. Have faith in yourself
and remember that outside words, phrases, bullshit erupting or anything
doesn't tell you who you are. If you are alive, all you need to be happy is
meditation and the knowledge Satan gave to us. Stay strong mein bruther.

HAIL SATAN!!!