I'm in a strange place

[nema]

This is not a vent, nor am i complaining; i mostly see my life as an experiment on myself and I don't really care that much about anything else. I always had a self esteem problem, i always felt like i didn't do enough in life. And I was right! But after years and years of spiritual warfare and silent pain, after Israel is finally being bombed and hated by the whole planet (and this is just the beginning for them), i find myself on the highest Throne of humanity. I'm getting Revenge on the greatest force the planet has ever met, i'm a literal legend, i made history, and I will go on cursing* every jew i can until i live. Wich is great, i can die happy. The "problem" is, i don't give a flying f**k about anything else. No woman is too hot for me, no amount of money can top what i feel for myself; humans are just monkeys and i feel dumber just by being in the same room as them. Modern life just feel like a boring drag, compared to what I'm doing . I'm in a surreal place when everything is perfect and meaningless at the same time. I just felt like sharing that. Sorry for my english!